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Deamtime: The New Moon in Pisces

2012-02-21T17:58:00.004-08:00

Tue, 02/21/2012 - 10:43 am PST by Jeff Jawer

Tuesday's New Moon in Pisces at 2:35 p.m. (PST) is a magical event in the way all New Moons are. But it's even more magical because it's in Pisces, the sign of metaphysical mastery. This 12th and final sign ends the cycle of the zodiac where all the walls of separation melt away and we become one again. This is a space of divinity where we meet beyond the boundaries of our egos and remember ourselves as souls.

The New Moon starts a monthly cycle, which is a time to plant seeds. A new idea, habit or goal started then can take root and blossom if placed with purpose and nourished with care. We plant dreams at the New Moon in Pisces and this is an especially powerful time for them to grow. Neptune, the Fish's modern ruling planet, is conjunct the New Moon in Pisces for the first time in over 160 years. Divine Neptune, the veil of illusion, the drug of dreams and the soother of souls, is blessing us with its presence at this sublime event. Neptune naturally serves Pisces' purpose to wash away wounds, cleanse us of our sins and restore our innocence.

We may be entering a new dreamtime when new dreams are needed because the old ones don't work. Economic and environmental uncertainties await solutions that aren't even on the table. We lack collective imagination and can't expect entrenched institutions to change the rules of a game that's working for them. That's why it's up to us -- to you and me -- to dream, imagine and allow our minds to wander far beyond the borders of conventional thought.

This New Moon in Pisces could mark a shift in collective consciousness. It's not necessarily dramatic and it may not reveal its effects for months or years, yet we are experiencing a velvet revolution of the mind that dissolves walls of doubt and denial. You may soon find that your locked doors of old thinking are no longer closed. When these barriers fall away more connections are made, expanding cerebral bandwidth and making us much smarter.

Fantasizing about the future joins with and amplifies the waves of human creativity we need right now. Letting your imagination loose to think about your home, your clothes or your life purpose serve the same purpose. They open windows in the mind that help us visualize a better future and free the heart with joy and courage to create it.

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Online Journal= February 16-29, 2012 via @Peta_de_Aztlan

2012-02-18T10:00:00.001-08:00

Thursday, February 16, 2012
@10:30 AM ~ Now at my best spot at Arcade Library. At first had this webpage site blocked by my friendly Sacramento Library gatekeeper. Something about I have an hour here. We will see. Hard because I post onto my blogs via this Google Blog Program.

I am enduring day-by-day. We are now in the 2nd half of this month of February. No word from CEPS yet. I think I may have to wait until March 1st before my SSI money comes through. I is hard living with that kind of anxiety and anticipation. Once my $$$$ gets uploaded into my CEPS Account I can see about getting myself a decent room at the Shasta, then Apply for the Berry Hotel.

I realize that coming here to the local Public Library gives me a sense of purpose and destination like reporting for a regular job every day. Plus so much of lifetime is spent I believe in trivial pursuits by people, as this corrupt civilization collapses gradually from within.

Sabbath, Febrero 18, 2012
@11:47 PM ~ Yesterday I was at Sacra Central Library. It was cool because my Brother Roberto AKA Tata and I sat side-by-side at our laptops doing stuff. I plan to get see my Dad this coming Monday, come hell or high water. No words from SSI folks yet. I may have to wait until March of next month to see any progress in this area. I have a few folks to Apply for Shasta and pay for background check (again) but want to wait. Sometimes I feel like where I stay at is an insane asylum. With my BPD is can be especially hard dealing with folks, especially up close in personal relations when they have various psychological issues in play.

Because of Sacra Public Library settings I can only be in a blog about an hour at most per day, which is a drag on my blogging. Tomorrow is Sunday. Thus, I will go downtown to Sacra Central Library again, then, Cathedral after 5 PM, then we have our CASA 12-Steps Meeting at Sally's.
Nada mas ahora aqui. ~Che Peta

Sunday, Febrero 19, 2012
@2:09 PM ~ Now at Sacra Central Library. Saw my Brother Bobby earlier on Light Rail, he was coming from Group 1 A.A. 10 AM Meeting. Now I think he is here in the Library somewhere. I am so glad to see his growth and maturity as a man. He has had his share of troubles and struggles. I hope the worst is over for him, for myself and for all my loved ones.

I called Toro and plan to get a ride from him to go see my Dad tomorrow. Called Sister Linda too to let her know. It has been awhile.

I need to call Jerry at Guesthouse tomorrow or try to get through and leave a Message with her and my so-called Coordinator Eric (Eric has not been of too much value, though I hope his help will grow as time goes by). On the other hand, maybe he figures that I can handle my own self pretty well in terms of my own personal business. It seems I just need to wait for March, though I would appreciate monetary assistance now! $$$$

Tuesday, Febrero 21, 2012
@1:55 PM ~ I am using my allotted blog time to post an entry here. Sacra Public Library has it limited to 60 minutes, which seems like an infringement on my right to freedom of the press, freedom to blog. Who gives a damn?

I am enduring. I do wish I had a car to get around and do more stuff. I do appreciate not having to worry and hassle about car maintenance.

I have some mail at Guesthouse I need to pick up between here and death. I feel so much in exile being out here in the Arcade Area north of Sacramento. Nada mas ahora!

Wednesday, Febrero 22, 2012
@12:55 PM ~ Now at Arcade Library. Did not sleep my best last night. A lack of a good night's sleep in peace and quiet is one of the privations that one must endure when one is a homeless refugee. I guess it has been my lot in life not to have a single place for a home where I live for a zillion years. The whole concept of home to me is real relative. I am at home in my natural consciousness, with my backpack and my laptop.

I need to keep the faith, know that the Creator has helped to keep me alive and well all these years for reasons not fully known by me. I am here to help people. to help clarify confusion and to help clear a path with heart for others who are behind me or may happen to come upon this rocky road.

In relation to my SSI stuff I just need to be patient, carry on and know that what will happen will happen. I got a notice from GA with Sacra County that my GA Benefits are discontinued this February 29th because I will be receiving SSI. So that is a kind of confirmation. Tomorrow morning I plan to go to Guesthouse. If I am there early enough I will check out Eric's DRA AKA Double Trouble 12-Steps Meeting.

Nice later who seems to be working as a Tutor here helping folks called Rosa Hernandez. She is suppose to be here for about six months. Nice to see helpful talented people in the world. Nada mas ahora!
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The 2012 Latino Vote: Reshaping the Electoral Map - PR Newswire - sacbee.com

2012-02-15T19:23:00.000-08:00

The 2012 Latino Vote: Reshaping the Electoral Map - PR Newswire - sacbee.com

Published Wednesday, Feb. 15, 2012

WASHINGTON, Feb. 15, 2012 -- LULAC Announces Collaborations with LCLAA and Mi Familia Vota to Register and Turn Out the Latino Vote

WASHINGTON, Feb. 15, 2012 /PRNewswire-USNewswire/ --Today, LULAC announced the strategies to increase the Latino voter registration and turnout; as well as the efforts to defend the rights of Latino voters across the country. In partnership with these two national grassroots organizations, LULAC discussed the issues that are motivating Latino voters, and how Latino voters are reshaping the electoral map.

"It is now less than three weeks before Super Tuesday, and the candidates for President have failed to address issues of concern to the Hispanic community," said National LULAC President Margaret Moran. "Sadly, some have attempted to engage the Hispanic electorate through superficial rhetoric; others have dismissed the Hispanic vote altogether and certain states are attempting to pass legislation designed to suppress the vote.

Today, LULAC addressed the issues the Latino community is concerned about, as well as, the impact the Latino vote will have on the election, given that the Hispanic turnout is expected to be 26% greater than it was in 2008.""Our march to the ballot box begins today,'" said Ben Monterroso, National Executive Director for Mi Familia Vota Education Fund. "Hundreds of Mi Familia Vota volunteers will canvass neighborhoods throughout the country to register every eligible Latino to vote and to ensure that their voice is heard at the ballot box. Collaborations such as the one we have with LULAC and LCLAA prove to others that the road to the White House runs through the 'barrios.'"

"As the 2012 elections approach, the future of the Latino community is at a critical juncture. Participating in the electoral process provides Latinos with the opportunity to demand justice, dignity, better opportunities for their children and accountability from their elected officials. The Latino vote will play a decisive role in the coming elections and in light of growing attacks on their voting rights, we will work to ensure that their voices are heard," said Hector E. Sanchez, Executive Director of the Labor Council for Latin American Advancement (LCLAA).

The 2010 Census confirmed that the Latino community, now 50.5 million strong, is the nation's largest minority group. Not surprisingly, Latino voters are poised to play a decisive role in the upcoming 2012 elections, especially in the key battleground states of Florida, New Mexico, Nevada and Colorado. LULAC members and partners are helping to register and turnout a record number of Hispanic voters in November.

The League of United Latin American Citizens (LULAC) is a volunteer-based organization that empowers Hispanic Americans and builds strong Latino communities. Headquartered in Washington, DC, with 900 councils around the United States and Puerto Rico, LULAC's programs, services and advocacy address the most important issues for Latinos, meeting critical needs of today and the future. For more information, visit www.lulac.org.

SOURCE League of United Latin American Citizens

Online Journal= February 01-15, 2012 via @Peta_de_Aztlan

2012-02-11T23:00:00.000-08:00

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Wednesday, February 01, 2012
@4:00 PM ~ Today is a new month. I will be interesting to find out where I am at by the end of this month. I hope I will be in my own place somewhere than where I crash at now. I really just want a good night's sleep.

I called Heather at CEPS about the SSI Process. She said I have to wait for Jerry with Guesthouse to get stuff for SSI to 'upload' into my CEPS Account then I should be good to go. I am keeping my Sister Geri informed. She has been such a great blessing in my life. I have some mixed feelings about leaving from staying there as a couch surfer. She even offered me her room, but I am glad she even has her own room. She is such a beautiful warrior in her own way.

I was getting a little manic earlier, or rather, I 'felt' a little manic. Now I realize that I needed to 'check in' here on my little Peta Blog. It does have therapeutic value for me. It gives me a sense of hominess as it is my personal Home Page.

I do feel kind of 'in exile' being out here by Marconi and Fulton. Keep in mind that most of my 60 years of life on Earth has been spent in the Downtown Sacramento block-grid.

Sabbath, February 04, 2012
@2:10 PM ~ Now at Sacra Central Library. Lo and behold! I spent the last night at Brother Shaka's place on their couch, slept comfortably, though I did not have my Seroquel Medication with me nor my phone charger. We watched a couple of movies ~one called Thunderheart~ then I went to sleep around 9 PM. I did not actually sleep too well, but at least I did not have to contend with the shouting & screaming of Sir Richard over Geri's. I am looking forward just living downtown, nobody fucking with me and being able to focus a lot more on my typing after I have had a good night's sleep. Nada mas ahora!
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Wednesday, Febrero 08, 2012
@3:26 PM ~ Now at Carmichael Library on Marconi Ave. for the first time. It is pretty pleasant here, a bunch of suburbanites, not the usual riff-raff (my usual folks). I am still awaiting for when my SSI Money will be uploaded into my account. I hope I do not have to wait until March because that would still leave me with even more time until I can make applications and see about my getting my own home. Sometimes all I can do is just hold on, endure and keep sending my prayers up to the Cosmos.

It is like a cool Spring-like day here today. It reminds me that I do not now have an intimate love in my life to share experiences with together. Alas, I am a loner by nature.

February 8, 2012
Foundations of Camaraderie ~ http://www.dailyom.com/articles/2/2012/32209.html
Scorpio Daily Horoscope
Social activities can capture your attention today, inspiring you to gather the people you care about for an afternoon or evening of fellowship. Since you are likely in an outgoing and overall friendly mood, you may also feel compelled to include in your plans individuals whom you have just met or those you know only through your activities. As you revel in the spirit of camaraderie, you may sense that you are drawing positive energy from your relatives and friends. If you relax and enjoy the presence of the people you care about today, this transfer of energy can potentially give you a profound confidence and self-esteem boost.

The time we spend in the company of people we care about can energize us and bolster our confidence, giving us the resources we need to stay optimistic even when our lives don’t unfold as planned. There are many challenges we face that require us to exhibit courage and determination beyond what a single individual is usually capable of sustaining. It is the stamina and self-assurance we draw from our loved ones and confidants when we bask in the pleasure of their company that allows us to thrive in adverse conditions. When life is hard, we can comfort ourselves with thoughts of the good times we have shared and the support network that is there for us no matter what. As you participate in group activities today, you will reinforce the bonds of interpersonal goodwill that add value to numerous aspects of your experience.
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... so life you see is never a very smooth business and now the present bristles with difficulties.
~Uncle Ho

Thursday, Febrero 09, 2012
@4:12 PM ~ I am now at the Carmichael Library again here. I have $200 Dollars on my EBT Card for Food so that will help us at the homefront. I am not going to complain about my temporary housing situation now here, but I am looking forward to getting my own canton AKA casa AKA Home.

Typed up an Article Today ~On the Ideal of Global Revolution ~ http://wp.me/prH9G-5k

Sometimes life can be maddening. I need to remember my breathing exercises. Take care of my health and be ready for whatever may come.

Sabbath, Febrero 11, 2012
@11:16 AM ~ Now at Carmichael Library. I feel like I am kind of in a holding pattern. I make progress every day in my own way, but progress sometimes seems to take so long on a personal level. I still have not had my SSI Uploaded onto my Account ~have not heard from Jerry at Guest House and am still without having my own home. I was going to go to Cool, California this week but Brother John E. was unsure of my going up there until towards the end of the week so I canceled out. People should make a commitment at least a few days or a week in advance when it comes to bringing someone into one's home. Maybe I am too sensitive.

I am suppose to go to San Francisco on Tuesday with Brother Mark C. and others to check out Homeless Connect. I am looking forward to that. It will be good for me to get out of Sacra for a couple of days. Hopefully when I get back there will be some good news about my SSI Status. I picked up an Application for the Hotel Berry and have one for the Shasta, but I do not have the money $$$$ to negotiate. I know that in many ways we live the result of our choices. Sometimes I know I get scattered out and need to focus more.

Peter S Lopez READ: Brown Berets ~"Why is there so much drama in the Movement? Why can't people just keep it real?" http://on.fb.me/yetOLp ~

I usually do not trip about my not having a significant other or a steady girlfriend, but lately I have been feeling more lonely for female companionship. It is even hard to admit it to myself. I think it is healthy to admit such stuff because it could be shape-shifting around in my subconscious. I may be the Spring Weather that has been flirting with us these last few days. Today it is cloudy. Time for a break and smoke outside.

Tuesday, Febrero 14, 2012
@12:45 PM ~Now at Carmichael Library. I decided not to go with Mark and others to Homeless Connect in San Francisco, especially because it seemed like a hassle, plus, I am already homeless, do not need a reminder and I wanted to have my Brother Roberto come but Mark was not up to it because of 'details'. I need to stay away from liberals who drive me nuts.

Wednesday, Febrero 15, 2012
@4:11 PM ~ I am still alive and well. Hoping Heather with CEPS calls me soon about my SSI $$$$.

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On the Ideal of Global Revolution via @Peta_de_Aztlan

2012-02-09T16:18:00.000-08:00

Posted on February 9, 2012

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Posted 2-09-2012

“Those who make peaceful revolution impossible will make violent revolution inevitable.”
~ President John F. Kennedy, White House 1962
Global Revolution:
Global Revolution would bring about a great leap forward in our humane evolution as the dominant species of life on Earth. It must be planned, coordinated and based upon concrete analyses of concrete conditions in a given situation. We need to be practical, realistic and responsible.

Today the major enemy of humanity on the world stage is the Amerikan Empire. However, there are many other repressive regimes that need to be confronted and challenged one at a time by the masses of people in those particular countries. As an endangered species, all of us are on the same planet together. It is imperative that we seek total liberation for all of us together as one family of humanity.

At the same time we need to aware of the enemies within, that is, our own internal character defects. Character defects and other shortcomings block or handicap our capacity to create new humane relationships among all peoples of all lands based upon pure love, mutual respect and common understanding. These character defects include the arrogance of false pride, selfish greed, lazy sloth, insecure jealousy, obese gluttony, sexist lust and hateful wrath. The ideal here is that we must seek inner liberation as humane beings, heal ourselves within, cure our character defects and work together to create an outer liberation in the world. Seek balance and harmony.
The world today is in great turmoil in different regions around the globe. We cannot pretend to be blind, deaf and dumb to what is going on. There are great stirrings in the global mass consciousness that advocate for Global Revolution as a long-range general solution for our collective global ills. We now live in a global society. We are all connected by our common survival interests, advanced technology and global communication systems.

A central question is what kind of a Global Revolution should we strive for together? Humane beings need to understand that mere surface reforms of corrupt systems of government and dysfunctional economic systems will not suffice. We should continue to strive for realistic reforms, the fascist authoritarian system can correct itself to a set point, but ultimately the entire power system now ‘in power and secure’ inside the USA and throughout the world must be radically transformed. It does not matter who is POTUS (President Of The United States) when those who are really ‘in power and secure’ are still the ruling class of corporate capitalist elites. Fascism uses economic reform, mass marketing psychology and timely false promises to keep itself ‘in power and secure’. It constantly attempts to defuse, divide and distract the natural strivings of the people for significant social change via revolution.

Other comrades in other countries may be confronted with completely different settings unique to their situation than our own particular situation. I am here now inside the USA typing. There is no magical single template for revolution to cover all situations. Revolutions cannot simply be copied or imported. The roots of revolution must spring up out of the basic survival interests, common dreams and collective goals of the people in a given situation. Thus, we need to comprehend the conscious concentration on the coordination of global communications as essential for there to be Global Revolution.

Each of us must operate from our own immediate present situation. Each of us must deal with our own local or regional situation with a global overview. We can and should learn from other comrades elsewhere, but no one is going to go where were are on an existential level and do the basic local community education and mass mobilization that we must do ourselves in communion with the local population.

Relevant Revolution:

History has taught us that a relevant revolution requires a general strategy that emphasizes the seizure of state power by the people’s armed vanguard elements with various specific tactics depending on the immediate situation. Tactics are the means to an end strategy.

Many folks confuse a revolt with an actual revolution. Look at Egypt! The same evil forces before the revolt are still ‘in power and secure’. There has been no revolution in Egypt, though the basic groundwork has been done, especially in the courageous consciousness of the Egyptian masses and their magnificent capacity to overcome their fear of the repressors.

A basic requirement of revolution is a total transformation of property relations between the 1% of the ‘haves’ and the 99% of the ‘have-nots’. Property rights must be reversed between the 1% and the 99% in favor of the overwhelming majority of the people who compose the 99%. The people must have ownership and control of the land and all the viable social institutions thereon. If there is no substantial transformation of property relations there is no real revolution.

In the past, feudalism was revolutionary when it overthrew the rule of ancient barbarism. Capitalism was revolutionary when it overthrew feudalism. A genuine people’s democratic socialism will be revolutionary when it overthrows or transforms corporate capitalism. We are still in a class society where we still have classes at war. The two main social-economic classes are still the ‘haves’ and the ‘have-nots’. Those of us here now inside the USA still endure under a corporate capitalist economic system whose ruling elites are in control of the most advanced form of authoritarian fascism with the strongest military machine in all of human history to date.

Only the masses of people can make or ‘manufacture’ the revolution, not vanguard elements alone. On a level of mass consciousness the people must come to know through their own direct experience the practical necessity and logical possibility of a relevant revolution. Ideally we want to bring about a Peaceful Revolution, yet we must keep in mind that connected reality does not always conform to our ideas and ideals. We must always uphold our basic sacred right to self-defense by any means necessary. We shall not allow ourselves to be carted away into new high-tech concentration camps or just be slaughtered without retaliation in the streets. We will not allow ourselves to be killed by armed fascists in the misguided name of non-violent passive resistance. Will you allow your family to be killed? All of us are of the huge family of humanity.

We cannot ignore the urgings of some for violent revolution, but neither do we want to lead people into a bloodbath in their own blood. Many confused comrades are unstable fanatics who need more revolutionary education. We have seen violent revolutions in the past establish new regimes, yet they tend to become evil and corrupt. Look at the former Soviet Union, the People’s Republic of China and North Korea! The so-called model socialist societies supported by the old Left-wing vanguard have become brutal totalitarian regimes. Clearly past analyses by dead heroes have been grossly defective and much has gone awry in the revolutionary processes of certain countries.

Revolution Is A Process:

We can now see that revolution is an extremely complex process. It is not a simple matter of vanguard elements shooting their way into state power, the seizure of the state and the fair social redistribution of the material wealth in society. Remember Companero Salvador Allende of Chile! Revolution is not all cut-and-dry. Revolution is a dynamic living process, not a fixed set of frozen conclusions. It is important to understand how a given revolution comes to power after a protracted war. What kind of seeds of counter-revolution are actually planted when there is a social revolution? How does revolutionary vanguard leadership prevent any future counter-revolution?

When violence is used to achieve success in a revolutionary process many lives are taken, people in the thousands can be killed, critical mistakes are made on violent battlefields and future lifelong resentments are embedded into the psyche. These embedded resentments can grow and fester in the memories of people who feel that the successful revolutionary forces have wronged them or their blood families. Resentments are powerful psycho-social factors that breed in the psyche. We either learn to let go of our past resentments or we will try to get even one way or the other against those who have wronged us. It is our human nature. Of course, a violent revolution is a bloody messy phenomena. Imagine all the resentments of Cubans whose family members were killed by Che Guevara and other militants after the Cuban revolution in the name of revengeful retribution? Look at how Brother Nelson Mandela had the genius to call for reconciliation in South Africa. There is no pure revolution. It is the nature of the beast that revolutions, no matter how idealistic, create deep long-term resentments. Thus, we need to patiently educate and convince the people about the goals and aspirations of Global Revolution in order to prevent a reactionary counter-revolution.

Only a fool or a fanatic would propose and openly avow any kind of violent revolution in the world without taking into full consideration ‘concrete analyses of concrete conditions’, then designing the appropriate general strategy and tactics applicable to the given general situation before us.

Vanguard Leadership:

We need vanguard leadership. Naturally, the whole concept of a leaderless revolution must be viewed objectively as utterly insane, idealistic and a trick of psycho-social manipulation. Many past leaders have proven themselves to be mis-leaders or even agent-provocateurs sent in by dark forces to sow discord and internal division among progressive peoples. We do need leaders and we need followers who can become leaders. Ideally each of us should be a leader. Leadership must develop and train cadres to provide new fresh leadership. We will do well when we coordinate our activities closely with others working together in true solidarity.

We need to examine the whole concept of participatory democracy, register people to vote and utilize the U.S. electoral system as another important tactical tool in our toolbox. No tactic can be discounted. A lot of us just need to use our imagination, learn better how to utilize Internet Power and promote universal literacy wherever we are.

Conclusion:

On an personal level, as a humane being, I would prefer to help bring about social change and ultimately global transformation of the established order via peaceful methods of struggle. We need to exhaust all peaceful methods of struggle and not slip into Left-wing adventurism. Each of us must figure out life for our own self, unite with natural allies and seek a Unity of Purpose to help create a new brave world.

We need to create a new brave world, create a culture of liberation and not forget to conscientiously work on our own spiritual enlightenment as humane beings who have care, concern and compassion for all living beings.

Venceremos Unidos! We Will Win United!
Che Peta AKA Peter S. Lopez AKA @Peta_de_Aztlan ;->
Sacramento, California, Aztlan
P.S. There will be many Ches!

Relevant Links:
http://www.deadlysins.com/sins/

Message to the Tricontinental ~Dr. Ernesto ‘Che’ Guevara ~
First Published: Havana, April 16, 1967.
http://www.marxists.org/archive/guevara/1967/04/16.htm
http://occupywallst.org/ @OccupyWallStNYC
c/s

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The Berry Hotel

2012-02-09T15:53:00.000-08:00

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Dear Brother John ~
Please check out Application and FAQ for new Berry Hotel. Then...
Get PRINTOUTS!

I was recently approved for SSI and hope to go to Shasta, then get into
the Berry. I had moved into Globe Mills a second time in October and
Management there was very very kind to allow me in, but then my life
was thrown upside down when my SSI Pending did not become final so I
had to move out of there again. Now it is FINALLY APPROVED.

All I want is a room with a view so I can write. Life can sometimes be
so hard to keep simple. Am staying with a Christian Sister and Old
Friend of mine now by Marconi & Fulton.

LINK ~ http://www.jamboreehousing.com/index.php

Venceremos! We Will Win!
Peta_de_Aztlan
Sacramento, California
Email: peter.lopez51@yahoo.com
http://twitter.com/Peta_de_Aztlan
http://www.facebook.com/Peta51
http://help-matrix.ning.com/
"Those who make peaceful revolution impossible, make violent revolution inevitable."~ President John F.Kennedy ~ c/s

About Homelessness » Blog Archive » Essential Elements of Successful Housing First and Rapid Re-Housing Programs – Part 1

2012-02-01T10:39:00.000-08:00

About Homelessness » Blog Archive » Essential Elements of Successful Housing First and Rapid Re-Housing Programs – Part 1

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Online Journal= January 16-31, 2012

2012-01-28T13:00:00.000-08:00

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Tuesday, January 17, 2012
@7:01 AM ~ I have been here about all day. Finally finished another article ~see link below~ and I have so much more to do. On Twitter I now have 1750 Followers on Twitter. I have been at it for a long time, have experimented with it and am learning better how to utilize social media.

VIA http://www.innerwhispers.org/
Special Edition ~ January 17, 2012 ~ New Message From VERONICA

The Importance of Self Awareness

"Each physical life offers an opportunity to expand the soul. Life lessons are created to offer the choice in regard to the accomplishment of that. The physical reality offers the choices but alas also offers many distractions that can keep one from attaining their full potential.

Attempt each day to have awareness of your participation. Within the chatter and noise of the physical lies a path to the core of your own soul. It is important to maintain the trueness of that path by being totally aware of your participation in this physical realm.

Decide to release unnecessary drama that can cloud your purpose. Often that includes separation from those who are creating the drama, and taking responsibility for your energy within the moment. A complicated moment it may seem, however, once the energy is silenced, the clarity of your soul speaks loudly.

Take the time for the exploration. Be aware of your soul and its need in this reality. Often the chaos is a reflection of those around you, not necessarily your own vibration. By being self aware, you may be able to discern the root of the chaos.

Align with the rhythm of your inner energy. Be aware of all its nuances, and become harmonious with it.

It is a great gift to be evolved, but the moment becomes more enhanced by being aware.

Pay attention to the small moments. They are the seeds to the garden of your experience.

Be aware of what your energy brings to the table. Be responsible for altering your perspective in the situation. That ingredient may realign the drama and enhance the evolution."
-VERONICA

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Titles & Links to Articles by Peter S. Lopez AKA @Peta_de_Aztlan

On Being A Chicano de Aztlán @Peta_de_Aztlan
http://bit.ly/AEgB2q

On the Relevancy of Electoral Politics Today Inside Amerika via @Peta_de_Aztlan: 1-17-2012
http://bit.ly/y6hI1s

On Prospects for Liberation in 2012 via @Peta_de_Aztlan: Update 1-11-2012
http://bit.ly/xuexh1

On the Relevance of Global Revolution: 12-28-2011
http://bit.ly/u2NkT6

#OWS On Expanding Occupy Locations Into Liberated Zones: 12-17-2011
http://bit.ly/tPt3E6

#OWS On Opening Up Dialogue About Socialism VS. Capitalism: 12-06-2011
http://bit.ly/uqsP5u

On #OWS and Humane Rights VIA @Peta_de_Aztlan: 12-03-2011
http://bit.ly/txAkJd

On #OWS and Homeless Refugees: 11-19-2011
http://bit.ly/svwxrg

On Why I Support Occupy Wall Street Protestors via @Peta_de_Aztlan: 11-08-2011
http://bit.ly/v3jUil

On Building Community Infrastructure via @Peta_de_Aztlan: 10-28-2011 ~
http://bit.ly/vWIOYX

On Getting Involved In Politics via @Peta_de_Aztlan: 10-27-2011
http://bit.ly/v1Rzsb

On Exhausting Peaceful Methods of Struggle via @Peta_de_Aztlan: 10-25-2011 ~
http://bit.ly/rxecqU

On the Question of Leadership in a Leaderless Movement: 10-23-2011 ~
http://bit.ly/pfRz6K

On the #Occupy Movement and Homeless Refugees: 10-22-2011 ~
http://bit.ly/q1eY2O

Wednesday, January 18, 2012
@5:31 PM ~ Today went by pretty quickly to me. Did not write an article on the Help-Matrix blog, but I did do some good Tweeting. Twitter helps me to express myself and to have more confidence in doing so.

Thursday, January 19, 2012
@12:37 PM ~ Now at Arcade Library. Slept terrible last night, had to cancel my medical appt. and rescheduled for January 30th. I am sleep deprived now. I am so hoping I can get onto SSI, get the money to move into my own place and continue to work on my health in general. It gets real hard for me at times no having my own place where I can have simple peace and quiet so I can focus more on my typing stuff up.

@2:07 PM ~ Just met Sister Tina M. earlier here at the Library. She manages apartments, lives kind of nearby. Told her I am going through the ordeal of awaiting my SSI Appeal. We exchanged phone numbers and stuff.

Sabbath, January 21, 2012
@2:57 PM ~Now at Arcade Library. We had a heavy storm here in Sacramento last night. I am glad I am not stuck out in the cold at night, though where I crash at night gets to be a real drag at times. I will endure, take care of my health and guard my relative wealth of wisdom (hope that does not seem arrogant ~arrogance is a character defect). I need to improve my self-esteem, esp. when I do not feel the greatest. So much folks take for granted. Like being able to wash one's face in hot water. And GOD! A hot shower in a bathroom by one's self! Real luxury!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012
@2:15 PM ~ Now at Arcade Library. Last Sunday night after the CASA Meeting I spent the night over Brother Shaka's place in the Alkali Flats area downtown. That was a blessing & a needed change from my usual sleeping situation. At my Safeground Now ~which is what I will refer to as the place I am staying now, sleeping at night on the couch ~folks there are usually up late watching TV and sometimes it can get disturbing. At times all I really need is a good night's sleep for peace, rest and relaxation.

I am anxiously awaiting a response from SSI Appeal. I need to get a decent regular income so I can see about getting my own home situation.

Sabbath, January 28, 2012
@11:55 AM ~ I am pleased to report herein that, according to a call I got from Jerry with Guest House via VoiceMail, that I have been Approved for SSI. The only catch I know now is that I need to have a Payee, which I can live with for now. I have a Medical Appt. this coming Monday and I suppose I need to go to Guest House to find out more information about my SSI Process.

I am in no rush now. I have been able to endure where I am staying at now since November. I would appreciate having my own place or at least my own room. My personal life goal remains the same: a room with a view so I can type. I have purposefully kept my personal goal simple and streamlined. Naturally I need to continue working on my personal health as a connected being in the context of the mind-body-soul trinity.

Over time I have lost so much of my stuff, my personal possessions, my photographs and other personal effects. I am weary of putting my life in order then seeing it fall apart & unravel again.

I tend to shrink away from anyone giving me any item, any object, any stuff that would add to my personal possessions. What I need I already have. I would love to have a new Laptop, though I have Peach's old Dell! I know I still have 'psychiatric issues' or 'mental health' issues that I will continue to work on. I am just so turned off by the world and the petty concerns of others who have no love in their hearts for the great suffering masses around the world.

People tend to be so self-centered, egotistical and wrapped up in their own little individual world that they fail to see the commonness among us as living beings upon the safe planet Earth.

Sunday, January 29, 2012
@4:16 PM ~ Now at Sacra Central Library. Today has a been a good day, as things go. I am still with this bad cough but did not want it to be an excuse for not going to CASA Meeting this evening. I just hope Brother Toro shows up. I am looking forward to the future now that I have apparently gotten my SSI Approved. I will know more later this week. Jobs are hard to find right now for many folks. We will see what we will see. Time to move on now!

Tuesday, January 31, 2012
@12:00 PM ~ Now at Arcade Library. Slept pretty well last night. Yesterday I registered to have CEPS as my Payee as obligated by SSI.

Heather Cardoza ~Account Manager ~ 916/441-1900
Email: heather@CEPSonline.org
CEPS Website ~ http://cepsonline.org/default.html

Later I can have a doctor to OK for my being my own Payee. Think it will be an unnecessary expense for me to have a Payee.

I am looking forward to having my own place, not having to deal with the insanity of others around me as I do now. I need my own personal space for self-development. It has been a long journey trying to get back to having my own space.

@12:36 PM ~ I feel pretty good. I am more aware of the necessity for my taking care of my own physical health and the interrelatedness of the mind and soul to my body.

Recent Tweets ~ https://twitter.com/#!/Peta_de_Aztlan @Peta_de_Aztlan
Life is full of a lot mysteries which we will not ever solve. Do you know who you really are deep inside when you are left all alone?

I have had so much & lost so much, over & over. The more I learn the more I realize how little I know. There is so much to learn.

Sometimes I grope in the dark, feel my way with my fingers, make sure of my footing & have faith in Spirit to guide me forward.

I try not to take myself too seriously & balance a sense of humor with the seriousness of the global situation. Life is life.

@morsemusings: I am a candle in the darkness, here to bring a little light to our campfire in the middle of a big dark scary forest.

@morsemusings: I am a cosmic humane being seeking to fully mature into wholeness as I am prepare for my eventual death empty-handed.

@AnonomissLeo26: Timing of psychic synchronicity on quantum level. Believe me, it is that simple. @Peta_de_Aztlan

@AnonomissLeo26: Cure for Brain Fog? Stimulate body ~Stop thinking ~Meditate, close eyes, listen & meditate on miracle of deep breathing!

Here in USA I suspect we are diagnosed more than any other general population. We may have the highest rates of hypochondriacs too.

@morsemusings: Psychiatric labels have their role. We use labels in various forms constantly in life. What is 'is'.

Is it true? The USA has the most diagnosed cases of people who suffer from Bi-Polar Disorder? Google it!

@morsemusings: I think i have had bi-polar symptoms for a long time' but my past active drug addiction masked it. Now I am wiser.

@morsemusings: New Moon in Aquarius had me feeling a little manic earlier when I was downtown. Did a little apartment searching.

Power of Amerikan racism against Blacks via Obama will be a determinant factor on 2012 Presidential Election. @Peta_de_Aztlan

Be careful with whom you have relationships ~that attachments do not turn on you into chains that enslave the soul.

@5:31 PM ~ Well this is my last update for this post. Last day of January! I hope February will be a lot better month. Have contacted a few folks about my being Approved for SSI. After all this I now know about the whole SSI Appeal ordeal. Maybe I will help others to get onto SSI. As far as I am concerned the government should give people decent jobs or a guaranteed income.

~Humane-Liberation-Party~
HELP 5-Point Survival Platform
First Posted Online: January 1, 2001
Sacramento, California, Aztlan

#1. We demand our basic humane needs for the survival of our species: nutritional food, proper clothing, decent shelter, health care and quality education for our present welfare and future success in the New Millennium.

#2. We demand complete employment for our natural energies, relevant job training or a guaranteed income for our continued life existence as humane beings in order to work in decent positions as functional mature adults.

#3. We demand worldwide socialist democracy with proportional representation: wherein the majority rules, protects minorities and cares for all based upon 'one human being, one legitimate vote' in fair, free and open monitored elections.

#4. We demand equal respect for all humane rights: no matter the economic class, blood race, gender sex, national identity, native tribe. cultural origin or personal orientation and the conscientious resolution of violations against the humane rights of all indigenous native tribes.

#5. We demand true Peace on Earth and an immediate end to all evil unjust wars, regional conflicts and territorial disputes in conjunction with the total elimination of all Weapons of Mass-Destruction by any and all means mandatory.

When in the Course of Human Events, it becomes necessary for one People to dissolve the Political Bands which have connected them with another, and to assume among the Powers of the Earth, the separate and equal Station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature's God entitle them, a decent Respect to the Opinions of Humankind requires that they should declare the root Causes which impel them to the Separation.

We hold these Truths to be self-evident, that all Human Beings are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights---that among them are Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness-That to secure these Rights, governments are instituted among People, deriving their just Powers from the Consent of the Governed, that whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these Ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its Foundation on such Principles and Organizing its Powers in such Forms as to them shall seem most likely to effect their safety and happiness.

Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient Causes: and according all Experience hath shown that Humankind are more disposed to suffer, while Evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long Train of Abuses and Usurpations, pursing invariably the Same Object, evinces a Design to reduce them under a Mature Fascism, it is their Right, it is their Duty, to throw off such Government and to provide new Guards for their Future security.
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"Settle your quarrels, come together, understand the reality of our situation, understand that fascism is already here, that people are already dying who could be saved, that generations more will die or live poor butchered half-lives if you fail to act. Do what must be done, discover your humanity and your love in revolution. Pass on the torch. Join us, give up your life for the people!"
~~ El General George L. Jackson ~ Field Marshal Black Panther Party {1942–1971}

HELP: the Humane-Liberation-Party Blog
http://help-matrix.blogspot.com/

HELP 5-Point Survival Platform Link>
http://help-matrix.ning.com/profiles/blogs/help-5point-survival-platform

Key Document Links:
Declaration of Independence ~
http://www.archives.gov/national-archives-experience/charters/declaration_transcript.html

Constitution of the United States ~
http://www.archives.gov/national-archives-experience/charters/constitution.html

Bill of Rights ~
http://www.archives.gov/national-archives-experience/charters/bill_of_rights.html

The Universal Declaration of Human Rights ~
http://www.un.org/en/documents/udhr/

The Treaty of Guadalupe Hidalgo ~
http://www.loc.gov/rr/hispanic/ghtreaty/
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HELP: the HELP Blog
http://help-matrix.blogspot.com/
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Morpheus: "...Unfortunately, no one can be told what the Matrix is. You have to see it for yourself."

Update: @Peta_de_Aztlan ~12/03/2011
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~ Namaste, Che Peta

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Bloglink~ http://peta-de-aztlan.blogspot.com/

Twitter Link~ http://twitter.com/Peta_de_Aztlan

Humane Liberation Party Portal
~ http://help-matrix.ning.com/
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Online Journal= January 01-15, 2012

2012-01-12T19:25:00.000-08:00

Tuesday, January 3, 2012
@11:18 AM ~ I had a pretty uneventful New Year's Eve and I am glad that is was so. Now we are into this New Year and we will see what we will see. I am still going through the SSI Appeal ordeal. Usually I spend my days online on the Public Library.

I am interested in what is going on in the world so I usually pay attention to global news when I am online. At the same time I want to continue to work on my own Spiritual Growth. In a way that seems kind of shallow, the idea of spiritual growth, but I do not see it all the same as many others do. As I learn more about my inner spirit I learn more about my own psyche, why I am the way that I am ~seeking greater self-understanding. I am a humane being of the human family and have a vested interest in helping others survive, along with my own survival. We are here on this lonely planet Earth together.

@6:42 PM ~ Well I have been here all day. I have not gotten much done in terms of my typing up and article. Did some regular research and posting links to news articles on Twitter. I plan to be here tomorrow during the day.

LINK: 2012 Mayan Prophecy and the Shift of the Ages ~ bit.ly/AvL5CB ~

Tuesday, January 10, 2012
@4:34 PM ~ It has been a few days since I posted here. Last Sunday morning a few of us went up to Reno and I had a good time. We did a little gambling, at least I did a little considering that I only had a little to gamble with. Annabelle, Rick, Nancy and I went up and spent the night at CalNeva. It was a good break for me and for all of us.

Tomorrow I will have a full day at the Arcade Library. Went to my Guesthouse Appt. this morning, then went to 28th & K Sts. to have X-Rays done, then went by Rite-Aid Pharmacy on K Street but my meds were not authorized yet. Some pharma-dope crap and restriction on Medical because of $$$. I hate this system of things that I must live under and I hate to hate, but somethings stir my hatred up. Time to cut out from here and head out to Arcade Library for a bit

Stephen Hawking DJs on the Simpsons. Note the bling.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012
@12:40 PM ~ I am at Arcade Library right now. I am so glad this Arcade Library is nearby where I have a temporary space to crash at come nightfall. I saw Brother Brian on the bus yesterday evening. he with me at Carol's Place. Him and Mikey are at Palmer House. I need to connect up with folks I know or re-connect. So many are so politically disconnected from connected reality. It can be a real drag dealing with some folks, including blood family members.

@6:26 PM ~ I am not sure how much I got done today, but I finished an article I had been working on, well at least I gave it an update.

On Prospects for Liberation in 2012 via @Peta_de_Aztlan: Update 1-11-2012
http://bit.ly/xuexh1

On the Relevance of Global Revolution: 12-28-2011
http://bit.ly/u2NkT6

#OWS On Expanding Occupy Locations Into Liberated Zones: 12-17-2011
http://bit.ly/tPt3E6

#OWS On Opening Up Dialogue About Socialism VS. Capitalism: 12-06-2011
http://bit.ly/uqsP5u

On #OWS and Humane Rights VIA @Peta_de_Aztlan: 12-03-2011
http://bit.ly/txAkJd

On #OWS and Homeless Refugees: 11-19-2011
http://bit.ly/svwxrg

On Why I Support Occupy Wall Street Protestors via @Peta_de_Aztlan: 11-08-2011
http://bit.ly/v3jUil

On Building Community Infrastructure via @Peta_de_Aztlan: 10-28-2011 ~
http://bit.ly/vWIOYX

On Getting Involved In Politics via @Peta_de_Aztlan: 10-27-2011
http://bit.ly/v1Rzsb

On Exhausting Peaceful Methods of Struggle via @Peta_de_Aztlan: 10-25-2011 ~
http://bit.ly/rxecqU

On the Question of Leadership in a Leaderless Movement: 10-23-2011 ~
http://bit.ly/pfRz6K

On the #Occupy Movement and Homeless Refugees: 10-22-2011 ~
http://bit.ly/q1eY2O

Recall: The ultimate aim of Amerikan Fascism is to destroy all valid revolutionary consciousness, that is, a true humane consciousness that comprehends Global Revolution as a major advance in our evolution as a an endangered species of life. A major solution to our global problems related to poverty, oppression and state repression. Revolution is a dynamic process, not a frozen set of conclusion. We require disciplined vanguard leadership.

Thursday, January 12, 2012
@3:12 PM ~ Now at Arcade Library. I am encouraged each day by seeing that people are gradually waking up to what is going on the world. Gradually, ever so slowly awakening.

Title & Links to Articles by @Peta_de_Aztlan on HELP-Matrix Blog: 1-12-2012
http://bit.ly/A1qW0o ~
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Bloglink~ http://peta-de-aztlan.blogspot.com/

Twitter Link~ http://twitter.com/Peta_de_Aztlan

Humane Liberation Party Portal
~ http://help-matrix.ning.com/
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The year ahead - Scorpio 2012

2012-01-03T18:27:00.000-08:00

nydn.us/yDFEzZ~

Year ahead: This is a take charge year, Scorpio! With lucky planet of abundance Jupiter, moving into your solar eighth House from June you will be in the zone, riding the wave of opportunity and success, especially when it concerns business. You can step into your own personal power, grab the reins of your chariot and surge ahead with confidence and certainty.Empowerment day: November 13 - signifies the beginning of a dynamic and exciting new phase. Power month: During October, a virtual planetary traffic jam in your sign provides a power source and with the eclipse energy of the November new Moon in your sign, it makes these two months a time when nothing is out of the realms of possibility. Most romantic month: Jupiter, love planet Venus, the all-powerful Sun, and the positive energy of the new Moon all situated or transiting through your solar seventh House of partnerships in April, it’s as if cupid sends love directly to you on the wings of angels. Spiritual evolvement: Making changes in your life is not always easy, but this year you can put life changing decisions into action. By the end of 2012, you will look back and see the positive progress you made both on a spiritual and physical level. Angel advice: Look within and follow your heart, and when your vision of where you want to end up is clear, steadily work towards making it a reality.

Career and money: This is a powerful year where you can inject energy to revolutionize your life and build new foundations to move forward on. Major changes will take strategic planning so you can travel in the direction of your most heartfelt dreams. You now have an opportunity to be the successful person you know in your heart you can be. Be prepared to move out of your comfort zone to grow as a person and evolve into the next stage of your life. You can expect to deal with matters of an official nature you may not have previously encountered. Although at times you may find certain situations challenging, they will prove to be character-building and empowering. This year is all about you taking charge of your own life, Scorpio, and being responsible for the decisions you make. No challenge is too daunting, and if you keep this in mind you will step in to your own personal power and rise above any obstacles in your path. Opportunities will be presented and you have exciting options and decisions to make. You have the power to be the best you can be, and all you need to do is apply the skills you as a Scorpio have in your zodiac DNA, in other words, just be your most dynamic self!

Love and romance: For the first half of the year, Jupiter the planet of abundance shines love and romance direct to your heart center. Neptune, the planet of inspiration also plays a major role in sending romantic energy to your social life. With these two influences alone love in your life can reach new heights this year, however you do need to also be realistic about what a relationship can provide. A partnership has a combination of common interests as well as differences, and it is this blend which helps to keep the spark of love burning. Love can be glorious this year, almost as if the fairytale has finally come true, but as you have your heart in the clouds you also want to keep one foot grounded on earth. Disappointments can often come from unrealistic expectations, and if you are prepared to work together as a team, then love can be everything you ever dreamt it to be. This is very much a year to attain balance in your life between work, love, social activities and looking after your overall well-being. It is crucial to look after yourself on all levels; mind, body and spirit. Once you feel comfortable with where you are in these three areas of your life, you will more easily attract love to your heart!

Read more: http://www.nydailynews.com/life-style/horoscopes/year-scorpio-2012-article-1.1000387#ixzz1iS70B0EW
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Bloglink~ http://peta-de-aztlan.blogspot.com/

Twitter Link~ http://twitter.com/Peta_de_Aztlan

Humane Liberation Party Portal
~ http://help-matrix.ning.com/
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My Resume: Peter S. Lopez

2011-12-31T11:03:00.000-08:00

Job Resume: Peter S. Lopez
Phone: 916/604-2471
Email: peter.lopez51@yahoo.com

OCCUPATIONAL GOAL: Community Counselor
A challenging position for a community organization with a noble Mission Statement, an innovative professional staff and potential promotion that best utilize my skills, talents and interests in order to help others in the community.

SKILLS: Workshop facilitator; group and individual counseling; writing, editing and communications; office management; word processing and computer-Internet navigation; health care worker skills.

RELATED JOB EXPERIENCES:
Position: Counselor/Case Worker/Housing Coordinator (October 2006 – September 2010)
Employer: The Salvation Army 'Center of Hope'

Position: Health Care Worker (June 2002 ~ present)
Employer: In-Home Support Services, Sacramento County

Position: Shift Monitor (December 1999 ~ February 2000)
Employer: Volunteers of America (VOA) ~ Comprehensive Alcoholism & Treatment Center

Position: Social Services Worker (July 1997 ~ April 1999)
Employer: Salvation Army Social Services Center

Position: Senior Office Assistant (December 1990 ~ November 1993)
Employer: Sacramento Housing & Redevelopment Agency (SHRA)

Position: Certified Nurse Assistant (June 1986 - June 1987)
Employer: Norwood Pines (formerly Sutter Oaks Alzheimer's Center

Position/s: Limited-term jobs as Senior Office Assistant, Word Processor, Clerk Typist, Animal Control Officer, Nurse Assistant, and others.
Employers: City and County of Sacramento; Convalescent Homes; Temporary Employment Agencies etc.

FORMAL EDUCATION: I maintain my professional skills; am involved in community education work and continue to work on my spiritual evolution as a humane being.
● Sacramento City College = Subjects: Psychology, Spanish, Substance Abuse
● California State University at Sacramento (CSUS) = General Subjects; Ethnic Studies
● Sacramento Senior High School = Graduated June 1969

AFFILIATIONS: CASA 12-Steps Recovery Group (Christians Against Substance Addiction).

Update: 12/31/2011
c/s

Namaste, Peter S. Lopez
Sacramento, California
Email: peter.lopez51@yahoo.com

Online Journal= December 16-31, 2011 via @Peta_de_Aztlan

2011-12-23T14:26:00.000-08:00

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Friday, December 16, 2011
@1:40 PM ~ Here at Arcade Library. I feel pretty refreshed. I love the power of being sober, the power of being sane and the power of being creative. We have many powers many of us barely realize we have. I need better time management in my life. Social networking websites eat up a lot of my time and energy without enough tangible results. Who reads? Who understands? Who sees connected reality?

I am poor, relatively homeless and now unemployed without a paycheck to look forward to. I will endure because I am a stubborn and determined man.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011
@2:42 PM ~ Now at Arcade Library. This early afternoon I had my Interview-Appointment with Euwing Diagnostics for my SSI Appeal. I am diagnosed and self-diagnosed as having the Bi-Polar Disorder (BPD). In an extreme mood I can get a suicidal feeling of depression and when a manic state I can get homicidal if I really feel threatened without any qualms. I do best when I stay away from people in general. I guess I am a lone wolf in my own way. I just want to get into SSI, receive my guaranteed income and be left alone by the insane folks in the world.

This Xmas Season has been a trying experience, though I try to stay in a good Holiday Spirit. Of course, it is so corrupted by the desires for Christmas gifts, consumer material objects and the general corporate manufactured consumerism.

It has been a long time since I had a regular job. My time is usually occupied by my being at the local library, posting onto Twitter and Facebook; typing articles from time to time; and in the evenings I am usually held hostage by the TV-Cylops.

My CASA 12-Steps Meetings are going well, as usual, and I am blessed that Brother Toro comes up and we both go to the Meeting at Sally's together on Sunday Evenings at 7 PM. CASA helps to give me a sense of purpose, a grounding in connected reality and I feel that I am some use to others.

I am gradually learning how to go with the flow and write better, or rather, type better as I am actually a typist as distinct from being an actual writer with pen and paper.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011
@3:41 PM ~ I hope my multitasking today here online is not a denied form of ADHD. Life goes as well as can be expected right now. Sometimes I feel like I live in a Psychiatric Ward at 'home', though I am and must remain in a grateful appreciative spirit. It is, of course, my fault because I could get some work done on my Desktop at my hideout, though there are distraction. I am aware that I really do not have my own home these days.

I am getting pretty fed up with TV and watching quaint little Xmas movies. I am not the Remote Controller at camp. Life goes on... within us and surely life goes on without us.

Thursday, December 22, 2011
@11:11 AM ~ Here at Arcade Library. Next week this public library will be closed a lot, I do not have the money to go downtown to the Central Library every day and will feel even more in exile until I get another disbursement from my General Assistance via the County. I am in a bit of a quandary. Even if I were to get a regular job the income from it could boot me out from getting onto SSI due to my disability because having a regular job would mean that I am not actually disabled.

I know with my Bi-Polar Disorder I find it really difficult to deal with other people. Most people I know in real life are in such a different head space from me. It results in my feeling alienated from others much of the time. Oh well... don't let me start complaining. I am sure it is Un-American!

Friday, December 23, 2011
@2:06 PM ~ Now at Sacra Central Library. I did not sleep well last night. I sometimes need to endure slices and spaces of insanity at my hideout. I know now more than ever of the natural importance of sleep to the point where it can have a kind of sacredness to it.

I arrived late for the Double Trouble DRA Meeting at Guesthouse with Eric. It was a good meeting and it is all being included in a larger format they will be having called E.A.R.T.H. ~ Empowering Action and Recovery through Trust and Hope:
http://www.elhogarinc.org/

Afterwards I had an Appointment with Brother Eric at 11 AM. I gave him my SSI Forms from myself and a Third Party (Annabelle). He mentioned the possibility of my being able to get into a place at Palmer in the future in the hopes that I am approved for SSI. So much depends upon a corrupt system that often punishes the poor, the mentally ill and homeless refugees. So I guess it is a matter of waiting to find out if I am Approved for SSI or not.

So much of my life these days is a matter of spiritual warfare, trying to keep my morale up and my personal self-esteem in check. I do miss having my own place, sleeping in my own bed and the simple ordinary life-style that most folks take for granted without a second thought. Through it all I have become more and more radical, if that is possible, and it is a radicalism that actually feel natural for me to be so. I will continue to Wage of War of Resistance Against Fascism in whatever form it takes in whatever ways I can. Ya Basta!

Sometimes my life seems like a nightmare. I can compare my situation to others who are less fortunate, but to what purpose. It seems to be a truism that misery loves company. I just want to live in the land where people love one another freely, where our basic needs are meet and where we have the resources necessary for us to freely express ourselves and develop our creative potential. Am I asking too much?!? I think not. Some folks say that life is what you make it. I think it is what you make it and how you take it. I am glad I do not have a criminal thug mentality.

I know that technically the advocacy of violent revolution is illegal. I advocate a Peaceful Global Revolution, exhausting peaceful methods of spiritual warfare. We will see how far this approach can go!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011
@11:10 AM ~I am now at Sacra Central Library. I feel a little sleepy, but am aware that at times sleep itself can be a form of escapism. I love Norm Chomsky and his revolutionary Tweets:

https://twitter.com/#!/NoamChomski @NoamChomski
This is Noam Chomski, I am the author of Manufacturing Dissent and other revolutionary pamphlets. No relation at all to Noam Chomsky.

The circulation of power is dependent on the good will of the people, the consensus around the ultimate 'benevolence' of the 'powerful'.

Power is not stagnant or static, like capital, it circulates and revolutionaries must short circuit this circulation.

Those who are frightened by collective expressions are not human beings, they are gluttonous monsters seeking to appropriate the world.

The individual who becomes blinded by the 'survival of the fittest' model will eventually destroy the planet and the world we live in.

The individual who destroys humanity, who steals from the hard work of humans, will eventual destroy himself.

The notion of the individual becomes paralyzed when people reduce it to the concept of 'watching out for number one.'

The idea of individualism becomes decrepit when individuals, like billionaires, start using it as pretext to hoard power and capital.

The idea of individualism is brilliant, so long as every individual understands his and her responsibility to humanity.

Share your humanity with others without becoming obsessed with ways to materially profit from your thoughts and ideas.

Share your thoughts with other human beings without worrying about monetizing them.

Share your words and idea with the world freely, share your theories and concepts for free, do not bind them up in expensive books.

Those who lock up their individuality in the prisons of intellectual property and copyright infringements are locking their humanity up.

Your individuality must be shared with the world, it must contribute to the world, it must become part of the revolutionary movement.

It would be a mistake for people to turn their individuality into a fetish, into a commodity that gets hoarded like capital.

We are individuals in our own right, however, we must remember that we belong to human society as well, we are social creatures after all.

You cannot have a revolution without raising the consciousness of the workers because they are the true victims of exploitation.

You cannot have a revolution without a body, you cannot have a revolution without the people.

Dissent is the core of the revolution, agitation is its mind and the working class consciousness is its body.

Do not become overly gratified with your own knowledge base, it is meaningless if it does not spread, circulate and motivate.

Do not become overly self-satisfied with your own political consciousness, bring others, teach others, enlighten others.

You cannot spark rebellion without raising the consciousness of the working class.

You cannot spark a revolution without the working class on your side.

The working class consciousness is the ultimate to key to any revolutionary movement.

The working class must learn to become a threat to the interests of the upper class.

Dissent is the mother of all change, without mass dissent we will rot away waiting for the capitalists to starve us to death.

Your job is to raise the political consciousness of the people, because political consciousness is the ultimate enemy of conformity.
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On the homefront I am making it through each day. Mainly I am waiting to get onto SSI so I can then move out of where I am at now and get a place of my own so I can have some peace and quiet in order to take better take care of my personal health, concentrate on my typing stuff out and continue to raise mass consciousness. It ain't brain surgery!

Plus, it would be nice to have a lady in my life with whom I can share my life with, but without being obsessed with her or fixated exclusively on her. Am I asking too much? No. not to me. So many folks are caught up in personal relationships that drain the soul. We must use our energies to raise consciousness and help create a new brave world! Revolution in our lifetime!

BTW: There is nothing inherently wrong with a naked picture of a naked female. We are so screwed up in so many ways that many are ashamed of the natural nakedness of their own bodies.

Friday, December 30, 2011
@3:20 PM ~ Here at Sacra Central Library. Tomorrow is New Year's Eve. I am looking forward to the new year, hope my SSI is approved so I can be into my own place to myself. I do want to get a vehicle but having my own 'home' is integral for my peace of mind now. I do not control my own air space where I am staying at and it gets difficult being around such insane indulgence as I witnessed being allowed. I am glad I have been able to last this long where I am sleeping at at night.

Sometimes I wonder about my own usefulness. I have a deep need for wanting to be useful and helpful to others. Maybe it is a kind of deprived parental urge in me. I know I should not baby adults. I feel I am of some use when I write about stuff that is going on in the world. Sometimes I wonder if I am reaching anyone, other times I feel good when I am reaching myself and pray that there is a Creator who feels love and compassion for me. I need help!

I do not have any plans for spending New Year's Eve. I will just keep on enduring, trying to meet my basics needs and continue working on my health, especially my mental-spiritual health. I know I have other stuff I need to finish writing. For all my time and energy I have spent being online I feel that I am not getting as much as I could have out of it, especially in terms of feedback. At other times I feel as if I am pecking away here typing for those who will come after me, after I am dead and gone. Is that morbid? I do want to live long enough to see the revolution happen in my lifetime. In fact, Global Revolution in my lifetime is a part of the driving force in my even being alive.

My Amigo Trigger just came by here in person. He will give me a ride back home so that is a blessing. We will see what we will see. Nada mas ahora!

Sabbath, December 31, 2011
@12:07 PM ~ Now at Sacra Central Library in my favorite spot on the 4th Floor. We saw 'Straw Dogs' last night on DVD at 'home'. Today is a clear sunny day. In fact, we have hardly had any rain this year. This will be my last Blog Entry for the year. It has been a long heavy year for me. I suppose it has been a heavy year for many folks, especially those who have been in situations of revolt and social turmoil.

On a daily basis I practice being in my being, meditating on beingness and not allowing the insanity of the world disrupt my inner sense of being. I try to be peaceful within, without jumping to wild conclusions without clear perception. I am surely not exactly where I want to be in life, yet I still keep my self-esteem. For me, typing my thoughts out has been a great sources of therapy for me. I do not try to be perfect all the time, I just try to be clear, concise, honest and natural in my communications.
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Online Journal= December 01-15, 2011 via @Peta_de_Aztlan

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Thursday, December 01, 2011
@10:15 AM ~I am at the Arcade Public Library right now. Plan to be here until it closes at 6 PM. It is another day here upon Mother Earth. So far I have not received my EBT Allocation for December. Right now I am trying not to get manic over it. I become increasingly hateful towards the whole corrupt sick system of the present government. I need to not let my emotions overpower my reason.

General Information and Referral for DHA (Dept. of Human Assistance):
http://www.dhaweb.saccounty.net/

Cal-Fresh Benefits ~
Sacramento (916) 874-2256 ~Galt (209) 745-3484 ~ N. Sacramento (916) 648-0894
(916) 874-3100 or (209) 744-0499 ~Email: sacdha@saccounty.net

Job Central 24-Hour Job Line ~ (916) 875-3333
Ombudsperson~ (916) 875-3555 ~Email: DHA-Ombudsperson@saccounty.net
Webmaster ~Email: sacdha@saccounty.net

@1:51 PM ~Still here in this Library. Did some online research about different subjects. Am really trying not to allow myself to slip down into any major depression. Reality itself can be depressing enough as it is.

@4:18 PM ~Good news and anxiety relief. Called GA Number and my 'allowance' is scheduled to be released on December 3rd. Life goes on. Will continue to post on matters that are more of a personal nature here, plus on Twitter and Facebook.

Friday, December 02, 2011
@3:00 PM ~ Here now at Sacra Central Public Library. Stay alert, the world needs more lerts.

I created a new Yahoo Group @ http://groups.yahoo.com/group/help-matrix/

The beauty of Yahoo is that I can easily post an article to a Group I monitor and also to a Google Blog at the same time. We must learn how to better connect at various interconnection points when we are online and offline via Mobile Phones. I remember how Mobile Phones or Cell Phones were utilized for text-messaging for past Immigrant Rights rallies, esp. in LA. Naturally our on-going dialogue is key and an essential element for thrusts towards mass liberation. No one being has all the answers.

Sabbath, December 3, 2001
@10:47 AM ~Here now at the Arcade Public Library in my favorite spot in front of the American flag. I will consider myself an American when the America of the USA embraces all of the Americas, including Mexico, Central America and South America.

Last night I helped to decorate the Christmas tree for youngster Rick. He is really excited and even obsessed with the whole Christmas Holidays, esp. because he awaits Christmas presents. I remind him that Jesus Christ is the reason for the season.

I am feeling pretty good. I am just happy when there are no major problems or a major crisis in my life. It has often been chaotic and worrisome in the past. I avoid the trifles of trouble makers, seek my own counsel and help others as I can without being a co-dependent.

Monday, Deciembre 05, 2011
@3:00 PM ~ Got online at Temple Cafe in Downtown Sacramento. Got large Coffee for $2.50 ~ http://www.templecoffee.com/ ~

I still wrestle with accepting the fact that I have at least a mild case of bi-polar. I wonder how many just have not been diagnosed?

I was able to extract $100 bucks from my EBT Card at BofA. Paid my Mobile Phone bill and have about $100 until next month. I closed my BofA Checking and Savings Account last month. So I am winging it for now. I am unemployed on GA right now. i

I am wrestling with my bi-polar today ~or at least the tension between being manic and being depressed. Holidays can be hard for me. Nostalgic memories.

Article: U.S. has highest bipolar rate in 11-nation study
http://edition.cnn.com/2011/HEALTH/03/07/US.highest.bipolar.rates/index.html

Tuesday, December 06, 2011
@10:30 AM ~ I am here in my favorite far corner spot at the Arcade Library. Joy! It is open to 8 PM. Yesterday I felt a little manic at times, then switched over to being a bit depressed. Had to dwell in my being without overthinking. Sometimes I just need to engage in physical exercise more.

One of my favorite sayings is, "Sharing is caring!" Imagine if we all shared the earth's natural resources with each as one family of humankind.

Creative inspiration comes all of a sudden from a divine cosmic space where potential dwells between feeling & thinking!

Wednesday, December 07, 2011
@5:33 PM ~ @SactoPlaces I am now at Arcade Library on Marconi Avenue. It stays open until 8 PM this evening!@Peta_de_Aztlan

Having bi-polar tendencies, some days are better than other days. Mood swings are sometimes manic, sometimes depressed. Probably best to be the hyphen in bi-polar!

BI-POLAR DISORDER LINKS:
Bi-Polar Disorder > http://bit.ly/b8sP6 ~

Life, Love and Bipolar > http://www.lifeloveandbipolar.com/ ~

Bipolar Disorder (Manic Depression)~Psych Central > http://bit.ly/cdw73g

DHD, Control Freak, Or Both? By Zoë Kessler, BA, B.Ed. > http://bit.ly/w3P7Md @ChickADD44

I went to my Guesthouse Appointment with Sister Jerri today and it went well. I found out that I still have Medical Benefits, though I am not in the process of appealing my First Denial from SSI. I have two more appointments tomorrow that could be critical for me in relation to my eventually qualifying for SSI.

I opened up to Jerri today. I told her that when I get manic I can have a homicidal tendency at the extreme and when I get in a depressed mood I can have a suicidal tendency or ideation with no actual plan in place.

Earlier today I saw a couple of Brothers from Carol's Place. Apparently they are now permanent residents there, at least until their SSI is Finalized. I may check it out for myself. I appreciate staying where I am right now, but it has its downers sleeping on the couch at night in the living room and a few other bummers. I do not want to be a burden on anyone. I am use to living independently without depending on anyone else to any real degree.

For me, typing is great therapy. I am actually a typer, not really a writer for I actually seldom write with pen and paper. I approach connected reality on three (3) levels: online, offline and inline in meditation. It is a balance that I try to keep for my spiritual health. Sometimes we can be so strung out online that we neglect our loved ones or neglect other daily living tasks. The Internet can easily become addictive, though we need to have a working definition of addiction and not simply over-generalize. We need to spend time offline away from our devices and cut any umbilical cord to our cell phones or mobile phones on a daily basis. Sometimes our communication devices can be instruments that block or hinder direct face-to-face communications with our loved ones. I guess there are benefits to my being single and unattached to any female now. At least I do not have a spouse to give me guilt trips!

Friday, December 09, 2011
@5:05 PM ~I am now in my favorite far corner spot situated at a table myself in front of the U.S. flag at the Arcade Public Library.

Yesterday was an interesting day. I saw a couple of SSI staff members as part of my SSI Appeal Process and have another appointment with Euwing Diagnostics soon. In a way it looks more favorable in that I may be approved for my SSI Disability based primarily upon my bi-polar disorder and other factors. This could all take a month or more. Time will tell. I am just trying to stay aboveground and make it through each day. It's complicated. Sometimes I feel manic and sometimes I feel depressed. When I am manic to the extreme I feel that certain conditions could make me feel homicidal towards a perceived threat from a person. When I am in an extreme depressed state I can get a suicidal ideation. At least when I am depressed I really suffer from low self-esteem and life for me seems to be a real downer. I do not actually act upon these moods, but the potentiality is present, especially a homicidal tendency when I perceive a real or imagine threat to my person. I will always uphold my right to self-defense by any means mandatory. Tomorrow should be another interesting day. See Below!

Excerpts below ~Peta
The December 2011 Total Lunar Eclipse Full Moon of Gemini-Sagittarius Pt. 2 - Reorienting, Escaping, and Learning What's Valuable~ http://bit.ly/vt49HD
by Robert Wilkinson

This Full Moon Total Eclipse at 19 Sagittarius-Gemini gives us special circumstances and intuitive flashes into a bigger life. This Lunar Eclipse is the launch pad for 3 1/2 months of revelation, reorientation, and techniques of externalizing "seed knowledge."...

A brief overview: the period ruled by this Full Moon Total Lunar Eclipse will illuminate our vision of a greater truth, broader future, or philosophical-spiritual possibilities and show us the way to techniques of getting to the heart of any matter. We will find a higher or broader knowledge worth sharing, found through liberating ourselves from old "polluted conditions."...

Because the New Moon preceding the Full Moon always represents the seed forms that are brought to surface at and after the Full Moon, please check out The Solar Eclipse at 3 Sagittarius November 24-25, 2011 Pt. 1 - Who Does It Affect and for How Long? There's more at The Solar Eclipse at 3 Sagittarius November 24-25, 2011 Pt. 2 - How Will It Manifest? and The Solar Eclipse at 3 Sagittarius November 24-25, 2011 Pt. 3 - Signs, Sabian Symbols, and What It All Means.

As we are still under the influence of both the July 2010 Solar Eclipse in Cancer, the January 2011 Solar Eclipse in Capricorn, the very powerful June 1 Grand Irrationality Solar Eclipse in Gemini, the weaker one in Cancer, and the one linked above, you may want to review the numerous articles in the archives concerning those long term influences....

Full Moons heighten feelings, due to the opposition of the Moon and the Sun. This particular Lunation has no other oppositions, decreasing the polarization and realization potential.

In fact, other than the again-forming long term Uranus square Pluto, this Eclipse has no significantly difficult aspects in play between any of the planets. That decreases the friction, and with the wide but powerful Grand Air Trine featuring the Moon, Saturn, and Neptune, should prove pretty smooth in terms of communication, mental movement, and discoveries that harmonize with the emergent archetype we've been living since Summer 2010.

As that Eclipse will be in force for several years, you can expect the effects to continue for quite a while. The whole world is at a critical turning point where we must find compassionate ways to link with others to assist the whole to survive through a rough patch. Collectively humanity is "emerging from its chrysalis" and preparing to give wings to the Aquarian Age, inch by inch, over the next few decades.

From here we move forward, individually and collectively, within the broader idea-field emerging in the void of what's been shut down the past 6 months. These next few months ground the wisdom of the past in simple, practical, stable forms..."

He goes on to say that this degree is about "contacting the all-human planetary Mind underlying any cultural and personal mentality," where we find forms of Source material that are externalized "archetypal knowledge and wisdom." These are "seed ideas" that can help us grow, producing refined cultural values and expression.

Here's what I've offered so far about this Eclipse:
Astrology in December 2011 and January 2012 - A Sagittarius-Gemini Total Lunar Eclipse Is On The Way!
The December 2011 Total Lunar Eclipse Full Moon of Gemini-Sagittarius Pt. 1 - Seed Ideas Showing Us the Need to Reorient And Move
© Copyright 2011 Robert Wilkinson

@5:18 PM ~At 'Camp' the situation is getting a little more complicated. I am in a situation where I cannot really relax as I wish I could at times. I miss my little catnap of earlier times. Thus, I am often a bit sleep deprived. Naturally this kind of hinders my powers of concentration. I do not really like to be around people in a home or personal setting all the time. I appreciate the peace of simply solitude, away from the maddening crowd.

Saturday, December 10, 2011
@1:37 PM ~ At Arcade Library. We endure each day, remain appreciative but long to have my own home where I can rest, type and research without dumb distractions. I do not want to merely complain. I know we live our choices out in our lives, though there can be other factors beyond our immediate control.

Christmas time is a stressful emotional time for me and I suppose many others. It is like a country-wide mania that sweeps the land. During Christmas there is the stress of simply not having the money to spent on gifts for loved ones. Money is tight. Let us give of our hearts, of our spirits and of our personal presence to others we cherish in our lives. Express your love.

Let us keep in mind and in our hearts that the birth of Jesus Christ is the reason for the season, whether one is a believer or not. I believe in the love Jesus Christ of Nazareth, but am not simply labeled and defined as a Christian. I avoid fanaticism.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011
@1:34 PM ~ I had an appt. with Ewing Diagnostics at noon, but ended up going to the wrong old address for them. I had to re-schedule for next Tuesday at their new location on 900 Fulton Avenue. So I am blessed to be here now at the Arcade Library.

I just had a conversation with a Sister Krystal who has an interesting case. There are so many people who has interesting cases involving custody rights and so much other related issues. We shared phone numbers. I have seen her before and hope we can become friends in times of need. So many folks are walking around with unresolved issues.

I had a good night's sleep. Sleep is a such a sacred need. At the 'hideout' we now only have the Papa Bear, Mama Bear and the Big Baby Bear. I have some cash and food allowance on my EBT Card. I have very little personal possessions with me these days. I have lost or discarded so much of my former possessions. I had some old pictures but I do not even know where they are. I have some boxes of stuff up with my Brother Gallo who lives near Fiddletown in Amador County. In a real way I feel very much in a kind of exile.

I woke up today seeing clearly the need for me to work on my Inner Being. First I take the time to feel being in my being without dumb distractions.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011
@12:06 PM ~Now at Central Library. I thought I had an appt. with Guesthouse, called first and found out that I did not. So I have the opportunity to do some typing here today.

I am learning better how to go with the flow while being conscious of my general direction. I am convinced that I am different from most people. I see so much irrelevance in what others are so hung up on or obsessed with in the world. I try to avoid any forms of obsession or fanaticism. I am sometimes obsessed with the concept of revolution, but have learned to rein in my proclivity in that direction.

I will be so glad when all this Xmas mania is over and life can go back to a semblance of normalcy. I accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior based upon a pray I had in reverence to Him years ago as I prayed for his help and guidance on my knees by the Sacramento River on lonely dark night. Much has gone down the river since those times.

@7:00 PM ~ Here at Arcade Library in a good spot. I had no appt. as I thought I did have today with Staff Jerri Grosser. Scheduled future appts. with my Service Coordinator Eric and with the Guest House Doctor or representative of for me to get my Prescription Filled legitimately.

I feel kind of manic today. Seems the SSI route will take at least a month or more to get settled one way or the other. Will keep my feelers ready for a meaningful job in the counseling field. I have the actual experience, hard core experience, from my own life experiences, especially from my years working at the Salvation Army.

Some days it is all I can do to just keep the faith ~in myself, in the power of love and in the Creator.

Thursday, December 15, 2011
Well we are half way through this month. I am looking forward to the new year and hopefully new loves. Sometimes the loving heart is a lonely hunter.
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Humane Liberation Party Portal
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Checking In ~from Peter S. Lopez AKA Peta

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Hola John! It was good seeing you after the CASA 12-Steps Meeting last Sunday.
I know being an employee there one never has enough time to do what one wants to or needs to do on any given work day. Or at least when one is on the clock. I look at work far different than most. My work is to help raise collective humane consciousness, help others as I can in my life and continue to work on my own Spiritual Evolution as a humane being and creature of the Creator.
Here is my Phone Number: 916-604-2471

Venceremos! We Will Win!
Peta_de_Aztlan
Sacramento, California
Email: peter.lopez51@yahoo.com
http://twitter.com/Peta_de_Aztlan
http://www.facebook.com/Peta51
http://help-matrix.ning.com/
"Those who make peaceful revolution impossible, make violent revolution inevitable."~ President John F.Kennedy ~ c/s

Journal= November 16-30, 2011 via @Peta_de_Aztlan

2011-11-30T13:30:00.000-08:00

http://bit.ly/suGO64

On Web http://www.occupysacto.org
On Twitter @OccupySacto ~ https://twitter.com/#!/OccupySacto

Wednesday, November 16, 2011
@5:32 PM ~ My Amiga made me some great tacos and a big birthday cake yesterday. Plus, gave me a few little presents. She is a great blessing in my life. We get along good, though there is a subtle tension that in a way helps us relate to each other. She is my oldest friend in my life.

As usual, I have been here at the Arcade Library doing stuff that to me I consider 'work'. I am glad that I am no longer a wage-slave, though I would not be opposed to a decent job as a Counselor. Alas, I have no official degree. Besides, I am so weary of working for selfish fools, especially money hungry management personnel who supposedly work in a non-profit organization. I am on General Assistance right now and I do get Food Allowance via my EBT Card. I will get by one day at a time. There is so much hypocrisy in the world today. No wonder why so many of the youth seem to be so confused without any good role models.

@7:10 PM ~It has been a good long day here at the Library. I feel like going into Downtown tomorrow. I hope the weather will cooperate. Weather is so much like life, often unpredictable and out of our immediate control.

Thursday, November 17, 2011
@12:31 PM ~ I slept well last night, woke up later and here I am in the far corner of the Arden Library, my favorite spot here.

It can be difficult where I am at night, but it is a blessing not to be stuck outside in the cold. I try to make the best of it. Coming here to the local library nearby is a great blessing. I will try to keep comments about my home life situation confined to my spiritual evolution in relation to my own consciousness. I hope I do not seem overly egotistical to anyone who may happen to read this, but to understand myself as much as I can is important to me.

Today is the 2-month Anniversary of the Occupation Wall Street Movement. There will be a lot of stuff going on. From afar I will check it out via the Internet and report relevant News Links and Articles to others via Twitter and Facebook.

@5:00 PM ~ Still here at the Library. Went outside earlier and called my Aunt Laurie to wish my Uncle Armando a Happy Birthday, his is today, plus a belated one for my Cousin Armando. I do need to visit my blood family ~though they have not been of any solvent help as I struggle through this homeless refugee period of my life. I am blessed with blessings now that I must appreciate. It is just life and it is for the living.

Friday, November 18, 2011
@2:40 PM ~ Here at Sacra Central Library on 4th Floor. I am staying in my conscious being here now, trying not to worry about what I cannot control and taking the time to write in my Journal here online.

On Twitter I am @Peta_de_Aztlan ~ https://twitter.com/#!/Peta_de_Aztlan and now have 1616 Followers, though I prefer the concept of Co-Creators.

Consciousness-wise I have come so far in my humane beingness, yet I know I have so so far to go. I can 'feel' horizons up ahead. I sincerely believe we can have positive effects on life as we continue to develop and expand our collective consciousness. It could very well be that the main battles to be fought in life are in the realms of consciousness, not in the external world alone. All of us must come to understand the significance of all us living beings being of the same living family upon this one planet. On a global level we must expand our consciousness far beyond the narrow restrictions of concepts related to one's nationality or religiosity. The global Amerikan Empire precludes the existence of any truly viable independent nation ~see foreign occupied zones called colonies. As the Amerikan Empire is globalwide or worldwide any serious resistance to its unjust powers must also be global. If one cannot grasp the concept of the cosmos it is hoped that one can at least grasp the worldwide nature of the struggles going on upon earth as being global.

It behooves us as thinking animals to be aware of what is happening on this spinning planet, not to be apathetic. Apathy is a social disease. Yes, despite all our civil pretensions, we human beings are still animals in many ways, especially in waging war against each other.

@4:30 PM ~ The weather looks like rain with a storm coming. I think I will just head back to Camp and ensure. Nada mas ahora!

Saturday, November 19, 2011
@10:58 AM ~ I am now at the local Library. Yesterday evening I went to the A.A. Meeting of Group One by 28th & T Streets. It was a good meeting as meetings go, plus it was a Birthday Meeting. Sister Connie shared and I met some others folks. Fortunately, Brother Toro showed up and I got a ride 'home' from him. Life is what it is!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011
@11:25 AM ~ I am now at Sacra Central Library. It is a clear sunny day and the weather feels cool and crisp, perfect weather for Sacramento. Last Sunday my Amigo Toro gave me a ride to the CASA Meeting at Sally's and it was a good one, especially when I handle it in a spiritual manner with an Emphasis on the Creator and spiritual healing. I do not cotton to the old traditional way of approaching recovery from substance addiction via A.A. or N.A. It makes common sense to me that we must recognize the social conditions that make someone want to escape its reality by indulging in alcohol or drugs, especially street drugs.

My present housing situation seems precarious as I do not really have my own home or even my own room right now. I sleep on a couch provided from a friend. It is a very humbling experience. I am glad I have my EBT Card and can help with food and have a little cash on it. I am looking forward to registering my SSI Appeal which will be next week with Jerry Grosser. At times I think of the idea of getting a regular job, but that could jeopardize my receiving General Assistance right now and my SSI Appeal as I am considering myself unemployable in relation to the regular job market. Posting stuff on the Internet and typing therapy helps to bolster up my sometimes flagging self-esteem. I am a little sleepy right now but feel good just to be here now.

We must be aware of the Holidays blues and not let it have a negative impact on our personal consciousness, especially when we do not have the money to get the gifts we might want to get for our loved ones. I just endure day-by-day and night-by-night with hopes for a better brighter future.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011
@11:15 AM ~ I am now at Sacra Central Library.
Link= http://www.saclibrary.org/?pageId=1

It is a cloudy day here. Went by Occupy Sacra for a bit, took a few pictures and talked to a few folks there, including the Gentle Giant. He is staying at a place where he was referred to by Carol's Place. He is only at GA right now. Because of his housing situation he may not qualify for Food Stamps via his EBT Card. Actually there are no Food Stamps as before as Food Allowance is distributed via an EBT Card to welfare recipients. According to my friend there is drug abuse going on at a place in East Sac managed by a lady named Ophelia. I guess they do not kick them out if they are using, but this manner of operating makes it extremely difficult for those who are trying to abstain from drug abuse and who are trying to work a solid recovery program. Man, there is so much stuff going on in the world that most of us do not even have a clue about.

So many folks are just trying to survive, meet their survival needs and avoid becoming homeless in the world I live in. Of course, these kinds of issues vary in accordance with one's existential reality.

My Amiga and her son are planning to be go down south to Fresno this evening until Saturday for the Thanksgiving Holiday. Thus, I will be blessed to having the casa for myself if I stay around there. Right now when I spend the night there I am sleeping on the couch. I am relatively homeless in the sense of not having my own home. Thus, I depend upon the charity of others. It can be difficult at times. I have learned to be humble and appreciative for any blessings that are bestowed upon me. I keep my faith in the Creator as a creature of the Creator. So I will eat what a I can when and where I can to survive. Eating is more of a matter of eating to survive when I am hungry, not eating in a gluttonous way. I live my life one moment at a time.

November 23, 2011 ~ Transforming through Independence ~Scorpio Daily Horoscope
http://www.dailyom.com/articles/2/2011/31138.html

You could enjoy a strong sense of independence today and feel the need to control your own destiny. This mind-set could have you questioning various facets of your life and considering big changes that will better satisfy your true desires. If you can eliminate distractions and spend some focused time alone today, you should be able to achieve a deeper sense of clarity that helps you make some solid decisions. You might first begin by releasing all confused thoughts from your mind and then thinking about each area of your life to determine your level of satisfaction. With any unsatisfactory situations, think about the ways you could change them for the better or ways to replace them altogether.

Reviewing our life circumstances with the intention to make them more satisfying helps us feel more in control of our destiny. While we may have created some of our existing circumstances because they served our needs at the time, we may have fallen unintentionally into others that don't satisfy our true desires. If we take a few minutes to explore the various aspects of our lives and determine whether they reflect our current needs, we are able to discern the best changes to make our lives more satisfying. At the same time, we end up feeling more empowered and in control of our lives rather than being held captive by a sense of futility. Your life will transform in amazing ways if you exert your independence and create circumstances that reflect your true desires today.

@4:01 PM ~Feeling a little sleepy now. Probably need to get out of here, get some fresh air and then head back to 'Camp'. Might go out and walk around for a bit and make sure I catch the right bus at the right time. I had a manic episode yesterday evening after dark. I do miss living downtown. Urban-suburbia holds no endearment in my heart.

Thursday, November 24, 2011
@2 PM ~ Today is Thanksgiving Day! I am in a thankful spirit right now. I am not at where I consider my own home for now as where I am at now it is not really my own private home. I am relatively homeless, sleeping on a couch. Nevertheless, I am extremely thankful for my blessings. I plan to post this onto my blog when I can get back onto the Internet in the future. I am typing on my own actual Compaq Desktop right, instead of my Dell Laptop as usual. I need to be mindful and for security reasons keep some matters strictly to myself and a select few other individuals.

@9:50 PM ~ I was blessed by Brother Adam L. coming by today. He just left to go back up the hill to where he lives. He is like a son to me. I have known him since he was a child. So we spent the day together here, conversing about various subjects and watching football on TV. The 49ers, Adam’s favorite team, lost to the Ravens. It was a big surprise when he popped up over here. I have not seen him for a long time. We are all going through our own particular struggles. When we have someone in our lives that we trust and respect it makes the struggling easier to bear.

I went to bed extremely late last night for me, around 3:00 PM. I still woke up early about 8:30 AM. Today was a pretty relaxing day. I just felt so good being surprised by Adam’s unexpected visit on Thanksgiving Day. Truly, God is good. Nada mas ahora.

Friday, November 25, 2011
@8:11 PM ~ It has been a pleasant quiet day here with no disturbances. No call from Geri from Fresno. I figure the family is doing well. Maybe she just did not want to bother me or is simply just enjoying being around her family as they enjoy being around her. So today I just saw a few movies, snacked every now and then, did some Tweeting via my Mobile Phone and I imagine I will on my own here for tonight.

I set up my speakers and can use my ITunes now. At least I have my Desktop set-up here. I have work to do in the future. I wish I had a decent regular job in harmony with my personal interests right now. To me, just posting news items and insights onto the Net is a way of contributing to life. It helps me feel that I am of some little use to others. I feel that I should contribute in what ways that I can to help keep my self-esteem up. I am doing well just to avoid any down depressed moods, plus I must be careful not to allow myself to slip into any kind of manic state.

Last night when I was trying to sleep I realized after about a half hour that sleep was escaping me. Then I realized that I had not taken my little Seroquel, got up on my way to the restroom, took it where I had left it on a lamp stand, then I hopped back on the couch and was able to sleep through the night.

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Tomorrow is only the Sabbath. I am not sure exactly what I will do. The local public library is closed because of the Thanksgiving Holiday. I may go downtown just to escape from this camp for the day. Time will tell.

I am learning better to live in the moment, appreciate my beingness without having to deal with any major or minor crisis and just do what I can to make it through the day. I am ready to go in any direction or apply myself to any job that I believe is in harmony with the Lord’s will. The mind leaves much to be desired and is often overrated.

Sunday, November 27, 2011
@9:54PM ~ We had our usual CASA Meeting this evening. It went well, especially when we have the brothers from ARC attend after their 12-Steps Meeting at Quinn Cottages. It is important for people who are serious about recovery to understand that the whole program is based upon the tried-and-true 12-Steps first popularized by Alcoholics Anonymous. Our CASA 12-Steps Program is has been inspired by the 12-Steps Program of A.A., N.A., D.R.A. (Dual Recovery Anonymous). The CASA 12-Steps Program itself with its Biblical Scriptures for each of the 12-Steps has been of help to many over the years. It is important to have a solid spiritual approach to our progressive recovery with an eye for attaining true liberty from the perils of our addiction.

My Amiga is still down in Fresno. She has not come back yet since she and Rick left last Wednesday night. I hope all is well. I have not talked to her over the phone, though I have called down via Veronica’s phone number with no response. I figure they are well and are just enjoying the company of each other.

Tomorrow is Monday. I may go downtown to a Café shop and get online via my laptop. It has been a few days since I have been online. Although I have posted a few little things via my mobile phone onto Facebook and Twitter a bit. It has gotten so I feel kind of disconnected from stuff when I am not online for any length of time. I imagine my Email Programs are pretty full. Life for me is being online via the Internet, offline doing other stuff and inline practicing my meditation. We are triue beings composed of a mind, body and soul.

I saw The Bucket List again today and was truly touched to experience it again. It is a great movie with Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman that I recommend for us all to see and reflect upon. Life can be such a short distance between our first birth and our eventual death. We should be and do what we feel we need to be and do while we are still alive, breathing and aboveground. Life is so precious. We should appreciate our lives with the sacredness that life deserves.

@11:50 PM ~ A special treat tonight! An NCIS Marathon on Cable! I know, I know, I need to get more of a life. I checked out another small Compaq laptop I have that I rarely use. Nada mas ahora!

Monday, November 28, 2011
@8:38 PM ~ Here with Rick right now. Annabelle and him came back home late last night. It was good to have them back. Anna’s daughter Christina drove them both back up here to Sacramento from Fresno.

Today I went into town, went to Temple Café shop, saw my Brother Bobby and learned how to post onto Facebook and onto Twitter with my little MP (Mobile Phone). Nada mas ahora!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011
@2:25 PM ~ I am here at my favorite online spot at the Sacra Central Library on the 4th Floor. I just like the immediate environment around here.

Earlier around 1 PM I went to my Guesthouse Appointment with Jerri. I thought I was going to do my appeal. She ended up saying that I need to see a psych-person at Guesthouse first and had reminded me that I had not made earlier appointments. I responded by telling her that I did not make those appointments because I had to see about getting onto GA (General Assistance) and stuff with the Department of Human Assistance (formerly simply called The Welfare Department). In relation to my SSI Case nothing much has changed in terms of my seeking psychiatric help via Guesthouse. I guess I have to have more of a paper trail. I now have an appointment in early December, then one shortly after with Jerri, then she will do the appeal for me. I trust her and believe that she is working in my best interest in relation to my wanting to get onto SSI Disability based upon my being bi-polar.

Actually I have symptoms of a few disorders: manic-depressive disorder or bi-polar; ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyper-activity Disorder) and OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). Keep in mind that I am now 60 years old, the job market in my usual field is tight and I just want to have a room with a view so I can type.

I will just endure, continue to educate myself and enjoy life as I can. The Holidays Season can be a real downer for me. I will try to consciously avoid the whole drab commercialism of it all. These are tough times for many. It is true that our personal attitude towards our lives has a lot to do with how we endure it all.

Sometimes my hopes and dreams seem so far away from the existential reality that I live in. I must try to make the best of any situation I am in, keep a positive attitude and continue to help others as I can in order to stay off the self-pity pot. It does hinder job-wise not having a formal college degree of any kind. However, I have collected a few gems of wisdom along the road of my life.e

I could be satisfied with only SSI Disability for Income and devise other legal ways of making some money, preferably by writing, or rather, typing. I will continue to plow through the social bullshit, keep open to cosmic suggestions and do what I can to help others as I help myself.

Some days I struggle more with depression than other days. Sometimes I deal with depression by trying to stay busy on the Net, appreciating my blessings and keeping a positive attitude about life in general. I truly believe than Amerika is in a Great Depression. Thank God the Occupy Wall Street Movement gives some up in its resistance against corporate capitalism.

Wednesday, November 20, 2011
@11:41 AM ~Now at Arcade Public Library in my favorite spot in the back corner with my own little space zone for now. I can see the need for people to access the Internet for whatever reasons. Internet Power is one of our strongest weapons among our tools to change and transform connected reality. It can be a weapon against darkness and a tool for social change.

On a personal level, it has been about a month since I arrived at what I call my 'Camp'. After midnight tomorrow on December 1st I will know whether I still get my GA Allotment or not. If so that will be cool, though I have some worry and concern about it. Calling a given aspect of life a concern instead of a worry does not change the worrisome nature of it.

The quandary I am in involves my wanting to get onto SSI Disability based upon my being unemployable because of my mental illness, being in a bad labor market in my usual occupation and knowing that if I were to obtain a job that that very fact could automatically jeopardize my claim to be unemployable. For now I can continue to get County General Assistance because my SSI Case is still in the process of appeal. It is more than a hustle for me. It is a matter of having some emotional and psychiatric issues that make it hard for me to stick to a regular job. My former work at the Salvation Army as a Case Manager kind of suited my personality and blended in with my psychiatric disorders.

I daily deal with being bi-polar (manic-depressive), ADHD and OCD in my life. I manage it all pretty well on a good day. I generally remain conscious of my being, do various activities that enhance my consciousness and strive to stay in connected reality. At 60 Earth-years I am preparing for my eventual extinction from this existence here upon Earth. Thus, I try to take care of my health in general, hope to live a lot longer and will try to share with others what I can.

I want others to learn what they can from me so that they can avoid the traps and pitfalls that often befall many folks. I know that being honest, open and willing to share what is going on in our lives with others is healthy for me and my spiritual evolution.

Over time I have learned to not be obsessed with having stuff, with possessions, with being possessed by 'my' possessions. When I had to move out of my last apartment I went through some heavy manic states. I realized how much stuff I had that I never even used, a few books I ordered online via Amazon I never even got around to reading and good clothes I had I never even wore. Not to mention stuff in my refrigerator that I let rot away because I was too busy to eat it.

VIA Lamba OT: Job 1:20-22
http://aramaicpeshitta.com/OTtools/LamsaOT/18_job.htm

"20 Then Job arose, and rent his mantle, and shaved his head, and fell down upon the ground, and worshipped, 21 And he said, Naked I came out of my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return; the LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD. 22 In all these disasters, Job did not sin, nor did he blaspheme against the LORD."

I am at a stage in my life wherein I have learned to fully accept myself ~despite all the stuff I have said and done or have not said and done. I broke my crystal ball long ago, cannot clearly see the future, but I have mixed feelings about the future. And I can live with that.

Dr. Jung has taught me how to live with the natural tensions in life between the light and the darkness without getting overwhelmed by it all. I do not have to be perfect. I do not have to always be right. I have the right to make mistakes. I will continue to help people as I can along the way in this long life journey.

All I really want for myself in this war of life is to meet my survival needs and have a room with a nice view so I can type. I can let the rest go. I am striving to free myself of unnecessary attachments and unnecessary possessions. I have learned that possessions often end up possessing the possessor. So many cling to stuff they do not really need, others could use what they do not need, but many cling and covet what they do not even need.

Examine your life, do a personal inventory, decide what is really important to keep and what you need to let go.

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Read: Peta MAJOR changes in the next 2 weeks...

2011-11-28T15:08:00.001-08:00

On Mon, Nov 28, 2011 at 5:49 AM, Jenna <jenna@promo.saferequest.com> wrote:

Hi Peta,

I'm writing back to you because I've got some important news for you but first of all I want to tell you that I do not want to bother you with my emails and even if you subscribed on my website on 22 September 2010, you can unsubscribe whenever you like simply by clicking on this link: https://saferequest.com/removemail.php?c=r8vml&r=pro42.

So, back to my email, because I must tell you about something very important which I have discovered about you Peta.

Any competant astrologer has known for months that a major astrological event will soon occur in just a few days time. This event is a Jupiter Retrograde motion which will take place between the 13 December 2011 and the 9 January 2012. This astrological event is one of the most important of the whole year 2011 and it will have a number of important repercussions for many of us. You should take note of the fact that people in the United States will be particularly affected by this major event.

I came to realize that amongst all of the people living in the United States YOU WILL BE ONE OF THOSE people who will be most exposed to this astrological event which will occur in just a few days time and this is why I am contacting you today, to warn you of the consequences this event will have on your future Peta.

At any rate, this is a major astrological event for all of us which we must take into account and it is one of the major movements of 2011. We cannot afford to ignore it, you have probably already heard about it on the Net Peta, and you in particular must come to terms with the fact that this event will affect you much more than other people Peta. I will even go so far as to say that this event will have a direct impact on you Peta.

I really want you to understand I do not use these terms lightly, I came to this conclusion only after having analyzed your configuration in depth and I can confirm that you will be one of these people for whom the Jupiter Retrograde will have true repercussions.

Here are some details which should help to explain why I came to this conclusion.

Every time that a major astrological event swings around, as the case of the current Jupiter Retrograde, I pick up the birth details of all the people who have contacted me (as you did Peta a while ago) and I analyze the extent of this event's impact on each person.

When I got around to working on your configuration Peta (using the details you gave me, including your birthday 15 November 1951, your Zodiac sign Scorpio, your decan 3th decan and then the details which I could calculate from the various Psychic and Tarological readings I conducted as well as the numerological analysis I made which gave me the your Life Number Peta which is the number '6', a number which quite clearly shows that you are still in a rather difficult and sensitive period in your life and which confirms certain elements of your natal chart) and comparing and contrasting this work with your geographic location in the United States, I quickly came to realize with absolute certainty that you will be directly affected by Jupiter's Retrograde motion in just a few days time.

I looked at exactly how this event will affect you and as soon as I saw the strength of the impact I got in contact with you.

The Retrograde motion which will occur between the 13 December 2011 and 9 January 2012 will quite simply be THE START OF A BRAND NEW CYCLE IN YOUR LIFE ! You will feel the impact of this event in many different areas of your life Peta including your love-life and as far as your finances are concerned and this event is sure to bring you the positive and favorable changes that you have (too) long been waiting for.

I then started working on a Forecast reading for you Peta so that I could learn more about the impact of this Jupiter Retrograde on your life and this immediately showed me something very precise: between the 13 December 2011 and 9 January 2012, this period of 27 days, you must make SOME VERY IMPORTANT DECISIONS IN YOUR LIFE. You don't yet realize this but in just a few days time the decisions which you will make will lead you in a new and exciting direction in your life.

Yes Peta, I choose my words with care and I can definitely confirm that if you make just the right decisions over this period of 27 days then you will be able to reach a new turning point in your life. I must insist on the fact that the Jupiter Retrograde will have a positive impact on your life IF YOU KNOW THE RIGHT CHOICES TO MAKE because it seems that a great deal depends on the choices which you will make over the coming days. I know that a number of opportunities will be offered to you Peta and it is up to you to make the right choices to head in the right directions so that you can get yourself out of this negative cycle you have been in for some time now and which has thrown up a number of stumbling blocks in your life. To be more precise, this event could mark the start of a long and harmonious period in your life, full of positivity and opportunities.

I'm sure I'm not the only person who has warned you about this Peta, if you are in contact with other astrologers they must have told you the same thing. At any rate, you can ask these astrologers about this event and I'm sure that they will come to the same conculsions that I have. This is why I have chosen to contact you in priority Peta because this period of 27 days will soon come around, let me remind you that it will start on 13 December 2011, and it is important that you get yourself ready now. You cannot afford to make any wrong decisions or take any wrong directions over the next 27 days.

I know that you have begun to feel the energy that I can send you through these few words and I know how much you need change and energy in your life. You need to take new paths and head in new directions and you need positivity and innovation. It is no small coincidence that in just a few days time you will be under the influence of a major astrological event. You need to seize this opportunity to make a new start in your life, the Laws of the Universe have place this opportunity in front of you.

I want to be able to guide you Peta, I don't know exactly what these decisions are that you will have to make during this period of 27 days and I don't know which are the best directions to take but I DO WANT TO DETERMINE ALL OF THIS INFORMATION FOR YOU !!!

It is unthinkable that during such an important period in your life you are not properly helped and guided.

Peta, I offer to help you during this period and I will work on a very detailed Reading for you which will show you exactly what you can expect during these 27 days. I will show you which choices you must make and which decisions are important so that you can make the most of this very influential period which your astral configuration offers you between the 13 December 2011 and 9 January 2012. Don't leave things to chance, you need to be sure of your direction especially as far as your love-life and financial situation are concerned.

Peta, if you want me to I will work on a full reading for you in which I will go into detail about each of the points below. This is an analysis which will cover over 70 to 80 pages. Don't loose any more time, I know that you must start working NOW on everything you need to make the most of these 27 days in your life, the start of a new life for you!

In your reading I will show you:

- why this period between the 13 December 2011 and 9 January 2012 will be so important for you
- what you can expect day by day during the retrograde motion of Jupiter
- which decisions you must make
- why you have been blocked in the past and still have difficulties now
- what choices you should make and in which direction you should move
- how you can make sure that these 27 days will mark the start of a new phase in your life
- I will show you the answers to the questions you have about your love-life at this time
- I will show you how to resolve certain of your financial concerns
- I will give you all the details you expect about your love and financial life , but that's not all , I will also speak about other sides of your life in all areas....
- and I will show you day by day what you can expect from your future over the 12 coming months with precise information about the directions to take, the pitfalls to avoid, the opportunities to seize...

And this is not all. I will also work on a full reading of your personality Peta which will help you to understand yourself even better and develop the hidden potential you have and which is entirely unexploited at the moment. You'll be able to reveal your strengths and you'll discover skills you never knew you had. This otehr reading of your personality and your capacities will help you to know how others see you and how you can better interact with the people around you. You will be able to boost your aura, your persuasive powers and your self-confidence.

The Universe is throwing you an important chance Peta during this period between the 13 December 2011 and 9 January 2012 and if you want to seize this opportunity then I am here to help you.

So that you understand better, the Jupiter Retrograde means that Jupiter will shift into a backwards motion in the Sky, when seen from our Earth. Jupiter energy will then be inside the planet and this affects certain people more than others as is your case Peta, most particularly in relation to Jupiter's position at the moment of your birth and in your natal chart. >From an astrological point of view, this movement and this particular position is well known and it allows an individual to correct past errors. This is why the decisions you must make soon will be so influential Peta and why they will help you to push aside the blockages which have been slowing you down. You will be able to fly freely and take a brand new direction in life. You mustn't miss out on this opportunity Peta, you must make the most of this important 27 day period.

If you want to request my help you must ask me very soon because we do not have too much time left. I don't want to bother you any more and I won't contact you about this important period again and so if you want and need my help then you must ask me know by clicking on this link below:

https://saferequest.com/cgi-bin/retrograde_forecast_2011_1.cgi?c=r8vml&r=pro42&am=NDU%3D%0A

I look forward to hearing from you Peta

Jenna

Thank you for your Information. Am going through heavy changes already,
Love
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Don Peta-de-Aztlan
Sacramento, California
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On Turning 60-Earth Years Old

2011-11-15T13:51:00.000-08:00

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Today is Tuesday, November 15, 2011. I am now actually 60 Earth years old today. I do appreciate the fact of still being alive and breathing among the living ~though I do admit to having mixed feelings about life in general. Life is not all that it is played up to be when one is younger in years. Life can be full of odd sudden surprises with many twists and turns that take one in different directions not foreseen. Ultimately, life is what we make it and how we take it. We must take hold of our responsibility for living our life, live life as wholesome as possible and fight against any foe who dares to stand in the way of our freedom ~our spiritual liberation as humane beings.

My life has turned out better than I thought it would be when I was younger, especially in relation to the evolution of my personal consciousness. For me, a lot of life is about our consciousness, be it cosmic consciousness, collective consciousness or one's personal realm of consciousness.

I am glad that I was not content to be a wage-slave as so many others have who have lost their souls. Remember that the word 'boss' means 'Master'. I cannot call any mortal creature my Master. I hate all manifestations of authority that are unjust, unfair and devoid of humaneness.

Alas, I never did arrive at the 'happily married with children' state with a white picket fence around a suburban house. Nonetheless, I have loved some very beautiful women, have helped some young folks mature, admit to helping others evolve and have learned to think outside the cardboard box.

Long ago I made a conscious decision to cast my lot with the wretched of the earth, with the souls living in the misery of poverty, with the oppressed burdened by an evil world that seeks to rob them of humane dignity, with the repressed who fight for humane rights in the face of all forms of authoritarian fascism. The ultimate aim of authoritarian fascism is to destroy, defuse and/or distract all valid revolutionary consciousness.

I humbly asset that I feel and look pretty good in consideration of all that I have gone through in life. Over the years I have learned to go with the flow of life, yet being aware of the direction of the flow of life. My mind is like a streaming long river of consciousness ~though sometimes it wanders into deep dark bays. I mainly live in my subjective consciousness and remain open to making my subconscious conscious in awareness of my shadow aspects.

For sure, I am not exactly where I want to be in terms of material creature comforts. I have few material possessions of any monetary value. I do have great spiritual values that I treasure and I want to leave behind some gems of wisdom I have collected over the years. I do not even have my own home now, though I am blessed to be helped by a dear old female friend. I am free to travel the world!

I am grateful for having my mental sanity, my physical health and a strong spirit of resistance against the evil darkness of life. My resistance against the ruthlessness of dark evils helps to keep me alive, awake and aware. I will resist evilness until my last dying breath. I am a humane being, but I am not naive about ugly realities. I am irrevocably a man of these times!

I wish I would have been able to spend life peacefully growing flowers, writing love poems and helping to raise grandchildren, but such was not to be my fate, though that would of been an ideal life for me. I know that life rarely lives up to our ideals.

I was born on November 15, 1951. The Korean War was raging on and President Eisenhower was in the White House. My early years of growth were in the 50s in a loving family, then in the 60s I gradually started to wake up into what was going on in the real world outside. In the 70s, 80s and 90s, I lived life with gusto, worked in different jobs, support many humane rights causes and did what I could to help raise mass consciousness in my own way with the materials at hand.

I am still not ready to write any kind of definitive autobiography. I want to write one if only for my own self-reflection and self-clarification, not out of any egotism. I do live life on life's terms one day at a time with dreams for the future. I consider myself single, unattached and am prepared to go in any direction that I feel will be of most benefit to myself and others.

I remain a helper of the people. I am here on Mother Earth to help others as I can with what I can. I see no other valid meaningful purpose in life other than to help others. I strive to help others understand themselves in the real world. I am not into selfish narrow-minded individualism. I am into raising consciousness in different ways because I belief that many solvent solutions for life's many real problems are to be found in the realms of consciousness.

There are rational reasons why I decided long ago to remain single and unmarried, not to have a bunch of children running around that I was not taking care of. Today is also my one and only blood son's birthday: Camilo Esteban Lopez. He was born on November 15, 1971. Alas, his mean Mother took him from my presence long ago and thus there was a gap in my heart where his life with me would of been. I have filled that heartfelt gap in other ways. For me, my real family is the family of humanity, thus, I have a huge family.

I am motivated by pure love for the masses of people upon Mother Earth. So many folks are motivated by their own selfish inflated egos without considering the impact of their personal decisions on the lives of others in their lives. I was not going to rest content with my patron cushioned armchair and remote control. I was not going to be a good boy, a good phony patriot and turn a blind eye to the ugly evildoers of my times. I must adhere to the dictates of my conscience!

"Believe in life! Always human beings will live and progress to greater, broader, and fuller life."
~ WEB DuBois

If ye judge, judge me not by the great heights to which I have risen, but by the deep depths from which I have climbed. Nada mas ahora! ~ Che Peta

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Journal= November 1-15, 2011 via @Peta_de_Aztlan

2011-11-15T11:00:00.000-08:00

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Wednesday, November 2, 2011
@8:51 AM ~ Awake at Globe Mills and this should be my last day and I am sure the last time I am staying here. Life goes on within us and without us. Time to move!

@10:17 AM ~ Finally Toro just called and he should be here in about half an hour. So this is Che Peta signing off from here. I will type more on the other side!

@4:02 PM ~ I am now at the Arcade Library by Fulton Ave. and Marconi Ave. in Sacramento. To me it is a long ways from my usual haunts in Downtown Sacramento. Toro and I finally got it together enough for me to move my stuff to Annabelle’s where it is kind of piled up right now. I had about a van load of stuff. I travel lighter now more than ever. My Desktop Computer and Printer are safe and I have my Dell Laptop I am using here now.

I closed my Bank Account at Bank of America by 12th K Streets and feel good about it. It was quick and easy with no questions asked and no reasons given. I guess I looked like the kind of guys who would close his bank account.

I got a little bi-polar earlier, used mindful consciousness and I am feeling pretty good right now. I am relieved to be out of Globe Mills, know that more struggles await me but I am ready for whatever may come. There is only so much life can take from a man. I am alive, well and busy doing what I do.

I am a typist. Not really a writer too much because I am typing these words here. At lot of writers are not clear about that and thus I consider a so-called writer who is actually a typist really a typer to be accurate.

The Library here is open until 8 PM this evening. I now live right up the street. So I figure this will be one of my power spots in this area. Now is a good time to kind of do Personal Inventory and take stock of my general situation. I love the way typing stuff out helps relieve stress for me. Typing grounds me in my spirit, helps me to concentrate better and is on my best kind of therapy.

For now I want to make sure that I keep good relations with my Sister Annabelle. She is an ol' love and is my oldest friend. We have known each other for about 30 years and that is over half my lifetime. She knows me and I know her pretty well. I tend to be more open with sharing my thoughts with her. She has had her struggles in life and still struggles on a daily basis, especially with her Son Ricky who can be a handful. She is a patient hard-working woman with a lot of humane love in her heart.

Friday, November 04, 2011
@1:51 PM ~ I am alive and well. Now trying to get onto GA, they still have me on their rolls. I called Mattie over at Carol's Place. She said she faxed them this morning about my no longer being there so that should clear me for General Assistance. She assumed I was on SSI still and had not notified DHA-GA that I was no longer there. So apparently Carol's Place still got some monies in my name, which does not sit with me well. Alas, I must be grateful for whatever benefits come my way.

I will just live life as I have been . One day at a time with a vision for the future. I will use the Power of the Word to express myself, reach out to others and keep faith in Creator for my own continued Spiritual Evolution.

Occupy Oakland: A demonstrator waves a banner as rubbish burns at the Occupy Oakland

@3:10 PM ~ This is a pretty well utilized library and folks here seem to be of a better batch than over at Sacra Central Library. Nevertheless, I know dark happenings happen behind closed doors in suburbia and am not naive.

Sabbath, November 05, 2011
@2:08 PM ~ I appreciate just being able to be here now typing and stuff. This Library is pretty well visited by the public. I am glad to see so many people interested in being at the public library. I know the idea of there being Internet-connected computers here is a big draw.

Today is the Sabbath. I slept pretty well, but need to hit my bunk earlier than I do. I know a good night's sleep is a big part of our being healthy. Just checking in here. This is the Month of November. As usual a lot of people are looking forward to Thanksgiving Day and having a turkey feast. Time to check the news online.

Tuesday, November 08, 2011
@3:47 PM ~ Life goes on one day after the other. I finally got approved for my Food Allowance from DHA. We use to have the old Food Stamps when we had actually paper in order to redeem at local stores for our food, but it eventually became a major headache for the system with a lot of corruption by local stores and hustles by street folks. Now we get our allowance or crumbs via our EBT Card for our Food and/of our Cash Allocation.

Now it is not that I do not appreciate whatever benefits come my way to help me survive. I just know that the whole System has wasted trillions of tax-payer dollars on unjust wars and that the basic economic equation of the 'rich-get-richer and the poor-get-poorer' still prevails.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011
@12:16 PM ~ It is a clear sunny and chilly Humpday here for us. I am doing well considering my general personal situation. I got some funds on my EBT Card and am still deciding whether to buy a monthly pass this late in the month and whether to activate my mobile phone. Keep in mind that in my humble opinion so much of what people transmit is irrelevant to me. Of course, people are caught up in their own lives, their own survival struggles and yet they tend not to see the Big Picture. We all need each other to arrive at a a Collective Higher Consciousness.

Much of what needs to take place is within our own consciousness that is centered in our minds, yet ultimately consciousness dwells within our entire being.

@6:00 PM ~ Wow! My back is to the window outside, turned around and saw that it was already dark. Guess I need to start thinking about heading back to camp. Sometimes the evenings are real boring, but then I get hypnotized by the Boob Tube. I need to be able to just set up my Desktop Computer somewhere without being distracted. My Journal here now is pretty much materializing here online when I am on the Internet without having to first put it into a document.

Thursday, November 10, 2011
@11:30 AM ~ I am considering going back to school next semester at Sacramento City College or maybe even American River College. I have this relatively free time, awaiting my appointment with Jerri at Guest House later this November and want to have a kind of sign of personal progress. Actually, going to school with others is like being in pre-school as most college students seems to be so immature, non-political and socially apathetic.

Life goes on one day at a time. Tomorrow I plan to go to the DRA Meeting at Guest House with Eric, will get my mobile phone re-activated and need to branch out more. At least I need to get my Desktop up and running at 'Camp'.

Occupy Wall Street’s march to Washington, D.C.

Read more: http://www.nydailynews.com/news/national/occupy-wall-street-s-march-washington-begins-hitch-protesters-undeterred-article-1.975636#ixzz1dKijccct

Sabbath, November 12, 2011
@3:04 PM ~ I am now here at Sacra Central Library ~one of my favorite spots for accessing the Internet. I do miss the good ol' day when I had Internet Access at my own home in my former apartment, but I must be appreciative of what I am able to do. I am glad that I have no major health issues, though I still smoke tobacco.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011
@11:25 AM ~ I am now here at the Arcade Library on Marconi Avenue. It is open until 8 PM this evening. I will probably just be here until 6 PM, then head back to camp.

Today is my birthday. I am now sixty (60) years of age ~ I have been upon Mother Earth for sixty years. I still feel good. I want to focus more on my writing this year, try to stay on track and continue to evolve as a humane being.

My Amiga Geri is suppose to make me some tacos later. I appreciate all that I have been blessed with in my life. Life is still a war, a daily battle, an on-going struggle. We must gird up our loins and be prepared for long-term protracted war!

Our CASA Meeting last Sunday went well. Brother Toro came by and gave me a ride. I hope he will continue to do so. CASA is my anchor in relation to my continued sobriety and progressive recovery.

Yesterday, Monday, Brother Rick and I went downtown via Paratransit. We walked around a lot and even walked out into Old Sac. We had a good time and he was well behaved. As usual, I saw several people I know. It was good to be back in the Sacra grid for the day.

Actually it is my typing (writing) that keeps me grounded, that keeps me going and it has great therapeutic value for me. I am a typer.

Blogpost: Tuesday, November 15, 2011 ~ On Turning 60-Earth Years Old
http://bit.ly/ru6dU7

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Sunday, October 16, 2001
@3:50 PM ~ Here now at Sacra Central Library. I posted my earlier Journal for this month in my Blog here, plus on Twitter and Facebook. Sharing is caring! I think it makes more sense for me to post stuff here than to have scattered sites on the Internet. I have a tendency to get a wee bit OCD about stuff and overdo it.

In my Spiritual Evolution I am learning that much of life for me at this stage of life is about my Inner Being. Life in the outer world has a way of going on with or without me. I believe that the better I understand myself and am able to explain myself to myself, then the better I will be able to understand others in my life. You can call it an experiment with myself as the Subject. This is not a mere matter of arrogance. I know that many folks are just wrapped up in their own little world. I do not see one outer world and one inner world. I am in my being as a humane entity and see the outer world visibly with my eyes from my Inner Being.

Monday, October 17, 2011
@5:00 AM ~ Another Monday, Monday. I was able to get onto WIFI from home for a while, but later was not able to connect. This has, as many things do, positive and negative aspects. I was able to post Tweets for awhile, but got disconnected. So I took a bath. I love the Internet but know that it can be addictive for me if I let other matters slide. Right now I am not employed in a regular job so I have the time and opportunity to do what I want with my own time.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011
@9:37 AM ~ Right now I am unemployed and not a wage-slave. I am planning to go to Salvation Army and see Major Mark about a bell-ringing position for the Christmas Holiday season. I will go about 11 AM and possibly have lunch with him. It am not hot about the position, rather enjoy doing what I want and having the time to work on my mental health issues in relation to my psychic-spiritual health.

My sobriety date off alcohol is June 24, 2004. I have been ‘clean’ off shooting up ‘crank’ for over 10 years. I still smoke tobacco ~mainly Bugler Gold cigarettes I roll myself (rolling can have some meditative use for me ~rationalization?). Plus, I still drink coffee, especially in the mornings. I take 50mg of Seroquel at night to help with my sleep according to the Doctor’s prescription so it is no abuse. I am sane and sober just for today, tomorrow we’ll see. Yes, I live life one day at a time.

@3:00 PM ~ Now at Sacra Central Library on the 4th Floor, my usual location here (unless I suspect a hit man is on assignment against me!). I keep my 9mm with silence handy. Kiddin'!!

At Sally's filled out application for a Kettle-Holder with Major Mark's help. Plus, I had a good lunch there. It has been awhile since I ate there. Saw some friends and very much enjoyed myself. I will find out if I get hired whether it will negatively impact my SSI Pending Final Determination or not.

After lunch Brother James G. and I walked to my place, we talked a bit then I caught the Light Rail and came up here. I have some money to last until my next SSI Check. I can no longer afford to spend my money on frivolous items or stuff that catches my eye. I am generally thrifty anyway. It is good I no longer waste money on alcohol and drugs!

I keep my eyes wide open for whatever good chance and opportunity that comes my way. We often create our own ways of moving forward. I need to structure my time more to get more done. I remind myself that I am a humane BEING, not a only a humane DOING. I insist upon this distinction because so many folks that I know are so stressed out about life that they do not take the time to appreciate the simple miracle of their beingness.

I told my friend James that I was at the stage of my life where I am now quietly making preparations for my eventual death. He thinks I am being too hard on myself. The idea is often misunderstood by others. I am approaching 60 Years of being alive here on Mother Earth. I know my flesh is not immortal.

We should remain realistic in connected reality. There are matters I need to attend to, amends I may have to make and unfinished business I need to take care of in my life, I do not want to be on my death bed remembering there was an important task that I failed to perform. I am still alive and well here now.

I sometimes wonder who happens to Click onto this Blog. I must remember that I am now better able to work on my own self-knowledge than I was before because I have a renewed intention about learning more and more about the humane brain. We are going somewhere with this and I am interested in finding out more about what being humane truly is today. It is about fighting for humane rights and standing up for humane rights whenever the situation calls for it. It is about having deep feelings of love, warmth and affection for others that gives us the feelings we require to motivate us to be better to each other, to be more kind to another, to simply care about the basic survival of those around us in our lives.

I imagine many beings are quietly dying on the inside without ever telling anyone. Many of us have already died a quiet death. Where are the unmarked graves that no one ever goes to visit? Be sure to treasure life and its sacredness.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011
@2:00 PM ~ Received notice of Congratulations about getting Medi-Cal. It becomes Effective November 1st. Still awaiting my SSI Final Determination of being accepted. I am hopeful and know that I will carry on whatever happens. I am one determined stubborn man who will do all he can within his personal power to survive and thrive.

From today's Sacramento Bee ~
Nine Occupy Sacramento protesters arrested in latest demonstration

via JOSÉ LUIS VILLEGAS/jvillegas@sacbee.com
Emmanuel Curry stands in support of a speaker from Occupy Sacramento as other protesters also raise their hands at Tuesday night's City Council meeting. The council voted to continue to prevent overnight camping at Cesar Chavez Plaza.
Read more: http://www.sacbee.com/2011/10/19/3988909/nine-occupy-sacramento-protesters.html#ixzz1bGPSNEqI

We are scheduled to have a Safeground Meeting tomorrow at Cat's house. It should be an active interesting meeting. As time goes by I see the need for many of us to continue to work on our own self-knowledge in order to better prepare ourselves for future tests, struggles and challenges.

Thursday, October 20, 2011
@10:35 AM ~ In my usual spot at Sacra Central Library. We had a good Safeground Breakfast Meeting that went well. I am glad that we had folks from Occupy Sacramento there to share with us. This thing of ours is growing more and more, especially when people understand our basic common interests as humane beings.

We certainly need to use our active imagination in stimulating consciousness among the masses for global revolution.

@2:37 PM ~ My good friend Mikey came by here for a bit + my other good friend James G. It is good to see folks I know at the Library. Being at the Library is a safe wholesome location for me.
I feel sorry for bored folks who never focus and take the time to check out their local library. The one here is in mint condition ~next to it by the corner is where the old one use to be that is now used for various meetings, so it is still there. I use to go there when I was a youngster ~ many moons ago.

Friday, October 21, 2011
@3:00 PM exactly. Now at Sacra Central Library. I am alive and well, though a bit sleepy. I went to the DRA Meeting at Guest House this morning at 9 PM and it was, as usual, a good meeting. We discussed Step #5 of the 12-Steps.

Yesterday after I got back 'home' I retrieved a letter from Social Security Administration and it seems that I do NOT qualify for SSI. According to them my 'disability' is not severe enough for them to consider me disabled. Naturally, that kind of got me depressed, threw me for a loop. I was hoping to receive Disability from SSI based upon my mental health and physical health issues, but now it seems that I will have to go through the appeal process. I was hoping to avoid that mental torture. I was not able to see anyone about it ~Lisa or Jerrie~ at Guest House. I will try to see someone there Monday. On a positive note, if worse comes to worse I can stay with my Spirit Sister Geri ou in the North Area, though I would feel that I would be imposing there. I think if it comes out that I am disqualified right now for SSI that I can get onto County General Assistance based upon my being in an Appeal Process. It sucks!

Typing is therapy for me. I will maintain the brain and try not to slip into any kind of dark depression over it all. I was going to stay at 'home' today but thought it best to get out, go by #Occupy Sacramento and come up here to the Sacra Central Library.

I do have an Interview with Salvation Army this coming Tuesday as a Kettle Worker AKA Bell Ringer. Not exactly my forte but Major Mark helped to arrange it.

Now more than ever I feel a stronger Spirit of Resistance. Stuff is just getting worst for so many of us. One good news, an ol' friend Hippie Mike finally got his own place for him and his dog. He has been homeless for over SEVEN YEARS! Plus, New York, another Brother, got onto SSI so he will be doing good. So life is such that sometimes some are recipients of good news and others at the same time get bad news ~the balances and synchronizations of life.

@5:13 PM ~ As Uncle Ho wrote. "... So life you see is not a very smooth business and now the present bristles with difficulties."

Sabbath, October 22, 2011
@4:31 PM ~ At Sacra Central Library at my post! Slept pretty good last night. I know that my precarious housing situation bugs me in the back of my mind on at least a subconscious level, though I try to consciously not dwell on it. I will survive and hope to prevail come what may. I know whatever happens that I need to maintain the brain, take care of my physical health the best I can and stay involved in my sober recovery. I have food at home, plus another whole can of ham in the freezer and plenty of bread.

I am being more aware of what I write here. Keeping some stuff close to my chest as it were. I am a firm believer that life is often a matter of spiritual warfare, not merely physical existence. One must train the brain.

Wrote an article this morning:
On the #Occupy Movement and Homeless Refugees:
http://bit.ly/q1eY2O via @Peta_de_Aztlan

I will continue to write, to express myself and keep my faith in the forces of goodness. There is a Creator and I am a creature of the Creator. Nada mas ahora!

Sunday, October 23, 2011
@1:41 PM ~ Well I am still alive and learning. Wrote an article this morning and have already posted it.

Link here > On the Question of Leadership in a Leaderless Movement >
http://bit.ly/pfRz6K via @Peta_de_Aztlan

I find that the typing goes more smoother when I do not try to constantly got back and edit what I just typed. It could be a perfectionist trait, it could be an OCD trait but before it would drive me so mad that I ended up not posting or typing anything because it was never perfect or did not come exactly as I wanted. This has been a long struggle of mine in relation to so-called writing. I say so-called because I realize that all this time here I have been actually typing, not writing.

I have my CASA 12-Steps Meeting this evening at 7 PM at the Salvation Army. CASA remains my spiritual anchor and ministry among those seeking to escape the affliction of addiction. At least being nearby at Globe Mills right now it is a short walk up the street. We will see what we will see in the future.

Tomorrow afternoon I need to go see Lisa at Guesthouse about my SSI case, though I doubt if she can do anything to assure I get a check in November. I figure she will be able to help with my doing an appeal. God, I have heard of cases where folks wait for literally years for an approval upon an appeal. I have this issue of needing to survive we ithout having to be a dumpster diver. ;->

I will strive to be obedient to my ideal of the Lord's will, though as a natural scientist I pray I am not indulging in mere metaphysics. I feel there is a Higher Power in life that impacts upon our lives in ways beyond my mortal understanding. It is a kind of spiritual feeling within my spirit of a great love that graces us mere mortals. What say ye invisible reader?

Monday, October 24, 2011
@11:00 AM ~ Here at Globe Mills in 517. My days are running out here. I am keeping my spirit up and know that whatever happens to me in terms of housing I will maintain the brain, stay sober and hope for the best. Brother Toro has promised me he would help me more my stuff from here to Geri’s out off Marconi so that is one concern out of the way for now. I need to go see my Service Coordinator Lisa at Guest House this afternoon between 1 PM and 3 PM. I am not sure what she can do for me other than help facilitate my SSI Appeal.

Gallo called earlier from up in the hills so I hope to see him possibly tomorrow. He is a blessing in my life as usually tries to understand where I am at in life and empathizes with our collective struggles. At times it seem that the Spirit of Resistance against repression is what sustains me, gives me a focus and purpose in my life. I am not going to go down a quiet soul who stood still while the world around me was falling apart, especially in relation to the sorry global economy today.

Sacra Central Library is closed today so I will not get on the Internet there. There is a small coffee shop nearby, but Sacra Central Library is from where I most like to get on the Internet.

I have a strong cup of café and smokes here, plus, food to eat. All my basic survival needs are being met right now. I walk the streets and see homeless refugees sprinkled throughout the Downtown Section of Sacramento. I am not alone in terms of having to face the horrors of homelessness. I witness it every day and night around here in the streets. Such is life.

@9:47 PM ~ Met with Lisa with Jerri this afternoon. Nothing conclusive about my SSI case but have appointments in November which will do me no good now. Even went to Department of Human Assistance to get onto GA and found out that I am supposedly already on GA but I did not receive anything from them. Might check with Carol’s Place tomorrow about what is up with that. I told the truth about my receiving an SSI for SSI on October 1st so I do not quality for GA for this whole month anyways. Went downtown for a bit, went by Occupy Sacramento and looked around. I ended up just getting a Diet Pepsi and coming back here to Globe Mills into the Computer Room downstairs. Then, I checked out the news, Tweeted a lot and that was pretty much my day. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Maybe I will go to my Interview at Salvation Army Headquarters for a bell-ringer AKA Kettle Worker position for the Holidays. I am not too hot about that idea.

Called my Sister Geri and I am good to go over to her place to live if ~as it looks now barring a weird miracle ~ I need to move up out of here.

I am waging a spiritual battle just keeping my spirit up and not falling down into a personal Great Depression. I know many in history and in these tough times are suffering from a real Great Depression that impacts on the whole being of their existence. So I must keep my spirits up and not indulge in selfish self-pity. Self-control helps, thinking positive and when a negative comes up counter-balancing it with a positive. A lot of life does involve our general attitudes throughout the day. Nada mas ahora! ~Che Peta

Martes, 25 de Octubre de 2011
@10:47 AM ~ My Mobile Phone woke me up at 7:30 AM and I went to my short Interview as a Kettle Worker for the Holiday Season. Saw Sister Cheyenne on my way on the street nearby and on my way back here on the Light Rail. I think that is a kind of synchronicity.

I am back ‘home’ ~I use that word lightly these days~ with last of my café made and smoking a cigarette right now. I will write an article or try to write an article, head out to #Occupy Sacramento then Sacra Central Library.

@6:11 PM ~ Getting dark outside here at Sacra Central Library. About time for me to take my toys and head back to my temporary home. Hell, all my homes are always temporary ~that kind of gives me a non-attached feeling. Less to lose in a material world sense. More space for my own continued spiritual growth. Nada mas ahora.

@8:03 PM ~ Just had a long phone conversation with El Gallo for about 45 minutes. He has some great ideas and is really interested in building up a sustainable community with a friend out by Pioneer going towards Reno. Being me I must see such an idea up there as a kind of positive withdrawal for those who are part of such a distant community. It is not feasible for us down here in the valley, in the inner cities, in dire straits trying to gather search for food for our stomachs.

Miércoles, 26 de Octubre de 2011
@1:32 PM ~ Now at Globe Mills in my apartment for now. I will hate to leave this spot but I really have no choice unless I make myself a nuisance and try to be a squatter! Globe Mills and its Management have been good to me, thus, I must repay goodness with goodness. Life just did not work out as I had hoped when I became now disqualified for SSI and will not have the money to pay rent for this coming November. I will be 60 years old on November 15th and am getting on in my years. Life in general has been good to me; I am in good health in general and feel that I have made at least some small contribution to making it a better healthier world.

Jueves, 27 de Octubre de 2011
@10 AM ~ I had my last session with my therapist Nick at Genesis. I will have another one next Monday. It has been good for me. It is kind of a ‘checking in’ though not really tangible in terms of having me with my SSI case. Still it is good to have a neutral observer that we can discuss personal matters with. I will miss Nick and wish him well in Southern California.

I am going to take a bath, get dressed and hear on out to the Sacra Central Library. Catch ya later!

@12:15 ~ In my spot here at Sacra Central Library. I believe I can live a life for now being a scholar, doing what I need to survive in my existence and just coming here online posting stuff. I know that the more I practice my writing with conscientiousness the more it will improve. A lot of it is just saying what is on our minds, what is in our hearts and not being worried about what others may think about exercising our freedom of creative expression.

Viernes, 28 de Octubre de 2011
@9:08 AM ~ I am awakening on another day here at Globe Mills. Leaving this time will be a lot more easier than the last time in late May of this year. I have less stuff to move out, life with my stuff is a lot lighter and I am more resigned to accepting life as it comes. Plus, I have a deeper life-appreciation I did not have before. There is so much we take for granted in life, so much that we assume will be there when we wake up, so much that we assume will happen in a certain way and so much that can change up on us without our foreknowledge.

“The two-fold reality of the universe, which consists of things and space---thingness and no-thingness---is also your own. A sane, balanced and fruitful human life is a dance between the two dimensions that make up reality: form and space.”
~From Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth, Finding Who You Truly Are, Pg. 219

Sábado, 29 de Octubre de 2011
@10 AM ~ I woke up late today on this Sabbath. I am having a cup of Orange tea, which is kind of a good change since regular coffee can be another addiction for me. I slept long and well. I guess I will get a load of laundry done, start getting ready to move out of here, though I think rent is not due until around the 5th of each month. I will await a System error and see if I get my check on the 1st of November or not, though I will not hold my breath. I love Sabbaths as the world seems to kind of take a breather, though I know life goes on within us and certainly goes on without us.

Other than having a cell phone with me I am kind of incommunicado right now up here. No Internet Connection, no TV and no radio. Looking out my 5th Floor window I see life is still out there. It is quiet here and that is one of the main factors I will miss about being here now. I am in a senior housing situation here at Globe Mills. I imagine most of the folks here are going to expire from life here, that is, they will be here until they die, they have reached the end of their road. I know I will not be one of them. I feel that though I am older as I approach 60-years that I still have a lot of fight left in me and will continue to be ‘part of the Resistance’ to fascist repression.

I have to move out of here and plan to go live with my Sister Geri AKA Anabelle and her son Ricky. Actually Ricky is like a step-son to me as I have known him since he was a toddler. I kind of helped to raise him and her other grown children: Klad Jr., Adam and the oldest one, her daughter Christina. Only Ricky stays with her now. He is kind of autistic. He acts a lot younger than his years and is immature in many ways. It will be a challenge living there and not having my own place all to myself. At least I will not be physically isolated. Sister Geri is actually my spirit sister, a former lover in what seems like lifetimes ago and now a devoted Christian, though she can be a little fanatic she is a devoted prayer warrior. She is my oldest friend in this life, other than me.

@10:30 AM ~ On this day of October 29, 1929 was the Wall Street Stock Market Crash of
‘Black Tuesday’ that ushered in the last recognized Great Depression. To me, though I am not an economist, we are living in the Great Depression of the New Millennium, though the System hides it by labeling in a Great Recession that it declared awhile back was over. The System is addicted to corporate profits and seems to have a life of its own as it continues to exploit labor raw, spreads out its octopus tentacles as U.S. imperialism worldwide and generally causes mass misery throughout the lands of Mother Earth.

VIA Google: Black Tuesday was the most devastating stock market crash in the history of the U.S. The crash signaled the beginning of the 12-year Great Depression that affected all Western industrialized countries and did not end until the onset of American mobilization for World War II at the end of 1941. Ahh, the ironies of history can come back to haunt us today.

The Great Depression had devastating effects in virtually every country, rich and poor. Personal income, tax revenue, prices and profits dropped, while international trade plunged by more than 50%. Unemployment in the U.S. rose to 25%, and in some countries rose as high as 33%. Cities all around the world were hit hard, especially those dependent on heavy industry. Construction was virtually halted in many countries. Farming and rural areas suffered as crop prices fell by approximately 60%. Facing plummeting demand with few alternate sources of jobs, areas dependent on primary sector industries such as cash cropping, mining and logging suffered the most.

Some economies started to recover by the mid-1930s; in many countries the negative effects of the Great Depression lasted until the start of World War II.
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@11:04 ~ Feelings are fleeting, coming and going like vibrations of the soul. Emotions are deep and serious impacting on inner thoughts. We are in a type of war called life among the living upon Mother Earth. We have to worry about our next meal, meeting our basic needs and surviving while keeping our sanity intact with integrity. The System attacks our self-esteem, our sense of worth in the world, when its advertisements shower us with consumer products it wants us to buy but because of our poverty we cannot.

@1:06 ~ Toro called and I will be moving stuff out Monday. Pam called and had a good conversation. Got some text/picture messages. Mobile cell phones are really becoming a dominant way that people communicate these days. Sometimes there is less emotional involvement when people text message as distinct from actually calling someone up and sharing voices in a conversation. Go figure!

Think I will just stay here ‘at home’ for now. Enjoy the lonely solitude, contemplate on life, rest up some and read a bit. We should be grateful for the simple pleasures that life affords us from time to time. We should not always be scurrying about as if we will miss something going on when we have not even come to know ourselves on a deep spiritual level of living.

I have wasted so much time feeling guilty about matters I had no control over when I was, for all practical purposes, unconscious and immature. I was living in shame with daily drunkenness for so long. I was not being attentive to my own Inner Spiritual Evolution as a humane being.

We remain imperfect beings, yet our innate imperfection allows us room to improve our Inner Character, to sharpen our life skills and develop our natural talents. Do not get down in the despair of depression! Life has its ups and downs, its ins and outs and is in the process of being lived, it is never still and static. Life is living energy being life. The suns rises and sets every day, no matter how dark the night. Appreciate simply being alive among the living and breathing life with a full breath in with all its glory and gory.

@9:06 PM ~ Went down to the Computer Room to check it out and my favorite computer down there with Foxpro browser was vacant. I was only going to be on it for awhile then predictably ended up on it for a couple of hours. Got my clothes done and while I was folding them, actually I roll a lot of them up, a lady gave me a pair of newish Rustler Jeans! It was a real blessing because right before that I was thinking that I had forgotten to wash my old jeans. I consider it a kind of a synchronicity event involving time and circumstance.

Plus, got I a call from Sister Sandra on Twitter after I gave her my mobile number in a private message. So it is good that I took the liberty of giving it to her.

A lot of stuff is going on in what I term the #Occupy Matrix. I hope the idea catches on because it is not really an actual movement with a leadership structure, a set common agenda and official members. The idea of a matrix is that it is a huge collection of various #Occupy Zones who mainly communicate to each other via social networks, such as, Twitter, Facebook and their own specific website for their #Occupy Zone. Local police repression actually inspires and invigorates the mass support of #Occupy Wall Street protestors. Repression breeds resistance!

@10:50 PM ~ I made a good little late dinner with fried beef meat and a can of beans with good wheat bread. I appreciated it, though it may not appear on the front cover of Gourmet Magazine. Today was today. I survived it without any bad mood swing or accidental mishap. Now that I am getting older I have learned to move with mo consciousness, not the sudden leaps and angles I use to perform in a kind of manic-anxiety-stressed out state of being. I am gradually learning how to age with grace and a measure of decorum (on a good day, lest I be accused of talking shit here). So today was today and tomorrow will be a brand new day. We should try to make the best of our days here now. Buenas Noches! Venceremos! Che Peta ~

Domingo, 30 de Octubre de 2011
@9:42 ~ Slept well, bath water is running and it is another day on Mother Earth. The sky outside is clear and the temperature should be in the mid-70s. I love this weather this time of year in Sacra.

“It is only when the oppressed find the oppressor out and become involved in the organized struggle for their liberation that they begin to believe in themselves. This discovery cannot be purely intellectual but must involved action; nor can it be limited to mere activism, but must include serious reflection: only then will it be a praxis.”
~ From Paulo Freire ~Pedagogy of the Oppressed

@1:37 PM ~ Called Geri and let her know that Toro will be giving me a ride to her place to drop off stuff as I begin the process of moving over there this coming Monday. I am now at Sacra Central Library in my favorite spot here. I will hop onto Twitter and we what Higher Revolutionary Consciousness I can stir up in the global collective consciousness.

We have our CASA 12-Steps Meeting this evening at Sally’s. It helps to keep me going, combat negative isolation and I feel of service there.

Lunes, 31 de Octubre de 2011
Well it is Halloween Night. I am still here at Globe Mills. I did some good Tweeting earlier in the Computer Room downstairs. It seems to go better when I just share tips, thoughts and some stuff that is swirling around in my mind’s consciousness.

For sure Brother Toro is going to help me move the hell up out of here tomorrow. I will call him about 9 AM. I have been calling Geri and she already has a copy of the key at her place for me. I am blessed.

I told Sondra Bradley, our Property Manager here, about my predicament of being denied SSI. She was bummed out but not as much as I am. Sometimes they have a problem keeping good people here for various reasons. I love it here. Such is life.

As I say throughout my journal here ~ Life goes on within you and surely life goes on without you. Tomorrow is a brand new day and a brand new month of November. So this will be my last entry for October here. Venceremos Unidos! Che Peta

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On Self-Identity Labels via @Peta_de_Aztlan

2011-10-16T18:20:00.000-07:00

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“The radical, committed to humane liberation, does not become the prisoner of a ’circle of certainty’, within which reality is also imprisoned. On the contrary, the more radical the person is, the more fully he or she enters into reality, so that, knowing it, he or she can better transform it.”
~ Paulo Freire, Pedagogy of the Oppressed (Pg. 39/Continuum Publishing 1970)

Labels ~

Labels to self-identity ourselves about ‘who we are’ have a way of dividing us from each other instead of uniting us together. Labels can be useful devices for explaining social phenomena, but we often stick labels on people to mask our own hidden fears, prejudices and uncertainties. We must be aware of the inherent limitations of labels for describing people.

If you must, assess each person one at a time, not lightly label them and assume to know all there is to know about a person’s personality. The human being is a complex person. It takes time to get to know someone in terms of how they think, how they feel, their behavior patterns and how they cope in different environments.

The repressed man has the right to label himself as he sees fit and the right to reject labels thrust upon him by the repressor class. He is not only oppressed by society in socioeconomic ways. He is also repressed by the fascist repressive social structure that attacks his psychology, his integrity, his self-esteem and his feelings of self-worth. Fascism instills in him through its vast mass propaganda machine a fear of freedom, a fear of exercising his humane rights, a fear of fighting for true liberation from all forms of oppression and repression. Certainly the right to label ourselves is a key part of being liberated beings. However, surface labels should not be used in ways that divide us from each other. We should strive to be constant unifiers, not dividers.

Racism ~

The concept of race in relation to describing peoples is a social invention. It is a classic key tool used by the repressor class to divide people along racial lines. As rational humane beings, we must oppose all forms of obvious or disguised racism. Many of us are still deeply infected with racism on at least a subconscious level. Social racism is still rampant and widespread in the world as a global mental disease. Racism is embedded into our psyche from early childhood and inherited from our social environment of origin. As children we were raised and carefully taught to be racists before we became fully conscious of its contagious contamination in adulthood. Racists come in all colors, shades and tones. Racism is not the exclusive domain of White people. Anyone of any color can be a racist. It takes more than going to bed with someone to be rid of racism. It takes loving patience, deep understanding and continued social education for all of us to get rid of the deep tangled roots of social racism.

In the projected future, we will gradually be rid of institutionalized racism once we topple the present inhumane fascist system, have total access to mass media and pursue protracted mass education programs. TV will be a positive educational tool for our families, not only an empty entertainment distraction from our real survival priorities. Before then, we will daily rid ourselves of racism by eating together, creating together and seeking ever greater mutual respect, acceptance and understanding amongst each other.

The Lost Tribe of Chicanos ~

As Chicanos, many are still debating what in hell to call ourselves? I am a Chicano de Aztlan and a humane being of Mother Earth. Let each one of us decide in relation to our Inner Self who are in good conscience. Let us evolve beyond surface labels in unity with all peoples yearning to breathe free and in honor of our collective quest for spiritual liberation. In these troubled times of great social turmoil, we need to strive for global unity above and beyond any outer differences, such as, surface labels that we call ourselves for self-identity purposes.

Nowadays, I see the validity of identifying with and using the term ‘Latinos’ in specific settings. Mobilization-wise, we do not want to alienate others who claim to be Latinos, as we alienated a lot of Mexicans during the early Chicano days. As for myself, I find the term ‘Hispanics’ a disgusting government label foisted upon us that originated during the Nixon Administration! Nevertheless, each of us has the right to call and label ourselves what we want without fear of condemnation.

I naturally relate to all the terms used in relation to La Raza Cosmica ~the Cosmic Race~ a people who can come in any skin color, complexion or hair texture. I most closely identity with the Lost Tribe of Chicanos, the descendants of those who remained inside the United States after the 1848 Treaty of Guadalupe Hidalgo. We should see Chicanos as a generation that first become popular in the late 60s. As Chicanos we are not a separate ethic group nor or we a distinct race of people. We have the features of a real tribe. Many of us have natural mixtures of different bloodlines and cultures. We are truly a cosmic people!

The Chicano Movement ~

It was the insanity of Chicano cultural nationalism that eventually led to the withering away of the old Chicano Movement and it now being out of touch and irrelevant in today’s world; though it did help some Chicano professionals make a living out of its as they become self-defined ‘experts’ and made a market out of it. Any idea of a separate Chicano nation is political, social and cultural insanity.

The concept of a Chicano nation is an ancient yearning for a time and place that only existed in the subjective consciousness of some confused Chicanos. As Chicanos, our desire for a nation is a realization that we are not a true nation of people. It could be of the collective subconscious from the times of the Mayan people or even earlier; memories of Aztec pyramids, ancient Gods and independent self-rule before the ominous coming of the armed White man and his Holy Bible. The concept of a Chicano Nation is not real in connected reality. Where is our trained army?

For the Chicano Movement to retain any validity in the global community it must take a great leap forward in the decisive direction of global revolution by any means mandatory. We seek peace on our terms for our own immediate survival interests. We aim for a true peaceful revolution, should mindfully exhaust all legal peaceful methods of struggle, but cannot remain under any naïve illusions as to our ultimate aim of global revolution. Recall: the ultimate aim of authoritarian fascism is to destroy all genuine relevant revolutionary consciousness!

A Chicano Humane Being ~

I am first and foremost a humane being. I seek unity with all other humane beings with whom I share a basic humane rights agenda. I was first raised with the self-identity of being a Mexican; both my parents referred to themselves as Mexicans. They thought I had lost it when I started calling myself a Chicano when I got involved in the early Chicano Movement! However, if Mexico is our Mother Country, why do many of us Chicanos speak English, not speak Spanish fluently and are not fully immersed in Mexican culture?

As I got older, I learned that my bloodline on my Padre’s side was of the Chiricahua-Apache and Sonoran-Yaqui tribes and of Spanish stock on my Mom's side. Many so-called Mexicans refer to themselves as Spanish when in fact, face and appearance they are of indigenous origin. So many false stereotypes still predominate about indigenous native peoples that we ourselves perpetuate and keep alive. We are all subject to being wild savages when we are treated like lower animals and fighting for our very physical survival. We must come to know who we are in today’s world.

Actually, the term ‘Indians’ should be understood in reference to those who were born and raised in that distant land of India. The term Native-Americans can seem cozy and profitable for some, but understand that so-called Native-Americans were victims of genocide by what is now called Amerika. How can we be so foolish as to legitimize the genocide history of Amerika by labeling ourselves in respect to the historical architects of our genocide as Native ‘Americans’? As a Chicano I am of the indigenous native peoples of Aztlan ~an ancient native term for these lands of North America.

The 60s and Beyond ~

In the late 60's there were great social upheavals in the United States that changed the global landscape. For a short while I considered myself a Mexican-American, was a member of the MAYA student group at Sacramento High School, then the Chicano Movement came into being. We came to recognize that Chicanos were the hyphen in Mexican-Americans. We were not culturally Mexicans nor were we fully considered as American citizens by White Amerika. We adopted the self-identity of being Chicanos!

In Sacramento, my first involvement with the ‘Movimiento ‘or Movement was with the Friends of the Farmworkers via the United Farmworkers Organizing Committee led by the great Cesar Chavez. I helped with the Grape Boycott, Food Drives to Delano and naturally found out about and joined the Brown Berets for a few heavy years. I also related to the tightness of the Black Berets from San Jose. Now it seems lifetimes ago in another age. I now see the Movimiento as a global interconnected matrix of organizations, groups and individuals working towards the same basic survival goals and dreams of liberation for the masses of people in the world, not a uniform movement marching in lock step like robots.

In October of 2011, after the Arab sandstorms of liberation, the blossoming of the Arab Spring that began in early 2011 and the uprising still sweeping in Arabia; after the emergence of the global #Occupy Movements against Wall Street and corporate monopoly capitalism; in light of the growing unrest and sense of social rebellion and revolt sweeping the world, we must re-energize our collective efforts towards spiritual liberation within and global revolution in the world. The fresh smell of Revolution is in the air!

A True Nation ~

At minimum, a true nation must have territorial integrity and be able to protect its borders from foreign intrusion or invasion. A true nation must have complete power, ownership and control over its land and all the institutions there. It must have a sovereign government, national army and the military might to defend itself. A nation is not created by symbols and songs. It must have true internal independence and exist on liberated land. It takes more than a miniature flag and a seat at the United Nations to lay a legitimate valid claim to nationhood.

The present existence of the Amerikan Empire makes it impossible for any people to have an objective presence as a true independent nation in the world today. True nationhood requires economic independence from any foreign economy as to how it best utilizes its natural resources. We now live in an interconnected global economy. There is no separate isolated economy that still operates in the context of the existing global economy dominated by corporate capitalism. Politics springs up from the realm of economics. The primary of politics as war without bloodshed remains.

Humane Beings ~

Upon Mother Earth, the main actual race of sentient people is and always has been the human race of two-legged homosapiens of possibly extraterrestrial origin. We are one people of many cultures and tongues. All our basic needs as human beings are universal: food, clothing, shelter, health and education. We must unite together on the basis of our common human needs as people of Mother Earth!

We are all breathing human beings who should strive to become ever more humane in all our ways and social interactions. We must come to the realization that we are all one on a global level and should strive to be one on the cosmic-quantum level. There is a devil in divisions that splinter and separate us from each other as loving humane beings. I seek unity within my Inner Self and unity with all loving humane people in the outside world

More and more of us all over the globe are becoming more and more humane beings in terms of having care, concern and compassion for all living beings, regardless of one's subjective self-identity in terms of any illusionary race, narrow nationality, separate ethnic group or distinct tribe. Naturally, Internet Power has been key to creating a new mass consciousness, yet we should not forget the importance of teaching basic literacy in our local communities.

We are now in the New Millennium and old analyses of our objective situation must be reviewed, reanalyzed and fine-tuned to better reflect connected reality here now. The USA has more prisons than all the other countries of the world combined and it busy building more. The outer world is in a state of great unrest, global discontent and striving to break the chains of class oppression and fascist repression.

Despite any self-identity labels we must come to see all of us as one humane family yearning to be free, to live in lands that foster freedom in all its manifestation: intellectual freedom, social freedom, freedom from the aches of hunger and the horrors of homelessness as social refugees.

When the dark night of fascist terror comes I just want to have the comrade next to me to be able to shoot straight with a dead-eye on the target. No matter his so-called race, ethnic origin or tribe!

Venceremos! Che Peta
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Journal: October 1-15, 2011 @Peta_de_Aztlan

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Sabbath, October 01, 2011
@10:37 AM ~Now at Sacra Central Library. I am now considering staying at Carol's Place for another month, but my decision as to move now or not is not entirely in my hands. I would like to go to Shasta Hotel but I would need less than $400 + $250 for Rent Deposit. Plus, once I move out of Carol's Place I would have to pay for my food. I am comfortable there to a point, despite the occasional insanities there by the residents.

@2:00 PM ~ Think I will leave the library for now. I have been wanting to write an article but the allure of Internet and Twitter keeps bringing me back. Online work in comparison to Offline work. Plus, I am just feeling a little restless here now.

@3:41 PM ~ Decided to stop at The Temple coffee shop while headed back to Carol's Place. Got online in the WIFI Zone here inside to check my Bank of America Account. I got my 2nd SSI Check and have enough in my account to move into the Shasta Hotel. I will still take my time, live consciously in the here and now. Mas manana. ~Che Peta

Monday, October 3, 2011
@1:20 AM ~ I am now at The Temple Cafe shop. The Sacra Central Library is closed today. I will pay $121.87 for one more week at Carol's Place, then I should be cleared to move into the Shasta Hotel. Sondra from Globe Mills sent a response in relation to my Shasta Application. She suggested a deal for me to return to renting at Globe Mills but in general it is simpler for me just to go into the Shasta where I do not have to worry about paying any utilities.

My goal is to be as independent at possible right now. I need my solitude to work on my inner self, my own wholistic growth and to concentrate on my various writings. There is other stuff that went on and happened but I will not bore with details.

Our CASA 12-Steps Meeting went well last night. Toro and Brother Eric showed up. plus there were a few others. Yesterday was Sunday, October 2nd so a lot of people were not around. Sad but true that around the first of the month those folks who are in the local homeless refugee matrix get a little bit of cash and are off and running ~to the dope man , to the local liquor store and if possible for a night or so at a local hotel. Maybe this seems prejudice but for those of us in the know it is a monthly cycle, especially in relation to attending 12-Steps meetings.

For me life is about going with the flow, being aware of the here and now of existence and doing what I can to raise revolutionary consciousness in general.

Tuesday, October 04, 2011
@11:06 AM ~ Here now at Sacra Central Library, making through another day here upon Mother Earth.

We have a few new folks at Carol's Place. All that is needed for me to move into the Shasta Hotel is for them to get a form back from Globe Mills where I use to stay at, then I will make the rent and deposit arrangements for me to move in and up. I would not mind being again at Globe Mills, but I will be more into the heart of life at the Shasta Hotel.

Wednesday, October 5th, 2011
@11:28 AM ~ It is still kind of hard for me to believe right now but I now have the keys to my new apartment right across the hall from where I use to live at Globe Mills Senior Housing. I feel truly blessed my God's grace. Ms. Sondra B. ~our Property Manager there~ said that God has my back. I need to really pay even more closer attention to events before me and as they unfold in my life.

These last few months it has been a long journey for me going through the shelter matrix again, requiring a lot of inner personal strength, heartfelt prayers and fortitude with my faith. The apartment I will be moving into does not now have a stick of furniture. I will make it through and get it going with the continued help and support of the Creative Positive Forces of the Cosmos via Creator, all my guardian angels and helpers who will come my way.

@12:46 PM ~ Right now I feel emotionally drained. I really felt nervous this morning. Sometimes I get anxiety to the point where I feel a little panicky for no apparent reason. I wonder if it is others who are thinking about me or just my own superstitions about stuff. I am a bit hungry right now, will take advantage of available food while I can at Carol's Place. I know it is still going to be hard in some key ways, life is often a constant struggle for me just to meet my basic needs. I just do appreciate having my own place again back at Globe Mills again. God is good.

I guess I will end back to Carol's Place and see what is cooking. God Bless the Creator!

Saturday, October 08, 2011

@6:11 PM ~ Here I am at Globe Mills again! It has been quite a hard long journey from when I moved out of here in late May of this year of 2011. I had to move, could not pay rent, went into the local VOA Shelter on A Street, went to Guest House, applied for SSI as being disabled, then, went to Carol’s Place from where I moved out today. So here I am right across the hall from where I was at, but I am a lot more mature and seasoned. It has been extremely difficult but I have grown in spiritual ways that were important for me to mature into as a humane being.

I do not have the slightest doubt that there is a Creator God, or whatever term you wish to use in reference to the Great I Am.

@7:51 ~ Just came up from Globe Mills computer room, on the ground floor in the back. This will be my first night here this time around. Before my apartment windows faced the east where I had some extremely beautiful sunrise views as the Sun rises in the east. Now my windows face the west from here and it is still a great view, especially being up here on the 5th Floor ~ I kind of consider it a penthouse view. I would find it hard to always live on the street level again. I have had my times on the street level. It can be hard coming up in life from the street level, especially if life has tossed you to the street curb.

There is a lot of commotion being generated in the consciousness of American people as a result of the #Occupy_Wall_Street Movement. This is a crazy country. One cannot easily imagine from where the next social movement will manifest. I still believe there is a need for hard core leadership, a common humane rights agenda and masses who are willing to take to the streets to protest and demand their rights as human beings. Then too we need to take a look and examine what exactly makes up a movement. The term ‘movement’ kind of means a uniformity and it moves in the same general direction with a mass of people. Eventually there is a basic need for basic infrastructure. Someone has to supply the basic human services needed for an on-going mass movement. People’s needs continue to be paramount in all forward looking mass movements.

I am still in a process of defining myself and this whole process of self-definition may be going on throughout my whole life. I am reminded of the African proverb: I AM WE. I first read that in Brother Huey P. Newton’s autobiography entitled REVOLUTIONARY SUICIDE! I myself would not ever commit any kind of suicide or consciously engage in suicidal behavior as I did in my old decrepit dope fiend days. It has already been a long life for me. I hope to live many more years, especially with new technological breakthroughs in the medical fields, including brain science.

Sunday, October 09, 2011
@10:03 AM ~ It is my first day awakening here in my new apartment. I slept well and dutifully took my Seroquel of 50 MG last night before sleep. I am feeling good, a little sore and know I need to do more yoga as a daily practice. My Spirit is feeling fine, though I have a little anxiety about how this will all work out. We must have faith in Creator God and know that he will provide as we trust in His Will for us. We must use our own personal will with conscious awareness as we strive to keep our will in harmony with the Creator’s will for us all.

On this day October 9th in 1967 Che Guevara, social revolutionary and guerrilla strategist was executed in La Higuera, Vllegrande, Bolivia by CIA trained Bolivian soldiers. A relevant strategy should be based upon ‘concrete analyses of concrete conditions’, not subjective analyses alone. The question of the role of violence hovers like a terrible specter over revolutionary strategy, that is, when to use violence and when to not use violence. Violence is the last desperate method in a given situation after all legal and peaceful methods of struggle have clearly been exhausted and the tangible alternative is to either utilize violence to achieve our general aims or to give up on the on-going people’s struggle for true liberation from the misery of poverty under corporate-monopoly capitalism and surrender to endless suffering. We must oppose all forms of defeatism. We have the righteousness of our basic ideals, the numerical mass majority of the population and the people’s survival interests at stake in this war of life.

We do not love violence, but neither will we accept our collective destruction by the dark forces of evil without putting up resistance, even if only in the form of armed self-defense. We will not allow ourselves to be killed without a ferocious fight against fascist repression. We will consciously utilize all forms of peaceful resistance to repression and there are many forms of peaceful resistance available to us now, especially when we stimulate our active imagination.

The role of violence in revolutionary war is not an either-or equation. It must be seen in the light of prevailing concrete social circumstances in a given situation and only utilized with a good understanding of the true nature of social violence and its catastrophic consequences. The violence of the forces of resistance against repression can initiate a vicious circle of violence that can escalate in succeeding spirals of military warfare. The people’s vanguard elements must not be rash and be infected by the anarchy of left-wing adventurism. We must be humane, rational and practical in all matters that impact on innocent lives. People’s lives are at stake.

We need to re-define our concepts related to war and politics. War and politics are interrelated and intertwined with each other. Recall Mao’s dictum: war is politics with bloodshed and politics is war without bloodshed. We want to avoid any form of useless bloodshed. Leadership has a responsibility to inspire leadership in those who are followers of leadership so that we can rise above the social contradiction between leaders and those who are led. Ideally, each of us should be self-motivated, be the leaders of our own individual lives and strive to reach a common consensus with others who want to participate in the people’s class struggle.

Do not be misled by debatable concepts. At its core our collective struggle is still a class struggle, in fact, it is a class war. It is a class between the two main classes in present-day class society: the ‘haves’ and the ‘have-nots’.

Revolutionary theory is a guide to action and must be tested in revolutionary practice so that it becomes more and more relevant in light of a given situation before us here now. There is no grand blueprint for us to follow. Yes, history is a guide to action, but it is only a guide to help give us vision. Even our own inner perceptions and interpretations of history can vary.

We must constantly study the immediate situation before us, be flexible in applying our set of tactics and be willing to change our tactics in the light of changed circumstances. Incorrect theory can lead to the lost of innocent lives who follow us and cause irreparable damage to the validity of our revolutionary war. There is no Magic Book or New Bible that can definitively instruct us as to how to progress in our war. We can have a General Plan of Action we must formulate together, but there is no set formula applicable to all situations. Stop looking for the Holy Grail. We must seize the time and make up our minds to actively engage in revolutionary war in order to bring about a global-wide humane revolution.

We can define our common enemies as the Amerikan Empire and its integrated fascist components. It upholds and protects monopoly-corporate capitalism and ultimately ensures its survival by the savage use of raw, brute force: violence against all its class and cultural opponents. It utilizes violence as a last resort or sometimes to destroy any new revolutionary threat to its survival at an early stage of historical development. Kill it before it grows, before its seeds take root, before it blossoms in the sunshine of love, truth and harmony. Our enemies are fully aware, scientific and mercilessly counter-revolutionary. Recall: the ultimate aim of totalitarian fascism is to destroy all genuine revolutionary consciousness. They are afraid of free-thinking minds, afraid of soul-searching beings, afraid of able-bodied humane beings who question madness, question insanity and question the inhumanity of those evil ones now ‘in power and secure’.

@12:15 PM ~ As for myself, I must remain aware of my prevailing mood, in tune with my feelings and avoid any extremity of being either manic or depressed. I know I need to work on my bi-polar symptoms and not be scattered out in my inner consciousness. Many people think they are cleverly multi-tasking when in fact they are scattered and confused without conscious awareness. As a rule, it is best for me to do one thing at a time, stay focused on the here and now of connected reality.

@4:17 PM ~ Now at Sacra Central Library. Went by Cesar Chavez Plaza and checked out the Occupy Sacramento gathering. Link on Twitter:
https://twitter.com/#!/OccupySacto

There was a group that was lightly moderated. Folks were making statements, asking questions and it was a good round of democratic discussion. I made a statement that I was born and raised in Sacramento, that revolution was the ultimate solution and the Sacra City Council should be presented with the notion of them accepting the U.S. Bill of Rights in order to give people the right to peacefully assemble without being arrested.

I have a CASA 12-Steps Meeting this evening at 7 PM. My Companero Toro is going to be there and I am looking forward to it.

Monday, October 10, 2011
@9:58 AM ~ I slept well. I do recognize that I was in a semit-manic state when I moved out of here in late May. I had to give away or toss away a lot of my stuff. Some of it I had in the apartments of a few friends here at Globe Mills. Nonetheless some stuff so far is just missing. Nevertheless, I appreciate what I have here now, especially my sane sobriety and Spiritual Communion with Creator.

My Friend Mikey B. is planning to be over in a bit. We are going to go to Safeway and get a few items. I will keep it as simple as possible. It is drizzling right now, but the rain should not melt us.

I naturally find that the more I write the better I get ~the smoother the flow of my writing. I need to just let it flow and not be constantly going back and editing trying to make it all perfect. Just opening up and sharing my thoughts, opinions and ideals to whoever reads my words. I appreciate it when someone checks out my Blog, but hardly anyone ever leaves a comment. Nonetheless, so much of this is for my own personal purposes, especially self-clarification.

Much of the chaos and confusion in the world is because we do not really have a good understanding of ourselves in terms of our own drives, motivations and true inner aspirations. How do we obtain our survival needs without causing any harm to others? When is enough, enough?

@12:09 PM ~ Mikey and I went to Safeway. I got some foodstuffs, including two big cans of ham. He went back to Carol’s Place and I am here in my new sanctuary feeling truly blessed. Life is war, a struggle and I will continue to do what I have to do to survive in good form.

I re-met a guy who knew me named Mike on the Light Rail. Some folks may take slight offense when I do not remember their name, though they remember mine. I have met thousands of people these last several years. Mike is aware of the urgent need for fundamental social change to transform power relationships in society. The masses are gradually starting to wake up to the merciless greed of the monopoly-corporate ruling class spearheaded by the Amerikan Empire.

@1:17 PM ~ I am pondering about what I should write or not write about onto this online journal for all the online world to see or whatever vagrant happens to land on this website. I certainly do not want to type anything that could boomerang on me or those I care about in the future. It is a truism that we can be as sick as our secrets, though there are some secrets that one must naturally take to the grave. For example, there are no statute of limitation on homicide. I will never forget when a brother from LA confessed to a murder he got away with a CASA 12-Steps Meeting. Yes, common sense is often a rare quality.

I have found that as I expose my own Inner Self ~including my fears, anxieties and insecurities~ that I strike a chord in the consciousness of others. I have no foolish fear of self-exposure in regards to the high ideals and valid principles I hold dear. I am willing to die for a righteous cause that I believe in, such as global revolution. I am willing to risk my life based upon a valid enduring principle. We share our experience, strength and hope with each other in order to help give courage to others so they can find it in their souls to do the same. Courage emboldens courage. Iron sharpens iron.

@3:47 PM ~ Went to SPCA Thrift Store earlier and got a few items. It was nice being able to use my VISA Card. Bought two books. MUSES, MADMEN, and PROPHETS by Daniel B. Smith and The Wheel of Life by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, M.D.

@8:42 PM ~ Just got off my mobile phone with El Gallo, who is miles away from here in Amador County. We talked about the Occupy Movement or phenomena, how it is growing, expanding and creating more of a mass change in the consciousness of many people. I need to Email him tomorrow with details about his new Blog called Firebrand8.

We are getting better, getting stronger and getting to be more confident about our own capacity to change connected reality. I keep in mind that people are already dying now who could be saved, people are already killing each other who need to come to a peaceful resolutions of their mutual conflicts, preferably via a Peaceful Revolution. Nevertheless, we need to continue to wage struggle for a revolution by any means necessary. Yes, we always wish for being able to conduct ourselves in and with legal and peaceful methods of struggle against fascist tyranny. Ultimately we are not mere liberal idealists. We are rational realists who seek solvent remedies for our many social ills. Mere reformism will never ever be enough to rectify the damage that has already been done to many suffering souls.

Remember: We are the ones we have been waiting for to show up! Seize the time!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011
@8:45 AM ~ It is another day of life, waking up sane and sober. One of my favorite ways to start the morning is sitting down with a cup of coffee and a Bugler cigarette, two vices in my life that I allow for now. My sobriety date is June 24, 2004 from crank and alcohol, though I have over ten years clean from crank. I had to change my own sobriety date to my first day of sobriety from alcohol. Actually it is more of a matter of treasuring my own sobriety than any fear of dipping back down into full-blown alcoholism that keeps me going. I detest crank, what it did to my existecne and what is has done to my mind and general health.

My Amigo Mikey and Cute Kathy came by for a few minutes this morning, on their way to a Genesis Appointment. He brought me the convenient blessings of a bowl, spoon and a butter knife. Kathy told me this morning that she now has 60 days of sobriety. I told her that sobriety is to be treasured.

I hate the horrible harm and devastating damage that alcohol and drugs has done to many people I have known in my life.

I must have forgotten to take my Seroquel last night. I was not sure whether I had taken it or not, but I had insomnia last night and that is the usual sign of my not taking my medication. Oh well, I will make up for it tonight. I must remain real mindful of such matters. Drug usage is not abuse when it is done in accordance with the medical prescription by my doctor. Thus, I do not consider it a violation of my sobriety date.

I know I suffer from at least a mild form of ADHD. I sometimes get so caught up in what I am doing that my attention get arrested on a focus, a task, an object or another matter to the exclusion of all else that is going on around me.

There are valid reasons why I have almost a fanatical obsession on concentrating on the here and now in my life. I want to live my remaining years upon Mother Earth with a sound sanity, solid sobriety and with a keen sense of inner spiritual enlightenment. The past is over, though we can have fond memories about it, but it no longer exists in the here and now. Nostalgia can be nice, but we do not live in the past. The future with all its hopes and fears is always just up ahead and never actually here, though we can make contingency plans for the future. All we have to work with is the here and now, this present existential moment in time, this state-of-being here now where all our creative works take place. Be here in the now.

Clock time is an arbitrary arrangement manifested by mutual agreement among people, especially in the USA and other so-called Western countries. By the way, who determines where is West or East? I suspect that too was done by powers in the Western countries. We can take a clear glance back at history and see all the rape, plunder and pillage that have been done by the so-called Western powers.

The linear timeline of past, present and future is an invention of the Earthly-bound mortal mind. It too is a mental illusion as all that really exists in the material world is here now. There is no living present or living future. There is only the living in the here and now of connected reality. Make wise use of your time in your life, however you conceive it.

Live life in the here and now of connected reality. Do not dwell endlessly on the past with the pain of memories and nostalgia for times that will not come again. Do not dread the future before you with bundles of fearful anxiety about what is to come. The future will come here now when it will come and not a nanosecond before. Work on your spiritual growth, help others survive as you can and continue to create the life circumstances in your own immediate environment that will nourish and nurture your spiritual evolution. Be at peace with yourself. Be in oneness with your being. Treasure your beingness and protect it with all your might. You are a blessed creature of the Creator, though sometimes you may not feel particularly blessed. It is a miracle just to be alive today!

@12:00 PM ~ A SSI Representative named Alex Snelling called and asked about a couple of my former employment activities, as a Care Worker then as a Case Manager. He has my new address here. I should be getting a Final Determination as to my SSI Disability Case in a couple of weeks. We will see what we will see.

@3:56 ~ Surprise! Skip Rosenbloom, the Property Owner here at Globe Mills came by quite unexpectantly. He said he was interviewing some of the tenants about how to make it a better place. There is some concern about vacancy rates right now. I told him that our Property Manager Sandra was a model as manager and that I loved it here. Plus, Chelsea in the office is a model. Both of them are compassionate people. We discussed some other pertinent matters about living here. I went into a bit about my background having been a Case Manager, Counselor and Housing Coordinator at the local Salvation Army Shelter for a few years. There will be a Community Meeting this Thursday here @1:00 PM that I am going to be sure to attend. We exchanged cell phone numbers. As he left he stated that this is a new beginning for us. I was pleased that he took the time to give his attention. Such is a life-affirming hall mark of a good humane being, one who takes the time to give him or her attention to the concerns of others.

In relation to property management of apartment complexes, the ideal is to get good tenants in the first place who appreciate having a safe, clean and wholesome home environment. Of course, due to system tax credits and stuff they at first had to fill in all the apartments here. This is an ideal place for me to work on my inner self and I hope I can spend years living peacefully here at Globe Mills.

Being diagnosed as bi-polar I need to be aware of my tendency to slip into any form of mania, even in relation to my social ideas and opinions.

Connected reality is what it is and though many of us have legitimate grievances about the harmful ways of the US Government, we who are here in the United States are still very blessed in many ways that we should consciously appreciate. For all its crazy ways, I love this country. No where else in the world do we have the beauty of diversity and great potentials that we have in this one country, maniacs and all!

@10:04 ~ Earlier this evening I went by City Hall. Apparently Occupy Sacramento had a good turnout, too long a line to get in after passing security and all. Went to Cesar Chavez Park across the street where the Occupation is going on, talked to Sonny with Wind and a few other folks. Came back here to GM, went to our Computer Room downstairs for a spell, coming back up I met Brother Bill O. He had some great chicken and potato salad stuff for me in two trays from Sally’s. Plus, Major Mark wants to talk to me tomorrow. I am sure it will be positive. I just took my medication awhile ago. Tomorrow I need to go see my therapist at Genesis in the late morning. It should be a good day as far as I can foresee. God is indeed good, though often misunderstood by the boys in the hood. Nada mas ahora.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011
@10:35 ~ Wow! I woke up and got up a bit after 10 AM. Missed my Appt. with Nick @Genesis, left Message with Major Mark, called Brother Shaka and made a few other calls. This is the latest I remember waking up in months, so I caught up on my sleep for now. Today is Brother Shaka’s natal Birthday! I am glad he was born. He is a great blessing in my life and a great helper of others.

My journaling here in the morning helps give routine structure in my life now. I must keep in mind that this is a time in my life when I do not have a regular job with its time structure. I believe structure is important in life for us to have a regular life-pattern and for mental health in general. I am still not all well and wonderful. I must be aware of my mental, physical and spiritual health needs in order to maintain a good balance in my life and not fall off the deep end.

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As I approach 60-Earth years of living I ponder upon past remembrances, the countless experiences I have been through and all the many people I have gotten to know over the years.

My early years were kind of lonely years as a child. Most of my nurturing and parenting experiences came from my beloved Mother Rafaela (Ella) Perez Lopez. I owe much of my brain development to her. I remember sitting secure on her lap and she kept a close eye on me with my rambunctious ways. She was my best friend and I knew that all her advice to me was from her best knowledge with my ulterior motive.

My Father, named Pedro (Pete) Macias Lopez, usually neglected me as I grew up, as I imagine he himself was neglected by his Father. He was a hard worker and showed his love by taking care of us and meeting our survival needs. It has been only in my older years that we reached a kind of mutual respect and love for each other.

Many men who are husbands and fathers are handicapped emotionally and have an extremely hard time expressing their affections towards loved ones. Understanding brings great relief on an emotional level and foregoes any condemnation.

We called our paternal grandfather Tata. Tata died at Weimar State hospital. I remember my Father and I went to go visit him at his death bed. Now ‘Tata’ is my young Brother Bobby’s nickname. My Grandfather Tata, named Felizardo (Felix) Lopez was not living with my paternal Grandmother Nana, named Lupe Lopez, as I was growing up.

My maternal Grandmother Lupe Fernandez was called Mama Lupe. Mama Lupe was a Red Cross Nurse in Pancho Villa’s Army. My maternal Grandfather Rafael (Ralph) Perez was a miner turned Villista solider in Zacotecas, Mexico. I mainly saw my grandmothers because they lived here in Sacramento.

On my paternal side I am a descendent of the Warrior Chief Geronimo. Geronimo was not an actual tribal chief but was seen as one because of his genius at military guerrilla strategy. Further back I am related to a Great Yaqui Chief, whose name I do not know, who was of a tribe never conquered by the Spaniards. A warrior’s ways is in my blood and my very bloodline.

As an adolescent, I became friends with books and loved the companionship of reading books. I remember we had an Funk and Wagnel’s Encyclopedia that was given to us by our Aunt Carmen, my Dad’s sister. I checked it out some and it helped me explore accumulated knowledge via the printed word. Around this time I read Freud’s Introduction to Psychoanalysis and was faintly aware of ideas around the superego, the ego and the Id. Plus, a little bit about dream analysis. It was way too deep for me to completely fathom at the time, but I knew there was more cooking upstairs in the brain than most are even aware of now.

Growing up, a major influence on my psyche was my Brother Steven. At the early age of three years Steven contracted TB Meningitis. He succumbed to a severe fever which left him severely retarded. I was his Big Brother and Body Guard against an often cruel adult world. He is now in a home in South Sacra and I need to see about him and his welfare, plus, as part of my own evolution.

My Sister Linda was my Big Sister and she was protective towards me. Often Linda and My Mom were interacting and doing stuff together. I kept myself busy exploring the local situation, hanging out with a few friends and dutifully going to school. Then the 60s came and that was another whole stage in my life!

@12:23 PM ~ Sister Linda is to come by tomorrow around 10 AM to drop off a Care Package for me. Good! I told her I needed salt, yet plain salt. I really am starting all over in terms of creating a home sanctuary here. I need to value every cent and dollar, though I do not consider myself a cheapskate, just extremely poor, esp. compared to before when I had a regular job. Life is often about adjustments to changes and re-adjustments to those life changes.

Next Meeting with Psychiatrist at Guest House will be Nov 7th @9 AM

@6:12 PM ~ Brother Tata came by this afternoon, his first visit. We discussed some interesting subjects. I love life and the curiosity about what else I will learn about life among the living.

Major Mark called this afternoon about the possibility of my being a Salvation Army ‘Bellringer’ this Holiday Season at $8.00 bucks per hour. I will consider it, though I do not want it to affect negatively on my SSI status, such as it is.

Just came up from GM Computer room. As usual, I was on Twitter and am glad to see that LA has accepted Occupy LA. It is a quickly growing social phenomenon that will help to polarize the relationship between the truth of what is going on in the world and the lies spread by fascist propaganda. Obama is losing the support he once took for granted. He is another corporate-controlled puppet-pawn and has lost much of the power of moral high ground he once held.

Edited Text Message via Tata: Necessity has always been necessary for progress. It was darkness that produced the It is hard to distinguish between the hard knocks of life and those of opportunity. lamp. It was #fog that produced the compass. It was hunger that drove us to exploration and it took a depression to teach us the real value of a job. Adversity induces one to really know one’s Inner Self.

@7:30 ~ Brother Bill came up. He will bring a few foodstuffs up on occasion, which will be helpful. Humility leaves one most aware of our natural dependent on others in our lives in a good way.

@7:45 PM ~ Elder Kathy just came by with her little dog from across the hall. She is blessed to be in my old apartment I had here before. She asked for a cigarette, so I gave her a rollie. I hope she stays in relatively good health. Aging is such a decaying fragile process that I am beginning to be more aware of myself. In the mornings, I do not spring up as I use to when I was younger. One wakes up stiff and such.

Thursday, October 13, 2011
@6:26 AM ~ Another day, another way of being upon Mother Earth. Let us pray that we are able to find and exhibit the best in us in order to help make the world a better place to live, to love and to prosper. We are here to help make life better for all of us. We are here to extend a helping hand for others. We should not shirk from our responsibilities to ourselves on an individual level and our responsibilities to others of the human family. Each of us can make a difference on an existential level. Each of us is a creature of the Creator.

@10:06 ~ It was a long creative and constructive day for me. Went to Safeground Meeting at Delaney Center at 8:30 AM and we are in general consensus about being in support of Occupy Sacramento. We who work with Safeground are getting to know and trust each other better as times go by. Posted on their Facebook Page about Meeting next Thursday. Later, I went to go get my Desktop Computer from Shaka’s and finally have it set up here. So now I have both my Desktop and my Laptop up and running here. Plus, went to Globe Mills Community Meeting at 1 PM and I am have of the Community Resource Committee with a couple of sisters on it for now. Guess we will meet soon what I got my old Housing Resource brochure updated into a new format. Plus, received and got some Texting done via my cell phone AKA Mobile Phone.

A lot of life is about communicating to others, reaching out and keeping in mind that sharing is caring. Nada mas ahora. ~Che Peta

Friday, October 14, 2011
@8:54 AM ~ Another day, another way. We should awaken to each day refreshed, ready to cope with whatever comes our way. Awaken at oneness with one’s Inner Being. Awaken with love in our hearts for life among the living, for the blessings of being alive in these tragic troubled times. We can do and should do what we can to make it better for all of us, including our Inner Being. When we are more at peace with our Inner Being we are more at peace with live in general. Yes, it is life and life for the living.

I was blessed to be awoken on my Intercom Phone here at Globe Mills by my Buddy Mikey. Here at Globe Mills visitors have to call up from the box downstairs on the streets level where there are buttons for each resident here for a visitor to ring the apartment of whom they want to visit, then the resident must go downstairs in toe the lobby and let the visitor in or not. Of course, this can be a hassle but it is a way of securing who comes in and out of the building from the outside. We use to be able to just buzz them in. Not any longer. So I had to put on my jeans and go downstairs.

I was blessed because Mikey, Kathy, Michael and Virgil were there downstairs, stopping by on their way to the DRA (Dual Recovery Anonymous) Meeting at Guest House. Plus, I was given a Care Package of a loaf of good bread, a Caesar Chicken salad and my first roll of toilet paper. Will wonders never cease?

I love those dear people who were at Carol’s Place with me when I was there and made some good friends whom I want to stay in touch with. One must be careful to nurture good relationships. I myself have not always done so. As I mature I see better the need for living in balance, not too much of one behavior or another that can get us stuck in negative behavior or even one kind of negative addiction or another. An important area of our lives is in our social relationships with others in our lives. Life lessons abound every day if we are aware and pay attention to them in our lives.

Tomorrow is the Sabbath and Sister Linda is planning to come by with a Care Package and I believe Toro will too. I feel good having both my computers operating here, though I am not online here at home in my sanctuary. Well I better start getting ready for going to the Central Library. I will check out Occupy Sacramento on my way at Cesar Chavez Plaza.

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Now I have learned to keep more of a balance in my life by working on myself and creating change in the world on a personal individual basis. As Gandhi realized, true deep change begins within. This is a way for one being more relevant on the basis individual self-care that can benefit our better being able to help the masses, not petty-bourgeois individualism. I am no longer obsessed with the idea of political party building with HELP, though it is still a part of my life in relation to coping with the external world. I have not received the response from others that I expected. I had to see that in a way I am on the leading edge of the social learning curve. I will continue to do what I can on an individual level in the hopes that this will have a greater impact on the external world.

We are no good for others if we are not any good for ourselves and do not take care of our own personal needs and priorities in life. Many so-called leaderz suffer a quick burn out if they do not learn to adapt and keep balance in their lives. For example, anyone in a leadership position should practice daily sobriety and become a kind of role model for others, without slipping into narrow arrogance.

We must resolve relevant social conflicts and social contradictions with debate, dialogue and honest discussions, not by overpowering and killing each other. The ideal here is to avoid endless bloodbath, the stay off the bloodstained tracks of past human history. If we give up on our ideals we are doomed to live in our nightmares.

@4:17 PM ~ I am now at Sacra Central Library, my usual library location when it is open during the day. One must deal with frustrations from time to time, not all goes smoothly our way and as the saying goes SHIFT HAPPENS!

Saturday, October 15, 2011
@11:04 AM ~ Wow! I have been truly blessed again with gifts from Sister Linda and Brother Frank. They brought me some kitchen stuff, towels, other stuff and a brand new Mr. Coffee Maker.

@11:25 PM ~ It has been a good day. It is about time to lie down for the night in my blankets. A lot of more and more places are becoming #Occupy locations. It looks like the Occupy Movement is growing more and more each day and night, especially as we utilize social networks to communicate with others who live elsewhere in relation to our geographical location. Social networks are key for success now because they help to combat any sense of lonely isolation. God bless the Internet!
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Where Is Safeground Today? via @Peta_de_Aztlan

2011-10-14T14:22:00.000-07:00

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Posted: Friday, October 14, 2011

Imagine you are born, bred and raised inside the City of Sacramento all your life. Imagine that due to circumstances beyond your immediate control you find yourself a homeless refugee in the streets without a place to call your own home sanctuary, without a place where you can simply exist as a human being in comfort without being told to move! Imagine you are told by the authorities to move on and wherever you move on you are still considered a vagrant and treated like an illegal alien!

We have the humane right to be, to live and to survive. Whatever the reasons for our becoming homeless we still have the sacred right to be treated with respect and dignity as a humane being, as a creature of the Creator God.

We can endlessly debate and discuss about the root reasons for homelessness in terms of a failed state, a broken government, a dire lack of social services, the plague of drug addiction, no decent jobs for us, no affordable housing and a complex collection of other reasons, but what is to be done?

The general situation of homeless refugees now existing outside day and night in the Sacramento area is an Emergency Situation. The City and County of Sacramento must recognize, openly address and respond to the homeless refugee crisis in a humane compassionate way. The local emergency shelters offered by the Salvation Army, Volunteers of America, St. John’s Shelter and a few others are usually full and jam packed. Hundreds are now on waiting lists hoping to get off the streets, get inside at night and off the river. Many seek safe refuge now what is actually a New Great Depression, not a mere passing economic recession.

On June 30, 2009, hundreds of local County shelter beds for homeless refugees were shut down due to County cutbacks for human assistance. In response, what is now known as Safeground began on July 1, 2009 in Sacramento, California to create a mobile site where peaceful homeless people can gather together by the river and sleep at night in the relative safety of numbers. The ideal for Safeground is to establish a stable self-governing community environment where people living outside can create a stable campsite where they can be safe, sober and survive without the fear of being harassed, intimidated or arrested by the local authorities.

Where is Safeground today? Safeground should be available upon Mother Earth wherever there are people who desire to live in safety, sanity and social peace in a safe home sanctuary. The ground where you live should be safe. We have the sacred humane right to a home or at least a safeground location where we can be left in peace without fear of being displaced!

We demand the City and County of Sacramento immediately establish a Safeground Campsite until more affordable housing can be made available for the homeless refugees of our land. Be humane being and support the on-going efforts of Safeground!

Contact Information: 916/448-2448
Website: www.safegroundsac,org
On Twitter @SafeGroundSac

Link: Occupy Sacramento on Facebook ~
https://www.facebook.com/OccupySacramento
@OccupySacto on Twitter

Venceremos! Che Peta
@Peta_de_Aztlan
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Carol's Place Journal: Septiembre 2011 via @Peta_de_Aztlan

2011-09-21T10:00:00.000-07:00

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Thursday, Septiembre 01, 2011
It is now the 1st of Septiembre AKA September. Even since '911' September has been a different month for many Amerikans, there seems to be more of an air of nervous excitement and more conscious awareness of how fragile life can be despite our efforts to keep it safe, sound and relatively sane.

I am still at Carol's Place pictured above. I am still in the same room as before. My roommate Lee left today to another spot. I wish him well. I am curious how and who my new roommate will be. I am pretty compatible with most people. Over the years I have learned to be accepting and non-judgmental towards people, as I hope they are towards me.

I was going to move to Room #3 in the corner house, but instead the powers-that-be are going to put a physically handicap guy there. I was kind of disappointed, especially as I had my stuff pretty well ready to move. So I had to unpack. swept the room and made my bed. At least I still have my shared room with a view, though I would prefer to have my own room without the distraction of someone else being in the room with me. I myself must learn to share.

I talked to my friend/sponsor Mike K. last night. He injured himself in the left foot but he can still drive. Today is Recovery Happens at the State Capitol. Now I am at the Sacra Central Library, my power spot for now. Time for posting on Twitter.

I want to spend a lot of my time this month focusing on writing stuff. I will try to avoid dumb distractions.

@9:00 PM ~ At Carol’s Place. Carol was either the benefactor that got this place and/or the first client here named Carol.

It seems that I will be spending the night in this room alone. The first time in a few months that I will do so since I moved out of Globe Mills on May 24 and entered the Emergency Shelter at VOA ‘A’ Street on May 25. Now I am here at Carol’s Place. So I have now been in the shelter matrix for a bit over three months. It is quite an experience that I would recommend to most folks. It gives you a better feel for how you can cope in a sheltered situation along with other folks. It definitely teaches you patience, tolerance and understanding. Plus, it gives one a good idea of how they can adjust in settings far different from the privacy of being in one’s own home sanctuary. WE learn, yes we learn or we burn!

Think I will sleep in the raw for once. Plan to go to DRA Meeting at Guest House tomorrow at 9 AM. I should be up early tomorrow morning.

I pray all my loved ones are well. I pray for all the abandoned refugees who are lost in the streets tonight cold and hungry with no place to rest their weary head. I pray for all those who feel that no one prays for them. I pray for all who feel they are the loneliest people on Mother Earth. Buenas Noches!

Friday, September 02, 2011
@11:04 AM ~ Slept well last night at 'home'. Here Now @Sacra Central Library. We got a new resident at Carol's Place and I welcomed him saying that it is a good place to be. I know I was a bit nervous when I first arrived but I have become comfortable there, though not fully content. Life goes on. It is a matter of us being able to adjust to new settings and new situations. We are not fully prepared for what is a new situation. The ideal is to have an attitude of gratitude.

Saturday, September 03, 2011
@10:56 PM ~ I am at Sacra Central Library on 4th Floor. I have a new roommate named Michael who is a good man. I met him briefly before when he came by here from Turning Point.

Link: http://www.tpcp.org/

I have been humming that tune Distracted by Al Jarreau in the my head all morning. Just found the YouTube Link >

Sharing is caring. Many people are afraid to share. It is a truism that in a way we are as sick as our secrets, especially the ones we keep from our own conscious minds that dwell in our own subconscious. Feel a little restless today.

@5:57 ~ Surprise! Good News! I received an SSI Check for $830.00 in my name of PETER S. Lopez from the U.S. Treasury in the U.S. Mail here today. Cindy, the Asian-American Monitor here, called me into the office to let me know, so I opened it right there. She mentioned that it might be a presumptive check. I need to talk to our Administrator Mattie this coming Monday. The does change the whole game plan for me. For sure I am going to cash it Monday, then get my Mobile Phone re-activated. Hell, I might even get a cheap Timex watch!

I need to confirm for sure whether I am on SSI or not next week. If so I will need to make a plan of action for moving out of here into a small simple room with a view.

Now we are set to have a Mental Health Meeting here, next door. More will be revealed!

@6:46 PM ~ The Mental Health Meeting went well. We actually had a dish in the center with good candles burning and the light off. This is done once a month, but residents here at not allow to have candles burning in their own rooms because of a fire hazard. Keep in mind that we are all on one kind of medication or another. Myself I only take 50 mg. of Seroquel at 9 PM before I go to bed. Get fed, take a med and bed!

@10:16 PM ~ I had a good day with good news. I will try to confine myself to my own inner self here and avoid going into too much stuff in the outer world outside of my own individual consciousness. I already post a lot of news items via Twitter and Facebook in order to give others the option to find out what the hell is exactly going on in the world. I am convinced that much of the work to be done amongst us as a species of life is internal work, an inside job, on-going efforts at understanding ourselves in order to better understand others. We really are one family as a species of life upon Mother Earth. Let us strive to be a humane family, a family that has love, care and concern for all of us. Cherish the sanctity of life. Nada mas ahora!

Sunday, Septiembre 04, 2011
Yesterday I went to the SNAHC Sobriety Celebration. It was good to be there and celebrate the growing sobriety of the native population AKA Native-American. I am still not buying into the American term in light of the historical genocide. I know I should maybe get over it, but not when some folks fake as if we are all one big happy family in connected reality when we are not!

This afternoon I went to the Farmworkers Rally for the UFW at the Capitol and took some pictures. It was great just seeing all the beautiful people of La Raza Cosmica!

Am now at Sacra Central Library via their WiFi, but due to available outlets where I would be comfortable am not even plugged into the wall, using battery on DELL Laptop. Guess I will just do some Tweeting now. Library closes at 5 PM today.

Monday, September 05, 2011
Someone has to finish last in the class. ~ Michael’s Dad.

@4:40 PM ~ @Carol’s Place. It has been a nice day, so far. Woke up early, took a shower, had my coffee, did some clean up work around here for a little exercise, had a bowl of Raisin Bran and a turkey sandwich with wheat bread and just hung around. I was out of rolling papers so I got my change, then Co-Residents Mike and Craig and I went to the Southside Market. Those two had never been to Southside Park before. I showed them the status there of Hidalgo and the great mural. I felt good being able to share the experience of a simple walk through the park to the little store on the corner.

Sometimes I get so caught up in life that I forget the simple pleasures of simple experiences.

My DELL Laptop is charged up so it work without being plugged in. I had never done this before. Having the capability is a good feeling.

I now understand more of what C.J. Jung talked about in terms of feeling-tone. Another way of expressing feeling-tone would be ‘vibes’. In a way those of us who took psychedelics in late 60s had a better understanding of some stuff in life. Some of it we lost contact as we grew older, especially those of us who got caught up in the dramas and traumas of drug addiction.

When we walk by a person we feel certain feelings that come from the vibes of that person and our inner feelings to those vibes, especially it seem with those who have more of a EM-field compared to others. EM= Electro-Magnetic. Many times we are not sensitive to people’s fields or auras and misunderstanding can result or little prejudices easily arise.

The ideal would be to be in conscious awareness of our inner being, our own spiritualness. Many are not able to practice no-mindedness and are always suffering from the antics of the ‘monkey-mind’ that is constantly jumping around inside the cage of the brain. We need to explore more the connections and interconnections between the brain and the mind. Are the brain and the mind the same? Are we not more than our physical bodies? Are we not always being even if we are not aware of our beingness?

@7:15 PM ~ We had a good Labor Day Dinner here of shish-kebab, mashes pototaoes and cooked vegetables. It has been a pleasant day. Called a few folks on the phone: Dad, Geri and Bobby. I told my Dad that I wanted to see him soon, thisweek or the next and that I missed seeing him, he felt the same way. It has taken him so long for him to express his affection, yet I have learned so much about true affection from him.

Tuesday, September 06, 2011
Now at Sacra Central Library safe and sound. Woke up, talked to Maddie at Carol's Place about my receiving the SSI Check and stuff. She gave me the go ahead to cash it, I am OK to stay there as a resident for now and may have to start paying regular rent come October. Went up to K Street Mall Bank of America, cashed it, bought two pouches of Bugler Gold for my roommate and I, had a burrito and got a Pepsi.

On the Mall had a conversation with a former client who called himself Junebug, strange Puerto Rican cat. He mentioned about need for me to stay tied up with my laptop for it not to be snatched up by a cat who can run off with it. It was a strange exchange. I was concerned about his 'housing situation' and recommended White City for him to go to since he is a vet. I must be aware that sometimes those we want to help can hurt us.

I finally got a new Metro PCS Mobile Phone, not an Android but one that is functional for my purposes.

Talking to Maddie and Mark T. this morning I mentioned that for now I just want to take my time and figure out a cohesive Plan of Action for the future. More importantly right now if my taking the time to pay attention, to work on my mental health and to continue to concentrate on my spiritual evolution.

Wednesday, Septiembre 07, 2011
@2:11 PM ~ I woke up early as usual, but I woke up in the middle of the night started tripping looking for my room key and became wide awake. I am a little sleepy now. Have been tweaking with my new Mobile Phone. I need to make sure it does not become another major distraction.

I got more U.S. Mail from SSI today about my getting so much $$$ a month for up to six months until a final (decisive?) determination is made. Plus, stuff from them for me to choose a Medical Plan. From what Maddie says I will have a Medical Plan or Coverage come what may. I do not really understand it completely. Being a bit sleep deprived I do not want to even try to wrap my mind around it until tomorrow.

I really get distracted easy, sometimes easier than at other times. Suspect it depends a lot upon my general state-of-being, esp. well-being. There are a few extremely beautiful female beings who are in my vicinity right now here at Sacra Central Library. I must learn how to better focus, pay attention and concentrate on the tasks at hand, not just fantasizing, though some females do stimulate my fantasies. ;->

Tomorrow is a Safeground Meeting. I am not sure how well our Jubilee will come out. Besides, I want to see it all connected with a basic humane rights agenda. Who listens to me? I will just keep loving as much as I can.

Thursday, Septiembre 8th of 2011
@12:53 PM ~ @Sacra Public Library ~Sharing is caring. This Blog is my Public Journal online where I am pretty much open, go with the flow and kind of check in with myself. I may be as risk of self-exposure that could backfire against me. However, I am convinced that in many ways we are as sick as our secrets. Some people have forgotten their secrets and are sick without even really remembering what could be haunting them on a subconscious level.

Yesterday evening @Carol's Place I put air in my SCHWINN and drove around the block with it before I turned back into the driveway. Ooops! When I stopped I somehow fell off my bike onto my ass before I had a chance to get off, now I must admit that my lower back is sore. A couple of folks there saw me fall onto my ass, I was kind of embarrassed but suffered no major harm. I need to be more mindful, more consciously aware. I was already suffering from sleep deprivation, was going to get a nap, but has been procrastinating about putting air in my bike from my cool air pump so I got it done. I am older now, becoming more fragile. I just pray that I heal OK soon. Now I am really trying to stay aware of all my body moments. In life, every error and mistake on our part can be a teaching point on the learning curve.
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We had a great Safeground Meeting at Cat's house. Her husband Mark Merin is the Lawyer and Advocate for @SafeGroundSac and his lovely enlightened wife 'Cat' is our Coordinator. We have been having morning meetings at their house for quite a while now. We had our last Thursday morning meeting today before the upcoming Safeground Jubilee.

Recall: Mark Merin: Fighting For Their Rights -January 2010 - Sacramento, California > bit.ly/p9acWo

~ Mark Merin ~

As usual, I have my spins on stuff in terms of how we could of done better so far, where there are areas for improvement and what is to be done in the future. However, considering what and who we are working with we have done fantastic! It is hard to work with people who are not getting any monetary rewards for their hard honest work yet are suffering in their personal lives in real ways, especially when they are actually spending time and sleeping on Safeground.

When we are working with poor people we need to take into consideration different educational levels and individual attributes. We should try to foster a strong working unity as a social group while also allowing each person their individual integrity. Then, each of us has our own personal experiences, especially in relation to Social Movements and Social Networks. At bottom I want to see a strong humane rights movement here in Sacramento with an array of community-based organizations, functional agencies and committed individuals who can work together, despite any particular difference's. We need to see each other as precious sacred members of the human family.
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There was a time when I was seriously considering needing to go Safeground and stay until another alternative came up. I have been approved for SSI on a 'presumptive basis' for up to six months. However, I am still awaiting Final Determination. Shit happens! I mean, life happens.

Friday, September 09, 2011
@3:02 PM ~My Roommate Michael and I went to my favorite thrift store in the world: the SPCA Thrift Store by 15th & E Streets. I got a couple of good books, Mike bought some cool stuff and then we left. Afterwards we went to the corner store and had a smoke. I mentioned a shirt that I had wanted to buy but did not get to Mike. He said he was in no hurry. So we went back into the store. I changed shirts and put my new one on and hung my keys on the hook in the Dressing Room. I ended up buying a cool light brown pull-over shirt, but mistakenly left my Carol's Place keys in the Dressing Room. I did not flash on it until we were already on the Light Rail headed more into Downtown. I had to get off on the next stop and Mike went on. I walked back to the SPCA Thrift Store and a sister I had met there had already turn them in. My main keys now are my room key, my Lunch Mailbox key where I keep my medication in the Carol's Place office, my bike lock key and another one I had for a chain that I have since given away (which reminds me I need to ask Shaka about the lock for that one). So I guess the moral of the story is all is well that ends well. However, the episode was another reminder of my having traces of ADHD and the importance of being aware of my physical actions. One must remain consciously aware in life, especially out in sinister streets.

LINKS:
http://www.dailyhoroscope.com/

Need to work on this one more... maybe a lot?!?
https://peta1951.wordpress.com/

Astrology: Planet Jupiter Goes Retrograde > http://t.co/Hi0Pu8I ~

Astrology Blog: Settling Down or Just Settling? Saturn in Libra by Maria DeSimone > http://t.co/oMCVX1c ~

Preparing with Insight: Astrology and 9/11

How Astrology can teach us all to act as first responders

by Karen A. Kay

http://www.dailyhoroscope.com/horoscope-headlines/astrology-anniversary-911-september-11-2001-preparedness-month

@5:40 PM ~Well I had fun here today being online at the Sacra Central Library. There is kind of a safety zone being here. People know that if you blow it at the library then you are pretty sad and bad. Got to go now. SO much to read and write.

Monday, Septiembre 12, 2011
As I am sure all of the United States of Amerika is aware of, yesterday was the 10th Anniversary of the 911 tragedy in Washington D.C. etc. In all this remembering many have forgotten about the 911 when President Allende of Chile was overthrown by a CIA-engineered military coup.

Yesterday was Sunday and as usual I functioned as the Secretary for the CASA 12-Steps Meeting @7 PM at Sally's.

@2:50 PM ~ I am now ow @ShineSacramento on my Dell Lap.
http://shinesacramento.com/

1st time here, good to have a few bucks on me. Aware! Alive! Funny, I use to have my office here at the Shine Cafe Shop back around 1969-70 when I was a Youth Organizer in the War On Poverty program. Of course, so much has changed since those days, yet, it is true that so much does remain the same. We get older but not necessarily wiser.

Life at Carol's Place goes on one day at a time. At this point I figure I will need to stay also through October, then if nothing else breaks through I will possibly move on in November. I have not been told for sure fore sure whether I will have to pay CASH for next month or not. I suspect I will have to do so. I need to just continue to work my program. Carol's Place for me now is a six month program at maximum. I am not hot about going to Palmer's Place, where some folks go from Carol's Place. I am just enjoying this moment, this here now. Time go move on from here for now. It is a good atmosphere. Nada mas ahora! ~Che Peta

Tuesday, Septiembre 13th of 2011
As of July 5th I owe PG&E $48.46. I am glad it is not more now. Guess I am kind of trying to straighten out my utilities bills. https://www.pge.com/

Cool. No Payment Due for SMUD. Am not sure how that played out. Must of snatched it out of my Deposit. I hate bills for utilities, a necessary evil.
http://www.smud.org/en/Pages/index.aspx

Cannot access my Comcast Account online right now to check my bill. They were usually a hassle to reach online. I will have to call them between here and death.
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Meanwhile, life goes on at Carol's Place. A few folks left, a few folks came in. It can be quite an interesting place, especially for me to learn more about an aspect of the whole homeless-refugee matrix that I never personally experienced as a client/resident before. Some folks have different ways of putting up their defense mechanisms, establishing borders and manifesting forms of resistance to revelation, especially inner revelation.

Iranian artist’s works among “Gifts of Sultan” in U.S.

I just thought the above was colorful and interesting so I am posting it here. Art comes in many forms.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011
@2:55 PM ~ Am not at Central Library. The Safeground Jubilee is suppose to start around 3 PM. I am right across the street with stuff I want to do here now. I am not scheduled to speak so I am not tripping. These last few days I have hardly been getting any sleep at night and I am about out of my medication of 50mg of Seroquel. Left Messages with my Service Coordination Lisa at Guesthouse with no definite response. As usual it is my fault for not seeing about it before. I get so involved and wrapped up in the moment that sometimes I neglect stuff I should be mindful of in my life. Sometimes I get scattered. I just ordered In the Realm of Hungry Ghost by Gabor Mate via Amazon.com to go to my address at Carol's Place. I am looking forward to reading and studying it, plus others by Senor Mate.

@3:07 PM ~Just saw Brother Clifton, he tapped me on my left shoulder and is here with his laptop. I can see him from where I sit. I will sneak a picture, then Email it to him later. Yeah, it is a little sneaky. We live in a strange, dangerous and mysterious world where a lot of sneaky events happen. Deal with it!

Thursday, May 15, 2011
@2:50 PM ~ We had a great Safeground Jubilee yesterday at Cesar Chavez Plaza, but much remains to be done. The struggle goes on, we need to build up a strong humane rights movement here in Sacramento to address an array of humane concerns. Our basic survival needs remain the same: food, clothing, shelter, medical care and quality education.

Article From today's Sacramento Bee: Sacramento homeless still await campground
Email: chubert@sacbee.com

Published Thursday, Sep. 15, 2011

After two years of lawsuits, meetings and negotiations, Sacramento's homeless appear no closer to finding a legal place to sleep outdoors. Despite political pledges to identify a piece of property where homeless people could live in movable cottages with basic services, discussions with city officials have so far proved fruitless. Campers won a partial constitutional victory in federal court in May, but little has changed in the city's enforcement of an ordinance against sleeping in undesignated places for longer than 24 hours.

Now, with subtle hints of autumn in the air, homeless people are facing the prospect of having no indoor shelter during cold and rainy winter nights. For the first time in memory, the budget-strapped county has no money for a seasonal shelter program.

On Wednesday afternoon, more than 100 homeless men and women and their advocates marched from the Loaves & Fishes complex on North C Street to Cesar Chavez Plaza across from City Hall to highlight their cause. They rode bicycles, pushed carts and walked dogs, carrying signs that read "No More Citations" and "Give us SafeGround."

"People need to understand what SafeGround means," said Jeannie Williams, 62, who is homeless and serves as an elder in the movement. "It's not a bunch of druggies and lowlifes and scum. It's every walk of life you can think of."

Mark Merin, a Sacramento attorney who represents the homeless, said advocates "are at a stalemate" over identifying a site for a SafeGround community that would provide temporary shelter and basic services such as garbage pickup and bathrooms.They looked at private property across from the Campbell's Soup plant in south Sacramento, he said, but determined it would be too expensive to purchase and develop. A city committee has rejected several other sites, Merin said. "This is a big political headache and heartache," he said.

Cassandra Jennings, a former assistant city manager who has worked with homeless advocates on the issue, said the city properties identified by Merin's group as potential SafeGround sites have had zoning, environmental and safety concerns. None of the sites has been vetted to City Council members, so neighborhood concerns have yet to be heard, she said.
The city remains open to exploring locations, said Jennings, now with the Sacramento Housing and Redevelopment Agency. "If we had the perfect site, we would be the first to bring it to the table," she said. "But it's not that easy."

Mayor Kevin Johnson has led an effort to find permanent housing for more than 2,000 people through his Sacramento Steps Forward initiative, and has said he is open to the idea of a SafeGround. But he and other supporters have been unable to push the issue through the political process, said Merin and others.

"No one is more frustrated than the mayor by the lack of progress on SafeGround," said Kunal Merchant, Johnson's chief of staff. City Councilman Jay Schenirer told a cheering crowd at the downtown park on Wednesday that "by the time the weather changes, we will have a place for you to be." He offered no details, however.

A recent census counted about 2,300 people living in shelters and on the streets in Sacramento County, a 16 percent drop since 2009. Despite the progress, a group of more than 100 homeless people continues to camp outdoors and generate controversy. Homeless plaintiffs had hoped that their partial victory in federal court in May would expedite establishment of a SafeGround.
In the suit, they claimed that city police violated their constitutional rights by grabbing their property during raids and throwing it away without giving them a chance to retrieve it.

A jury found that the city failed to properly notify homeless people about how to retrieve their possessions, and to implement policies for handling that property. It rejected several other claims.
Senior Deputy City Attorney Chance Trimm said Wednesday that the city will appeal the federal court verdict to the 9th U.S. Circuit Court of Appeal. The city does not believe that police committed constitutional violations in their interactions with the homeless, he said.

Meanwhile the county, which in past years spent up to $700,000 on its winter shelter program at Cal Expo, has said no money will be available this year. Last year, amid budget woes, the county came up with $150,000 to pay for shelter beds.

"We are very concerned," said Christie Holderegger of Volunteers of America. "There is a huge need."

VOA, which in the past has coordinated winter shelter operations for the county, is soliciting funds for a "nomadic shelter" program in which homeless people are housed in churches and other houses of worship. Last winter, in the program's first year, 18 faith communities housed 80 to 100 people each night.
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Joseph Short rests on the lawn at Cesar Chavez Plaza as advocates of a SafeGround campsite march past Wednesday. Mayor Kevin Johnson backs a spot for the homeless, but no property has been selected and the City Council is not considering a site.

Plus we had a great TLCS Picnic today. Life is getting better for me. Blessings, Che Peta

Viernes, Diez y Seis de Septiembre
@3:58 PM ~ I am not at Sacra Central Library. I am considering going to school next Semester at City College, though am not sure I will swing it or not now. My life is kind of at a transition stage right now. I am still awaiting my Final Determination in relation to SSI.

I am more aware these days of my moods. I still have often distracted by what I consider to be ADHD. I need to be aware of my own rationalizations about it all.

Sabbath, September 17, 2011
@12:05 PM ~ For me, the idea of my even being online is to check stuff out, scan the news, visit favorite websites and to essentially share with others.

Life at Carol's Place goes pretty well. I myself have no problem staying sober, have learned to appreciate having a sober mind and only take 50mg of Seroquel at night to help me sleep. At times I have been the victim of insomnia. I usually sleep with a red bandana around my eyes to help keep me asleep. When I turn I will turn around or turn over, my eyes open momentarily, I see stuff in the room I am sleeping, then the old noodles start to cooking. I know that sleep is an essential element of one's well-being. Next Monday I need to go to Guest House and pick up my medication.

I have found that folks need to take care of their own business, be mindful of their own business and not constantly do the personal inventory of other folks. So much of life for me involves learning how to live and let live, learning how to live with others. Just glance at all the lousy relationships people get themselves caught up in, never learning from previous failures.

Lunes, Septiembre 19, 2011
@12:22 PM ~ Now at The Temple downtown having a few cups of coffee. Tata just left. I am feeling pretty good, at little restless but OK in general. I had to buy another Mobile Phone today. I got it on Special and got a great deal. My other one 'mysteriously disappeared' after I left it without thinking in the upstairs bathroom at Carol's Place. I have a prime suspect but no proof or evidence. Anyways, I had to pray to forgive my offender as I have been forgiven of my offenses to others in the past.

Many times I think we mainly hurt the ones who are the most close to us, especially when we are lost and insane in our chemical addictions. Sometimes I wonder, did we ever lose stuff in our own addictions or did we really give them away. Nada mas ahora!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011
@1:41 PM ~ Here at the McClatchy Library where I use to come as a child. I feel a lot of good feelings here. So much has changed over the many years since my childhood. I still have that little child in me at times, still wondering, still observing, still checking stuff out.

I did not sleep well last night. I did not take any of my medication of 50mg Seroquel. I am a bit sleep deprived right now and hope to sleep well tonight. As usual, I am glad to be doing as well as I am.

Wednesday, September 21, 2001
@10:22 AM ~ I am now at Sacra Central Library, one of my power spots. I got my new book I ordered from Amazon.com= In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts: Close Encounters with Addiction by Dr. Gabor Mate. I know it will be a fascinating read. My two Brothers, both of whom are called Mike, are here at the Library with me. It is good when Carol's Place people go out on an informal field trip together. Plus, my former 'bunky' from VOA 'A' Street Shelter came into Carol's Place this morning right by my room. I am on the top 2nd floor facing the street at Carol's Place in the hour next to the corner. The main house where the office is located is actually in the corner house and we are right next to it in an d adjacent house next door.

My medication is ready at Guest House and plan to go pick them up this Friday. I have what I need to get by and use mindfulness to help me in my day-to-day struggles.

Thursday, Septiembre 22, 2011
@1:19 PM ~ This damn fuckin' Dell Computer keeps freezing on me, at least once when I first get online and I lose stuff. It is this computer, not the Internet system here. Ahh, the frustrations I have had over the years with stuff online. It definitely has taught me more patience, though I am pretty good with keeping my patience. I use to first type up stuff in a document then transfer it here, but I am trying to avoid unnecessary extra steps. Guess I will save my blogposts here more often to avoid losing stuff.

I called and talked to Nick with Genesis and have scheduled my appointments with him for counseling to every Wednesday at 10:30 AM. I think I need to keep seeing him, at least until I get a Final Determination on my SSI Claim. Plus, he is good to talk to, he hears me out and gives me feedback. I believe he enjoys our short conversations too. They are set up to be only a half an hour long, though usually we go a little bit longer.

The situation at Carol's Place goes on one day at a time. Another Brother named Virgil is a new resident there. He was my bunkie who slept across from me when I was at the VOA 'A' Street Shelter. He is Filipino and a real cool cat.

I need to use a little thoughtful discretion here in these posts, especially in relation to the other clients, BUTTT I want to record some of the thoughts and impressions I have for my own self-understanding. Plus, hopefully to help increase the understanding of others who may happen to click upon this blog.

I am further into the homeless refugee matrix than I have ever been. I am getting a first-hand look at the general situation at a place that is designed to help homeless people with mental health issues. It can be touchy work because there is an element of confidentiality that must be closely respected. Nevertheless, I do maintain that in many ways we are as sick as our secrets.

People need to admit there is a problem is they are ever going to solve it. Refusal to admit a problem is tantamount to another form of denial. There are many forms of denial and at times denial may not be known to us on a conscious level. We must remain aware, conscious and open to ways that we can improve our inner character as humane beings.

Friday, Septiembre 23, 2011
@1:30 PM ~ @Central Library. I went to the DRA Meeting at Guest House, met a few brothers who are into recovery and even my roommate Brother Mikey showed up a little late because he has an appointment at Genesis. Afterwards I went by Loaves & Fishes where they were all celebrating its 20th Year of serving the people. I met a lot of my friends and there were good vibrations in the air.

While I was at Guest House I finally got my medication of Seroquel 50mg 30 EACH. This has been bit of a struggle. I must learn to be more patient with people who are assigned to help me and remember that I am not the center of their universe ~though I may be the center of my own cosmos.

Sabbath, September 24, 2011
@3:00 PM ~ Am going to be seriously considering moving into the Shasta Hotel. I do appreciate the help that Carol's Place has given me, BUTTTT I do what to have the privacy of my own room and can make room for someone else who needs to stay there.

As usual, today has been a pretty good day for me here at the Sacramento Central Library. I do feel kind of frustrated for different reasons. I need to vary and diversity more in my life. Plan certain typing schedules, do my typing like a regular job situation. However, I do feel that I am reaching more and more people via Twitter + Facebook. We need to develop a larger playing field.

Tuesday, Septiembre 27, 2011
@2:01 PM ~ Did not get online Sunday or Monday. Sunday we had a great CASA Meeting. Brother Alex gave a good testimony. I hope we have another good one this next Sunday. My Amigo Gallo came down from Rooster Ranch and it was good to see him and his two children, though they are becoming fine young adults and are not really children anymore. Sister Linda M. was also at the CASA Meeting and she was looking well and voluptuous. Plus, other were there in attendance. I want to have an even better one this Sunday. CASA has always been a kind of anchor for me in my life. Monday I stood around Carol's Place.

This morning when I got up and about I found out that my Schwinn bike had gotten stolen. It was locked up with a good chain in the backyard. I do not to even go into it now. I refuse to let is upset me, just another motivation for me to move out. Plus, a reminder for me not to cling to worldly possessions.

Earlier I submitted an application for the Shasta Hotel, along with a $15 Dollar money order for a Credit Check that is not refundable. I saw the little room I had seen before again. I want to get a room with a view there or I will not move in, period. All I want is a room with a view so I can work on my book and stuff. Keep it simple.

Below is a picture of the front door area at the Shasta Hotel

I will check it out. If I do not get a response by Friday then I may have to start paying actual rent at Carol's Place of $540, which will be a bummer. Plus, I want to get a RT Sticker for October for riding the bus and light rail.

After checking out Shasta I went by the Christian Science Reading Room and saw Sister Kristian and a board member. It was pleasant, though I am not a Christian Scientist as such. I can be open to learning from any relevant source.

I continue to keep my faith in the Creator, strive to be in communion with the Cosmos and know that I will be fine wherever I go. Today I find people real irritable, especially because so many do not really give a damn about others, have no radical revolutionary consciousness and many are riddled with an assortment of character defects. Of course, I continue to work on my own spiritual growth, try not to do a constant inventory of others, but I feel I am around a lot of selfish beings who suffer from one kind of mental-spiritual disorder or another ~ yet remain in denial.

Yesterday at Carol's Place I was allowed to do a new kind of group and held a meeting that I called a Spiritual Health Meeting. A few of the residents were there in attendance. I presented the Four Agreements and elaborated on a printout I distributed.

Related Link: http://www.toltecspirit.com/

So today is a Tuesday and the Central Library here is opened until 8 PM. I figure I will be here until about 6 PM.

Wednesday, Septiembre 28, 2011
@1:02 PM ~ I am now at Sacra Central Library on the 4th Floor, my usual area when I am here. I figure I will be in the downtown area in the future if I move into Shasta Hotel, thus I see no need in getting a Comcast Connect at my possible new home. Plus, it is good for my mental health to be out in public at least here to avoid any harmful isolation, though I love my times of solitude when I can just be to myself without being bothered by others with their inane insanity and irrelevancy, esp. if they are not working any kind of a self-improvement program in their personal lives.

This morning I went by Loaves & Fishes, saw friends and acquaintances there, popped in at the AA Meeting for a minute, then went to my Nutcracker Appointment with Nick at Genesis.

At my Genesis Therapy Session with Nick I told him about my time in 1976 and the rationale as to why I attempted suicide as seen from the outside. I told him I was using logic about the idea of aliens from another planet or dimension being able to help us poor folks here on earth and that idea that we are already being monitored by them. I figured that I would go into another dimension or portal where I would meet them. It gets complicated.

Anyway I consider the shaman experience I went through there just that, not an actual suicide attempt because I believed that I would not die. Plus, I did not really try to kill myself as much as I just did not want to live in that version of myself. I had taken all my meds (Haldol and Congentin) after a six-pack of beer, ended up sleeping on my right arm and crushed the nerves and muscles in it. After I was found ODed I was taken to the UCD Medical Center and was in a coma for three days.

Before that time I was working out with martial arts for up four hours a day, keep at it in one form or another and was in the physical shape I have ever been in.

At the time, the doctor told my Mom that only a miracle could save me. A priest said Last Rites over me. They had my lungs coated with charcoal. When I awoke there was a beautiful Latina woman who was pounding on my back for one medical reason or another.

Afterwards, I became physically handicapped with a limp right arm. I eventually started working out again after I was able to do one push up and pretty well recovered usage of my right arm and hand. I was plunged into the solitary realm of being physically handicapped, but afterwards realized that we are a lot capable with more potential for self improvement than we give ourselves credit for. I was handicapped as such for almost two years. Nick remarked that maybe the old Peter did die and I thought that was profound. I am truly lucky to be alive and am a blessed man.

So it was a good Therapy Session with Nick. He will be leaving to go to school down to southern California by Escondido in about a month of less. Next Wednesday Loaves & Fishes people are going on a retreat so I will not see him again until a couple of week.

Afterwards my Nutcracker Suite, I came downtown on the Mall, bought a Diet Pepsi and came across my beloved Brother Tata AKA Bobby. We checked out the Farmer's Market at Cesar Chavez Plaza they have every Wednesday around Summertime, though we are now into the Fall. Tomorrow is a Safeground Meeting at Kathleen's place AKA Cat.

@5:23 PM ~ I am still here at Sacra Central Library. I believe it closes at 6 PM. I guess I better get going. I plan to come back here after our morning Safeground Meeting over Cat's house tomorrow.

Thursday, Septiembre 29, 2011
We had a good Safeground Meeting at Cat's house. I am glad there is still a core group of folks who are still attending our meetings there. There is a lot of potential for creating a true hard core revolutionary consciousness among the homeless, our local refugees, if we are not afraid to go further in our active imagination.

Link: http://www.safegroundsac.org/
Twitter @SafeGroundSac

As always, my main agenda is a humane rights agenda. We need to help people see the interconnectiveness of all humane rights issues and causes.

Friday, September 30th of 2011@3:13 PM ~ Today is the Last Day of this Month of September. This morning at Carol's Place I talked to Carolyn and Maddie about my case and housing situation. They are both aware of my desire to move into the Shasta Hotel. Went to RT Station by 12th and R Streets and actually got my new RT Disabled Person Card with picture, plus my Sticker for October. Life goes on and I keep struggling through each day one day at a time.

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Carol's Place Journal: August of 2011

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Carol’s Place Journal

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

@1:05 PM ~ I am here now at Carol’s Place. I am in a transitional housing program that functions as a shelter for homeless people who have mental health issues. There are about 26 people who are residents here. I first got here last Friday afternoon after being at the VOA ‘A’ Street shelter since May 25th of this year of 2011. This is a lot better place than being at the VOA shelter, though I remain grateful for whatever help I can receive at this stage of my life in my spiritual journey.

I am at the point in my life where I can generally do without the creature comforts I had before when I had my own apartment at Globe Mills. I am primarily interested in my spiritual evolution as a humane being here upon Mother Earth. I will do what I can to help us all achieve liberation. The fact of the whole matter in regards to liberation is that true liberation must first be obtained within one’s own self. We must be liberated from the lies, dogmas and falsehoods of the past and any that are still lingering within our consciousness today.

I am now without regular Internet access and this has proven to be a handicap. I must look at the positive aspect of any particular negative. Keep in mind that stuff has its positive and negative aspects. As a rule, nothing is simply ALL negative or ALL positive. At certain times, despite the power of its architecture, the Internet can be a distraction from our directly relating to our immediate external environment. It can even cripple crucial relationships in our lives, especially if one is a parent or in a responsible position in a social matrix. Of course, Internet Access gives us good access to the collective knowledge of people online. Nevertheless, we must also not forget that much of our spiritual evolution on an individual basis involves us knowing ourselves deep inside.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

@10:15 AM ~ Here at Carol’s Place. Most of the folks here are pretty cool, though tend to be introverted and withdrawn. There is a kind of subtle fear when it comes to them opening up and discussing life in genera. Actually I am one of these folks but refer to ‘them’ as a kind of journalist’s prerogative. It seems that during the day most of them are shut up in their rooms and avoid social contact with others. In all fairness, I have only been here for less than a week. Nonetheless, there are patterns that I see going on. Most of the folks here seem to lack social-communication skills. I believe all of us right now are taking one kind of medication or another.

I get my medication around 9 PM before I go to sleep. I have a thin black strap around my neck with my room key and a key for a little lock. Our meds are kept in two drawers in the office downstairs next door. Each of us has our own little lunch box where our meds are stored. I need to use my key for the little lock for my own lunch box. The lunch boxes are similar to those used by school kids and have different cartoon-like characters on them. In a way, we are the ‘lunch box people’. Right now I am taking a Seroquel tablet of 50 mg. every night.

At times it can be boring here. In the past, the inactivity of boredom has been a subtle trigger for my going back into the negative behavior pattern of substance abuse/adduction. Nowadays I feel pretty secure about my ability to maintain my sanity and keep my sobriety.

Tomorrow I have my SSDI Panel as part of the initial process of getting onto SSDI @8:30 AM. I need to work on these forms today, though it is such a drag doing so. I need to write about my disability in terms of working in a regular job. It will be a hard sell as I had steady employment before I was Laid Off due to Sacramento County budget cutbacks that affected the local Salvation Army Emergency Shelter where I was working.

In the mornings I say my little prayer, go get coffee, a bowl of cereal and then have a smoke outside. This is my first full week of being here. Today is Humpday Wednesday. It is pretty quiet here right now. My roommate is ‘Lee’ who was in my four person cubicle at the VOA ‘A’ Street Shelter. My bunk number at VOA was #80. I have not really established a regular routine here. I hope that my writing in this Carol’s Place Journal will be a part of it all.

@10:45 AM ~ Right now I am gradually reading The Psychogenesis of Mental Disease by C.G. Jung.

“Move every stone, try everything, leave nothing unattempted.” ~ Erasmus

I want to understand more about my mood swings and need to be careful that I am not only psyching myself out about having bi-polar. I do tend to be moody, though this is not outwardly apparent. I tend to bore easily, need to keep myself entertained and people around me now I find so dull, vegetative and utterly uninteresting. Of course I need to be mindful of where I am at and not mistake my partial experience for universal truth.

In the past my mania seemed to be composed of fixating on a progressive group of causes in a matrix that resulted in my not ‘taking care of business’ as perceived by the outside world. This present world I find in general to be very depressing and in need to major social transformations. I see the need for getting involved in changing general social circumstances in my life. I am into what I call progressive recovery and so many of my peers around me seem so divorced from comprehending the connected reality we are all in. Indeed, I am still surrounded my fools, fiends and fanatics.

@11:30 AM ~ I finally got my clothes out of the freezer. When we first come here we have to have our clothes frozen by putting them into a freezer so that any possible bedbugs we are bringing in can be frozen to death. The freezer is on the top floor of the blue building on the corner here on 9th and W Streets. It is a rather bizarre way, but there is no telling from where we have come to be here and it helps to keep down any possible bedbug epidemic from arising amongst our group home here.

@3:38 PM ~ I have just been kind of lazying around all day. I am working through some depression right now, feel disconnected from so much, alone in my loneliness with no relief in sight. I need to fill out some SSDI stuff and still have not motivated myself to do so. I will not take a shower, change clothes and hopefully that will boost my spirits.

@7:03 PM ~ Another evening here at Carol’s Place. Most of the folks here are in their rooms. I was ready to attend a DRA Meeting here, but no one showed up. Alas, I had some ice cream. There seems to be little interest in 12-Steps Meetings here these days. I figure that if they have been through a lot of NA and AA Meetings as I have then there is bound to be a lack of interest, especially if they are not going further in relation to their spiritual evolution. I for one will not be an accomplice to any kind of co-dependency in terms of folks around here getting involved in their own recovery. If they figure they do not need to attend 12-Steps Meetings and if staff seems not to make them mandatory or enforce their being attended then far be it from me to stick my nose into it all.

Dual Recovery Anonymous Website
http://draonline.org/

Friday, August 19, 2011

Friday morning here and it is quiet inside and sunny outside with clear skies. I went for my SMART Interview yesterday @Guest House. I think it went pretty help, especially with the stuff that Jerri Grosser took down about my case. Two other ladies did brief interviews and I was seen by a traveling doctor. I have a receipt from Miranda (877) 326-0103 and a medical appointment next week. Plus, I need to finish my Third Party portion with help from Barbara Gregg. After my SMART stuff yesterday I had lunch @Loaves & Fishes, saw my therapist Nick @2 PM, got on the RT Lite-Rail, went by the Central Library, came back here around dinner time, attended a Life Skills Meeting (mainly composed of presenting a female client with a big going away card as she is going to Palmer House), then went to bed early and slept most the time until about 7 AM this morning.

I decided not to go to Guest House for the DRA Meeting. I am just here in my room typing away and being in my beingness for now. I only have a few cigarettes left and know that for us we are often driven by our addictions. I am dual diagnosed with a history of drug addiction and I’m taking a light medication called Seroquel right now (50 mg. @bedtime each night).

It is pretty nice here @Carol’s Place by the corner of 9th and W Streets. Certainly it is a major improvement over the regular shelter setup where clients are treated like cans of goods, put on a shelf at night in our bunks where we are counted up as present and generally are warehoused with little or no human-staff interaction that promotes our basic character development and spiritual growth. I know we should be humble and grateful for whatever scraps of humanity are tossed out way. Nonetheless, there should be more definite structured humane programs in place for those who for whatever reason find themselves in a homeless refugee shelter.

I maintain that in the main homeless refugees are the predictable results of a failed state, a failed government, a sick status quo. We are reflections of a dysfunctional insane society that is governed by the Almighty Dollar, not by any real humane compassion.

Emergency Shelters for human beings should be seen as places where people can seek refuge, assess their general situation, develop plans of actions for individual improvement and try to design their humane spiritual evolution. We need to know and accept where we have been, have a clear concise understanding of where we are here now and seek a vision for future success. Am I being naïve?

We must look to the creation of new creatures that have care, concern and compassion for others as genuine humane beings, not as mere animals. We need to all look at becoming ever more humane in all our ways. In a religious context, we can think in terms of a sincere believer in God, but whether one is a believer or a non-believer we should all strive to be more and more humane on an individual level in our personal lives. We must set the example we wish others to follow in our own personal individual lives and not be content with simply lecturing. As Gandhi knew, we must be the kind of being we wish others to be ~ in this context, be a genuine humane being.

Note: Went by Geri’s in the PM. She gave me more tobacco and five bucks. She is a great blessing.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

It is a Sabbath here at Carol’s Place. I realize more and more what a blessing it is just be here in relation to being in an ordinary Emergency Shelter. We just have to learn how to accept people just as they are ~ so long as they respect our personal space and do not try to invade it.

It is Dust Busters morning here. We each have our own little chores to do ~ all of which are relatively simple and do not require any special expertise.

Yesterday in the late evening I had a good conversation with Brother Brian here. He kind of saw what I see here in relation to the other residents here.

Each of us has our own individuality and different pathways that brought us here. We must make conscious efforts not to lightly label people and continue to be non-judgmental until our conscious efforts become automatic responses to external stimuli.
now I am also reading: C.G. Jung: His Myth in Our Time by Marie Louise Von Franz.

I have decided as of now to pursue a career in psychology, especially in light of all the variations of insanity I have witnessed in my lifetime of experience to date. I see that much that needs to be changed in the world is not merely in the external world, but primarily within us and our own personal character defects. Sometimes there personal character defects spill out into the outer external world. If a given person is in a great position of power these character defects can result in great policy errors that can wreck havoc in the outer world.

Dr. Jung is the premier psychologist of our times. He has greatly influenced many with his writings and investigations in the psyche of the individual human being.

There was a time in the distant past when I was interested in being a Drug & Alcohol Counselor, especially when I first got into my own recovery from drug addiction. Now I see more than ever that it is utter insanity that is at the roots of drug addiction and harmful addictions in general. In many ways the drug addiction is the trunk of the tree of drug addiction and it is in the roots of the addiction where we must dig down to uncover, identify and root out the roots of our external addiction in order to bring about a real healing process within the patient.

We need to go deeper than surface symptoms and come to understand the original reasons why so many let their lives become unmanageable through their use of chemicals and other harmful ways of living. Nowadays there is a great emphasis on utilizing medications to combat drug addiction. In the big picture there needs to be more of an emphasis on personal psychotherapy and the progressive evolution of ourselves as spiritual beings. We are not simply a physical body nor simply a intellect with a brain. It is in spiritual realms where we must venture without fear in order to us to really begin to heal.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Once we begin to get a solid length of sobriety time we can then begin to work on the issues that got us all caught up in drug addiction in the first place. We need to go deeper in our awareness, to allow our own subconscious to surface up to a level of consciousness. We need to go deep into the past memories that may cause us pain and discomfort. Once we process this stuff in our own present consciousness we can better analyze it, understand it and come to know ourselves better ~ that is, come to know our inner beingness. Why do we feel as we do? Why do we do what we do? What are our inner motivations?

When we seek a futile escape from the often cruel realities that surround us via our indulgence in drug addiction what exactly are we trying to escape? Are we simply trying to escape the bummer of living in poverty and squalor? Are we seeking the impossible by trying to escape from our own state of beingness? What happens if instead of trying to escape from our own actual beingness we take the time to stop and be still in order to spiritually feel the Presence of the Creator?

Are we not creatures of the Creator? Thus, do we not have the spark of the divine Creation of the Creator within us as humane beings? Are we not ourselves possessed of the divine seed of the Creation within our own inner beingness?

I am convinced that the changes we seek in the world in terms of our man-made governments must first take place within us, within our own beings, within our own individual consciousness. Where do social movements first come from? Where do they begin? As a rule, all great social movements that seek substantial changes in the outer world come from the heartfelt aspirations of the individual humane being.

The ruling powers of fascist reaction can seek to destroy progressive social movements by murder and intrigue, but the original basis of these movements, the reasons why they first come into being, are in the hearts and minds of the people. Even if there is only one individual being with a vision for a magical movement it can continue in one manifestation or another. The point here is that we see that great social movements are often dependent upon one or a few individuals in order to take root, to plant seeds, to continue to grow, to develop the mandatory rational resistance to the forces of fascist repression.

What has been greatly missing in modern social movements of today is a soulfelt sense of immediate urgency that can spur a lifelong commitment to bringing about the transformation of the Spirit or Zeitgeist of these troubled times on a global level. We need to be aware of the awesome powers of spiritual warfare, not merely in an Christian way, but constant spiritual warfare among all believers that enlivens the soul, spurs our rebellious spirit against the evils of stupidity and seeks to wake up the inner soul of the humane being and ultimately the inner souls of the masses on a global level. It all begins within our own soul on an individual existential level: a liberation movement of one who is a totally committed humane being ~ one who seeks creative and constructive change within one’s being and in the external world beyond one’s individual self. Let each of us be one individual being who thinks and acts in harmony with the masses. Let us each be a meaningful movement of our own because we are activated by our own revolutionary consciousness, not dependent on any one great leader or shepherd.

“The shaman is the great specialist in the human soul: he alone ‘sees’ it, for he knows its ‘form’ and its destiny.” ~ via Mircea Eliade ~Shamansm: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy

Monday, August 22, 2011

@10:28 AM ~ Yesterday evening I made it to the CASA Meeting at Salvation Army and it went pretty well. I explained why I was not there last Sunday and thanked Sister Ellen for conducting the CASA Meeting in my absence. We had several people who attended the CASA Meeting and it was a good core group of folks. Brother Calvin gave an emotional testimony about good changes that are happening in his family. Hopefully if I give her two days notice Ellen will conduct the CASA Meeting, then there is also Brother Kevin (he has been outside for sometime now and has still not secured a housing location). On the way back after the CASA Meeting I was at the Light Rail talking to Doug (he was at Sally’s after two months but now is back on the streets). There were a few Black demons around and one asked for my lighter to light his crackpipe but it turned out he has bogus crack. Later he asked for it again and I said, “No!” So I walked up the street to the next Light-Rail stop away from the low-life dope fiends.

I got off the Light Rail @8th & 'O' Streets. I proceeded to just walk up here to Carol’s Place and got here a bit after 9 PM. It will be a drag to do the CASA Meetings on Sundays, but conducting the CASA 12-Steps Meeting has been a long-term anchor for my own personal recovery and spiritual growth.

Good news out of Libya! Apparently Ghadaffy’s Regime has ended as I read in the Sacramento Bee this morning. This is good news for me as I have been following grand historical events in Arabia all year, from Tunisia, to Egypt with the former Mubarak Regme being toppled and now it looks like the Ghadaffy Regime has been deposed, though there is still no news as to the actual location of the Evil One Ghadaffy himself.

I hope the American people take notice of what is going on in the Middle East region, especially about the positive changes in the tyrannical regimes of Arabia. There has been a great revitalization of positive liberation movements in Arabia with the Sandstorms of Liberation that have been sweeping across all of Arabia. It is right to rebel!

@10:54 ~ Here at Carol’s Place it is generally quiet and serene. My friend Dave from Sally’s was here this morning on his tour. I hope he makes it in here. Plus, Brother Matt from VOA ‘A’ Street shelter was here last week. So that makes two guys I know who are hoping to get into Carol’s Place here. Plus today there is a new Sister named Tiffany who is new here. Every day has its changes.

I still do not feel totally secure here in terms of housing, sometimes I find myself feeling that the bottom could fall out somehow. I still have not gotten my GA Account established and still do not have my RT Sticker for me to ride legally on public transportation via the Light Rail and Bus System. Sometimes it seems that the feelings of paranoia around here are contagious. I guess it comes from my actual dependence upon this Carol’s Place program. If worse comes to worst I think I can stay with Annabelle AKA Geri, but that in itself would be another bad location in terms of my keeping a sane mind in a serene environment.

So I continue to maintain the brain, keep my spirits up and will try to focus more on my general level of health, including my physical health.

I myself have my own feelings of paranoia or simple fearfulness. I really do miss being attached to my online friends and allies. I got online yesterday at the Central Library for an hour and that felt good. I will try to check out the SacWorks Agency, a Job Search program, up here on Broadway nearby, across from the old City Cemetery. Nada mas ahora!

@3:51 ~ I had a long Meeting with Carolyn about my goals, was asked about how I am working on my sobriety and we have a rather long discussion about matters in general related to my mental health. As usual, I explained to her about the three-part or triune being that we are and how I saw myself as working on my mental health, my physical health and my spiritual health. She kind of let me just rattle on so I indulged her. Plus, I told her about my book Progressive Recovery Today and a few prospects of my getting published. I think she was a little impressed about it all. I told her also about my wanting to go to school come the next full semester, though apparently that is a little ways off for me for now. All in all, it had a cathartic effect upon me.

I saw Brother Mike. He had a hernia operation earlier this morning and seems to be in quite a bit of pain. Apparently Mark Tavares is going to give him a ride to Primary Care by Stockton Blvd. and Broadway, he needs to get pain pills.

I am not sure what I am all doing here with this Carol’s Place Journal, but it does seem to serve as a kind of psychological release for my thoughts and concerns for now. Sometimes I am just the mad typist recording his thoughts for who knows for what purpose other than serving as a kind of pressure-release valve for me. Man, I really do miss the Internet Access of yesterdays. I need to look and consider the positive aspects of being without Internet Access and thereby being drive to actually write other stuff that will not necessarily be blared out upon the Internet. Thus, at this point, all this typing is FOR MY EYES ONLY!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

@10:54 ~ Here at Carol’s Place it is generally quiet and serene. My friend Dave from Sally’s was here this morning on his tour. I hope he makes it in here. Plus, Brother Matt from VOA ‘A’ Street shelter was here last week. So that makes two guys I know who are hoping to get into Carol’s Place here. Plus today there is a new Sister named Tiffany who is new here. Every day has its changes.

I still do not feel totally secure here in terms of housing, sometimes I find myself feeling that the bottom could fall out somehow. I still have not gotten my GA Account established and still do not have my RT Sticker for me to ride legally on public transportation via the Light Rail and Bus System. Sometimes it seems that the feelings of paranoia around here are contagious. I guess it comes from my actual dependence upon this Carol’s Place program. If worse comes to worst I think I can stay with Annabelle AKA Geri, but that in itself would be another bad location in terms of my keeping a sane mind in a serene environment.

So I continue to maintain the brain, keep my spirits up and will try to focus more on my general level of health, including my physical health.

I myself have my own feelings of paranoia or simple fearfulness. I really do miss being attached to my online friends and allies. I got online yesterday at the Central Library for an hour and that felt good. I will try to check out the SacWorks Agency, a Job Search program, up here on Broadway nearby, across from the old City Cemetery. Nada mas ahora!

@3:51 ~ I had a long Meeting with Carolyn about my goals, was asked about how I am working on my sobriety and we have a rather long discussion about matters in general related to my mental health. As usual, I explained to her about the three-part or triune being that we are and how I saw myself as working on my mental health, my physical health and my spiritual health. She kind of let me just rattle on so I indulged her. Plus, I told her about my book Progressive Recovery Today and a few prospects of my getting published. I think she was a little impressed about it all. I told her also about my wanting to go to school come the next full semester, though apparently that is a little ways off for me for now. All in all, it had a cathartic effect upon me.

I saw Brother Mike. He had a hernia operation earlier this morning and seems to be in quite a bit of pain. Apparently Mark Tavares is going to give him a ride to Primary Care by Stockton Blvd. and Broadway, he needs to get pain pills.

I am not sure what I am all doing here with this Carol’s Place Journal, but it does seem to serve as a kind of psychological release for my thoughts and concerns for now. Sometimes I am just the mad typist recording his thoughts for who knows for what purpose other than serving as a kind of pressure-release valve for me. Man, I really do miss the Internet Access of yesterdays. I need to look and consider the positive aspects of being without Internet Access and thereby being drive to actually write other stuff that will not necessarily be blared out upon the Internet. Thus, at this point, all this typing is FOR MY EYES ONLY!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

@10:27 AM ~ Tuesday came and went without any major event in my life. I am scheduled to meet with Mattie this Friday @10 AM to do paperwork stuff. Hopefully I will finally get onto GA, update my EBT Card and establish a new Account. I also have an important SSDI Appointment tomorrow. I noticed how folks routinely refer to SSI when in fact they are really talking about SSDI. Those of us mentally ill folks who are homeless and applying for SSDI tend to shy away from using the acronym SSDI.

I am going to take this computer system and go to the Central Library in order to see if I can get onto the Internet there. Lee got me onto the Net here via his creating a Hotspot with his $300 cell phone for literally a minute, but it seemed to be if he could because he is the Controller of that Hotspot. If he was cool he would let me know when his Hotspot is available, but he is a withdrawn introvert in his own kind of selfish inner world. So we will see what we will see. I am going to disconnect from here now. Hopefully I will next be on the Internet at the Central Library. Time will tell us what we do not know now.

@8:12 PM ~ I went to the NA Clunie Meeting at Noon. I announced that I had seven years and two months of sobriety. I signed up to be called on but as usual was not called upon to share. Some groups often are prejudice against letting a relative stranger share, which I think is kind of fearful and backwards. It is indicative of a ‘clique mentality’ for some groups, probably a bit of a territorial defense mechanism. I will try to remember that if and when I share there in the future.

Afterwards I caught the bus downtown. I was blessed to run into my Brother Tata. We had a good chat on the sidewalk. He mentioned about his need to get out more and that he was dragged about the routine of just going to NA/AA 12 Steps Meetings. Then, I stopped by the Christian Science Reading Room and sat in on a Meeting with Sister Kristian, a group of White Elders, all females except for one cool male named Rocky. They discuss and pray on helping the homeless and try to send out good vibes out into the universe in a kind of metaphysical way which I believe it another way that we can effect change in the outer and inner worlds. The Meeting starts there around Noon on Wednesdays. Thus, I may stop by again next week.

Praise God! I was able to get onto the Internet at the Central Library via my DELL laptop here. So I did some Tweeting and stuff without the stress of being limited to only an hour when one uses the Library Computer when we are limited to only one hour. It is really good to know that I have ready Internet Access when I take my laptop computer to the Central Library.

Tomorrow I need to go to an appointment related to Testing for SSI. I need to get to the Library at least by the early afternoon so I can Google the location for my appointment.

I am learning better how to go with the flow in my writing without the constant editing and backtracking that could be a symptom of my OCD. Stuff gets complex and I have long been hesitant to label my behavior or mentality with a simple blanket of a psychological disorder. Here again, I must do more studying. Right now I am mainly into studying more about the investigations and writings that have already been done by the great Dr. C.J. Jung.

@9:13 PM ~ I plan to get up early tomorrow. I will shower, maybe shave prepare for my trip to the Central Library then my SSI appointment. I called Shakra to let him know that I will not be able to attend the Safeground Meeting tomorrow, but that I am not able to have Internet Access. I also need to go back his place and get some stuff.

By the way, today is have 7 (seven) years and 2 (two) months of sobriety from alcohol and any other addictive narcotic. I feel good about that and plan to maintain my sobriety for my own health, in order to set an example for others and because I still work with CASA 12-Steps. For all my errors I do have a sense of righteous pride about my length of sobriety and hope it helps to inspire my beloved Brother Bobby AKA Tata. Nada mas ahora! Venceremos Unidos!

Friday, August 26, 2011

I have not been Journaling here for late since I figured out that I can LOG ON to Internet at the local Central Library. Still need to keep a centered balance. Write my heart out, let it hang!

@1:05 PM ~ I am here now at Carol’s Place. I am in a transitional housing program that functions as a shelter for homeless people who have mental health issues. I first got1 here last Friday afternoon after being at the VOA ‘A’ Street shelter since May 25^th of this year of 2011. This is a lot better place than being at the VOA shelter, though I remain grateful for whatever help I can receive at this stage of my life in my spiritual journey.

I am at the point in my life where I can generally do without the creature comforts I had before when I had my own apartment at Globe Mills. I am primarily interested in my spiritual evolution as a humane being here upon Mother Earth. I will do what I can to help us all achieve liberation. The fact of the whole matter in regards to liberation is that true liberation must be obtained within one’s own self. We must be liberated from the lies, dogmas and falsehoods of the past and any that are still lingering within our consciousness today.

I am now without regular Internet access and this has proven to be a handicap. I must look at the positive aspect of any particular negative. Keep in mind that stuff has its positive and negative aspects. As a rule, nothing is simply ALL negative or ALL positive. At certain times, despite the power of its architecture, the Internet can be a distraction from our directly relating to our immediate external environment. It can even cripple crucial relationships in our lives, especially if one is a parent or in a responsible position in a social matrix. Of course, Internet Access gives us good access to the collective knowledge of people online. Nevertheless, we must also not forget that much of our spiritual evolution on an individual basis involves us knowing ourselves deep inside.@10:15 AM ~ Here at Carol’s Place. Most of the folks here are pretty cool, though tend to be introverted and withdrawn. There is a kind of subtle fear when it comes to them opening up and discussing life in genera. Actually I am one of these folks but refer to ‘them’ as a kind of journalist’s prerogative. It seems that during the day most of them are shut up in their rooms and avoid social contact with others. In all fairness, I have only been here for less than a week. Nonetheless, there are patterns that I see going on. Most of the folks here seem to lack social-communication skills. I believe all of us right now are taking one kind of medication or another.

I get my medication around 9 PM before I go to sleep. I have a thin black strap around my neck with my room key and a key for a little lock. Our meds are kept in two drawers in the office downstairs next door. Each of us has our own little lunch box where our meds are stored. I need to use my key for the little lock for my own lunch box. The lunch boxes are similar to those used by school kids and have different cartoon-like characters on them. In a way, we are the ‘lunch box people’. Right now I am taking a Seroquel tablet of 50 mg. every night.

At times it can be boring here. In the past, the inactivity of boredom has been a subtle trigger for my going back into the negative behavior pattern of substance abuse/adduction. Nowadays I feel pretty secure about my ability to maintain my sanity and keep my sobriety.

Tomorrow I have my SSDI Panel as part of the initial process of getting onto SSDI @8:30 AM. I need to work on these forms today, though it is such a drag doing so. I need to write about my disability in terms of working in a regular job. It will be a hard sell as I had steady employment before I was Laid Off due to Sacramento County budget cutbacks that affected the local Salvation Army Emergency Shelter where I was working.

In the mornings I say my little prayer, go get coffee, a bowl of cereal and then have a smoke outside. This is my first full week of being here. Today is Humpday Wednesday. It is pretty quiet here right now. My roommate is ‘Lee’ who was in my four person cubicle at the VOA ‘A’ Street Shelter. My bunk number at VOA was #80. I have not really established a regular routine here. I hope that my writing in this Carol’s Place Journal will be a part of it all.

@10:45 AM ~ Right now I am gradually reading The Psychogenesis of Mental Disease by C.G. Jung.

“Move every stone, try everything, leave nothing unattempted.” ~ Erasmus

Link: Carl Jung's: The Red Book Valuing Your Inner Life
http://carljungsredbook.blogspot.com/

I want to understand more about my mood swings and need to be careful that I am not only psyching myself out about having bi-polar. I do tend to be moody, though this is not outwardly apparent. I tend to bore easily, need to keep myself entertained and people around me now I find so dull, vegetative and utterly uninteresting. Of course I need to be mindful of where I am at and not mistake my partial experience for universal truth.

In the past my mania seemed to be composed of fixating on a progressive group of causes in a matrix that resulted in my not ‘taking care of business’ as perceived by the outside world. This present world I find in general to be very depressing and in need to major social transformations. I see the need for getting involved in changing general social circumstances in my life. I am into what I call progressive recovery and so many of my peers around me seem so divorced from comprehending the connected reality we are all in. Indeed, I am still surrounded my fools, fiends and fanatics.

@11:30 AM ~ I finally got my clothes out of the freezer. When we first come here we have to have our clothes frozen by putting them into a freezer so that any possible bedbugs we are bringing in can be frozen to death. The freezer is on the top floor of the blue building on the corner here on 9th and W Streets. It is a rather bizarre way, but there is no telling from where we have come to be here and it helps to keep down any possible bedbug epidemic from arising amongst our group home here.

@3:38 PM ~ I have just been kind of lazying around all day. I am working through some depression right now, feel disconnected from so much, alone in my loneliness with no relief in sight. I need to fill out some SSDI stuff and still have not motivated myself to do so. I will not take a shower, change clothes and hopefully that will boost my spirits.

@7:03 PM ~ Another evening here at Carol’s Place. Most of the folks here are in their rooms. I was ready to attend a DRA Meeting here, but no one showed up. Alas, I had some ice cream. There seems to be little interest in 12-Steps Meetings here these days. I figure that if they have been through a lot of NA and AA Meetings as I have then there is bound to be a lack of interest, especially if they are not going further in relation to their spiritual evolution. I for one will not be an accomplice to any kind of co-dependency in terms of folks around here getting involved in their own recovery. If they figure they do not need to attend 12-Steps Meetings and if staff seems not to make them mandatory or enforce their being attended then far be it from me to stick my nose into it all.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Friday morning here and it is quiet inside and sunny outside with clear skies. I went for my SMART Interview yesterday @Guest House. I think it went pretty help, especially with the stuff that Jerri Grosser took down about my case. Two other ladies did brief interviews and I was seen by a traveling doctor. I have a receipt from Miranda (877) 326-0103 and a medical appointment next week. Plus, I need to finish my Third Party portion with help from Barbara Gregg. After my SMART stuff yesterday I had lunch @Loaves & Fishes, saw my therapist Nick @2 PM, got on the RT Lite-Rail, went by the Central Library, came back here around dinner time, attended a Life Skills Meeting (mainly composed of presenting a female client with a big going away card as she is going to Palmer House), then went to bed early and slept most the time until about 7 AM this morning.

I decided not to go to Guest House for the DRA Meeting. I am just here in my room typing away and being in my beingness for now. I only have a few cigarettes left and know that for us we are often driven by our addictions. I am dual diagnosed with a history of drug addiction and I’m taking a light medication called Seroquel right now (50 mg. @bedtime each night).

It is pretty nice here @Carol’s Place by the corner of 9th and W Streets. Certainly it is a major improvement over the regular shelter setup where clients are treated like cans of goods, put on a shelf at night in our bunks where we are counted up as present and generally are warehoused with little or no human-staff interaction that promotes our basic character development and spiritual growth. I know we should be humble and grateful for whatever scraps of humanity are tossed out way. Nonetheless, there should be more definite structured humane programs in place for those who for whatever reason find themselves in a homeless refugee shelter.

I maintain that in the main homeless refugees are the predictable results of a failed state, a failed government, a sick status quo. We are reflections of a dysfunctional insane society that is governed by the Almighty Dollar, not by any real humane compassion.

Emergency Shelters for human beings should be seen as places where people can seek refuge, assess their general situation, develop plans of actions for individual improvement and try to design their humane spiritual evolution. We need to know and accept where we have been, have a clear concise understanding of where we are here now and seek a vision for future success. Am I being naïve?

We must look to the creation of new creatures that have care, concern and compassion for others as genuine humane beings, not as mere animals. We need to all look at becoming ever more humane in all our ways. In a religious context, we can think in terms of a sincere believer in God, but whether one is a believer or a non-believer we should all strive to be more and more humane on an individual level in our personal lives. We must set the example we wish others to follow in our own personal individual lives and not be content with simply lecturing. As Gandhi knew, we must be the kind of being we wish others to be ~ in this context, be a genuine humane being.

Note: Went by Geri’s in the PM. She gave me more tobacco and five bucks. She is a great blessing.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

It is a Sabbath here at Carol’s Place. I realize more and more what a blessing it is just be here in relation to being in an ordinary Emergency Shelter. We just have to learn how to accept people just as they are ~ so long as they respect our personal space and do not try to invade it.

It is Dust Busters morning here. We each have our own little chores to do ~ all of which are relatively simple and do not require any special expertise.

Yesterday in the late evening I had a good conversation with Brother Brian here. He kind of saw what I see here in relation to the other residents here.

Each of us has our own individuality and different pathways that brought us here. We must make conscious efforts not to lightly label people and continue to be non-judgmental until our conscious efforts become automatic responses to external stimuli.

Right now I am also reading: C.G. Jung: His Myth in Our Time by Marie Louise Von Franz.

I have decided as of now to pursue a career in psychology, especially in light of all the variations of insanity I have witnessed in my lifetime of experience to date. Nevertheless I do not want to box myself in as a being a man with a given profession. I just want to be more and more humble, honest and humane. It is not brain surgery!

I see that much that needs to be changed in the world is not merely in the external world, but primarily within us and our own personal character defects. Sometimes there personal character defects spill out into the outer external world. If a given person is in a great position of power these character defects can result in great policy errors that can wreck havoc in the outer world.

Dr. Jung is the premier psychologist of our times. He has greatly influenced many with his writings and investigations in the psyche of the individual human being.

There was a time in the distant past when I was interested in being a Drug & Alcohol Counselor, especially when I first got into my own recovery from drug addiction. Now I see more than ever that it is utter insanity that is at the roots of drug addiction and harmful addictions in general. In many ways the drug addiction is the trunk of the tree of drug addiction and it is in the roots of the addiction where we must dig down to uncover, identify and root out the roots of our external addiction in order to bring about a real healing process within the patient.

We need to go deeper than surface symptoms and come to understand the original reasons why so many let their lives become unmanageable through their use of chemicals and other harmful ways of living. Nowadays there is a great emphasis on utilizing medications to combat drug addiction. In the big picture there needs to be more of an emphasis on personal psychotherapy and the progressive evolution of ourselves as spiritual beings. We are not simply a physical body nor simply a intellect with a brain. It is in spiritual realms where we must venture without fear in order to us to really begin to heal.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Once we begin to get a solid length of sobriety time we can then begin to work on the issues that got us all caught up in drug addiction in the first place. We need to go deeper in our awareness, to allow our own subconscious to surface up to a level of consciousness. We need to go deep into the past memories that may cause us pain and discomfort. Once we process this stuff in our own present consciousness we can better analyze it, understand it and come to know ourselves better ~ that is, come to know our inner beingness. Why do we feel as we do? Why do we do what we do? What are our inner motivations?

When we seek a futile escape from the often cruel realities that surround us via our indulgence in drug addiction what exactly are we trying to escape? Are we simply trying to escape the bummer of living in poverty and squalor? Are we seeking the impossible by trying to escape from our own state of beingness? What happens if instead of trying to escape from our own actual beingness we take the time to stop and be still in order to spiritually feel the Presence of the Creator?

Are we not creatures of the Creator? Thus, do we not have the spark of the divine Creation of the Creator within us as humane beings? Are we not ourselves possessed of the divine seed of the Creation within our own inner beingness?

I am convinced that the changes we seek in the world in terms of our man-made governments must first take place within us, within our own beings, within our own individual consciousness. Where do social movements first come from? Where do they begin? As a rule, all great social movements that seek substantial changes in the outer world come from the heartfelt aspirations of the individual humane being.

The ruling powers of fascist reaction can seek to destroy progressive social movements by murder and intrigue, but the original basis of these movements, the reasons why they first come into being, are in the hearts and minds of the people. Even if there is only one individual being with a vision for a magical movement it can continue in one manifestation or another. The point here is that we see that great social movements are often dependent upon one or a few individuals in order to take root, to plant seeds, to continue to grow, to develop the mandatory rational resistance to the forces of fascist repression.

What has been greatly missing in modern social movements of today is a soulfelt sense of immediate urgency that can spur a lifelong commitment to bringing about the transformation of the Spirit or Zeitgeist of these troubled times on a global level. We need to be aware of the awesome powers of spiritual warfare, not merely in an Christian way, but constant spiritual warfare among all believers that enlivens the soul, spurs our rebellious spirit against the evils of stupidity and seeks to wake up the inner soul of the humane being and ultimately the inner souls of the masses on a global level. It all begins within our own soul on an individual existential level: a liberation movement of one who is a totally committed humane being ~ one who seeks creative and constructive change within one’s being and in the external world beyond one’s individual self. Let each of us be one individual being who thinks and acts in harmony with the masses. Let us each be a meaningful movement of our own because we are activated by our own revolutionary consciousness, not dependent on any one great leader or shepherd.

“The shaman is the great specialist in the human soul: he alone ‘sees’ it, for he knows its ‘form’ and its destiny.” ~ via Mircea Eliade Shamansm: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy

Monday, August 22, 2011

@10:28 AM ~ Yesterday evening I made it to the Meeting at Salvation Army and it went pretty well. I explained why I was not there last Sunday and thanked Sister Ellen for conducting the Meeting in my absence. We had several people who attended the Meeting and it was a good core group of folks. Brother Calvin gave an emotional testimony about good changes that are happening in his family. Hopefully if I give her two days notice Ellen will conduct the Meeting, then there is also Brother Kevin (he has been outside for sometime now and has still not secured a housing location). On the way back after the CASA Meeting I was at the Light Rail talking to Doug (he was at Sally’s after two months but now is back on the streets). There were a few Black demons around and one asked for my lighter to light his crackpipe but it turned out he has bogus crack. Later he asked for it again and I said, “No!” So I walked up the street to the next Light-Rail stop away from the low-life dope fiends.

I got off the Light Rail @8th & O streets. I proceeded to just walk up here to Carol’s Place and got here a bit after 9 PM. It will be a drag to do the CASA Meetings on Sundays, but conducting the CASA 12-Steps Meeting has been a long-term anchor for my own personal recovery and spiritual growth.

Good news out of Libya! Apparently Ghadaffy’s Regime has ended as I read in the Sacramento Bee this morning. This is good news for me as I have been following grand historical events in Arabia all year, from Tunisia, to Egypt with the former Mubarak Regme being toppled and now it looks like the Ghadaffy Regime has been deposed, though there is still no news as to the actual location of the Evil One Ghadaffy himself.

I hope the American people take notice of what is going on in the Middle East region, especially about the positive changes in the tyrannical regimes of Arabia. There has been a great revitalization of positive liberation movements in Arabia with the Sandstorms of Liberation that have been sweeping across all of Arabia. It is right to rebel!

@10:54 ~ Here at Carol’s Place it is generally quiet and serene. My friend Dave from Sally’s was here this morning on his tour. I hope he makes it in here. Plus, Brother Matt from VOA ‘A’ Street shelter was here last week. So that makes two guys I know who are hoping to get into Carol’s Place here. Plus today there is a new Sister named Tiffany who is new here. Every day has its changes.

I still do not feel totally secure here in terms of housing, sometimes I find myself feeling that the bottom could fall out somehow. I still have not gotten my GA Account established and still do not have my RT Sticker for me to ride legally on public transportation via the Light Rail and Bus System. Sometimes it seems that the feelings of paranoia around here are contagious. I guess it comes from my actual dependence upon this Carol’s Place program. If worse comes to worst I think I can stay with Annabelle AKA Geri, but that in itself would be another bad location in terms of my keeping a sane mind in a serene environment.

So I continue to maintain the brain, keep my spirits up and will try to focus more on my general level of health, including my physical health.

I myself have my own feelings of paranoia or simple fearfulness. I really do miss being attached to my online friends and allies. I got online yesterday at the Central Library for an hour and that felt good. I will try to check out the SacWorks Agency, a Job Search program, up here on Broadway nearby, across from the old City Cemetery. Nada mas ahora!

@3:51 ~ I had a long Meeting with Carolyn about my goals, was asked about how I am working on my sobriety and we have a rather long discussion about matters in general related to my mental health. As usual, I explained to her about the three-part or triune being that we are and how I saw myself as working on my mental health, my physical health and my spiritual health. She kind of let me just rattle on so I indulged her. Plus, I told her about my book Progressive Recovery Today and a few prospects of my getting published. I think she was a little impressed about it all. I told her also about my wanting to go to school come the next full semester, though apparently that is a little ways off for me for now. All in all, it had a cathartic effect upon me.

I saw Brother Mike. He had a hernia operation earlier this morning and seems to be in quite a bit of pain. Apparently Mark Tavares is going to give him a ride to Primary Care by Stockton Blvd. and Broadway, he needs to get pain pills.

I am not sure what I am all doing here with this Carol’s Place Journal, but it does seem to serve as a kind of psychological release for my thoughts and concerns for now. Sometimes I am just the mad typist recording his thoughts for who knows for what purpose other than serving as a kind of pressure-release valve for me. Man, I really do miss the Internet Access of yesterdays. I need to look and consider the positive aspects of being without Internet Access and thereby being drive to actually write other stuff that will not necessarily be blared out upon the Internet. Thus, at this point, all this typing is FOR MY EYES ONLY!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

@10:27 AM ~ Tuesday came and went without any major event in my life. I am scheduled to meet with Mattie this Friday @10 AM to do paperwork stuff. Hopefully I will finally get onto GA, update my EBT Card and establish a new Account. I also have an important SSDI Appointment tomorrow. I noticed how folks routinely refer to SSI when in fact they are really talking about SSDI. Those of us mentally ill folks who are homeless and applying for SSDI tend to shy away from using the acronym SSDI.

I am going to take this computer system and go to the Central Library in order to see if I can get onto the Internet there. Lee got me onto the Net here via his creating a Hotspot with his $300 cell phone for literally a minute, but it seemed to be if he could because he is the Controller of that Hotspot. If he was cool he would let me know when his Hotspot is available, but he is a withdrawn introvert in his own kind of selfish inner world. So we will see what we will see. I am going to disconnect from here now. Hopefully I will next be on the Internet at the Central Library. Time will tell us what we do not know now.

@8:12 PM ~ I went to the NA Clunie Meeting at Noon. I announced that I had seven years and two months of sobriety. I signed up to be called on but as usual was not called upon to share. Some groups often are prejudice against letting a relative stranger share, which I think is kind of fearful and backwards. It is indicative of a ‘clique mentality’ for some groups, probably a bit of a territorial defense mechanism. I will try to remember that if and when I share there in the future.

Afterwards I caught the bus downtown. I was blessed to run into my Brother Tata. We had a good chat on the sidewalk. He mentioned about his need to get out more and that he was dragged about the routine of just going to NA/AA 12 Steps Meetings. Then, I stopped by the Christian Science Reading Room and sat in on a Meeting with Sister Kristian, a group of White Elders, all females except for one cool male named Rocky. They discuss and pray on helping the homeless and try to send out good vibes out into the universe in a kind of metaphysical way which I believe it another way that we can effect change in the outer and inner worlds. The Meeting starts there around Noon on Wednesdays. Thus, I may stop by again next week.

Praise God! I was able to get onto the Internet at the Central Library via my DELL laptop here. So I did some Tweeting and stuff without the stress of being limited to only an hour when one uses the Library Computer when we are limited to only one hour. It is really good to know that I have ready Internet Access when I take my laptop computer to the Central Library.

Tomorrow I need to go to an appointment related to Testing for SSI. I need to get to the Library at least by the early afternoon so I can Google the location for my appointment.

I am learning better how to go with the flow in my writing without the constant editing and backtracking that could be a symptom of my OCD. Stuff gets complex and I have long been hesitant to label my behavior or mentality with a simple blanket of a psychological disorder. Here again, I must do more studying. Right now I am mainly into studying more about the investigations and writings that have already been done by the great Dr. C.J. Jung.

@9:13 PM ~ I plan to get up early tomorrow. I will shower, maybe shave prepare for my trip to the Central Library then my SSI appointment. I called Shakra to let him know that I will not be able to attend the Safeground Meeting tomorrow, but that I am not able to have Internet Access. I also need to go back his place and get some stuff.

By the way, today I have 7 (seven) years and 2 (two) months of sobriety from alcohol and any other addictive narcotic. I feel good about that and plan to maintain my sobriety for my own health, in order to set an example for others and because I still work with CASA 12-Steps. For all my errors I do have a sense of righteous pride about my length of sobriety and hope it helps to inspire my beloved Brother Bobby AKA Tata. Nada mas ahora! Venceremos Unidos!

Friday, August 26, 2011

I have not been Journaling here for late since I figured out that I can LOG ON to Internet at the local Central Library. Still need to keep a centered balance. Write my heart out, let it hang!

Saturday, August 27, 2011

@12:03 PM ~ Today we had Dust Busters here @Carol’s Place when we help clean up around here. My main chore is the 2nd Floor Restroom, am now washing all the floor mats from all the restrooms in building two here.

Earlier a lady named Kathy came by to visit with her Son Brian who is here. I use to be his Case Worker when I worked at Sally’s. He reminded me. The truth is I cannot recall all the clients I had, though I generally remember faces.

I have decided to just stay around here today and stay away from the Sacra Central Library. I do not want to get back into my Internet Addiction. Such an addiction may seem harmless but not when I do not pay attention to other tasks I need to work on, such as, working on articles, telephone communications etc. There is so much to read, so much to write and so much to ponder upon.

I can type stuff up here then transfer it onto a blogspot I have already created on the Internet. I will have to clean it up as Microsoft Word has stuff behind it that makes it come out different with unwanted spaces when I post it in my blog.

@4:40 PM ~ I had a revelation today behind the idea of bi-polar being a biological disorder involving neurotransmitters. I will need to investigate this aspect more. I suspect that there is so much that scientists do not really know about now. Maybe there is guesswork involved and unfounded suppositions. I remember when I was taking the anti-psychotic Haldol n 1976 and sometimes the medication seemed different with bad side affects than other times. To my knowledge, Haldol first came out of UC Davis Medical Center or the related UC Davis School of Medicine. More research needs to be done. Sometimes I get the impression that doctors are kind groping in the dark and feeling their way forward when it comes to certain psychiatric disorders. Scary when I think about how much certain medical ‘experts’ pass on to people as valid scientific truth!

@6:34 PM ~ Here at C’s we had a Meeting where Staff Steve passed out Info for each of us about our particular med/s, side effects etc. It was all compiled by Staff Cindy and there was a post-it note attached to our individual printouts.

Now I will go out to Southside Park with a book for awhile. Sometimes it can be so boring here. I try to avoid boredom that can lead to my feeling depressed.

Late entry: As I was sitting at Southside Park during sunset time a young Brother Chad came by who is struggling with his heroin addiction. He was pretty stabilized as he had taken three tabs of methadone he got from a ‘friend’. He is so caught up in the vicious chains of drug addiction.

When I got back home here Brother Dave came by ~ he is now at Sally’s, going the SSDI route and is on the list to come here into Carol’s Place. It was a good visit. We talked outside downstairs on the porch. Visitors are not allowed into the room up here. We had a good conversation and he is encouraging to me in my writing my book on Progressive Recovery Today.

I found out from Dave that Azzie quit his job at Sally’s and got another job, plus Brother Louie was put on staff as a Monitor there. I want to contact Major Mark about the possibility of at least being an On-Call Monitor, especially considering the years I have worked there before. I never got along with the present Director Elizabeth Hudson. We had philosophical differences in relation to how best to run an Emergency Shelter. My position when I was working there was to focus on helping my clients, not getting involved with ass-kissing, the pecking order and the petty politics at Sally’s. Politics should be about helping people, helping to meet their needs and involving ourselves in practical efforts in service to people.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

@10:11 AM ~ It is a sunny Sunday morning here. I read the Sacra Bee, had a breakfast of Raisin Bran and a couple of cups of coffee. I was blessed with a Bus Pass from Staff Darlene. I will be glad when I get my regular RT Sticker for the month of September, then I will be able to move about town more, though I always need to have my writing as a key priority.

I have been having some pretty vivid dreams, though I wish I could remember them better later on. Dreams are another area I still need to study more about. I think I can interpret them pretty well myself in terms of their meaning for me. It is just a matter of merely remembering them later for my own analysis.

@1:24 PM ~ Now at the Sacra Central Library online. Have been Editing this Blogpost as it will be for August of 2011. I want to make it look neat. I have decided to change my Twitter page to have a Link to this @Peta_de_Aztlan Blog. I need to keep a balance between my outer public persona in relation to humane rights and my personal spiritual evolution.

I am just going to express myself for my own purposes. I know that if good events are to happen to me that it is up to me. Some folks I thought would be of tangible help for me in my present are not forthcoming, especially blood family. I admit I have been distant from blood family myself. I did not want and do not want to be a burden for them.

Like the ol' song says, "Nobody wants you when you're down and out'" Fortunately I have faith in myself, faith in life and faith in the cosmic forces of goodness.

Monday, August 29, 2011

@9:50 AM ~ I have been playing ‘Monday, Monday’ by the Mamas & the Papas on the music background in my mind. Another sunny summer day here at Carol’s Place. I am scheduled to talk to Staff Mattie here at 10 AM about my housing goals and stuff.

The Downtown Central Library is closed today so I will probably be around here all day, then tomorrow I am scheduled to go to my GA Appointment at the Human Assistance building.

I had a big bowl of Raisin Bran this morning. Feel a little sleepy because of it and the milk, but this too will pass. I reckon I ought to see about diabetic medication for my Type II Diabetes. I do NOT want to take insulin injections. I do not want the regimen nor do I want to inject any needles into my body anywhere!

@12:47 PM ~ I had good discussion with Mattie: she did an HMIS form for me and we discussed a few housing options. One possibility is a place called Sierra Elder via El Hogar. She is going to work with Lisa from Guest House who was and I believe still is my Service Coordinator. Jerri is mainly with my SS Paperwork so my SSI Application is dated for August 16, 2011 of this year. Apparently I can get there via GA in combo with my Pending SSI. So this seems to be a good option. If nothing comes up before then I need to be sure to be on the Waiting List for Salvation Army, if need be go in there for 30 days with possible re-entry into here at Carol’s Place after thirty days. I hope I can get into a suitable placement facility. I think Sierra Elder will help to fast track me onto SSDI. I can see a little better how all these different agencies and related facilities interact with each other, including with a built-in connection to the whole SSI/SSDI matrix.

My wish is still the same simple one: a room with a view so I can write. I have one now here at Carol’s Place, though this here is a temporary emergency housing situation. Mattie mentioned that I could be positioned or housed so that I would never have to be homeless again. I am not comfortable with the term ‘never’.

Since I lost my apartment at Globe Mills in Apartment #501 I am kind of cynical about the idea of having permanent housing for the rest of my life. I do not want to arrive at a location where I can see my possible death bed. However, reading Jung I understand how I should be in the second major stage of my life in terms of my making preparations for my death. This is not morbid. This is actually more real and practical for me. I appreciate the traditional Christian ideal of my ‘home’ being in heaven. Although, at 59-Earth years I am not too comfortable with the idea of any one place being my permanent residence because I have moved around so much in my life. I guess my Abuela Nana was right when on her deathbed she considered me a ‘vagabundo’ or ‘vagabond’ because of the way I was living back then, though I was only a teenager. How could she know? Older people have a way of seeing life a lot more clearly with personal examples they remember from their own personal life experiences.

Though I have lived almost all my life in Sacramento in the downtown square block grid I have moved many times over the years and have never actually legally owned any house.

I guess I will go downstairs, have a smoke then come back up here for a little catnap. I had a turkey sandwich earlier and a plastic glass of milk. I feel a little sleepy right now. I do appreciate staying here at Carol’s Place and suspect I will remain here for awhile.

@1:35 PM ~ Just received a copy & initialed Original Copy of my TLCS (Transitional Living & Community Support) ISP (Individual Service Plan) from my beautiful Adviser Carolyn. The Sierra Elder place seems like my best option so far.

I remember Brother Dave from Sally’s told me about a VOA Masters house which is a housing situation near here by Broadway, behind the place where they make head stones.

It is so complicated? I just want a room with a view so I can write. In my case, so I can type, but you get the general idea. Time for my siesta! Nada mas ahora!

@5:52 PM ~ Earlier this afternoon I went to Southside Park, went into the Southside Park store for a Diet Coke and a Neapolitan ice cream sandwich, then walked around the park and took some cool pictures. When I came back we had a Chef Salad for Dinner concocted by Chef Tim. It was pretty good. Now we have a Substance Abuse Meeting @6 PM conducted by an older knowledgeable gentleman named Mike AKA Mikey Mike.

There are two houses here at Carol’s Place. There is the main house where the office is at on the corner and us here in the 2nd house right next door. Both houses were moved here about 27 years ago from 28th Street. More will be revealed!

@8:04 PM ~ There MICA Substance Abuse Meeting/Class by Mikey Mike was very informative. He has a Masters in Education and a big background in pharmaceutical stuff. He wanted us to have a basic understanding of what is involved in terms of treatment for mental illness. He talked about the DSM Manual and the Five Axis’s, including Axis V in terms of a GAF (Global Adjustment Function ~think I got that right). I will study more about it all.

In my early recovery I was interested in being a Certified Alcohol & Drug Counselor (CADC). I am a lot more evolved since those days. I see so many CADC Counselors still crippled with character defects. In one way or another and to different degrees many people can benefit immensely by having an understanding of psychology and themselves being involved in their own psychotherapy.

Isaiah - Lamsa OT
http://www.aramaicpeshitta.com/OTtools/LamsaOT/23_isaiah.htm

1:17 Learn to do good; seek justice, do good to the oppressed, plead for the fatherless, plead for the widows.

5:20 Woe to them who call evil good, and good evil; who put darkness for light, and light for darkness; who put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!

6:9 And he said to me, Go, and tell this people, You can hear indeed, but understand not; and you can see indeed, but do not perceive.

7:14 Therefore the LORD himself shall give you a sign; Behold, a virgin shall conceive and bear a son, and shall call his name Immanuel.

9:2 The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light; those who dwelt in the land of the shadow of death, upon them has the light shined.

9:6 For to us a child is born, to us a son is given; and the government will be upon his shoulder: and his name is called Wonderful Counsellor, The Mighty One, The Everlasting God, The Prince of Peace.

10:1 WOE to those who decree unrighteous decrees, and who write unjust decrees; 2 To turn aside the needy from justice and to take away the right from the poor of my people, that they may plunder the widows and that they may rob the fatherless!

12:2 Behold, in God my Saviour I will trust, and will not be afraid; for the LORD is my strength and my song; and he has become my salvation.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Went to my GA Appointment finally. Hope to get RT Sticker soon. Food Stamps on EBT Card will stop. I do need cash, wish I had a cell phone, remain appreciative. Now don't let me start complaining. Fortunately I have learned how to 'work with the system' while still also being in tune with my spiritual principles. It horrors me how much $$$ is wasted on unjust wars by the USA. Are Amerikans in denial and insane?

I am keeping a balance in my life between an outer world where all the news comes in and my inner world where I reflect on life among the living.

I am not sure where I will end up now in terms of a having a real home with a real address that I can stay at on a steady basis. My life has had a lot of ins and outs. I have probably been a bit of a worry and disappointment for my Dad, esp. not retiring from the City or Campbell Soup. I just saw another way, another path and have followed my inner spirit.

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@8:58 PM ~ I am now back at Carol’s Place. I was asked again this morning from our Overseer Mattie if I would like to be put in a one-person room in the main house next door upstairs. I said YES and I am now scheduled to move up over there this Thursday. It was a big surprise for me. It goes to show that life is often full of its surprises. I have found that sometimes the rug can be pulled out from under me, then, I have to have the grace and footing to land on my feet. So I am looking forward to the move. So far I have not told anyone about it. Folks will find out soon enough. I hope there is no undue envy or jealousy about it. I figure that I am pretty stable, staff seems to be supportive and I am one of the Elders here. I can relate to Brother Lee who is here with me in this room now, but he has his own stuff to work on and he will be moving out of here soon to Sunnyslope into his own private place anyway. It will be good to have the privacy for me being in a room by myself. I know I will be able to focus more on my writings.

The people here are pretty cool; each of us seems to be pretty self-absorbed in their own life situation. I wish some folks here were more talkative or at least be up to a good morning in the beginning of the day. There is always an air of paranoia around here in terms of anyone getting into anyone else’s business.

I myself have learned to be Honest, Open and Willing ~ the HOW of my Spiritual Liberation Program ~ so I am generally open to a good conversation or an honest inquiry. Then, here in the USA there seems to be a lot of paranoia about privacy issues. We all have a right to our privacy, but we should not let our right to privacy become a matter of vain secrecy with a hint of paranoia. There is too much fear in the world and not enough faith. People need to be able to open up and share with each other. Hell, it would be a better world just by people learning how to honestly communicate with each other. Much of making it a better world does not require money or vast resources. It just requires us to become open to being more emotionally mature, intellectual meaningful and more dedicated to making it a better humane world for all of us.

Well it is about time for my med of 50 mg of Seroquel.

@9:54 PM ~ I have found I like even numbers more than odd numbers, though I consider myself as being from Barrio Cinco ~ the oldest Barrio in Sacramento.

Most of the folks here seem to be in a recovery mode from one kind of chemical addiction or another. There are many kinds of addiction and there are no good addictions, despite what the addicted mind may strive to contrive.

Well tomorrow is the last day of August. I hope I can make it to the Sacra Central Library, then I need to be back here for a DRA Meeting, though they are pretty dry lame meetings here, especially because of lack of input, interest and insights from others who attend because of one hang-up or complex or another. So much could be made better just by trusting in the process of spiritual healing. When all is said and done, most of the work to be done in life is on ourselves in the realms of the spirit or psyche as Jung would say. Nada mas ahora. ~Che Peta

Wednesday, August 31, 2011
@6:55 AM ~ I am awake now. Dreamt about war, war zones and posting news about war in relation to Twitter and websites online.

I now have two Twitter User Accounts: my main one is @Peta_de_Aztlan and the other one is @humane_being with an Address of peta.aztlan@gmail.com. Will need to fiddle with the Settings and Email addresses.

I just washed up my face. Need to go get early coffee next door.

@9:29 AM ~ Well I am scheduled to move next door downstairs tomorrow by 11 AM in the morning into Room #3 by myself. It is the last door on the right by the washer and dryer. At least I will be to myself, though I appreciate the view I have here right now on the 2nd Floor looking west. The saving grace is I will be all by myself, better able to concentrate on my stuff and will not need to deal with anyone else in terms of their mental health status or lack thereof. I hope I do not seem arrogant here. It is just that I am generally open about ‘my mess’ and do not have the hang-ups that most other folks do about their ‘issues’.

I guess I will get ready to go to the Sacramento Central Library now and do my last blogpost for the month of August from there. Nada mas ahora!

@1:36 PM ~ Now at Sacra Central Library on 4th Floor. Still cannot be comfortable leaving Laptop here if I need to pee, but can see this location from Restrooms. We do have some strange types surfing around here. Hell, this whole country is pretty strange and bizarre to me, though I am not one to cast stones! One man's sanity can be another man's insanity!

My New Twitter Profile @Peta_de_Aztlan
Peter S. López @Peta_de_Aztlan
Barrio Cinco, Sacramento CA
I am a Liberated Being who Loves Truth, Peace & Wisdom! Sharing insights from my Inner World with the Outer World. Come together and create!
http://peta-de-aztlan.blogspot.com/

My New Twitter Profile @humane_being
Peter S Lopez ~Peta @humane_being
Southside Park~Sacramento, CA
I am a cosmic humane being who advocates Global Peaceful Revolution! Share global news from the Outer World! Feel free to Re-Tweet!
http://help-matrix.ning.com/

This month of August has been a fascinating one for me. Sometimes I miss my old sanctuary at Globe Mills and that causes me to feel emotional pain, yet I know that I needed to change and get out of my old comfort zone in order to evolve spiritually. I am still coping with and learning how to handle my OCD and ADHD traits or traces.

I blog post the above in the name of freedom of speech, freedom of expression and freedom of creativity in the basic belief that sharing is caring. If anyone is offended or misunderstands get over it! I am not here to live up to your expectations and neither are you here to live up to mine.

Be a liberated being as much as possible. I know these are hard times we are living in today. Why make life harder than what it is? Let not your heart become hard. Keep compassion in your soul, share your own truths and strive for oneness with the humane family of Mother Earth! Namaste, Che Peta ~ Twitter @Peta_de_Aztlan

I still travel on this single journey of life with heart. My writing is one of my main grounding points that helps me to keep my sanity.

I strive to live my life without fear or paranoia. Be free from fear! Share your truths.

Related Links:
Democracy Now!
http://www.democracynow.org/

Homelessness Resource Center
http://homeless.samhsa.gov/Default.aspx

Sacramento Loaves & Fishes Website
http://www.sacloaves.org/

Safeground Sacramento Websitehttp://www.safegroundsac.org/

Santa Barbara Friends of Jung
http://www.santabarbarajung.com/

Dual Recovery Anonymous Website
http://draonline.org/

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P.S.. Forgive any mistakes above. I no longer subscribe to Christian mythology and try to be complete, not perfect. I am just working on daily becoming more humane, more wholesome and more mature as a man of Mother Earth.
c/s

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Bloglink~ http://peta-de-aztlan.blogspot.com/

Twitter Link~ http://twitter.com/Peta_de_Aztlan

Humane Liberation Party Portal
~ http://help-matrix.ning.com/
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Email from Peter S. Lopez ~ to Jerri

2011-08-25T15:02:00.000-07:00

Thursday, August 25, 2010

Greetings Sister Jerri! Surprise! I am still at Carol's Place and getting more use to it now, compared to when I first got there. There is a lot of contentment among clients that can lead or promote apathy and lethargy. One must keep one's recovery and

spiritual growth fresh or it can easily lead to decay and relapse back into the darkness of a relapse back into old mentality, then naturally back into old behavior of past demented days.

I am at the Central Library right now. I want to take this medium and opportunity
to thanks you for all your help. I still have my bi-polar friend to do my Third Party.
I have my SSI Testing today at 3:45 PM. Carol's Place helped me with a Bus Pass.
I have a GA Appointment tomorrow morning.

Sometimes it takes time and distance for us to see a clearer picture of where we
were at before. My OCD and ADHD traits were ideal for my former position at
Sally's, but I did not address my other mental-spiritual issues, including what
could be described (blanketed?) as bi-polar or manic-depressive. In fact I was
in my own kind of denial about it all. I am still in the process of diagnosing my
own self. I have 'issues' with American psychiatry as it is praciced today.

The same as I have done well with working with homeless addicts with issues related to drug addiction, I believe I can be of some help with working with folks who
are challenged by life with mental-spiritual disorders.

Related Link: http://psychcentral.com/disorders/bipolar/

My former shrink was a Dr. Blomberg, former nutcracker for Jack Ruby of
Oswald fame. One time when I was at AR Psych he had me tied down in a four
point position on a gurney in a 'quiet room' in fear of my having an 'episode'. He
was not even on the grounds at the time and had not seen me that day to my own
recollection.

Now, in view of the ineptness and follow I see among some professionals who
seem to be groping in the dark with their 'patients' I am interested in going back
to school to study more on mental health and psychiatry in general, with possibly
a major in Counseling Psychology.

Life for me has not been a very smooth business. Now the present bristles
with difficulties, but I have an attitude of gratitude.

Anyways, I am still alive, well and learning!

Contact Information:

Peter S. López ~Carol's Place ~ Room #11-A ~
2230 9th St.-Sacramento, CA 95818
Office= 916/448-7391

P.S. My Sister Annabelle will help me pay for a monthly cell phone service
with Metro if I can get a cheap Metro phone donated.

P.S.S. Cannot make my Genesis appt. Can you call and let them know if
you get this in time?
@Peta_de_Aztlan

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Venceremos! We Will Win!
Peta_de_Aztlan
Sacramento, California
Email: peter.lopez51@yahoo.comhttp://twitter.com/Peta_de_Aztlan
http://www.facebook.com/Peta51
http://help-matrix.ning.com/
"Those who make peaceful revolution impossible, make violent revolution inevitable."~ President John F.Kennedy ~ c/s

Checking In ~ Monday, June 20th of 2011

2011-06-20T15:34:00.000-07:00

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Greetings All! I hope this Email gets through to whom it needs to get through to ~ in the name of the Creator of the Cosmos and the positive forces of timely communication.

True empathy requires us to know and experience the suffering of others. To be one with the people, to endure what they endure, to suffer what they suffer in human existence in order to truly perceive the direct experience of it all. It is not easy and it has its difficult moments, but I now experience a sense of being inline with my own life that I did not have before. Homeless people are refugees of a failed state. We are the 'canary in the mine'. Take heed.

Remember: If you want to know the nature of a given society you need to examine its lower economic classes, its outcasts and indeed its refugees.

We are refugees of a failed state, the result of a failed society, in fact, a society that is largely insane in relation to helping to meet the mental and spiritual needs of its people.

We can criticize the lack of motivation of people, people having low or no self-esteem. We can criticize the character defects of people and their tendencies towards harmful addictions. However, let us ask: Who were the ones responsible for parenting all these wretched of the earth? Who were the ones responsible for their education, their upbringing, for equipping them with the skills necessary to compete in today's dog-eat-rat society?

The Lord willing I will have seven years of sobriety from alcohol this Friday the 24th ~with over ten years off meth. I still do not have a decent job that can help me take care of myself and help others. Hell, I do not even have a cell phone.

Nonetheless, I will prevail, I will stay sober and stay strong in this war of life. True social rehabilitation entails us equipping people. Look up the original etymylogy of the word 'habilitate'. I would love working with a housing program that promotes being sane and sober as it is our insanity that often comes before our downfall.

I do not now have regular Internet Access but if good fortune prevails I will strive to post these Emails from time to time. I certainly appreciate of much of life now that I did not fully appreciate before. I do not take for granted that which I use to take for granted, including family and loyal friends. My family is the family of humanity and stretches all around the world. |

I am now a client at the VOA Emergency Shelter ~ Che Peta

Email: peter.lopez51@yahoo.com
http://twitter.com/Peta_de_Aztlan
http://www.facebook.com/Peta51
http://help-matrix.ning.com/
"Those who make peaceful revolution impossible, make violent revolution inevitable." ~ President John F.Kennedy ~ c/s

I am now a client at the VOA Emergency Shelter ~6-16-2011

2011-06-16T09:29:00.001-07:00

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Greetings ALL ~
I am now a client at the VOA Emergency Shelter.

I am learning great spiritual values, including humility, honesty and acceptance at deeper levels than ever. I lost my old apartment, hope to get into a transitional

housing program and will not be able to communicate online as I use to in the past.

True empathy is better than sympathy as empathy requires us to know and experience the suffering of others. Homeless people are refugees of a failed state and are the 'canary in the mine'. Take heed.