To GI Joe>Tuesday Night Again...

Hola Otra Vez GI Joe ~ I am glad you are out there covering me... I was really hoping my Brother Roberto would come to his senses. He himself had screwed with the Liberty House fiasco when he got further enslaved by his addictive nature, then kind of shifted the blame elsewhere... it is always elsewhere... Then, I can always blame myself as I had a big hand in his early tendencies towards booze and pot in his early years way before his prison time, then, way later with crank. Hell, maybe we can always blame Geronimo, since Roberto and I are DIRECT BLOOD descendants.... "Why drink if not to get drunk?" You know he became an alcoholic.

Afterwards, I tried to lead Roberto into progressive recovery, but he chose not to follow, but I never give up... as long as they keep coming back!

Then, after I had known Walter over ten years ago I thought he had really stabilized himself but I figure his wandering lust got the better of him. Still no word. He could be states away by now.

In all this, my main concern is that I myself do not become cold and callous about it all. I get dissapointed by certain people on a weekly basis and that could have ill side-effects if I am not aware of it inside myself. I myself need to do a lot of inner healing.

It's those damn IEDs planted by suicide bombers that we have to watch out for! ~Blessings, Peta
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Re: Sun Noon> Re: ROBERT LOPEZ Recovery Hopes
John Engbeck <jengbeck@yahoo.com> wrote:

You are not alone...and GI JOE remains pacing alongside you...although at this time...coursing through the jungle as a sniper covering you from ambush.

Sorry to have missed the meeting. I was dog tited, and slep since 6PM-to this AM.

Onward!

We will just Pray for B. Walter and B. Roberto. Peace to you, B. Peta!
"Peter S. Lopez de Aztlan" <sacranative@yahoo.com> wrote:

Sunday, August 5, 2007 @4:10 PM

Hola Brother John ~ I focus on the 120+ desperate homeless people in dire staits at the Salvation Army Shelter, many of whom are Honest, Open and Willing to change ~ I have to let go and let God regarding Roberto. No complete recovery is possible if one is not HONEST in all his ways, relations and communications.

We need more than mere abstinence. I have other people who are open to change and willing to accept valid criticism that I continue to work with on a daily basis.

As for as money, I got phone voice mails about him needing FIVE BUCKS! I figure he drank up any five bucks he had and I refuse to enable him.

I thank you for all your help and will continue to help others as I can without getting burned out! Roberto is my blood brother but I can not let him manipulate me behind that fact. I must remain objective, practical and realistic.

I still do not know where in the hell Walter is and he has let me down in a major way. I gotta get ready for my CASA Meeting and will keep in touch., I was not able to get Comcast at home on 25th & D Streets last Monday and will try to do so tomorrow.

LIfe goes on... within us and without us.

Keep the Faith! ~Brother Peter\2520 'D' Street ~ Sacramento, CA ((95816)
Cell: 916/968-1023
Work: 442-0331 x2051
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John Engbeck <jengbeck@yahoo.com> wrote:

I paid him. I also went to see him at Gateway to Hell motel (Been there, done that!) ...

This morning he is with Mike C...HIS NEW SPONSOR!!!

"Peter S. Lopez de Aztlan" <sacranative@yahoo.com> wrote:

Hola GI Joe... Roberto came by today and he says you owe him money for services renderd. So that is between you and him. He looked tired, hungover and his bi-polar seems to be getting worse because he is aggravating it with his alcoholism. Take Care, Peter S. Lopez

John Engbeck <jengbeck@yahoo.com> wrote:

ONE STEP UP "PENALTY" AGREEMENT
Some folks make their own bars, their own prisons...PSL

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