10-13-07: Secrets of his heart...

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Sabbath, October 13, 2007 @6:03 AM

1 Corinthians 14:25
And thus are the secrets of his heart made manifest; and so falling down on his face he will worship God, and report that God is in you of a truth.

It is an early Sabbath morning. Quiet here for now. I have decided to write directly onto my Open Journal Blog instead of first putting it in a document, then, transferring my entry to my blog. If I am ever to get something published in book form I need to be about writing, reviewing what I have written, then, re-writing until I am satisfied with what I have written and just letting it stand on its own.

I have a trait or tendency towards perfection in my writing. Sometimes this is good in the result, yet sometimes it is maddening.

Generally, I think about what I am going to write, then, just write it out, review it quickly, re-write what needs to be re-written and move on. I write from my entire being, especially from my mind, then, sometimes I just write from the heart. Thoughts can be like fleeting passing clouds or winds over head. Feelings from the heart are matters of the heart that come and go with passing moods and have a tendency to be more fluid. If it is a feeling from the heart, then, it is not simply a matter of what is true or correct as it is a feeling and thus subject to change. Ideally, we want to write from the essence of our inner self, from our entire being as a humane being.

So we will see how it goes. I will not remain locked in any kind of prison or restriction when it comes to my writing. Being an open journal I will reveal personal matters that I might want to keep all private to me, yet feel and know that many other people have things on their mind or heart-felt concerns that they have not revealed to others or even themselves.

The key is to be truthful to one's self in the knowledge that the God of energy is well aware of our innermost thoughts and feelings. A man without a real knowledge and belief in God is a terribly lonely man.

I have different definitions of God, but the one I love the most is that God is love.

1 John 4:8 He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.

1 John 4:16 And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.

God is like a nickname for the Creator of the Cosmos.

Main Entry:

cos·mos

Pronunciation: \ˈkäz-məs, 1 & 2 also -ˌmōs, -ˌmäs\

Function: noun

Etymology: Greek kosmos

Date: 1596

1 a: universe 1 b (1): an orderly harmonious systematic universe — compare chaos (2): order, harmony2: a complex orderly self-inclusive system3plural cosmos \-məs, -məz\ also cos·mos·es \-mə-səz\ [New Latin, genus name, from Greek kosmos] : any of a genus (Cosmos) of tropical American composite herbs; especially : a widely cultivated tall annual (C. bipinnatus) with yellow or red disks and showy ray flowers

Another tendency I have in my writing is the tendency to go deeper and deeper into a matter instead of with a superficial swipe. I imagine this could be a manifestation of my natural nature and also a remnant sign of my lingering obsessive compulsive disorder.

So many people are afraid to reveal themselves to other people and sometimes even to themselves. Thus, they remain in a cloud of confusion without inner clarity as to who they are and what they want to be or what they want out of life. Many exist only for others without ever feeing out what really makes them happy. Living in happiness is a key quality of living a really good life, otherwise life can be mere existence without joy, any thrill or deep intensity. I believe in living life to the fullest and squeezing out of each moment of our lives all the meaning and significance that we can in order for us to foster our spiritual growth and personal enlightenment. Shift happens!

9:51 PM ~ My workshops went well today at Sally's and I am getting better at my presentations. We had the medical students from UC Davis address our General Assembly today, then, Life Skills with an emphasis on job skills, followed by my main workshop which is the Housing Workshop.

The Housing Workshop is at 11 AM. I was pleased to see my Brother Bobby, GI Joe and Sister Jennifer come visit and share with us about One-Step-Up housing and recovery support program. They now have four houses.

I am deciding whether I should move out of here and get my own place or not. I am not been in my own apartment for a long time, though, there is safety in numbers, especially for one who is still in recovery. Plus, there is the added expense of being on one's own. I have been liviing with one person or another for a few years now. However, I have had my own room during these last few years and I know I have grown a lot.

I am a friend and a kind of lover to a Sister right now, though we have only kept it at a friendship level and there are many kinds of lovers. She graduated last Thursday from the Woman's Empowerment program and here is a link to pictures from the graduation:

http://picasaweb.google.com/peta.aztlan/WomenSEmpowermentGraduation

Enjoy!
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