My dentist appointment went well yesterday. I need to go again next week for the second part of getting my teeth ready for a crown. A lot of my financial expenses to come will be for my teeth repair and then I have my cataract surgery coming up for my eyes. I need more money in my life in order to move ahead and better position myself to help others.
MS and I have reached a good understanding of each other. I know she wants the lame boyfriend-girlfriend relationship typical of most people in these times, but I cannot relate to that kind of relationships. She reminded me ayer that he mental diagnosis is depression. I suppose major depression and she is SSI pending. Hopefully, she will get into Shelter Plus, a long-term housing program and get her own place. She has become shelterized a bit being so long in the homeless shelter matrix.
As for myself, I am still a single unit, though technically I am still married to Sheila Jarvis from my Mather days, but she left years ago without warning so she has been off the books to me. I still consider myself a free liberated man!
I want to continue working in my present position at the Salvation Army as a Counselor-Caseworker, learn more about communicating and counseling with people and continue to work on my spiritual development. That is my paying job. Then, I have my other non-paying job being a creative writer, where my heart's passion really is!
I figure in all our comings, doings and goings, where will we leave behind that really matters in the vast grand scheme of our lifetimes? Certainly for many they will have children, grandchildren and all that, but as for me I have only had one blood son, Camilo Esteban Lopez, and I have no idea where he is and have not laid eyes on him for decades.
Camilo probably has a lot of bitter resentment against me. I suspect his dearest Mother, my ex-wife Pauline Belen Gonzalez/Lopez, now Pauline Gee, turned him against me, spoke diparaging of me and he must have a lot of regrets about it all. As do I.
Fortunately, I have resolved that contradiction in my mind, relate to the family of humanity and know so many people who are lost, confused and without bearings to help them navigate through life. Thus, for others and for my own sanity I write.
Writing is kind of science. I need to learn how to write with a better flow, as often it comes out kind of sculptured, but I want it to have a smoothness so it all hangs out together in synaptic connections. I love Hemingway's idea of writing one trust sentence.
I have not traversed this planet's surface much. I have spent most my life in this one city Sacramento. In my earlier teenage days I went up and down the California coast sometimes, lived in Phoenix for a few years in the mid-80's and still wants to see a lot of the world before I depart from this Earthly existence. However, I have traveled deep into my mind, my soul and my heart and there have been great revelations therein.
Eventually, I want to re-locate to the Mission District in San Francisco where I believe other adventures and experiences await me. New territories, new situations and surely new loves!
I know a lot of life is about love, pure love without constrictive conditions. As the song goes, it's all about original love. The important thing for me is to help people have courage, the courage of their convictions and gather them together to combat the horrors and horrible ones of connected reality. We must combat evildoers!
The Democratic Party is still going through its primary elections in order to decide who will be its nominee. McCain will be the Republican nominee.
I am still interested in building up the Humane Liberation Party, as a kind of basic experiment. I downplayed it and have held back to date, especially after the tragedy of 911, the creation of the fascist-inspired Homeland Security Department and the general entrenchment of a sinister scientific sophisticated fascist security system inside the United States, along with the fear-induced paranoia of a civilian general population.
Many people are still lost in the concrete jungles of Amerika without any proper political orientation, social education or firm grasp of what is going on in the world and what their historic role is in order to right the wrongs of past injustices. Some of the old veteranos have given up on fighting back, have lost the spirit of resistance and are merely trying to get their piece of the putrid pie with not active compassion for the masses of repressed people.
Here inside the United States we are dealing with a general population that not only is oppressed in varying degrees in the economic class structure, but have also become repressed to the point of having a true fear of freedom a true fear of liberty and what drastic measures must be taken to obtain true liberty!
I will continue to help as I can with my meager resources and great spirit of resistance in order to give a helping hand in the toppling of the great Evil Empire of the United States of Amerika!!!!!
However, it is not just the government that must be transformed, it is also the whole economic system of corporate capitalism and a turning over into a true democratic socialist society. As always, total revolution is the ultimate solution, but we must also in the process endlessly be involved in widespread mass education in order to raise mass consciousness to a higher level of real understanding. Many millions inside the United States are still horribly racists, hate foreigners and are living in a mirage which is actually a real nightmare.
We are the ones we have been waiting for in order to make this a better genuinely humane world for all of us.
I go in late on Tuesdays at the Salvation Army as I have a Housing Workshop this evening at 6 PM.
I will finish writing an article for this weekend to expound on at the CASA Meeting Sunday. Nada mas ahora...
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MS and I have reached a good understanding of each other. I know she wants the lame boyfriend-girlfriend relationship typical of most people in these times, but I cannot relate to that kind of relationships. She reminded me ayer that he mental diagnosis is depression. I suppose major depression and she is SSI pending. Hopefully, she will get into Shelter Plus, a long-term housing program and get her own place. She has become shelterized a bit being so long in the homeless shelter matrix.
As for myself, I am still a single unit, though technically I am still married to Sheila Jarvis from my Mather days, but she left years ago without warning so she has been off the books to me. I still consider myself a free liberated man!
I want to continue working in my present position at the Salvation Army as a Counselor-Caseworker, learn more about communicating and counseling with people and continue to work on my spiritual development. That is my paying job. Then, I have my other non-paying job being a creative writer, where my heart's passion really is!
I figure in all our comings, doings and goings, where will we leave behind that really matters in the vast grand scheme of our lifetimes? Certainly for many they will have children, grandchildren and all that, but as for me I have only had one blood son, Camilo Esteban Lopez, and I have no idea where he is and have not laid eyes on him for decades.
Camilo probably has a lot of bitter resentment against me. I suspect his dearest Mother, my ex-wife Pauline Belen Gonzalez/Lopez, now Pauline Gee, turned him against me, spoke diparaging of me and he must have a lot of regrets about it all. As do I.
Fortunately, I have resolved that contradiction in my mind, relate to the family of humanity and know so many people who are lost, confused and without bearings to help them navigate through life. Thus, for others and for my own sanity I write.
Writing is kind of science. I need to learn how to write with a better flow, as often it comes out kind of sculptured, but I want it to have a smoothness so it all hangs out together in synaptic connections. I love Hemingway's idea of writing one trust sentence.
I have not traversed this planet's surface much. I have spent most my life in this one city Sacramento. In my earlier teenage days I went up and down the California coast sometimes, lived in Phoenix for a few years in the mid-80's and still wants to see a lot of the world before I depart from this Earthly existence. However, I have traveled deep into my mind, my soul and my heart and there have been great revelations therein.
Eventually, I want to re-locate to the Mission District in San Francisco where I believe other adventures and experiences await me. New territories, new situations and surely new loves!
I know a lot of life is about love, pure love without constrictive conditions. As the song goes, it's all about original love. The important thing for me is to help people have courage, the courage of their convictions and gather them together to combat the horrors and horrible ones of connected reality. We must combat evildoers!
The Democratic Party is still going through its primary elections in order to decide who will be its nominee. McCain will be the Republican nominee.
I am still interested in building up the Humane Liberation Party, as a kind of basic experiment. I downplayed it and have held back to date, especially after the tragedy of 911, the creation of the fascist-inspired Homeland Security Department and the general entrenchment of a sinister scientific sophisticated fascist security system inside the United States, along with the fear-induced paranoia of a civilian general population.
Many people are still lost in the concrete jungles of Amerika without any proper political orientation, social education or firm grasp of what is going on in the world and what their historic role is in order to right the wrongs of past injustices. Some of the old veteranos have given up on fighting back, have lost the spirit of resistance and are merely trying to get their piece of the putrid pie with not active compassion for the masses of repressed people.
Here inside the United States we are dealing with a general population that not only is oppressed in varying degrees in the economic class structure, but have also become repressed to the point of having a true fear of freedom a true fear of liberty and what drastic measures must be taken to obtain true liberty!
I will continue to help as I can with my meager resources and great spirit of resistance in order to give a helping hand in the toppling of the great Evil Empire of the United States of Amerika!!!!!
However, it is not just the government that must be transformed, it is also the whole economic system of corporate capitalism and a turning over into a true democratic socialist society. As always, total revolution is the ultimate solution, but we must also in the process endlessly be involved in widespread mass education in order to raise mass consciousness to a higher level of real understanding. Many millions inside the United States are still horribly racists, hate foreigners and are living in a mirage which is actually a real nightmare.
We are the ones we have been waiting for in order to make this a better genuinely humane world for all of us.
I go in late on Tuesdays at the Salvation Army as I have a Housing Workshop this evening at 6 PM.
I will finish writing an article for this weekend to expound on at the CASA Meeting Sunday. Nada mas ahora...
http://peta-de-aztlan.blogspot.com/
http://humane-rights-agenda.blogspot.com/
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