#Spiritual Journal via Peter S. López aka @Peta_de_Aztlan ~ Educate to Liberate! Sharing is caring!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
My Spiritual Journal: Julio - Septiembre of 2009
~My Spiritual Journal~
Documented by
Peter S. Lopez aka: Peta
Sunday, July 13, 2008~
@5:42 PM ~ Bountiful blessings to all humane eyes who read these Journal entries! I am at my new Sanctuary ~ a humane sanctuary. It is almost 6 PM and knowing my tendency to get verbose in comparison to most I will just share a few matters of concern for now. I am in my own one-bedroom apartment in Globe Mills. I finally have my own place, my own home again after several years of living with others. These is a beauty in solitude, especially for my having the situation to focus on my own personal writing about matters of interest to me, to others and to serve as a kind of testimony of my life and times.
We have a CASA 12-Steps Meeting tonight. I need to shower and get ready for now. I will strive to be conscientious about my daily journaling. Sharing is caring!
@9:23 PM ~ We had a great CASA Meeting. Brother Exnar gave his testimony and it was a powerful moving one that touched my heart. His life could make a good book. We should strive to record our testimonies for others to learn from.
Brothers Arthur, Mark, Gil and Lee were present to show their support. Brother Gil gave me a cool native warrior friendship card. He really is a precious brother and has a good loving heart.
Brother John-Paul will help me move my main stuff tomorrow in the morning time and for that I am grateful. Earlier this late morning Tio Toro and I were not able to meet up as planned in a timely manner. He bought a swamp cooler from Mark so that was good. Brother Danny was going to come down from Truckee, but he ended up MIA.So tomorrow for sure I will be able to move the main stuff that I need a vehicle to move.
Clay’s wedding is coming up. I want to dress good for it. I plan to check out the SPCA Thrift Store. Plus, I want to get more suit outfits for show and tell.
I will really have to establish and stick to a budget to make sure I handle my rent, utilities and other living expenses. Plus, I need to see about enrolling at Sac City College this coming Fall Semester.
I do not have Internet connection here now, but that is OK for now. Sometimes I get on the Internet and it can be a distraction from my actual writing. I got it setup with Comcast for I believe the 21st of this month of July.
I really do appreciate the solitude here. It is so quiet and peaceful here now. There is the traffic noise going by and the light rail passes by below, but that just gives me a reassuring feeling that there is a whole society out there that needs transforming. There are some beautiful people at the shelter. I wish the rest of Sacramento could see some of the precious beings that we have there. It is great to see the growth, the development and the betterment of the lives of the people who are there.
Sometimes I dread dealing with a few ego-driven staff members at the shelter there and I hope they mature more as time goes by. I do not want a needless stressed out working environment when the stress comes from staff. Mr. David Benning is my petty tyrant there. Larry has gotten his wings clipped by Dictator Elizabeth and she herself has become more accepting of my ways as time goes by. I will not forget the time I got suspended four days for doing what I consider to be my job as a Caseworker-Counselor. Minus, the time I had to delete all my success stories in YouTube videos because they were unauthorized. Dizzy Lizzy is an obedient slave to the whole corrupt system and will not rock the boat when she erroneously assumes she is at the helm.
As imperfect beings we all surely have our own core issues to work on in terms of our own mentalities, personalities and inner spiritualities.
I truly believe that it is God’s amazing grace that helps us, blesses us and ensures that we make it through each day and night here and perhaps everywhere, though everywhere is an absolute term and I have learned over the years not to indulge in thinking in terms of absolutes as it is so unscientific. I still have the mind of a social scientist, but believe in the awesome power of the humane spirit.
Monday, July 14, 2008~ @6:25 AM ~ Brother Danny called from Truckee. He was pissed and said I “did not even have the balls to go out and see him” when he came down to help them, then hung up. I called him right back and actually said I was sorry, that I thought something had just happened to him and that I thought he knew the place. Still, he should have remembered or had the address or gotten through to me on his cell phone. Another example of a lack of communication in regard to details among us. So we still love each other as brothers and friends. I need to be a better conscientious friend to others, have greater understanding and not automatically assume one kind of failure or dysfunction on their part when it could just be me!
I called Marie last night before I crashed and gave her my new cell number. I will call John-Paul at 7 AM.
@8:08 PM ~ Today was a great day for me. Brother John-Paul came by in his van here at Globe Mills, we did two big trips and got most my stuff. I still have the keys for the house there and may sleep there a few times before I leave with all my other stuff, mainly clothes, books and a few odds and ends. I want to make sure I get my good calculator there before I depart once and for all.
Cousin Mark was doing pretty good, I suspect he is going through some of his adjustments with my leaving the Chacon Casa, but I never really felt all at home there. He can be a bit space controlling. For paying half the rent I only had stuff in my own room, plus a few of his items in my room too. He hogged the house and I suspect he does not even have a clue about his own self-will to the point where I felt closed in there. Nevertheless, he is still a precious beautiful brother to me and we will always be close. Plus, I will miss the German shepherd dog Stella and even Angel the cat. Life goes on within us and without us.
Plus, on our last load, we went by John-Paul’s place in ZapataPark and he gave me a 21” Hitachi Color TV. We were there for a while, I saw his lovely wife Marie who is of the Maidu tribe. I checked out his place, saw a few wall pictures of family and he gave me some peanut butter cookies!
I put a lot of my stuff where I want it and this sanctuary looks pretty good now. I have my music box here, saw a cool Native-American healing DVD and it feels good here. Brother Charles came by, when he came in there was a little rain from the vent area by the front door and I was concerned. I turned off the central air from the wall device. It has stopped, but I will try to remember to mention it to Sondra tomorrow.
Charles and I went by Amigas Thrift Store right up the street. I went inside and he went up to the store and bought a couple of light bulbs. I had told him that I wanted to get some ‘bowls’ and he thought I had said ‘bulbs’. I need to learn to pronounce my spoken words more clearly.
I am playing the cassette of Sting’s Ten Summoner’s Tales from 1993 when I was really going strong with my chemical addictions and selfish indulgences. I went through some strange times and hurt others to whom I cannot now make direct amends. I actually had a lot of fun in my dope fiend days, but it turned out all bad, especially after I literally lost my mind, went utterly insane and I almost lost my soul. I do believe that I have only been saved by Creator God’s amazing grace!
@9:30 PM ~ Sister Peach came by and invited me to a little party that a few of the seniors are having on the patio on the second floor. She mentioned that there was some wine-drinking going on and I declined, but she is looking peachy. Maybe some time in the future. We will see what we will see. I suppose I should be able to be around people who are imbibing in alcohol without a real worry. I would not want them or me to be uncomfortable. Plus, I am a bit tired and need to turn in to my sleeping area in a bit. I know… I am being a sissy!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008~ @10:45 PM ~ A few notes before I go to sleep. I had a good Housing Workshop and Ernesto Gueyger, the youngest brother of the Gueyger family, is one of our next clients. Plus, we have several new people today. Before Bible Study, Major Mary gave me a few eating utensils, including spoons. This morning I had to eat my cereal with a fork. Genius that I am, I did not have a spoon to eat my morning cereal, so I ate it with a fork (I now have two folks).
Afterwards, Tio Toro and Tia Esther (my new names for them) came by and the three of us came over here so I could show them my new sanctuary. Tia Esther was kind enough to make me a couple of big homemade burritos and I only ate one and am saving the other for tomorrow. I know some people I care about are happy for me. A few of them told me that I deserve it and have worked hard for it. I do not want to clutter this place up with a bunch of regular household items and will strive to keep my situation simple, frugal and meager.
Here at Globe Mills there is suppose to be a community meeting this Friday at 9 AM but I will be at work at Sally’s. Charles says that Peaches likes me and I want to see about getting closer to her, especially as she is real sweet and it is so convenient her apartment being right next to mine.
I have my work clothes ready for tomorrow. It has been a good day.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008~
@6:43 PM ~ I awoke about 5 AM. Relieved myself, prayed and meditated for a bit. I wrote another poem. I want to get into the morning routine of writing one each morning when inspired. I cannot force my writing and be happy about it. Writing a morning poem helps to loosen up my writing flow. I want to be able to write with a good smooth flow so it all comes together. In the past I was kind of torturing myself and took so long to write an article. The remnants of my past OCD can be maddening even today. The ideals is to get my ideas and ideals out here, then, work on the refining of the re-writing process. I left here about 7:20 AM and made it to work on time. Tight but on time.
Client report: Michael M. will NOT be able to get into an RIL (Resources for Independent Living) because an old case he had sprung up into a warrant from Denver because of an altercation he had with his brother some time ago. Now Exnar E. is trying to get help by them. Sue T. had a good job interview with the State but she is computer dependent and needs to work more on her life goals, housing strategy and resume-job searching skills. A recent former client Rhonda W. loaned a staff member Monitor Rebecca $300 dollars and Rebeka did not pay her back. So that has become an issue. There were some other ‘client issues’, such as an elderly Black woman who is chronic homeless with a propensity to smoke ‘crack’. She was allowed back into the shelter after leaving a decent care home for her and has the needed income from SSI to get her own housing. So this is a mere sprinkling to give you the flavor.
Plus, my Brother Roberto may be able to get in without waiting to top the Waiting List. He got up to Number 18, failed to call in on Monday, so he was put at the very bottom. Mr. Benning, our Intake Coordinator, may be able to magically boost him up and bring him in, but Bobby is in a hotel room downtown until next Wednesday. He has been staying straight, looks healthy and we hope to bring him in soon.
At work I have resorted to using spiritual means and methods in order to bring about a higher consciousness amongst us all, plus, treating clients decently, respecting all I come into contact with and emanating a tangible force of a loving humane nature.
After work I went downtown and bought a few things for my sanctuary, including cleaning supplies. On my way back up I stopped in a Amigas ~ a thrift store whose proceeds help young pregnant women with children. I am not really sure how the storeowners can afford their little business. There are ways; then there are other ways.
On this day of July 16th in 1945, the U.S. exploded it first experimental atomic bomb in the desert of Alamogordo, New Mexico. For all that we have burned, what have we ever learned? Thursday, July 17, 2008~ @5:44 AM ~I awoke before 5 AM. Prayed, got the coffee going, took a shower and here I am. We can never fully record this moment in the fluidity of time, one moment melts into the next.
Life is one long hard spiritual journey to true oneness with the Creator through our inner soul achieved by obtaining a higher cosmic consciousness that grows in upward spirals that encompass the connected reality of all life.
At the cosmic-quantum level of life, all external objective and internal subjective realities in life are ultimately interconnected in one realm or another. Integrated connected reality has no isolated separate reality. All is one; one is all in the interconnectedness of life. Nothing and no one exists in-and-of itself. We are all entwined threads of the web of life and all connected together.
As triune humane beings composed of a mind, body and soul we should strive to maintain the brain, fortify the body and liberate the soul. Life on Mother Earth is full of many problems, intricate complexes and awesome challenges. As time goes by we will come to see that all the talk about recovery, self-esteem and empowerment is actually all about a spiritual walk with the Creator.
@5:03 PM ~ Departed from CampChaos after 4:30 PM. It was a good day of educating and raising consciousness, though I am somewhat drained spiritually right now. I know I am gradually making an impact on people’s lives. Sometimes people just need someone to talk to, to brainstorm together and help them plan their program.
@6:50 PM ~ Papa C ~ Charles Hicken ~ came up and visited for about a half hour. I like short sweet visits, especially when I am writing. A few folks from here at suppose to go to a karaoke in Roseville. I was invited but declined. A resident named James is driving, has a car and is suppose to sing. Plus, my neighbor Peaches is going to do her virgin singing debut.
“Today’s mighty oak is just yesterday’s nut that held its ground ~ Don’t give up!”
~ M. ~ anonymous homeless refugee
Meanwhile… back to my other writing…
Friday, July 18, 2008~ @4:22 PM~ Work went well. I like it when I get time to communicate with certain clients, especially about deep sensitive issues that they would not share with others but open up to me about. In my role as a Counselor, it is extremely important for me to establish a trusting bond with my clients or else the whole relationship is off center.
Thanks to Niles, I got part of a matching set of dishes from Sally’s. I do not want to have a bunch of crap here that will merely gather dust upon it.
I found out that the Globe Mills elevator is down right now ~ dysfunctional. Sondra was in the office and she said something about a drink of a kind being spilt in the elevator and that someone was coming to fix it. God forbid if that ever happens and there is a big fire going on with all these feeble seniors in this building. Judging from last night I think we are in a full moon phase.
It is a big difference not having my Internet connection here on at least my laptop, though it should be up and running this coming Monday. Toro offered me a metal desk he says is in his front yard, but I declined without seeing it first. Bobby’s old computer is over his place and I figure I will bring it here at some point in the future.
I am internally debating whether to catch the next Light Rail or not to go get some food supplies at Safeway’s. I am still learning how to use the various features of
my TracFone.
@8:02 PM ~ I am back in my Sanctuary. Brother Karl A. and Short Mark just left after a short visit. I decided to go to Safeway on 18th Street and caught the Light Rail out there. I saw Brother Julius W. and took a picture inside the store. I spent $30+ on comida and stuff. Then, I got back on the 16th Street Light Rail to Downtown, got off, went to my usual store on the mall for smokes. By the Cathedral Station I saw ol’ Sherman A., took a picture of him and it was great to see him doing well and know that he is placed quietly at Park Place across from Capitol Mark. Then, Karl, Mark and another African-American brother saw me. After a bit, I got the Light Rail to Alkali Flat and re-met Karl and Mark. I thought it would be good inspiration to allow them to both come up and see my Sanctuary. We took some good pictures.
I start around 7:30 AM tomorrow at TSA, have my Saturday workshops, then, we will see what we will see. I have found it is best not to make long-range plans ahead that involve commitment to other people when it is not necessary. I have a lot of writing to do while I am here. I think I will make my first meal here. Hunger can be a great motivator and there are different kinds of hunger.
@9:14 PM ~ Ummm! I had my first home cooked meal here just now. Chorizo con webos y baloney, totillias con salsa y Diet-Pepsi. Not the most nutritional meal of the month, but it was great to me. I cleaned up after myself and plan to be good at doing so. I have left a lot of messes in my life behind me. So I make of point of cleaning up afer myself. Ahhh…. Now for a smoke ~ a Camel Wide ~ I am fully content for now.
Saturday, July 19, 2008~ @6:22 AM ~ The meal last night was great but heavy on my body. I will take it light today. I want to get into a good routine for my writing and other aspects of my life.
@5:38:03 PM ~ I just got in minutes ago. Popped in at Peaches who loves items from around the world, but has not been around the world. I told her we should go around the world together! She is sweet. I gave her a Volunteer Application for TSA as she stated to me when I first met her a interest in volunteering at Loaves & Fishes. On principle, I must not take unfair advantage of vulnerable women.
Work went well. I am learning the power of the word better, the power of taking the time to explain stuff to people and the power of expressing myself with pure love and true affection. I educate people about the power of having a good genuine spirit with one another, of treating each other with kindness and politeness. I am daily becoming more and more spiritual in my lectures.
@9:00 PM ~ Tio Toro and Tia Esther came by earlier. Toro and I brought up my new desk here he gave me and we put it in my future HELPCommandCenter. I helped my neighbor Mary who lives across the hall throw a few empty boxes in the dumpster across the street, per instruction by Sondra. Mary gave me a small flowered plastic trash can and a light brown blanket I scored. I suspect Sondra was going upstairs with her ‘boyfriend’ ~ a tall African-American brother.
I washed my first set of clothes here in two loads in the Laundry Room on the fourth floor. Another blessing. I am recording some selected Smooth Jazz onto cassettes from KSSJ. All is quiet on the Western front.
Sunday, July 20, 2008~ @5:42 PM ~ I woke up early today, felt like I slept enough for now and I can always take a nap later. Plus, I suppose it keeps my body in an early wake-up mode. I made a pot of coffee, though I am not sure we can still consider a glass decanter a pot. The old says are turning into new days and new ways in so many different ways, some of which are not immediately perceptible to us.
I did have time to do my weekly report yesterday, so I might do it today at TSA.
We should comprehend that as Case Workers in Case Management we need to be able to respond to the human needs of clients, including engaging them in real ordinary conversations and opening up a dialogue with them so we can create a real trusting bond to discuss their Plan of Action for meeting their housing and other needs. We should strive to supersede the ‘us and them’ dichotomy. Clients need to know we care about them as individuals and strive to have their best interests at heart and I pray we do. It is not merely a matter of asking a client to see his Meeting Card. It is all about looking directly in the eyes of their soul and finding out about their interests and concerns. The educator always requires further education.
It is not a simple matter of cold stats and columns of numbers. That approach may do well with ordinary state workers but not with homeless refugees who have fallen out of the usual safety nets and landed here at an Emergency Shelter. There needs to a lot more open public advocacy for the homeless population in order to educate the larger Sacramento community about their real existence and genuine needs. The public mainly hears about the homeless when there are ‘problems’ not about solutions to homelessness. It is not brain surgery. We need to create, develop and expand more housing programs for the homeless, including homeless families with children.
Politics is not necessarily a taboo dirty word. It all involves the basic means and systemic methods of influencing and channeling public opinion in open agenda-based positive directions. Ostensibly TSA has a humane Christian-based agenda and is known worldwide for helping poor oppressed needy people. In that sense a lot of what we need to do in the larger community of Sacramento can have a real political nature, though we can disguise it as ‘various social and spiritual programs’. The mere existence of many thousands of homeless people in the materially richest country in the world is political and controversial.
If Obama gets elected as predicted there will be a revival of a faith-based program emanating from the White House. Ultimately, we should see that a lot of what we do boils down to the immediate urgency of the social, spiritual and humane Christian development of our clients. This is why we should stress to our clients the need for them to develop and work an individual program for self-improvement to build up their inner character and sincerely work with us as their Case Workers. It is not only about shelter and housing because many times some of our most troubled clients are recycled in and out of the shelter matrix because their core issues have not been sufficiently addressed and resolved.
Presently, staff has poor intra-communications based upon fears of expressing the truth, being honest with each other and trying not to rock the boat. If the boat has leaks in it that endangers it staying aflod and could sink it that needs to be pointed out. There needs to be more of a team mentality and espirit de corps amongst us. None of us should hoard important information about clients based upon an individual’s subjective interpretation of a ‘need to know’, especially about clients that have special needs. We are not the CIA, we are employees of TSA with a vital mission.
None of us staff members were raised in Disneyland and sometimes we carry over old mentalities and behavior patterns of previous dark times in our past into our workday without conscious conscientious awareness. Sometimes these old ways come in handy when communicating with clients, but we should learn how to intelligently apply these transferable skills in our daily contacts with each other and with clients in ways that are helpful, beneficial and productive to all of us. After all, we should not forget where we came from, especially when it is staring us in the face every day and night here at the ‘Center of Hope’.
@8:00 AM ~ Called Roberto, he was at his room. Plan to meet him at the SPCA Thrift Store this afternoon, then I will show him my Sanctuary. I need to motivate him to get his own place and mature.
@12:08 PM ~ I plugged in my old HP Computer in my Command Center but it says Operating System Not Found ~ at the old house it was saying Drivers Not Found. So I am not sure what to exactly do: either pay to fix it somehow or just go ahead and buy a brand new system. Money is tight and I need a higher paying job or get some other legitimate financial hustles going. Guess I will head onto the ‘K’ Street Mall.
@6:03 PM ~ Went down to Rite-Aid for a few things, then by the SPCA Thrift Store and got a few more things, including a few household items. Roberto may be here soon for I can let him see the Sanctuary.
@10:26 PM ~ We had a great CASA 12-Steps Meeting. Sister Yvette gave her moving Testimony and it was great. It was her first major sharing, spoke the truth and she did a fantastic job. Roberto came up here around 6:30 PM and he was impressed with my Sanctuary. We want him to do well and get his own place soon, but we hope he goes into Sally’s next week to fortify his re-involvement in the recovery process. So him and I walked to the CASA Meeting together. He has been talking to Shyann and that is good. I took a few pixs, but should of taken more. I need to self-image myself as a photo-journalist and not miss these good picture taking times! After the meeting Bobby and I walked up to the corner, chatted for a bit then I came up here.
After I came up I knocked on Peaches door and there was no answer. I left a note on her door, came back in here and then shortly after she knocked at my door. At first she was downstairs having a smoke (Hell, I smoke in here!). Anyways, I had a big plate of spaghetti and finished it off, some good fruit drink and then her and I had some time alone to converse. She is really interesting and I want to get to know her a lot better without getting entangled. An elder named Mary from another floor popped by for a bit and apparently has been most helpful. Then later Papa C wheeled himself in with his two escorts ~ a cool youngster who refers to me as Caseload and his gal who is Papa C’s Care Worker. I saw my opening and said my good nights. I know that Peaches found my conversation interesting and I am glad she is my lovely neighbor.
So it has been a good day and tomorrow will be an even better one, especially after I get my Comcast hooked up!
Night Prayer ~ Great Creator of Cosmos, all praise is due to thee for helping us make it through this day and now the night is here for us to sleep for a while, meditate upon life so far and tomorrow we will see what we will see. Watch over us in our sleep, protect us from all harm and help us to achieve an ever-closer communion with you in all your magnificent glory as co-creators of your Majesty.
Monday, July 21, 2008~ @5:40 AM ~ A few moments before my alarm turned on at 5 AM I woke up. Today is a Free Day from work at the Salvation Army. Learn to do one thing well. Sometimes so-called multi-tasking is an excuse for being scatter brained. At what point in my life did I become addicted? What kind of state-of-being promoted by becoming addicted? What came first, the chicken or the egg? Why do I do something so I can do something else?
I got up, turned the coffee on, relieved myself, washed up, put my eye drops on, dabbed my eye and went back to my prayer spot. Sometimes our first thoughts of the day are keys to creative spiritual evolution. Time for a poem.
@7:23 AM ~ Just called COMCAST. Scheduled to be here between 8 AM and 10 AM.
@7:30 AM ~ Marie aka: Fluflu just called and she will be coming into town. She mentioned about ‘kickin’ her to the curb’ but she needs counseling anyways. I am not going to be involved in a sexless relationship!
@3:48 PM ~ I got my Internet, Cable and Fixed Phone online today. Plus, had the utilities (SMUD & PG&E) put in my name: Peter S. Lopez. I made some phone calls and did a bulk Email for certain folks online with my new fixed phone and street mailing address.
@10:45 PM ~ My Brother Bobby came by for a bit after the 8 PM and Meeting. We had a good conversations, took a few pictures and I want to seem him make it this time.
@11:14 PM ~ Time for sleep now or at least laying down. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Chances are I will not be journaling in here as much now that I have Internet connection, but it has been therapeutic for me. Remember I also have an online blog that usually post up on, but this will be my main private journal. It is good for real self-clarification. Nada mas ahora.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008~ @7:00 AM ~ Went to sleep around 12 Midnight, but slept solid. Got up around 6 AM. I start work at 11 AM so that gives me a few hours to do some writing, reading and researching.
I activated my CASA Phone Voice Mail.
@9:06 AM ~ Work went well. I learn in increments daily how to do my job better, how to pronounce my words well and get people’s attention before I explain stuff to them. My Brother Roberto was around and attended the workshop. I need to prepare the files for a possible file inspection this week and to deep DB happy and off my back. I am a little tired, a little lonely and know that this too will pass.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008~ @6:26 AM ~I awoke at 5 AM. Called in my entries for the MCC and Readiness Lists. Will try to really focus on them more and not get so easily distracted, but when a man client wants to talk to me I feel obligated to do so.
@8:13 PM ~ Work went well, I never finish and there is always more. The basic fact is that we always need more help and I could use another full-time caseworker. Bobby is not in yet and we hope to get him in soon.
@9:00 PM ~ Called Bobby, he is in DPH. He better take care of himself and not go tripping out, esp. right now.
@10:12 ~ Registered for SCC but need to figure out my password crap. I will deal with this further tomorrow.
Thursday, July 24, 2008~ @6:49 AM ~ I talked to our Project Manager here at Globe Mills about starting up a small newsletter for the building residents. I thought of the idea of Globe Mills Gazaette! It would contain basic information about the project, number of residents and remaining openings in the hopes of getting good suitable tenants for here. I hope we can some good people here and that some of them are 55 and around, especially so I can have some cool female friends in the building to get to know and spend time together with for my own socialization without having to leave the building.
Today should be an interesting Thursday and I got to man the Front Desk today. I will give out Warning Notices for those of my clients who fail to show up for a Caseworker Meeting.
PSYC300General Principles3 Units
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General Education:AA/AS Area V(b); CSU Area D9; IGETC Area 4I
Short Term Class
Hours: 54 Hours LEC
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Remarks of Senator Barack Obama (as prepared for delivery)
“A World that Stands as One” ~ July 24th, 2008 ~ Berlin, Germany
@6:46 AM ~ Sometimes I feel as if I am being spiritually pushed or swayed in different direction. I need to find a nice lady with whom I can spend my time with on occasion, but not constantly! I had a huge dinner last night of chorizo, eggs, tortillias and other stuff that was really heavy for me. I need to get ready for work. Then, we have the Church Wedding this Sunday for Clay and Kim.
@7:35 PM ~ It was a good day. I will work on the Globe Mills Gazette Community Newspaper for a First Edition in early August 2008. Pictures show on Print Preview but not on View Print or Web Layout!
Saturday, July 26, 2008~ @6:50 AM ~I went to the Talent Show for about a half hour last night and just showing up I think was important, though I do not want to feel like a politician. Tomorrow is Clay and Kim’s Church Wedding and that will take the bulk of my day away as I have other stuff to move over here from Mark’s and from Barbara’s. I hope it all goes well, though it is kind of a hassle for me. However, I must not think selfish and they are both a part of my life. Well I got to get ready for another day of fun and games!
I have not contacted Marie aka: Fluflu. She is distant from me now. There is too much of a lack of honest communication, she is non-political and prone towards a kind of laziness when it comes to studying and all. I give people stuff, get no feedback and I wonder if their brains are working properly. I do not want to treat her like a piece of ass, but sometimes I wonder what she is good for besides to me. My idea of ‘being together’ does not involve watching TV all night nor necessarily sex. I enjoy good intellectually stimulating conversation.
I see the need for a spiritual revolution but one that has very practical, tangible and observable results from inner revelation to outer revolution in connected reality.
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@9:02 PM ~ On this day a few years back Sheila ~ my supposed wife for life ~ left me and I have never been quite the same since, though I am better situated than ever. Still, I admit to some lingering sadness. What we once had, what we could of kept, but through it all I never wept. I had done the best I could at the time, though I am older, bolder and wiser in these times. Life is one long arduous process with occasional glimpses of heaven or mere fleeting feelings coming then going away out in the cosmos of creative consciousness. I remember because it is Cuban Liberation Day! I thought it so appropriate. Free at last!!!
Sunday, July 27, 2008 @8:14 AM ~I awoke at 6:30 AM on my own. This is a brand new day and I pray it all goes well. I am just relaxing right now. Sitting naked here @ my laptop. Sometimes getting all dressed just to be here by myself is a drag. I might pop onto the K Street Mall later.
I have CNN on now about Obama and McCain. McCain is such a fascist fool! OK… he does have a fine beautiful bimbo blonde as a wife. Money obtains such treasures!
Kaiser Medical Appointments Tomrrow:
Member: PETER S LOPEZ
Mon, Jul 28, 2:40 pm ~ JOHNNY NGUYEN
- Tomorrow - OPTOMETRY-SACRAMENTO - SAC MED CENTER
1650 RESPONSE RD. SECOND FLOOR
Mon, Jul 28, 3:10 pm ~ Dr PARHAM MORGAN
- Tomorrow - OPHTHALMOLOGY-SACRAMENTO - SAC MED CENTER
1650 RESPONSE RD. 2ND FLOOR
I am feeling more at peace and relaxed here. It is nice not to have people at the door who are in need of one item or with one issue or another. I believe the better I am inside my own skin, the better I can help others.
@11:00 AM ~ Just called Kim on their cell and Clay at home.
@9:55 PM ~ It was a beautiful day for a wedding.. I was honored to be the Best Man for the wedding of Mr. And Mrs. Clay and Kimberly Bushnell. It was in a EpiscopalianChurch in the Rosemount area. I met Clay’s Sister Sue and Kim’s Mother Sheila. Plus Pastor Elden. Sister Lanette ~ my Supervisor ~ was there for a spell and Brother Tim from Quinn Staff was there. It was really good for me to witness. I was the holder of the rings. I saw the beauty of a marriage and marriages are good experiences to witness. I reinforced the ideal of being married until death when one departs from the other. Naturally one must espouse and strive to make it a lifelong commitment or it is not worth all the ritual and paperwork.
I myself am not ever going to get married again {in fact, I am still legally and technically married to the witch Sheila Jarvis; a beautiful witch, but still a real demented one. So much has gone down the river of my life.}.
Afterward Clay dropped me off in front of GM and my sweet Neighbor Peaches and others were returning from a Free Concert in a nearby park ~ J. Neely JohnsonPark I believe. I walked her up to her place. She gave me her landline number but somehow it did not save into my cell phone, probably my goof up. Her real maiden name is Georgia {Peaches} Laureen ? Graham. I really like her and she mentioned about one having to court her and so I will woo her. It would be so convenient for her living right next door for me for us to bond together. Time will tell. I know I am hard to get along with for a woman as I am pretty much occupied with other matters and simply am not the type to commit to a regular relationship with a woman right now.
Personal intimate relationships can be such a drain on one’s spiritual life. With what I want to do in my life right now, knowing the critical value of time and not wasting away a moment of it, there are certain matters that require my time, energy and attention, including writing, but also continuing to work on my spiritual growth and raising my cosmic consciousness. c/s
Monday, July 28, 2008~
@12:00 PM ~ I thought I did an entry earlier, but at times I can have a lot of windows open. Maybe I did not SAVE when ol’ Einstein up there reminded me to do so. Oh well… I am still alive, learning and sharing what little I know when I can with others. Roberto is doing well today. He has access to storage area over Pop’s place.
@7:48 PM ~ I went to my optometry appointments at Kaiser, but cannot afford my new glasses right now and still have sufficient COH, next payday I will pay for them. My medical coverage is about $175.00 but I will need to pay $100+ myself. Right after I decided to go to Lu Shan’s all-you-can-eat for $14 bucks and righteously pigged out.
Later, I took the bus back into down. I went by Mark’s to check in. He had packed my stuff that was in my old bedroom. I kind of asked for a ride home and Mark did not first volunteer. I guess he wanted me to grovel. I sensed some resentment by him, maybe a little envy but I have made a point not to burden down myself with ‘things’ and objects of possession. Him and young Sonny with the pets are the only ones left at the old Chacon casa. Sonny drove Mark’s truck and brought me home here with Mark and Stella in the backseat ~ a change for Mark ~ and they dropped me off at the corner of 12th & C Streets across the street downstairs. We have come so very far, yet we have so far to go.
When I came up to the 5th I had an involved conversation with Mary Waters across the hall. She is a Christian and the same as so many she needs further edification when it comes to looking at others and judging their ways. More will be revealed.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008~ @9:32 AM ~ I washed a load of clothes this morning on the 4th Floor and scored a red toasted with a flowered cover. There was a coffee pot and electric can opener but I left them for others. I have a coffee pot and I do not really need an electric can opener. Americans have gotten so lazy!
I went to the 1st Floor, got my SMUD Bill with an old payment of $133.30 and will pay them $50+ next payday.
@10:07 PM ~ Work went well. Had my workshop. More to do tomorrow. Popped by Peaches for a bit, a couple of ol’ dogs there. Plus, got Email from Sondra about the upcoming newsletter I need to work on.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008~ @6:12 AM ~ I slept on a bit after my 5 AM cell phone alarm and woke myself about 5:37 AM. Time is the quintessence of all of the cosmos.
Roberto was very dispirited as he has not come into the shelter yet, but I had to remind him of the karma he himself generated. Lots to do all the time at work as we are extremely short-staffed, as are most non-profits. What if we had one where all were paid the same from top-to-bottom?
Wednesday, July 30, 2008~ @10:10 PM ~ Still alive and learning. These days at times just zip by, did some work on The Globe Mills Gazette ~ Senior Community Newsletter. Tomorrow is the last day of the month: the 31st!
Thursday, July 31, 2008
@5:05 AM ~Last day of the month. I will try to finish a draft of the Globe Mills Gazette today. Plus, I need to pay my rent. I woke up early, did a few things, time for a cup of café.
@7:00 AM ~ We will see what we will see today. I still need to get my stuff from Mark’s and from Barbara’s place. I was good waking up earlier than usual. I will try to do it more often, cut back on my smoking and keep working on my health.
@9:33 PM ~ Good day at work, same shit different day. Sometimes the shit is tight and sometimes the shit is loose. Plus, I paid the rent for August in order to secure this blessed sanctuary.
Went to Safeway and got a canned ham and stuff that came up to exactly $20 dollars. I kind of saw that as an ‘agreement’ or synchronicity.
On the way back in up here I had a conversation on the corner with Karl A. and Fred. Gurr. Brother Fred Gurr had his jaw broken by some five black thugs by Zapata Park last Sunday. Karl was there but they did not beat him up, though, they took his money but left his ID. Shit! Damn fucking demons! Some folks need some guerrilla warfare on their ass!
I want to hit the hay by 10 PM. More tomorrow with a fresh mind in a new month!
Friday, August 01, 2008~ @4:40 AM ~ It is dark outside. Cars going by on 12th Street. Just took my shower, feel fresh, a little sleepy, but I do love the quiet mornings. Today is August 1 and we will see what we will see.
As we swing into August, the major astrological focus is eclipses. The month kicks off with a dramatic solar eclipse in Leo on August 1, followed by an equally dramatic lunar eclipse in Aquarius on August 16, 2008.
@11:55 PM ~ Dream: Just had a dream I was somewhere, maybe San Francisco. Met some people. A bearded long haired Latino ~ reminded me of Carlos Santana and aks about his brother. Who is George Santana? First I was in a kind of dark monastery, not bad dark, just low lights, with larger chambers. Kind of a square or octagon center with larger openings like terraces, then, later on. Santana and I were at their modern fiesta happening, lots of Latino/as. Started playing guitar and my ol’ song, Sweet Sweet Samba!
I had gone to sleep earlier, around 8:30 PM, then made sure to keep a writing table and pen by my bed. I took a few notes about my dream, came into the CommandCenter, then saw that my laptop here was on. So I have written these notes. I will go back to rest until 4 AM, then I will be up, type a bit, then prepare for work at Sally’s and do my Workshops designed to help people think, dream and generate Plans of Action!
Saturday, August 02, 2008~ @5:48 AM ~Today I have my morning Workshops at Sally’s. Nothing much new to report, though I am absorbing new information daily and pondering more about the nature of true callings.
I still need to get my stuff from Cousin Mark’s. I suspect he has some resentment about my moving out or even being able to do so. He often underestimates me and is kind of trapped in the A.A. fanaticism realm, failing to comprehend connected reality and how as a part of our progressive recovery we need to go out into the wild world and change the things we can.
Every day I appreciate my blessings and what the Creator of the Cosmos has bestowed upon me.
@10:06 PM ~ It was an interesting day. During this morning’s General Assembly David B. spoke about finance status of clients, but overdid it and seems to have a general negative attitude of clients as being ‘addicts’. Mentioned a few issues to Lynette ~ my Supervisor. ~ realizes she has no control over him since he can out talk her and out think her. His behavior became real egotistical, yet he plays his role in a way that makes me look better in comparison. There is kind of a ‘bad cop, good cop’ game going on.
After work Brother Clay came by to pick me up at Sally’s so I could go pick up a lot of my stuff over the Chacon Casa. On the way, we went up 12th Street and made a left on ‘D’ Street. A squad car stopped by the Light Rail, came out, followed us and pulled us over. I was not wearing my seat belt. I got a ticket. Clay made it through with his paperwork. So I have yet another bill to pay. It was a male-female pair of police officers. I mentioned to her about the crack nest up the street here, the tree branch that blocks vision and I do hope the local police will be keeping a better eye on folks hanging around the area, especially with some demon crack-heads in the vicinity.
I saw some interesting stuff on CNN about Buddhist’s Warriors and quantum folks from the What the Bleep Do We Know? DVD. Synchronicity that Clay and I were talking about quantum stuff earlier, at least I was more than he, but he is really smart and considers himself an engineer. Cool!
I have spent more of this evening unpacking stuff and sorting stuff out we brought over up here, mainly books and some clothes. I am a bit tired but got more stuff for padding in my sleeping area. Mike Wagner from TSA said I might be able to get a new bunk from Sally’s if I run it by our Director Elizabeth Hudson. She is on vacation right now. I plan to take one around this last week of August.
@12:21 PM ~ I just came back from the ‘tiendita’ up the street. Bought a pouch of Buglar Gold and a Liter of Diet Pepsi. I have not even checked my casa phone messages yet. I have not even turned on the radio or the TV all morning in a kind of media celibacy. So much is irrelevant drivel, drama and perverted propaganda.
On my way back up I met my Neighbor Wendell ~ an African-American gentleman who lives across the hall in 518 circa 75 years, next to Mary. I told him about the community newsletter I want to get out tomorrow.
@10:51 PM ~ We had a small CASA group of people in attendance, but it was right after the first of the month when we usually have a few casualties away from the recovery process. Leonard is out from his ‘sabbatical’ and will have six months sobriety tomorrow. It was good to see him. I shared my latest article On the Power of a Spiritual Journal. Plus, I gave out a few notebooks. Tio Toro and Tia Esther were there and they dropped me off here at the Globe.
I just had a heavy late night meal of chorizo, ham and eggs along with tortillias. Not the most healthy meal but great for my taste buds. Sometimes we need to just cut loose and feast on what we want. Tomorrow I need to try to get out our first edition of the Globe Mills Gazette. I will go over it with Sondra.
Monday, August 04, 2008~ @6:34 PM ~ It is another warm day, especially outside and I am truly blessed with all the luxuries that are present in my life. The simple luxuries that so many all-Amerikans take for granted without a passing idle thought about them all. Today has its share of technical challenges with Comcast Internet, then with Comcast Cable. Fortunately I straightened them out.
I was up about 4:30 AM, went to TSA about 6 AM, did my Weekly Report, got a good printout of the GMG (another acronym: Globe Mills Gazette), in fact, I made ten copies. Sondra said she would make some more at Kinko’s. According to Sweet Sarah, most of the folks are on the second floor, around 30+ right now in numbers, then they are kind of scattered out around the building. The folks I have come into contact with are pretty nice. I went by Peaches pad this morning for a bit, took some pictures and checked her out. She is really game. I told her I thought of her as more than just a neighbor and she said ‘take it one day at a time’. Humane nature has a way of secreting its own juices.
Later on in the late afternoon Marie came by, I was going to come down hard on her in criticism, mentioned the role of criticism and self-criticism in relation to social, political and organizational matters, but how one can come to be at a lost if they are victimized by over-criticism. I let some grievances of mine go and will keep to myself. Sometimes little lies accumulate into a dishonest nature, esp. when it is convenient for the little liar. I have forgiven her silently. After all, she did my Redemption DVD about the life and times in prison of Stanley ‘Tookie’ Williams and his actual self-redemption. He was such a tragic lost for all of humankind.
Tuesday, August 05, 2008 @8:25 AM ~ I got up around 6:30 AM, kind of late for me. I am seeing the importance of getting with ‘the flow’ of writing and trying not to be so damn obsessive and perfectionist. I figure we should just get our truth out for own spiritual growth and conscious contact with the Cosmic Creator, for getting to know ourselves better and for sharing with others in order to raise our collective consciousness in general.
I need to work on creating and working with more allies in this war of life, yet have the balance of spending much of my time in sacred solitude. When do we ever become masters? I am trying to tame and master my mind for now! I strive to control my thoughts, yet be sensitive to my feelings, while channeling my doings. A constant creative and intelligent improvising.
@10:01 PM ~ It is getting late here now and I want to wake up at 4 AM. Relatively good day at work, I had my Housing Workshop, a few winners found their way home and afterwards Roberto and Leonard M. were at the NA Meeting and I had a chance to talk to the both of them. Good vibes!
I saw Peaches outside by Charles H. and gave her a good hug and a peck. I really am digging her, though she is fearful. She cut out in a vehicle after with an ex. Charles and I talked a bit. He needs to pay more attention to his health!
Prayers are powerful! A lot of people recognize me off the streets and I get a lot of good respect from folks. I feel safe walking to and fro around here, at least during daylight hours. Then, I look pretty big and crazy anyways!
Wednesday, August 06, 2008 @4:35 AM~I need to keep working on my balance in general, be good at learning from others and open to new ways of looking at old things. I just take a cursory glance at the world and I see much needs to be changed. The main changes need to take place within us as individual beings, getting rid of our obvious character defects and evolving as a species of life. With all the so-called socialist revolutions that have taken place, from China, to Russia, to Cuba and other the so-called socialist bloc, much more needs to be changed in terms of their government institutions.
I have been doing some research on spiritual healing in relation to drug addiction, but there is really not too much astounding via Google, our new Internet source of knowledge in the world! At least what I can easily find online. I will have to go inward and outward in conscious communion with the cosmic consciousness of the Cosmic Creator!
In relation to healing, a lot of people, professionals and medical practitioners, leave out the spiritual component in their healing work. Others get fanatical about religion. As a rule, they ignore or fail to see the social conditions of hunger, poverty and oppression that spawn drug addiction in general. Why do so many seek escape through dope-booze? Because their lives are fucked up or they have no clue as to why life is the way it is in the so-called land of plenty!
@8:24 PM ~ I actually got to work this morning around 8 AM, so I was a half hour late. I clocked out at 4 PM. I kind of lost track of time this morning. I will need to be more time conscious. Met Major O’Reily and another Salvation Army Officer when they came by for a tour. I made sure to give them each a Housing Brochure. I had my Caseworker Meeting, but am still getting low attendance. Clients need to be really self-motivated and advocate for themselves.
After work I went straight into town to Rite-Aid for milk and $20 Cashback from my VISA Card. Then, I went to the K Street Mall store and bought smokes (2 for the price of one on Camel Wides, a pouch of Bugler Gold etc.). I ran into a couple of folks. When I came up here there was a note from Peaches about an apple pie. Anyways, I came in here, watched Democracy Now! And then later after 7 PM I called Peaches, Charles H. answered and I went next door for a bowl of pie and a glass of milk. Peaches loves to bake. We care for each other but I would not want to hurt her feelings. Plus, I am not looking for an exclusive female relationship right now. But she lets me hug her and our kisses on the cheek are getting closer… To who knows what?
Enough said. I still need to work on my upcoming article On the Spiritual Healing of Drug Addiction. I might go to A.A. All-Tribes tomorrow, though I would not make it back until about 9 PM as it is an hour and a half long meeting. We will see how I feel.
Thursday, August 07, 2008~
@5:00 AM ~ Today is August 7th. It will always be remembered by me as the anniversary of the death of Jonathan Peter Jackson ~ during the San RafaelCountyCourthouse Raid. Brother Jonathan, the younger Brother of El General George Lester Jackson was killed in action.
I awoke @4:30 PM and did my morning ritual. My usual prayer, relieved myself, got café going, took a shower, shaved and at the stove I selected my herbal supplements and took them with cold water. Time to write!
@7:33 PM ~ My work at the shelter was what it was, is what it is and will be what it will be. It lifts my heart to know that I can be of help to others, that people are really listening to my simple wisdom and that they are growing in deep spiritual ways. It could just be these times and the personalities who have found themselves in these times.
After work I went over Peaches’ place for a bit, after she invited me over for a piece of pie. Her dog ~ miniature Chihuahua likes me ~ and the ol’ dog Charles H. was there. I wish he had a gal his age to relate to in his life. I came back here and stuff. She invited me out for a date to go to Second Saturday this Saturday after work. She says she always goes. She must know some midtown people. I accepted her date. So I will meet with her here after work this coming Saturday. It should be nice, though we will have to walk down there and back here.
Around 6 PM my Brother Roberto rang the buzzer downstairs. I did not know that was operable for my unit and others. I went down, checked it out and brought him up. I cannot possibly relate all that happens to me in a day. I have many exchanges with people, must keep my wits about me and know that I strive to set an example for others to be inspired by in good ways without any undue arrogance on my part. We should all practice emulation in terms of setting good examples for others.
So many have become fallen comrades. We need to think for a magic moment about Comrade Jonathan Peter Jackson and that fateful day of August 7, 1971 at the San RafaelCountyCourthouse Raid. So much loss could have been avoided by us if we would of seen the big picture and long range forecast. Alas, we learn or we burn!
Friday, August 08, 2008~ @5:30 AM ~ It is Friday again. Seeing those You Tube videos about George Jackson and all kind of rekindled my revolutionary spirit. I need to remember what started this whole process for me, the early drive and idealism of my youth that eventually fell into despair and depression, thus, getting tangled up with drug addiction. Now I feel as if I have come full circle but one a higher level of the spiral of rising consciousness. I know a lot of it all involves cosmic consciousness and finding out more and more where I fit in the larger realms of connected realities in society and the world. I remember that Comrade George stated that the ultimate am of fascism was to destroy all revolutionary consciousness!
Saturday, August 09, 2008~
@5:32 AM ~ I had a few colorful dreams last night yet sleep dreams often fade with the new day. Something about integration, Jose Montoya, Bobby and drinking, a commune meal setting. I think we really need to look at communal living for people who find if hard to work and live unto themselves with all the difficulties of obtaining the finances for living expenses.
Today is 2nd Saturday so there will be a gathering of folks in the midtown area and I am planning to go with Peaches.
@6:16 PM ~ Surprise! Surprise! Surprise! I awoke from a catnap around 6 PM here, there were taps on the door ~ native style ~ and Peaches and Charles were there by my front door. To my surprise, she asked me to go steady with her! I was kind of stunned. She felt kind of hurt when I did not immediately respond, but I pulled her in here, closed the door and told her yes, I think. I know it was in the affirmative. She has been seeing this other guy and having sex, apparently the only once since her husband or something. He was enjoying ‘benefits’. So I figure I will be enjoying her benefits now. I have been single for a while and not really seeing anyone. So I will have to make a break with Marie aka: Fluflu (if my not calling her has not hinted at the same). We will see what we will see. I kind of like the idea of going steady. Time to get ready!
@11:36 PM ~ Well Peaches and I had a great time on Second Saturday, which is a venue where stores open, street bands are playing and people are walking around over along J Street from around 19th up to 26th or so. There were some beautiful young women walking around and some studs. Mark has been telling me for a long time about Second Saturday but this was the first time I really checked it out. It makes a big difference if I have a lady with me at such events or at least a friend to share the experience together with and witness stuff together.
We stopped by and saw a former witch friend of hers name Tasha at this little job with foreign crafts and stuff. I also met her business partner Robert the artist. Before we went in I met this tall African-American Brother called Buddha. Reportedly this Tasha is a closet crankster and kind of accuses Peaches of taking off with some of her objects while she was working in her store, but Tasha seemed to be demented. Peaches kind of took it hard and she needs to not let her own mind drag her down. That was about the only downer of the evening.
The rest of the time we just walked around with her little Chihuahua Sammy in her bag ~ a cute little doggie! I took some pictures and will upload them in the morning.
We walked back to Globe Mills and talked along the way. When we got here we first went on the 2nd Floor to get this guy’s dog out for a walk to relief itself. The dog owner is in the hospital going through medical procedures and it having a hard time. Then, we went up to her place for a few minutes because I wanted to give her a kiss goodbye. She has an airbed and I laid on it for a bit. Then, we kissed some. She is a good kisser and I believe she would be a good lady to have as a love-sex partner. She is really petite and sweet. I do love her and this is a whole new experience for me. Tomorrow we’ll see!
Sunday, August 10, 2008~ @5:40 AM ~ I awoke about 5:30 AM and have a couple of loads ready to wash. I like new mornings because each has a fresh start, we can look at our lives, remember yesterday and look at the new day with new eyes.
I need to look at making pictures today. I washed a couple of loads of clothes, put them away and might go out to SPCA Segunda later today.
@11:00 AM ~ Peaches just came by and we snuggled a bit. She has to do her laundry, I will take a catnap, then we will go to the SPCA Segunda together. I am hoping to find a lamp. A hope is akin to a wish, a prayer and saintly request.
@2:00 PM ~ I just woke up from a nap. Peaches is going to help this guy come back from the hospital with this other tenant who is supplying the ride that apparently she helped to arrange; a good sign of coordinating and organizing talent that could prove handy for us.
I am not jealous but am kind of disappointed, as I did want her to come with me. This reinforces the ideal of not depending on anyone for anything in any circumstance and that the universe is full of many variables. I know I do not want to get entangled in the games related to the whole boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.
I will always remain a liberated man come what may. Life is too precarious otherwise. I think I need yet another woman in my life, call it love insurance. Preferably, one who is free and unattached without baggage, but life knows we all seem to carry some with us. Thus, I will go in a bit to the SPCA Thrift Store.
I answered my CASA Phone, heard voice messages and am glad I have it going. Marie and Bobby called a few times, Brother Mark, Brother Clay and a few others. Called Mark and will move the rest of my stuff there tomorrow morning. I will get together with Clay for a day by the river soon. Sometimes dealing with people can be such a waste of time or simply takes me away from my writing or my non-doing time when I can merely meditate upon the cosmos and all of its complexes!
Paid SMUD Online:
Payment Amount: $74.80
Payment Date: 8/11/2008
@6 PM ~ Peaches made it back from the hospital awhile back. She was tired I know. I gave her a little back massage. I need to work on her feeling comfortable around me and let her know I am not a control freak ~ hell, I don’t have time to waste being one ~ so that gradually she will build up a stronger trust with me. Got a few interesting Emails. Much more to learn, explore and find out about. Just took a shower and now gotta get ready for the CASA 12-Steps Meeting.
@8:35 PM ~ We had our usual good CASA 12-Steps Meeting. I believe the Spirit of the Lord is with us when we meet and it gives it all a kind of grace amongst those who are in attendance. Tonight we basically did a “Check-In” where people say their name, their poison and where they are at in their recovery ~ their recovery status ~ for one does have a certain kind of status being in recovery, unlike the dope fiend who is committing a form of suicide, a form of loathsome self-hatred and a form of stabbing the Holy Spirit!
Tio Toro, Tia Esther attended and brought a young neighbor of theirs who is practicing sobriety named Ricki. After the CASA Meeting I was dropped off in front here, then I checked in with sweet Peaches. We kissed a bit and told her that I want to make love to her… again. I talked about love, how it takes time to grow, to nurture and to cultivate it. She spoke of hard work and dedication. I spoke of a lot of love and I want us two to do a lot of lovemaking. I am so curious as to how tight she is and how we will ‘fit’ together, though I have been with a few big pussies that I was able to really satisfy and satisfy myself in waves of orgasm.She said she was tired from being at the hospital today and all. Tomorrow we will see better what dreams are made of.
Monday, August 11, 2008~ A Special Time! @6:30 AM ~ It is my free day. I need to go over to Mark’s and gather my stuff over there. Plus, contact Barbara about getting my other stuff. I slept well last night.
John-Paul asked me to be his sponsor for one reason or another. I told him I would be his guide. I will guide males or females without sexual discrimination, yet watch myself when it comes to taking liberties with women I work with, especially so as not to trigger them into a relapse.
@11:18 AM ~ I am back at my CommandCenter. Mark and I moved the rest of my stuff here. Stella was so glad to see me. We moved it up here, Peaches helped and she introduced me to the Staff as her boyfriend. Sondra said I was ‘a good catch’, but I do not feel like a fish… though I relate to dolphins. Then, Peaches and I walked to the store on 13th & F Streets ~ the old Sturgie’s store. She got stuff to cook with and I got some ‘pan dulce’ Pigs ~ a childhood memory I was surprised to find there.
Earlier when we were moving I saw Brother Mike Moore with a sister. He wants to move in here too! I hope we get some good powerful people here and maybe we can create a solid base of operations for other revolutionizing community activities!
So I got stuff to unpack, store and place in my little sanctuary apartment now!
@2:00 PM ~ Sorted most of the stuff out and found a few items I had been looking for. These days I make it a point not to collect more objects, to save stuff in case one of these lifetimes I will need it and have found that many people end of burdened with all the stuff they collect over a lifetime. We would be surprised how little we actually need in our life to succeed! Sometimes less is more.
@11:11 PM ~ Well, I am ready for a good nights sleep. Sweet Peaches and I made love together earlier tonight. She showed up at my door in a black nightgown and said, “I just took a shower, take me I’m yours’! Afterwards, we opened up a glass of apple cider champagne, smoked those obligatory cigarettes and gently conversed. She is so sweet, petite and sensuous. She is a good fit for me! So much more to come!!! Hallelujah!!!
Tuesday, August 12, 2008 @6:23 AM ~ A quiet morning, here alone and having Georgia ‘Peach’ in my life certainly adds a new exciting flavor to it. I will try my best to make this work and see what dreams are made of for us.
@10:56 PM ~ Peach made me a great breakfast. She is a natural.
Came up from work, Peach showed up and we just spent quiet time together. It is really pleasant to be with her and she can be so so beautiful. In relationships, people need to spend more time just being with each other without having to have one kind of entertainment or another.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008~ @6:16 AM ~ I woke up around 6 AM so I go at least a good 6+ hours of sleep. I feel good and rested. Said my morning prayer, took a shower, made coffee, just had my first cigarette for the day and here I am. I think about Peach a lot and I imagine that is natural.
@10:34 PM ~ My love and I are in our Sanctuary right now. We kind of spend the evening just relating to each other and sharing stuff. I saw her resume and she has a lot of years in the retail sales business. She is very intelligent and I am very honored that she has let me be so close to her so far. I realize she is real tender and still somewhat afraid of getting too close emotionally to me but she is learning to relax more about me. Maybe she is kind of suffering a kind of PTSD.
Tomorrow I get off at 3:30 PM. I will come here, re-group and then we will come together here ~ if all works well. No matter. She is my neighbor and she is well liked by a few people here in the building. I do not want to be of a control freak with her and will try not to be jealous in any petty way. I already told her that I just do not want her to make a fool of me and I know that she has the same concerns. New love takes time to grow, to nurture and to understand.
@11:09 PM ~ Peach just left here for home. She was getting sleepy and I want her to feel safe around me. I sense she has gone through some heavy trauma and is in kind of a soul-searching stage in her life. She needs me and I love to feel needed. I need her in my own way, despite my claims of being an independent liberated man of the New Millennium. I just like her lots and she is so petite and precious to me.
Thursday, August 14, 2008~ @4:36 AM ~ I work up around 4 AM and felt pretty rested so I got up. Much work to be done, but I see more value of taking time to just be, to just relax, to just love… and I appreciate having Peach in my life for that. She is such a gentle soul.
@10:50 PM ~ Just a few words. Peach and I had a very good relaxing evening and I am falling more and more in love with her each day. As I fall more in love with her I am actually rising in love for her. She is such a sweet creature. Any man would be a fool to take her for granted and we both treasure our love. We saw What Dreams May Come with Robin Williams and his lovely movie-wife Annabella Sciorra via NETFLIX. Her and I actually talk a lot about our lives, ideas and other matters. Maybe tomorrow we will go out to Office Depot after work.
Saturday, August 16, 2008~ @5:45 AM ~ I thought I had made a journal entry for yesterday, Friday, but apparently not. Sometimes Laptops are strange anyways. I had a talk with my Supervisor Lynette yesterday and she wants to be kept in the loop about stuff on our side of the street.
After work, I came home, Peach told me her ex-boyfriend Russell was going to go over her place to give her Prozac, but he canceled out. So her and I watched What the Bleep Do We Know? And she enjoyed and appreciated it a lot. I was pleased. We did our usual cuddling, but were not intimate in a sexual sense, though we do share our ideas, memories and thoughts. She is a good listener and thinks I am a great man, but I am still just a man. She made an apple pie that did not turn out the best, but she initiated my over and baked it some more. It was good, though the crust was too thick. I love the idea that she actually baked it for me. I already miss her when she is not around. So I will do and write a few things, go to work, do my workshops, then when I come back we will do something... She is a petite doll.
Sunday, August 17, 2008~ @5:27 AM ~ Peach and I made the sweetest love last night. She can be such a cute little thing. I am not sure what kind of sexual experiences she has had but she is pretty giving to me. We took our first shower together, then talked some more and then made good deep love. There is much to be explored with her.
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@11:59 AM ~ Brother Bobby just came by. We are going to the store. Peach is home doing her chores.
@2:13 PM ~ Roberto just left. We had a good visit and discussed a lot of matters. He is doing good and it is a responsibility being a key person in his recovery. He had drank earlier, but at least he is not getting drunk.
Monday, August 18, 2008~ @6:10 AM ~ Peach came with me to the CASA-12 Steps Meeting last night. She fit in and it was good. She sat by me at my usual table and it went well. I introduced her to a few people as my ‘girlfriend’. We discussed an article I printed up and passed out to those present called What Early A.A. Was Really Like: by Dick Burns. It all went well and there was a certain peacefulness there… or was it peachfulness?
After the CASA Meeting we returned home here. We met Charles H. on the 2nd Floor Patio and he was around for awhile over at Peaches and he needs to learn that sometimes he can be intrusive and does not get certain ‘social cues’ as Peach said it. She had made some delicious beans and is a great cook.
Sometimes when I am around certain people it reminds too much like work. That is part of why I like being a writer because I do not have to be around people who can be such a waste of time and energy. I would rather spend it in creative pursuits or making love, which has its own
creativity.
@9:32 AM ~ Maybe I was a little selfish, but I woke Peach up, made love to her and now she is getting ready for the day. She did not mind my making love to her, then telling her, “OK, went I’m done with you for now!” I am sure she knows that I do love her immensely with great devotion.
@7:04 PM ~ Peach and I had a beautiful day together. We went to Old Sac, SouthsidePark and a few other spots around downtown in Sacramento. Our love grows daily and nightly.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008~
@8:41 AM ~ Time flies when you’re having fun. I awoke with Sweet Peach by my side around 6:30 AM. Took a shower, made some coffee for us. Right now she is washing the dishes. She is such a lovely lady. We have interesting conversations and we have a date for love making this evening. We will see what we will see.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008~
@6:08 AM ~ Peach and I were here in the Sanctuary for the evening. Watched the Tookie movie Redemption and had other discussions. Later when it was late she went to her hideout and I slept from before midnight to five this morning. We will do something later after work.
@6:21 PM ~ Just woke up from a cartnap from around 4:30 PM to about 6 PM and feel refreshed. Peach and I are going to Safeway’s.
George Lakoff, a renowned author and UC Berkeley linguistics professor who has studied how the human brain absorbs and processes messages.
Thursday, August 21, 2008~
@5:37 AM~ My Sweet Georgia Peach and started out going to Safeway, but we never made it. Maybe today. We went down to the K Street Mall, bought some smokes, soda and hot friend, then we went and sat on the corner of Capitol Park on the last by 10th and L Streets. We observed, talked and one of my comrades-in-recovery David John came by and sat with us for a spell. We had a great conversation! Later, Peach and I walked back towards home, went by the little garden plot by here, came up and got Sammy ~’our’ dog~ took him out for his relief and then we came up here to the Lopez Sanctuary.We finally got together and made some sweet love…..
This morning, she came over around 5 PM and brought a pot of coffee. She is such a grand lady and if I were to get married again I would marry her and cement our relationship, but I would not want to jinx it. I am happy with her and would not want to betray her trust in me.
@9:27 PM ~ Peace and I just came back from Safeway. I am so much falling more in love with her with each day. She has never had a church wedding. I told her and meant it when I stated that I would seriously consider marrying her, though it is early in our relationship.
Friday, August 22, 2008~ @7:06 AM ~Woke up around 5 AM and worked on my upcoming article for CASA. Time to get ready for work at Sally’s.
@6:17 PM ~ I got my paltry check from Sally’s, cashed it and I have my September Rent money in the bank. Sweet Peaches came over and ‘our’ cute little Chihuahua named Sammy. We made some sweet love. Her and I are a perfect fit. She is so cute and petite and I am big and large. We made me tacos and we spent the night together. She is a great cook. Plus, she checked out my astro chart and it too says we are a great pair.
Saturday, August 23, 2008~ My morning workshops went well, but I have to put more into them. Design a better curriculum, though we have people there as residents for only a short time compared to all the time we really need to work with them and their humane development.
Sunday, August 24, 2008~ @12:05 PM ~Last night I spent my first night over Peach’s place and we made sweet love, she ‘came down’ on me, so she is shedding her inhibitions more. Plus, I came in her good. Then this morning I came in her again. She it is hard to imagine that she was married 25 years! Apparently he ex ignored her a lot… We can be nice and nasty when we are together. This morning we saw Creating Your Day by Ramtha and she enjoyed it.
I have a couple of load of clothes on 4th so I better go get them now. Peach is going to get a pretty African banner for my living room.
@5:52 PM ~ Peach made us a good little meal of chicken, salad, rice and tortillas. We took a
short nap and are getting ready for the CASA Meeting now.
@11:00 PM ~ Peach and I went to the CASA Meeting and it was a good meeting. I can see that the people like and accept her. She fits in and does well. I just love her.
@7:28 AM~The CASA Meeting went well yesterday evening. My somewhat lengthy and involved article went well, though I had to interject sometimes to further elaborate. I want to make the article tighter without losing the essence of the meanings in it.
@10:11 AM ~ I took Sammy for a walk to the store earlier. Gave Peach a good massage to help get negative static electricity off her and she is so cooperative. I could not ask for or get a better woman for me. She is my cosmic companion.
@9:24 PM~ We just got back from going out to K Street Mall, caught the Light Rail to 65th Street Light Rail Station, went to Office Depot, took the Light Rail back and walked here from downtown to Globe Mills. We enjoy walking and talking and holding hands. I love her so… Time to watch Training Day!
Tuesday, August 26, 2008~ @7:57 AM ~ I spend the night over Peach’s and slept pretty well. Now I am at my Sanctuary. This is our Third Week of being together and I am starting to feel more of a real balance in our relationship and more secure within in. At the same time, I need to re-focus on my writing, on writing more publication and getting more involved in the media in general. It will always be nice, beautiful and great being with her and she makes me extremely happy. Still, there is so much more that I want to write about, that I want to do and that I need to do in order to make life better for the both of us.
@9:55 AM ~ It came natural. Peach will be my personal assistant and help me with my writing for publication pursuits.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008~
@5:40 AM ~ I spent the night over Peach’s, we talked, we shared and had some Neapolitan ice cream together. Peach is the love of my life, the one that I love and want to spend my remaining days with as long as the love is true.
Got a call from Marie and I need to close that case for her sake. We got together sometime in the fall of 2007. She is now part of the past and it was never a great love to me. Now I have a great love with Peach.
@6:17 AM ~ I am working on setting up a routine for regular work, home work and working with Peach. I love work and there are infinite possibilities and manifestations of work. We should work hard to get what we want out of life. Time for a shower!
@6:55 AM ~ I must remain conscious of the passage of time.
@8:47 PM ~ Peach and others had a little birthday for James here at Globe Mills who turned 59 years. I was not into it and just stayed in my Sanctuary with Sammy ~ our dog, mainly hers as I do not require the attachment. She is such a sweet classy lady that more each day I realize how blessed I am to even be with her. Thank you Lord for bringing her into my life and opening up new doorways of consciousness.
Thursday, August 28, 2008~
@5:17 AM~I am a bit sleepy, but I will make it through the day. Spent the night over Peach’s. She is lovely to love and sleep with. Plus, her bed is more comfortable. It is not just a sexual thing. We really are laying a solid foundation for a love that could last years, if not throughout our lifetime. We first had a date on Second Saturday on August 9th, then made physical love on August 11th. So we are into a third week since we have been intimate in the physical sense. She is just so much in harmony with me, though we have extremely different backgrounds.
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$520.95 is your Available balance as of 08/28/2008
Peach put $40.00 in my checking account. Plus, make copies of our keys so we both have keys to both our apartments.
Friday, August 29, 2008~ @5:35 AM ~ My bedroom now is kind of like our bedroom over Peach’s place, which is fine with me. It is where we sleep and where we make love. We kind of live together, each to our own space and it works out well for us.
Obama gave a great speech last night!
Saturday, August 30, 2008~
@6:15 AM ~ It is a brand new day. The Sabbath. Work went well yesterday, the usual chaos, drama and trauma for an Emergency Shelter with people who were never caught by any other social safety nets. We had a good Case Management Meeting and I explained how often my clients ~ or clients that I am assigned to ~ are consulted by staff in ways that affect their client status without being in on the information loop, which can cause trouble in communications afterwards. We should not be having any side-deals that leave them homeless. There were a couple of fights between clients that were ironed out. One should be well trained and well versed in conflict resolution. Another day in paradise!
After I got home to Globe Mills I found out that a former client of mine at Sally’s has moved into 503 here. I told Peach that I do not want to come home to see former clients at her place trying to hustle what they can, especially if they are known former ‘crack’ heads that may still be using ‘crack’. If any come to my place I will let them know straight out that I do not want any uninvited company, especially if I know that they can still be fucking with dope. I do not need anyone to plant anything in here, then turn around and call the cops on me. Stranger things have happened. Then she got a call from a recent man she was getting involved in that made me jealous the way she handled it. I told her that if she was still gaming then we should call this whole affair off, but then I was emotional at the time. I apologized to her later and she accepted my apology, though I was mainly apologizing for getting her upset. She can be cool as a cucumber but I could see her defensive wheels turning. Then I have not called Marie yet to tell her of my home situation and I will do that for sure today or not.
Love is pure, love is fragile and it is sometimes hard to handle.
"Simple Twist of Fate" by Bob Dylan
They sat together in the park
As the evening sky grew dark,
She looked at him and he felt a spark tingle to his bones.
twas then he felt alone and wished that hed gone straight
And watched out for a simple twist of fate.
They walked along by the old canal
A little confused, I remember well
And stopped into a strange hotel with a neon burnin bright.
He felt the heat of the night hit him like a freight train
Moving with a simple twist of fate.
A saxophone someplace far off played
As she was walkin by the arcade.
As the light bust through a beat-up shade where he was wakin up,
She dropped a coin into the cup of a blind man at the gate
And forgot about a simple twist of fate.
He woke up, the room was bare
He didnt see her anywhere.
He told himself he didnt care, pushed the window open wide,
Felt an emptiness inside to which he just could not relate
Brought on by a simple twist of fate.
He hears the ticking of the clocks
And walks along with a parrot that talks,
Hunts her down by the waterfront docks where the sailers all come in.
Maybe shell pick him out again, how long must he wait
Once more for a simple twist of fate.
People tell me its a sin
To know and feel too much within.
I still believe she was my twin, but I lost the ring.
Sunday, August 31, 2008~ @7:50 AM ~ Peach and I are doing fine. We had the pleasure of having dinner ~ ribs, corncob, potato salad Peach made and salad ~ over Sister Mary’s on the 3rd Floor. James was there, quiet as usual, but nice enough. Afterwards, Peach and I watched the Gandhi DVD, which she appreciated. Then, we went over to her place, made sweet love and slept well. She has such a sweet petite slim body that it is a pleasure and great turn on loving her. After our love making session we talked for a long while about stuff as we usually do, the rareness of a great love.
Now I am in the CommandCenter with Sammy here. She is going to make breakfast later, I told her just to rest up. Today is a CASA Meeting @ 7 PM.
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@9:56 AM ~ Peach is up, lovely as ever. She just went to go make breakfast for us.
Sunday Morning in Late August ~
Awakening to a brand new day
Carrying on in our own way.
Wondering what we did so right
That made this fragile love so tight.
Was it many lonely nights wondering where you were?
@1:12 PM ~ It is time for our catnap together.
@8:52 PM ~ We had a great CASA Meeting and discussed PAWS. Peach signed the TSA Meeting Cards. A dozen or so people were in attendance. This is the Labor Day weekend or we probably would have had more. It is the quality, not just the quantity.
@10:30 PM ~ Peach is watching the DVD of Seven Spiritual Laws of Success by Deepak. She made us a good little dinner… She is so precious and I am so proud to have her in my life. It has been a good month…
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Monday, September 1, 2008 ~
@10:10 AM ~ It is a brand new month. I hope to become more stabilized here at Globe Mills, more articles written for my book and more tighter with my love Georgia Peach. I will require different management systems:
1. Time Management
2. Stress Management
3. Financial Management
I definitely need to look into a higher paying job once I get two years at Sally's under my belt.
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@7:20 PM ~ Earlier today Brother John-Paul, Peach and I went over to her old place to get her stuff over there. She has a lot of her pictures and stuff. Plus, she actually has a table and chairs. We had a simple meal of hot dogs and macaroni and cheese with water. It was simple, yet had a touch of elegance to it. There has been a big fire out to the northeast.
I have this coming Wednesday off from Sally's. Her and I are going to the Recovery Happens event at the State Capitol.
Tuesday, September 02, 2008 ~
@7:56 AM ~ I guess my new home is over at Peach's place. Let her have the home. I got my Sanctuary here, where I can study and write in the CommandCenter as I forge a future for the both of us. She is a dream come true. Right now Sammy our dog and I are here. I already gave her a morning cup of coffee. She smiled sleepily when I brought it into our bedroom. I need to pay rent today.
@9:34 AM ~ Peach came in here a few times, distracted me and got me off track and I had had enough! She was wearing a lovely long white dress. I decided to place her on the blankets, made love to her and got a great orgasm. Ummm… is was sweet morning dessert. Then, she made us a little breakfast of eggs and bagels. She is a delight and my good luck charm.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008 ~
@6:24 AM ~ Fairy tales after fairy tales and rarely come true. I spent the night over in my Sanctuary. Peach made a great enchilada dinner, we had a deep conversation about stuff, I did edits of two of my articles, then we talked further in her bed about my crank days. She made a few comments I found off the wall. I felt kind of uncomfortable so I came back here and slept well. Today is a new day!
@8:20 AM ~ Brought Peach some coffee. Made love to her. Now I am back here. It is so cute and convenient having her right next door!
Quote from Peach: "Women are like crows, they fly towards anything that sparkles!"
@9:16 PM ~ Just had dinner at home over Peach's. Earlier today we went by the BofA, did some business and then checked out Recovery Happens at the State Capitol. It was a good annual event. Saw a few folks I know. Came back here and watched a bit of the Republican Convention, with new McCain VP Nominee Palin. Then we had a small taco dinner over at Peach's. I got to show her how I made tacos, though it was an appetizing meal. Our having a regular dinner at a regular table is so normal that I realized I had not really done such things for a long time with my at times crazy life, at least in relation to ordinary normal daily activities.
We really cherish each other. Tomorrow I go in early.
@10:34 PM ~ Just blogged my article on the Spiritual Healing of Drug Addiction.
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Thursday, September 04, 2008 ~
@5:55 AM ~ Another work day. I went to sleep over Peach's about 11:30 PM and slept well. She is such a beautiful oy to wake up to and I told her a little poem when I woke up. Just need to focus more on my writing. Blessings!
Saturday, September 06, 2008 ~
To: peter.lopez51@yahoo.com
Sent: Saturday, September 6, 20086:15:08 AM
Subject: Jupiter and Pluto Turn Direct -- Full Speed Ahead!
Dear Peta,
Jupiter, the planet of expansion and generosity, has been retrograde since May 9, slowing or even stalling progress, is turning direct on September 7. With energetic Mars squaring Jupiter on this same day, you will not only move forward, you will feel like a horse let out of the starting gate at a race! Pluto, which has been retrograde since April, turns direct one day later on September 8, which brings added intensity to everything.
With both Jupiter and Pluto going direct within days of one another, it seems that evolution is again on the march for the entire world. A lot of change is coming! This is what we've all been waiting for since spring, so take stock of lessons and rewards, and get ready to practice the self-transcendence that Jupiter challenges us to perform.
Enlist the energies of your progressed chart to understand where to focus your energies for maximum return. The continual movement of the planets through your life affects the events that shape your future. A progressed chart locates the signs, the aspects and the house positions for each of the planets for any given year and tells you how long they will remain in those positions. These changes show you when to act on the potential revealed by your natal chart and when to embrace growth in your life. Awareness of your progressed chart helps you to make informed decisions about every aspect of your life…..
Sincerely,
The Astrology.com Team
http://www.astrology.com
@6:09 ~ At TSA, Benning was off, had Case Management Meeting and got paid. Jackie Campos is out and came into Sally's.
Afterwards, Peach and I got the Light Rail, went downtown, cashed my check and bought a few things. We then came back here, did some things, I wrote a bit then we slept over her place. We are getting along good and that is a big part of us growing in our love. Time to write elsewhere…
@11:52 PM ~ I had a good day. Came home to Peach, she made a chocolate cake and we had some Neapolitan ice cream. Ummm… more tomorrow. I am now on a week's vacation.
Sunday, September 07, 2008 ~
Sunday, September 7 ~ Daily Cosmic Calendar
Hang in there during a rather tumultuous day. Keep in mind that Sagittarius Moon remains the emotional backdrop to this unusual Sunday and Sagittarius Moon may continue to offer you solace and contentment despite the awesome challenges occurring in the astrological universe.
The First Quarter Sun-Moon Phase (energizing 16 degrees of Virgo and Sagittarius at 7:05AM PDT) reminds you to cut through obstacles in your path and manage your life with greater finesse. More is at stake during this solar-lunar clash than normally since the Moon is also united with Juno (9:17AM PDT) -- the key asteroid associated with empowerment or disempowerment in relationships, love bonds and marriage ties. The Sun-Moon battle would not be so crucial except that it happens on the same day that Mars in Libra squares Jupiter in Capricorn (2:07PM PDT) while Mercury -- also in Libra -- squares Jupiter (10:10PM PDT). These are not only challenging and potentially nerve-racking alignments, but they imply that Mercury and Mars are about to unite as well. This Mercury-Mars merger on Monday morning -- the fist of three (the others showing up on September 23 and November 28) -- is itself rather volatile on communication and transportation levels.
Nevertheless, today's Mars-Jupiter and Mercury-Jupiter face-offs can make many plans and activities go awry or add on a lot of unnecessary worry around the clock. The biggest news of the day concerns the largest planet Jupiter making a station and turning from retrograde to direct at 13 degrees of Capricorn (9:17PM PDT). [Jupiter remains direct until June 15, 2009 when it will next go retrograde at 27 degrees of Aquarius.] All Jupiter themes -- religion and philosophy, higher education and long-distance journeys, expansion of consciousness, publishing and teaching, Big Business, the power of positive thinking, good fortune and success, love-wisdom vibrations, the multi-media, social-cultural activities, athletics and large-scale adventures, speculation and gambling, over-optimism, arrogance and pride -- are emphasized now and over the next couple of days.
@7:19 AM ~ We went to sleep after 1 PM. I just took Sammy out for his morning relief. Peach is laying down asleep. She is precious.
@8:09 AM ~ I just woke up Peach, gave her coffee with a littl' chocolate and read her my poem for her. She just said, "It's beautiful." Then I came back over here. I will just let her be her as she does it so well.
@9:56 AM ~ We made sweet love, took a shower together and now we are going to have a breakfast of cereal.
"I couldn't help it!" seems to be the most popular theme song of our day. It echoes the pronouncements of many of our social scientists that no one can help anything. Apart from the fact that this belief is false, it generates social consequences of incalculable harm. The abandonment of personal accountability makes self-esteem, as well as decent and benevolent social relationships, impossible. In its worst manifestation, it becomes a license to kill. If you want a world that works, you need a culture of accountability.
10:50 AM ~ I called my Dad and hope for him and possibly his gal Chris to come over this Wednesday.
Without an escort you are bewildered (even) on a road you have traveled many times (before). Do not, then, travel alone on a Way that you have not seen at all, do not turn your head away from the Guide."
@12:43 PM ~ Time for a catnap. Paid SMUD $130.00 ? and Comcast $100.
@8:37 PM ~ We have just returned from the CASA Meeting and it went well. I had copies of my article for just about all present so they were able to read along as I read it aloud. Toro was there and others. It was an eight-page read and I was glad the people listened to it and proud of their attention span. It is such a blessing to have Peach come with me because she gives us all a touch of class.
@11:28 PM ~ Peach made a great dinner ~ some Italian rigatoni with chorizo in the sauce and cheese. Umm… She worked hard today on her stuff at her place and she donated some of her shoes to the women there in F-Dorm. She is sleepy now. Just these lines before I hit the hay with her.
Thank you Lord for sending such a beautiful lovely lady in my life that I am so proud to be with. Tomorrow is a brand new day! Nada mas ahora…
Monday, September 08, 2008 ~
Another beautiful day here in the Casa Sanctuary. Much remains to be done, but it is also important to be able to be at peace in our being before we go out and stir up trouble in the streets.
@5:11 PM ~ I had to renew my VISA Card because there were a few improprieties. I will get a new one in a week or so.
@9:12 PM ~ Peach and I went over Barb's earlier this morning. Went through sme of my stuff there and found my astrological chart. We had a quiet day here after we got back. Then later we went to Safeway and she got groceries. Brother Julius was getting off from work and he was so kind to give us a ride back here. I hope to have him over for dinner soon. My father is suppose to come over for dinner this Wednesday and then we are suppose to have dinner with her daughter Robin, son-in-law Cesar and her little granddaughter Annabella. I work that day so I will just come home, get ready and make it through it all.
We kind of casually talked about marriage a lot today, at least for me a lot. Peach has some abandonment issues and I have a few of my own, but it is time for me to settle down, focus on my writing and spend my days here on out with as much love, peace and happiness as I can. I have had a hard life in many ways.
@10:30 PM ~ We just have dinner back home. We had a lovely simple meal of hot dogs with mustard on wheat bread and macaroni and cheese. Peach likes it that I am so easy to please and not demanding. I would hate to be a Borg of a husband.
So Sammy and I are here now. I will do a few things than head over to her place ~ our place ~ for a good night's rest. I am full and full of love for her. I let her read over my shoulder earlier from my August and this September Journal.
@11:36 PM ~ My next article will be an update On the Demon of Denial: by Peter S. Lopez ~ Nada mas ahora!
Tuesday, September 09, 2008 ~
@7:28 AM ~ I am at my CommandCenter, with my café cup and smoke. I dig just penetrating Peach, not necessarily having an orgasm, but should stroking her deep. Awoke this morning, did a rear entry which she seemed to enjoy. We have a very sexual and sensuous relationship: Pete the Pirate and the Georgia Peach!
@9:45AM ~ Sondra wants me to be a greeter for developers at the Globe Mills Lofts this Thursday afternoon for four hours.
@11:43 AM ~ I just took my first bath with Peach. I do not even remember the last time I took a bath with lass.
@12:43 PM ~ We are about ready to depart for Davis to go check out City Hall and the University Campus.
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From my Spiritual Journal of September 2008
@7:14 PM ~ Peach and I have just returned from the UC Davis Campus, west of Sacramento where we had a sweet picnic that Peach had specially prepared. It has been a lovely cool day.
Proposal-Tree
We ate, discreetly smoked tobacco and laid down on our little brown blanket. We were by a young oak tree, laying down for a bit, then I sat up by her and asked her, "Will you marry me?"
She said, "Yes, I will." Then we kissed to seal the deal. It was between 4 and 4:30 PM.
For us, I believe it was a great relief for we had been talking about the ‘M' word and I wanted to do what I felt was right and good for the both of us. I love her, she loves me and we are great company for each other. I did not have an engagement ring to give her, but I did not want to wait any longer. The ring is in our hearts and knowing that we truly love each other, have learned a lot about each other this last month and love being together in pure love. It is a rare love blessed by God's amazing grace!
I feel that we have qualitatively changed the nature of our relationship for the better, have made it more serious and we have pledged a commitment to each other to get married sometime next year.
I definitely need to get a better paying job, think more responsibly and do more to become more financially stable and secure for the both of us. Alas, money is the bottom line and is a defense to help us weather the storms of life. Plus, we both need to continue to work on our spiritual healing and our general wholistic health. Indeed, I have long known that good health is the greatest wealth!
I know I will do well having her as my wife through thick and thin. In the end I know we will win in this war of life and in a way we have already won. Lord I truly love this beautiful creature of the Creator!
Peach by the Picnic Lunchbag at UCD Campus
Her name is Georgia 'Peach' Graham. Before long her name will be Georgia Graham Lopez or Mrs. Peter S. Lopez, but she will always be my succulent 'Peach'.
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We were around the campus for a bit longer then we made it back into Sac via Yolo-Transit. Then, we went by the Main Library and she will see about getting her library card tomorrow.
She just went to go walk the two dogs. Sammy stood in the Sanctuary while we were out.
@11:51 ~ Well it has been an eventful day for the both of us. I took Sammy out for his pee-pee walk earlier. Now it is time for sleep with my soft sweetheart!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008~
@7:49 AM ~ Went to sleep a bit after midnight. Woke up around 4:30 AM. I had a good solid sleep and thought I would get up and do some writing.
It is another day in the Sanctuary, high away from the maddening crowd and those who are aimlessly loud. People need to have self-motivation and a good dose of real ambition to get ahead in life, instead of waiting around for free handouts.
@12:01 PM ~ Dad called. So he should be over around 4 PM.
@2:42 PM ~ Peach and I finally went to the SPCA Segunda. She got a beautiful skirt and she is going to look really sexy and beautiful today! She has cooked a great chicken dinner for us. She just really makes me look good because she herself is so great!
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Lopez Dinner of September 10, 2008 ~@8:36 PM ~
My Padre, Pete M. Lopez, Sr., his Lady Chris, my wife-to-be Peach and I had a very lovely dinner together that Peach made over in Peachville!
Peach and I now share two apartments right next to each other here at Globe Mills Senior Housing Project.
Peace called what she made for dinner Italian Chicken with rice, but I like calling it Peach Chicken! We all enjoyed it and ate well. Anything she makes for me seems to be made with love so that it gives all she makes the flavor of her love. She is a very loving lady.
Chris was very nice, intelligent and is an activist in her own way. Both Peach and I appreciated both my Padre and her coming over for dinner and for visiting with us. I casually announced my decision to my Peach and I getting married sometime next year. I could tell they were happy for the both of us.
After dinner my Padre and I went next door to the Sanctuary and we were able to talk about stuff in general in private with just the two of us. We talked about our health and other matters.
Actually there have been few times over the years we have been able to talk about stuff in sobriety. I realize more than ever how I have inherited some of his ways and mannerisms. He is a genuine nice humble man who has done well in his life and with his life.
I took some pictures with my Kodak digital camera. Here is a link to them in the form of a Picasa Web Album. Click here!
@9:14 PM ~ Well it has been another eventful day and I am kind of drained for now in a good way. Tomorrow is another day off for me from work at Sally's. I want to do what I can do search for a new job. I have had my fill of being stifled there by the narrow-minded cowardly management in the person of one Director Elizabeth Hudson. Plus, I need to make more and I do not even get unemployment benefits if I were to be laid off from there!
Thursday, September 11, 2008~
@6:46 AM ~ We got up around 6:30 AM and it is such a delight to awaken with such a beauty. Alas, nothing before its time in God's timing. We are going to go to Sutter Emergency this morning to see about Peace possibly getting a few stitches below her chin. She slipped and fell on a electric cord when she had her vacuum cleaner out. Now she is going to go take Sammy out.
3:42 PM ~ Getting ready for this Globe Mills Event. Peach and I, along with others, will be greeters.
Friday, September 12, 2008~
@5:25 AM ~ Peach and I have another good day yesterday. She had a special tape put on her chin cut, we walked around midtown a lot and made it back here to the Globe Mills. Then, he and I with others were greeters at the Globe Mills Opening Presentation for the Lofts next door. There were a few hundred people there from the AIA organization for architects, plus, many others. We were at the front door handing out a Globe Mills leaflet to incoming people, walked way up, had a good meal and we even earned $40 each for helping out for something I suspect that we both would of done for free!
This is my last day of my little 4-day vacation, I work tomorrow, then two more days off and free from Sally's, other than my CASA Meeting on Sunday at 7 PM.
I have decided to look for a better job for me and I am wide open.
@1:10 PM ~ Peach and I are leaving for the Main Library downtown.
@9:40 PM ~ Earlier this evening Peach and I saw most of the DVD about Healing the Luminous Body presented by Alberto Villoldo, PhD.
Next I ordered via Comcast pay-per-view a good movie called Charlie Wilson's War with Tom Hanks and Julia Roberta. It was pretty informative, entertaining and based upon a true story. There is so much to be learned by the both of us. I find Peach to be an extremely intelligent woman.
We had a good week together and spent almost all of our time together, other than a few times. By far, the biggest accomplishment this week was that I gave her and she accepted a marriage proposal by me on Tuesday, September 9, 2007. That was a big event for the both of us and we are both completely committed to each other.
On Wednesday, September 10, 2008, my Padre and his Lady Chris came by for dinner. I told them about Peach and I planning to be married.
Another big event this week was on 9-11-08. There was the presentation for the Globe Mills project in the next building for the AIA, the main developers and others who helped create this whole project here at Globe Mills.
Another big decision I made this week was the decision to soon leave my position at Sally's and get another good decent job elsewhere for another company. I will obey the Lord's guidance in relation to my seeking new employment elsewhere. So I do not really know where it will be, yet I have an undying faith in the Creator and the powers of creative energy forces for my own betterment and the betterment of others.
Tomorrow in the early evening, we are to have her Daughter Robin, Son-in-law Cesar and Grand-daughter Annabella over for us all to meet, especially as they know about our getting married sometime next year. Plus, her sister may be coming by too. That will be tomorrow in the early evening.
It is almost 10 PM here now. I need to get my clothes going for work back at Sally's tomorrow. I will be having my workshops in the morning, then should have a pretty easy day afterwards. Then, I have two more days off or free from Sally's.
Thank you Great Creator for all your big blessings and little blessings. Please continue to keep Peach and I on the sober, straight and narrow roadway of righteousness being honored by God's amazing grace!
Saturday, September 13, 2008~
@6:04 AM ~ I awoke by my love on this quiet Sabbath morning. I clock in at 7:30 AM and have morning workshops: the General Assembly, Life Skills and then the Housing Workshop. Basically, I need to position myself so that I can be of better service to others and offer them real help. That has always been my grief about doing the work that I do, that is, I am not able to offer real housing for people, but I can help guide them into positive directions for obtaining housing, meeting their needs and now I want to focus more on spiritual healing and be a real healer!
@6:24 PM ~ We are awaiting Peach's family to come up. I hope it is a nice simple dinner. We will see what we will see. She had a couple of drinks earlier today with a neighbor Mary and, even worse, lied about it to me, though she confessed to me later after my nap when I went over. Not a good sign. I do not need another client on my caseload nor can I be a co-dependent for a closet drinker. I believe that the harm here was the dishonesty, but life goes on! I am sure the dinner will be a great delicious one. I will go check now.
Sunday, September 14, 2008~
@10:22 AM ~ We had a great dinner and family gathering yesterday evening for Peach, her Daughter Robin, Son-in-Law Cesar and their daughter Sophia Annabella ~ Peach's only granddaughter to date.
It was a lovely dinner, Peach announced to them my asking her to marry me, it stunned them at first, then it went over well.
@3:02 PM ~ Peach is not feeling well today. I suspect a lot of it is ‘in the head' as this will be her first day, so far at this time, of not taking any kind of ‘meds' at all. She was getting Prozac from her evil ex-Russell. So now we will see in a more clear light what her true spirit is really like without ‘meds'. I pray she does well. She has been in pain from her fall when she cut her chin and it seems to have jarred her neck area too. I went to Rite-Aid earlier and got her some Ibuprofen. Nonetheless, I will continue in my esoteric spiritual healing work!
@9:00 PM ~ We had a good CASA Meeting this evening that was well attended.
We discussed On the Demon of Denial In Addiction Link:
I will continue to work on more and more articles for my book, without sacrificing content and quality for the sake of getting my book done. I need to diversify more in my writings. I want to get another computer.
@10:22 PM ~ Peach is doing well now. She has been watching TV and the News over here in the Sanctuary. Time for bed for us for now.
Monday, September 15, 2008~
@8:01 AM ~ We slept good last night, after our usual late night conversations, especially about Chiron. She is feeling better every day. Now it is a new day and something tells me we should go out to McKinleyPark, maybe feed the ducks!
As you can imagine my personal life is pretty packed, esp. with my Lovely Peach living right next door. We are almost always together, though she gives me space and time to write. As always, it is maintaining a moving balance and not neglecting living breathing people in our own space. Variety is the spice of life. I am happier than I have been for long years.
@6:40 AM ~ Yesterday Peach and I went for a short field trip to McKinleyPark and has a splendid time. I took some pictures with my camera and we really enjoyed the simple peacefulness of it all. Later she made a great dinner from leftovers. We are becoming more in balance with each other, our ways and our interests. She is really quite the astrologer, the only one I have ever known and is interested in studying more. I found her and my natal charts. She is asleep now.
Today is another day of work at Sally's and I am becoming increasingly interested in seeking better employment elsewhere, preferably in the human services field but not necessarily. I want it to be one downtown that helps people in direct ways one way or another. The Salvation Army is such an old hierarchy that it is resistant to positive changes, though I have done what I could. There is a whole big world out there that I want to leave my good mark on.
@9:06 AM ~ Peach just came over for a cup of coffee and got her fill. It is so nice filling her cup up! She is a dream in this nightmare which life often is in these troubled times.
I felt that I should be focusing on employment in the health field, especially in relation to spiritual healing. Who will hire a spiritual healer? How do I come out of this dilemma? I see the need; I want to meet the need. I should focus on what I do have, as opposed to what I do not have right now.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008~
6:54 AM ~ Woke before 4:30 AM and I am in a rush now. Got some creative work done.
Thursday, September 18, 2008~
@5:19 AM ~ I naturally woke up @5:00AM. On Channel 17 there is a good program on related to Voices In Recovery that I believe is sponsored by SAMSHA.
Cosmic Calendar for Today~
If you have been looking forward to a decent time-period to be eminently practical and accomplish a lot that is concrete and solid, here's your chance to make progress. Today and tomorrow provide a window of opportunity to make the great leap ahead as both the Sun and Moon energize earth signs.
The Moon's entry into Taurus is enhanced by the lunar orb making a flowing trine to giant Jupiter in Capricorn (3:20PM PDT). By adding on a flowing lunar trine to Saturn in Virgo (5:08PM PDT), you can actually tap into a supportive grand triangle in earth signs. This is a signal that high-level and astute professional and business planning can lead to stunning success. You may still have to work hard and put in your dues, but the Moon doesn't always make harmonious links like this with the two largest planets, Jupiter and Saturn. Take advantage of every piece of good luck coming your way. Gardening and planting rituals gain favor with the Moon transiting through Taurus territory today and Friday.
Go over your insurance policies and coverage with a fine-tooth comb during the monthly Moon-Vesta union (6:42PM PDT). This time-period can double as a resourceful energy-field when it comes to revitalizing your investment strategies. Make sure you have more than one financial contact or adviser with whom you can huddle and discuss important options for padding your bank account.
Remaining productive and prolific in your key areas of expertise tonight will be crucial as Jupiter in Capricorn makes an awkward, 150-degree link to Ceres in Leo (8:09PM PDT). Take maternal figures and children in your family circle under your wing. Give stubborn attitudes and behavior patterns the boot.
Sometimes it seems that the main progress I make is just in my writings.
@8:52 PM ~ Work was work, though, I get my moments of joy, meaning and fulfillment. Still… the pay sucks and the management is asinine. They do not see the big picture and I do not think they ever will simply because they do not want to see it. So many will settle for just survival and keeping their toys without ever calling into question the whole central power dynamics going on. We already live in one world: a world governed by corporativism.
Peach had a former friend who became a witch to her who almost moved in the other day, but fortunately because of this witch's ways she will not be moving in. She seemed to have been around some dark entities because she came up in here. Her judgment in terms of who she considers friends is not always the best it can be and I do not want her to be a passive naïve woman. I want her to be a wise woman who can hold her on!
@10:15 PM ~ Peach came by earlier and I told her that my life dependent on our future marriage working and I know she loves me. As I do her.
Friday, September 19, 2008~
@6:34 AM ~ ‘We' got up early and Peach made me a good breakfast of eggs, bacon and toast with jam. Plus, hot fresh coffee. It was a good way to start the day and I am glad that she got up with me. She is a precious Peach.
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Politics, Power and Spirit ~ The Four Winds Newsletter - September 2008
@9:47 PM ~ Got my check today to help us make it through these tough troubled times. Peach and I went downtown to B of A, and then we walked around the Westfield Mall by Hard Rock, into Barnes & Noble bookstore and a few other places. I love simply walking with her!
Saturday, September 20, 2008~
@5:00 AM ~ Went to sleep around 10:30 PM. We were both a little tired and I am sure that our tobacco smoking is a factor in our energy level.
@5:32 AM ~ I suspect I will always have to project a certain image or way with Peach. She said that what first attracted her to me was my role as a Counselor. Like Sheila and others, my role in CASA is a factor in my community and personal image.
I know I will need to be and stay on top of my game with her in my life now. I know she is a very beautiful woman and ideal for me, sometimes that gives me separation anxiety. Despite the fact that there are other women who I could find desirable and be curious about, I know I need to have discipline to keep Peach mine! She is very compliant and agreeable to me. Shhh…
@8:31 PM ~ I had a heavy work day and felt the need to browbeat the clients so they would have a lot more serious attitude about their crisis situation being there in a homeless state.
After work I came Globe Mills, made unexpected love to my Peach, then, showered and we both went out to Safeway where we got some groceries, including a big canned ham. We had a great dinner and she is a great meal maker. Tomorrow we got see my Padre. He is going to be here around 1:30 PM.
@9:46 PM ~ My neighbor ‘Grady' next to Peach is a Muslim, though the level of his being a religious practitioner seems to be a bit shaky. However, he does have some serious physical disability that may hinder is general functionality. I got him a Print Out with a Muslim symbol for his front door about people entering his place taking off their shoes.
I do not want to be having regular visitors up here disturbing the solitude I am able to experience here in the Sanctuary and certainly not in my CommandCenter.
I think I will go to bed early and wake up early, as usual. Blessings!
It's normal to feel a sense of relief following a day when Mars skirmished with Saturn while the Sun formed an abrasive sky pattern with Pluto -- the lord of the underworld. Now you want to take that sense of relief and do something positive and progressive with it. There's no real reason -- astrologically -- why you cannot take a great leap forward.
The Moon in Libra makes flowing trine patterns to Chiron (12:14AM PDT), Mars (8:36AM PDT), Neptune (9:09AM PDT), Mercury (10:06AM PDT) and Venus (6:34PM PDT). These five, harmonious lunar alignments can equate with ingenious ideas percolating in your consciousness throughout the day.
In addition, a terrific and inspiring Mars-Neptune trine from Libra to Aquarius takes hold at 7:59PM PDT. Your personal magnetism and charisma may be on the upswing. All in all, this is a superb day to zero in on beloved arts, crafts and hobbies to your heart's content.
However, tensions can return tonight when the Moon makes its monthly opposition to Pluto (8:21PM PDT) followed by the Last Quarter Sun-Moon Phase (activating 30 degrees of Virgo and Gemini at 10:05PM PDT).
Any quarter moon cycle carries the potential for a mini-crisis in which you need to accentuate crystal clear communication and common sense. This solar-lunar clash also begins a short lunar void cycle that lasts until 10:50PM PDT and the arrival of nurturing and family-oriented Cancer Moon. Get set for a seasonal change tomorrow when the Sun begins its 30-day transit through airy Libra.
@8:01 PM ~ Peach and I had a lovely dinner and visit with my Dad and his Lady over her place. Her name is Chris, she was born in Germany but has been here in the U.S.A. after being in Canada for a long time. It was a good family time. It is now time for a little visiting with Peach and a good night's sleep. More to do tomorrow!
Monday, September 22, 2008~
9-22-08 ~ Cosmic Calendar
Take it for what it is worth, with a grain of sale and a granule of sugar!
Finish clean-up campaigns with relish in the early hours while the Sun is ending its 30-day march through meticulous Virgo. When the clock strikes 8:46AM PDT, the Sun begins a new 30-day cycle in airy, intuitive and idealistic Libra.
As a general rule, you want to improve the quality of primary partnerships during the next four weeks. Increase your time spent on the artistic, social and cultural fronts. Gardening, cooking, baking and domestic concerns are back in the limelight under Cancer Moon.
Romance looks more promising due to two Venus alignments -- the first one being a supportive, 60-degree connection to Pluto (3:24PM PDT) and the second being a vibrant parallel to Juno (6:09PM PDT). The Venus-Juno association can represent a bonanza when it comes to picking out fabulous new fashions and beautiful additions to your art or jewelry collections.
If you are beginning to sense a shift coming up in the psychic atmosphere, you are probably tuning into Mercury's slow-down and reversal on Wednesday September 24. This planet of communication, transportation and mental power will be going into a three-week retrograde cycle that lasts until October 15. Therefore, you may want accomplish everything on your essential to-do list today and tomorrow.
Productivity, safety and security are key themes late tonight when Ceres makes a square to Vesta (11:07PM PDT). Strive to remain prolific in your main fields of expertise. Protect your valuables and major assets from theft and deterioration.
@9:46 AM ~ So far I have been messing with this Kodak Software and trying to upload videos from my Camera.
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@6:55 AM ~ I suppose I am kind of obsessed with Peach. She is such a beautiful lady and I have never been with one such as she, but I need to keep my balance and remember who and what I am: the new liberated humane being in the new Millennium geared and prepared for bringing about total liberation for all!
@12:09 PM ~ Earlier this morning I went to Safeway by myself and got some food and stuff for us and then we had a great brunch. Lord, I love this lady, the lady of my life, my tender experience.
We had a fire here last night around 3 AM and five fire trucks were here. Rumor has it that it was someone on one of the lower floors ~ the 2nd of 3rd Floor ~ we had a cooking mishap in the middle of the night. Strange cooking time!
@1:16 PM ~ Time for a catnap… been up since 5 AM or so.
@6:07 PM ~ Peach and I are getting ready for the CASA Meeting. She should do well, so long as she keeps it simple. Life is already complex.
Monday, September 29, 2008 ~
@6:30AM ~ I woke up around 5 AM. Last night Peach gave her testimony at our CASA Meeting and she did a great job. She spoke about her experience, strength and hope: her past growing up and her ADD and bi-polar, plus a lot of her personal life experiences and other specifics; her present strength and now having two weeks clean from all medications; her hope for the future with the hammer of her own knowledge-based consciousness and her nails of lessons from her experiences that will help her to build a bridge to the future. Objectively, without being tainted by my own personal favoritism, she did a great job and was well received by others. After her testimony there were several questions that she answered by those in attendance and she exhibited a good knowledge of what she was talking about. She would be a good counselor for those who have ADD and other ailments.
I was really proud of her. She was able to shift and transfer her public speaking skills to her topic and did well.
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Monday, September 29: Daily Cosmic Calendar
New Moons are almost always welcome news because the old cycle of 29+ days is over and human beings have a golden opportunity to push forward again in a fresh manner for the next 4+ weeks.
This New Moon -- activating 7 degrees of Libra at 1:13AM PDT -- is particularly suited for increasing your social, artistic and cultural interactions across the board. Think more about helping a beloved partner instead of what you can get out of a special relationship. It's the giving and not the getting that's crucial right now.
Amplifying this message is a Sun-Neptune 135-degree connection (6:31AM PDT). This type of solar association with the ancient ruler of the seas can either increase confusion and chaos or open your heart and mind to new perspectives. Learn more about holistic healing techniques and alternative medical practices as the Moon in Libra makes a flowing trine to Chiron in Aquarius (7:33PM PDT).
Romance beckons tonight and looks fairly promising from the astrological angle since the Sun makes a subtle and yet still important 30-degree link to Venus (8:26PM PDT) while Mercury connects with emotionally empowering Juno via a supportive, 60-degree contact (8:42PM PDT).
Another Mercury-Juno tie -- a parallel formation at 10:40PM PDT -- can seal the deal and spur lovers on to a happy experience. Hugs and kisses are naturally encouraged under this barrage of cosmic comfort and nurturance. After all, before you know it stormy celestial vibes will re-enter the fray and send lovers scurrying for cover in the days ahead.
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@1:45 PM ~ Peach left a while ago with Sammy in a huff. HER ex had dropped by during a recess in jury duty while I was at her place, then after a few minutes I left them alone to visit and came over here. After he left she came over here, said Russ said I had nothing to worry about as far as being jealous and then left saying something about ‘an issue of trust'. I left it go at that… something simmering!
@2:09 PM ~ Just came back from the tiendita. I bought smokes and a Pepsi, plus a couple of bamboo items from a Black Brother who lives on the 4th Floor. One was a wine rack I just gave to Peace, she said she could use it for towels. The other was a little shelf rack I will keep in the bathroom. We talked about a bit about her ‘trust issue'. I think she over reacted… in fact, I know she did. Maybe he slipped her some more praxac. Who knows? Time will reveal.
Basically it is a matter of my trust for her for her ex to come over and visit without protest and complaint on my behalf. Free will! Apparently that relationship is not over and she continues with her friendship with him, one that I feel uncomfortable handling, especially if she is to be my wife-to-be. I figure that whole marriage idea is out the window… five stories down. I cannot, or better, do not want to deal with the drama. She is laying down in bed right now because I STRESSED HER!
I remain a liberated man of the New Millennium!
@5:48 PM ~More insanity from Peach: I told her I was not comfortable with her having any kind of ‘friendship' with her ex-boyfriend fuck and do not care if he can slip into being gay or not. She complained about my picking her friends and I told her that this is not an ordinary friendship. Our potential marriage is in jeopardy and even if she does not see him that damage is done. She kept stabbing our own relationship between us with this fuck. It is not mere jealousy. I am not going to let anyone make me look like a fool! She has been sleeping all day, now she has a headache and there is suppose to be a Planning Meeting of us all here at 8 PM about this Open House scheduled for Wednesday, October 1st here at Globe Mills.
I do not need another failed marriage!!!!! Besides I am still legally married to the last bitch-witch!!!!!
@7:35 PM ~ I went all the way to Safeway to get some Neapolitan ice cream and to get out of Globe for a spell. I am peeking in and out of The Active Side of Infinity by Carlos Castaneda. Did some research about Carlos Castaneda.
@10:54 PM ~ Sondra gave a group of us Globe Mills residents a tour and instructions about our role as greeters for the upcoming Open House for Globe Mills. I was able to associate with some of the other tenants.
Now Peach is on her side the universe. We had a good deep significant conversation. I basically told her that I will always love her, we still want to get married and I have to play this movie through to see its ending or not. In short, ‘the fact remains, I love her so…"
September 30, 2008: Daily Cosmic Calendar http://horoscopes.astrology.com/astronet/cosmiccaltom.html
September ends with some genuine reinforcement, but also a strong touch of uncertainty. The good news arrives early as the Moon in Libra makes its monthly union with Mercury (3:31AM PDT), forms a flowing trine to Neptune (5:44AM PDT) and also parallels Venus (1:30PM PDT). This can give the appearance that love vibrations are on the upswing and that your creative artistic output will lead to real success across the board. There can also be a surge on the communication front despite the fact that Mercury is still in reverse motion.
However, problems start to arise later in the day as the Moon makes its monthly union with feisty and impulsive Mars (5:21PM PDT) followed by a void lunar cycle from 6:49PM PDT to 9:27PM PDT and the arrival of intense, penetrating and formidable Scorpio Moon. The greater challenge is that Mercury makes an awkward, 150-degree link to its higher octave planet -- revolutionary and lightning-generating Uranus -- at 10:26PM PDT while Venus nears a potentially deception-inducing parallel to Neptune (exact at 12:06AM PDT tomorrow).
The juxtaposition of Mercury and Uranus off-kilter to each other along with a shadowy Venus-Neptune attunement can equate with an increase in mental stress and emotional disarray. You may still be able to transform these alignments into helpers instead of hinderers, but everything will depend on developing a positive and confident mind-set. Gear up for a rip-roaring beginning to October when many celestial alignments vie for supremacy.
Copyright, 2008 Mark Lerner & Great Bear Enterprises, Ltd.
Email: markgobear@aol.com
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October Forecast
Dear Peta,
As we move into the third quarter of the year, and herald in autumn in the northern hemisphere and spring in the southern, we have the opportunity to take advantage of strong cosmic energy to get things done.
October 14 brings a full Moon in Aries -- a time of heightened emotions. Count on feeling strongly about all that you want to do. Aries is courageous and pioneering, and you'll be able to move mountains if you use this bold energy in tandem with the passion of the full Moon to advance yourself and advocate for others. As usual, the full Moon is followed by a new Moon, on October 28, and the new Moon -- always a powerful time to start something new -- has more intensity than usual thanks to its Scorpio placement. Invest in something that you want to become important in your life, and you may see your plans come to fruition.
Mercury finally turns direct on October 15, signaling an end to disruptive communications and misunderstandings. Hopefully, you've used this introspective time well and can move forward with improved relationships and a better understanding of where you stand with others.
On October 18, lovely Venus enters freedom-oriented Sagittarius, as it does around this time each year. For those already in a committed relationship, this is a great time to get out together and go somewhere you've never been. Single? You have a great chance of meeting someone!
You can give it all you've got on October 22, when the Sun heads into passionate and emotionally driven Scorpio. This resourceful and determined sign gives you the power and stamina to improve any area of your life. Use the amazing strength of this transit to follow you passion -- whether it's to begin a new career, or find a spouse!
The month ends like it started -- with strong Martian energy! Mars sextiles Saturn on October 30 and trines Uranus on October 31, promising that you'll receive amazing support from likely -- and unlikely -- sources!
Sincerely,
Astrology.com Team
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Statewide immigration raids result in 1,157 arrests
Federal agents target those who ignored deportation orders or returned to the U.S. illegally. More than 400 are arrested in the Los Angeles area.
By Francisco Vara-Orta, Los Angeles Times Staff Writer
Email: francisco.varaorta@latimes.com
@9:05 AM ~ Our marriage is still on between Peach and I. She is such a sweet succulent lady and she knows what I expect in a marriage and in a marriage engagement. We fit well together! She already acts like a wife to me in terms of cooking, ironing and other chores I need done; without sexism and degenerating into old traditional male-female roles of the now imploded nuclear family.
@9:55 AM ~ I mentioned Karen and her youthfulness despite her age when I knew her, but Peach is the best I have been with so far in terms of being well preserved. I need to terminate my old marriage to the Witch Sheila. Peach is my sweetheart forever!
@10:08 PM ~ Today was Larry Dayton's last day at Sally's in his old position. He has been around Sally's since 1998 and it was time for him to move on. I hope to be getting a better job soon and will try to make my job better for me until then! Time to hit the hay next door in Peachville.
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Greeting to any body that is reading my comment, All Thanks goes to dr.trust, i was married to my husband, and we were living fine and happy. it come to an extend that my husband that use to love and care for me, those not have my time again, until i fined at that he was having an affair with another woman, i try to stop him,all my effort was in-vain sadly he divorce me and went for the woman. he live me with two of our kids, i cry all day, i was in pains, sorrow and looking for help. i was reading a news paper, i saw how dr. trust help people with his love and reuniting spell. so i decided to contact him and explain my problem to him, he did a love spell that make my husband to come back to me and our kids and never think of the woman. this man is god sent to restore heart break and reunite relationship. may the lord be your strength and continue to use you to save people relationship and any problem they encounter contact him for help ULTIMATESPELLCAST@GMAIL.COM. i promise you that you, he will but a smile on your face and make you feel happy. good luck.
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