Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Online Journal: May 1-15, 2012


Tuesday, May 1, 2012
@ 8:39 PM ~ Today went well, though local #MayDay gathering was small. Sacramento has historically been a hard place to mobilize. There is a strong sense of state government here and many are non-involved in political events. It is one of the most racially integrated cities in the country with a great strategic location bu a sleepy river city mentality.
VIA http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sacramento_County,_California
Sacramento County is a county in the U.S. state of California. Its county seat is Sacramento, which is also the state capital. As of 2010 the county had a population of 1,418,788. The Greater Sacramento metropolitan area consists of eight counties with Sacramento County being the largest. The County covers about 994 square miles (2,570 km2) in the middle of the California Central Valley, on into Gold Country. Sacramento County extends from the low delta lands between the Sacramento River and San Joaquin River north to about ten miles (16 km) beyond the State Capitol and east into the foothills of the Sierra Nevada Mountains. The southmost portion of Sacramento County has direct access to San Francisco Bay.
VIA http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sacramento,_California
Sacramento is the capital city of the U.S. state of California and the county seat of Sacramento County. It is located at the confluence of the Sacramento River and the American River in the northern portion of California's expansive Central Valley. With a population of 466,488 at the 2010 census, it is the sixth-largest city in California. Sacramento is the core cultural and economic center of the Sacramento metropolitan area which includes seven counties; with an estimated population of 2,527,123.[2] Its metropolitan area is the fourth largest in California after the Greater Los Angeles Area, San Francisco Bay Area, and the San Diego metropolitan area as well as the 22nd largest in the United States. A city attaining global status, Sacramento was cited by Time magazine as America's most ethnically and racially integrated city in 2002.[3][4]
Tomorrow I need to go get my Monthly RT Sticker, negotiate getting a good lump sum from CEPS (they hold my money hostage) and make a few medical appointments.

Wednesday, May 2, 2011

@ 5:04 PM ~ I got my RT Sticker for May. Plus, I got a new stereo headset  so I can use Skype and stuff. Met a Sister Fredda who I know before from Sally's. She is now in Mercy Housing.
I wonder how many folks are walking around 'hearing voices' they do not admit to hearing. I myself do not hear distinct voices, but I do get nudged sometimes from somewhere out there, though it could be from the deep realm of the subconscious.

Thursday, May 3, 2012
@ 8:30 AM ~ It is another day upon Planet Earth. How we live our lives is the result of our choices, our decisions and we must own up to that. Of course, many times our lives can also be thrown into chaos by factors beyond our immediate control, but in the long course of a lifetime it is often our own choices that determine the quality of our lives. We need to stop making any little excuses about stuff and blaming everything on events outside of us and not taking responsibility for our own lives. Even when we are in tough times our own attitude towards them can be a determining factor in how they are perceived and how we handle them. We need to try to keep a positive, pro-active attitude towards life upon Planet Earth. We are all in this together.

@ 11:02 PM ~ Not much to report today. Made a few calls, want to be my own payee and cannot do what I need to for myself without direct control over my own income. I will be good for now, compliant and not rock the boat. However, after my work at Salvation Army I know how some folks for non-profits or those who deal with poor folks are often overwhelmed and short of qualified staff.

Oh well, tomorrow is a brand new day. I just saw an interesting movie on Netflix about The Secrets of Mary Magdalene. I know the New Testament was heavily influenced by the politics of the time, especially being under a male-dominated church hierarchy.

Friday, May 4, 2012
@ 2:51 PM ~ All life being relative, once we have achieved a degree of inner peace and we know who we ave and our position in the world. we must move beyond our being and get into consciously doing what matters in the world. We cannot sit Buddha-like and neglect our personal responsibility to helping others in what ways we can. Our working on our Inner Liberation is a lifelong process, especially because we have been raised in a sick inhumane world that has contaminated all of us to varying degrees. That contamination can take the form of our having marked character defects and various personal shortcomings; areas we need to improve upon in order to round out our personality and become more whole complete humane beings.

@ 10:21 PM ~ Checked out the 1st Friday Night Concert at Cesar Chavez Memorial Park of the season. We will see what we will see. Life gets to jammin' just a half block away at the new K Bar ~ a disco-nightclub. My staying sober these days has me shying away from it. I hope to get Eight Years Sobriety on June 24, 2012. After the point I will assess whether I want to stay eternally sober. I am not worried about use. I am concerned about refraining from any abuse that can easily lead to addiction.

From Daily Om ~ http://www.dailyom.com/articles/2012/33383.html May 4, 2012 ~ Noticing Synchronicity
Things happen in our lives for a reason, even if that reason is not clear to you right away.

When events appear to fit together perfectly in our lives it may seem at first that they are random occurrences, things that are the result of coincidence. These synchronous happenings, though, are much more than that, for, if we look at them more closely they can show us that the universe is listening to us and gently communicating with us. Learning to pay attention to and link the things that occur on a daily basis can be a way for us to become more attuned to the fact that most everything happens in our lives for a reason – even when that reason is not clear right away.

When we realize that things often go more smoothly than we can ever imagine, it allows us to take the time to reflect on the patterns in our lives. Even events that might not at first seem to be related to each other are indicators that the universe is working with, not against, us. This idea of synchronicity, then, means that we have to trust there is more to our lives than what we experience on a physical level. We need to be willing to look more closely at the bigger picture, accepting and having confidence in the fact that there is more to our experiences than immediately meets the eye. Being open to synchronicity also means that we have to understand that our lives are filled with both positive and negative events. Once we can recognize that one event is neither more desirable nor better than the other – they all have an overall purpose in our lives -- then we are truly ready to listen to the messages the universe gives us.

While we may not be able to see everything in our lives as being synchronous, we can certainly use hindsight to be more aware of how the universe guides us. This sense of wonder at the mysteries of the universe and the interconnectedness present in our lives will help us see our overall ways of being and will in turn make it easier for us to work more consciously towards our spiritual evolution.

Sabbath ~ Cinco de Mayo ~ 2012
@7:32 AM ~ Slept well. No big plans for today. It is the Sabbath, a day of rest. It is Cinco de Mayo and there will be a big Full Moon this evening. Tomorrow is our CASA 12-Steps Meeting. Quiet here this morning so far, Usually I can hear someone farting around in the Kitchen Area. In a wy I feel like I am in an underground bunker being here. Am still deciding about whether I should try to go to the Berry Hotel or not. The positive side of being in this spot is that I am really secluded and there are only a few folks in this section of the building. Time for my morning vitamins and my diabetic pill. Need to go to bed early tonight in order to wake up and get up at 5:30 AM tomorrow morning.

Cinco de Mayo has it roots in the Civil War, according to the author of a new book on the topic.

Monday, May 7, 2012

@ 8:40 AM ~ We had a small CASA 12-Steps Meeting last night at Sally's. It went well, we had goodies. The Spirit of Recovery at the shelter is really poor if non-existent. It has become a passive warehouse for homeless folks and lacks the stimulus it use to have. I know a lot of it involves the complacency of staff, just trying to keep the ball rolling, keep their jobs and maintain the status quo. It is what it is. Slept pretty well last night. Need to go to the Bank, get some money out, pay to activate my phone and then I might go out to the market.  Plus, need to go some serious typing.

Pure Thoughts ~
by Madisyn Taylor ~

@ 9:28 PM ~ I finally got through to Guest House and will not see the Doc or Asst. until next month. Thus, I better get another way of getting my medication of Seroquel ~ it does help me to sleep and I suppose I have gotten to rely on it. I get fed up with Guest House anyways because they are often hard to get through to talk to anyone. Yes, they have been a great help, BUTTT if I get kind of dependent on meds. prescribed through them then cannot get my prescription renewed without a hassle then something is wrong. Oh, hell ~ let me quit bitching about it.

Indeed, typing stuff out is a kind of therapy for me. I got my phone turned back on. Hopefully Chino will get me a deal soon about a bigger quicker Android.

At times like these I need to always appreciate my blessings. The Bug Man came by this morning, but I was not ready for him so I will catch him the next time. Teresa said I would be Written Up but I have not received nothing about it yet. I told Carmen, Kenya's Assistant. So that is that. I do like the solitude here and the quick walk to be right outside downtown. Yep, I just take it one day at a time.
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Tuesday, May 8, 2012
@ 8:10 PM ~ VIA My Facebook ~@ 8:00 PM ~ Just went into K Street Mini-Market, saw a couple of native brothers. One said I was like a Facebook guru, he has seen some of my stuff online. I mentioned the Amazon, but it did not really connect. Maybe I should of elaborated.

Robert F. Kennedy Jr. Confirmed Chevron's Ecuador Pollution in Powerful Essay ~ bit.ly/IY05IL ~ Please RT

It must seem like I do a lot of work here, but it is really an illusion. My Tweets on Twitter are generally cross-posted here on Facebook and ReTweets are easy enough to do. On Twitter I keep those I Follow down to 99 in respect of the 99% of us who make up the masses of the People and mainly Follow Global News sources.

I now have an alternate Twitter Account @Humane_Being where I connect more with other and usually Follow them back. To me, a lot of folks Tweet cute little trivial frivolous Tweets that I can live without. I try to avoid Information Overload, especially of useless information.

What I have learned in all this social-global media stuff is the importance and freedom we can get when we just open up and share our thoughts ~right or wrong to others ~and overcome our petty fears.

If you have fears about privacy to the point of being paranoid about being on Facebook or other social networking websites, then consider turning off your computer or getting offline and going outside to play.

What will you teld your grandchildren that you were doing while the old world was ending? This one has so much dead weight and debt on it that it is bound to fall sooner or later, probably sooner than later. There are gathering forces that you may not be fully aware of that can tilt the whole chessboard.

Being on SSI I have the time and circumstance to be online, sit on my ass and type my thoughts out as a form of therapy for me. It beats my going ou and getting drunk out of my mind or getting involved with another female fatal attraction right now.

So I just sit here like a madman quietly typing away, typing to myself and typing to whatever souls happens to read these typed lines between here and death.

I am ready for whatever comes. The future holds no horrors for me. I just try to stay true to what I type. My occupation is a typer, not a writer. I type on a keyboard.

Namaste! Peter S. Lopez AKA @Peta_de_Aztlan c/s

Wednesday, May 9, 2012 >@ 11:13 AM ~ I spent awhile just posting the above astro stuff. Time for me goes by pretty quickly. I know I need better time management. Do not even feel like going through all the effort of taking a shower right now. Guess I will go get a cup of cafe.

@ 7:53 PM ~ I spent a lot of time today updating my articles and stuff on HELP Matrix @Peta_de_Aztlan

Today has gone by in a zip. Guess I will not meet the Lady of my Dreams before midnight when I turn into a pumpkin.

Friday, May 11, 2012
@ 7:09 AM ~ Another day ahead of me. I have an Eye Appt. at 9:30 AM. Need to not get strung out here on the Net and take care of myself better. I need myself to do what I have to do in order to help myself, help others and help bring about Global Revolution by any means necessary in my lifetime.

Let us pray we have the love energy to help make it a better world today because we are in it.

Let us pray  that at the end of the day we can sleep well come night, knowing we helped to make it a better world.

Let us pray knowing that our struggle is also a spiritual struggle between the forces of the light and the forces of darkness.

Let us pray we live our day so that we can rest our head in peace at night knowing we did the best we could do and tomorrow we'll do better.

Don't get caught up in political bi-polarity ~ get out of the Left Vs. Right conflict ~ truth in life dwells in the Center.

Strive for dynamic balance in your life ~ help yourself, help others as you can and help make is a better world because you are in it.

Learn to simplify the complex, not complicate the simple. I assure you, life goes on within you and surely goes on without you.

You do not always have to be right. We are imperfect beings, which is good because that gives us room to grow and improve.

Do not waste time debating with dunces who already have their mind made up. Sometimes others need to need to be right more than you. Namaste! Peter S. Lopez AKA @Peta_de_Aztlan c/s
Sabbath, May 12, 2012
@ 9:20 AM ~ Praise the Lord of Love for another day on Mother Earth. My Eye Appt. went well. I have cataracts in right eye, need to have my Primary Care Doctor refer me to an eye specialist.

Brother Bobby AKA Tata came by yesterday sober in a strong spirit. It was good to see him. I need to work with him more on a personal level and be a better brother to him. I am often self-absorbed in other stuff. This is another area of life that needs more balancing.

Procrastination is a shortcoming of mine. I need to take care of matters while I am there in the time-situation as I can. I need to balance my personal spiritual growth with helping others in their own spiritual growth.

We are here to grow, to learn and to help others be the best they can be. Time is a wonderful quality of life. We need to focus on what matters to all of us and for our own personal spiritual growth. Even the term 'spiritual' is vague and can mean greatly different things to different people. I have a disdain for so-called 'spiritual leaders' who neglect to speak out forcefully against the evils of evildoers. Mistrust so-called 'spiritual leaders' who project themselves as if they have cornered the market on great spiritual growth. I am the Leader of my own life and am only a real expert on myself. Follow no one, let Love lead you forward in life.

On the other hand, we do need guidance and supervision by people who function as leaders for social movements, not parent-figures. There is the danger of developing egotistical drives in certain kinds of people that is not healthy.

I do not live in a hyped-up stressed-out life. I am a Humane Being, not a human doing. Being aware of beingness is a simple great blessing.

When I go outside my bunker into the world I stay aware of the need to combat insanity at every turn. Insanity is widespread. I just believe in my beingness, going with the natural flow of life and sharing what little I can.

I support the Ideal of Global Liberation, yet know I need to strive for my own Inner Liberation. It is good to live life in balance. The key is to wage a Liberation War without forgetting to liberate ourselves from our own past. Be born again upon each day's awakening.

Do not burn yourself out trying to set the world on fire. Light a little candle against the darkness of the night. If you can, say your prayers, eat your supper, wash your hands and don't forget to flush. Keep it simple, life is already complicated.

I have complete faith in the ultimate victory of this Great Global Revolution because I have faith in the people and myself. After Global Revolution, will be a harder greater one for new humane loving relationships among us all. We've only just begun. Don't Follow anyone who believes in leaderless revolutions, yet wants you to Follow them. It's a contradiction.

All realities are interconnected in connected reality, either in the external world or on a quantum physics level. We are all connected by virtue of us all being alive here now. We are one family of humanity. It's not just corny, it's true. I want to live in a country I can be proud of, a country that respects the sanctity of humane life.

Take time today to just sit still and feel your beingness, feel your feelings, notice how thoughts reverberate in feelings. All the rushing of my past, going to-and-fro, stressing out, being busy.... and I have only come to this magical moment.

Beyond other labels, I remain a humane being centered on love in a world full of hate. It's hard, but gets easier as a I practice it. Those novices who avow a religious order should consider the religion of love and be its first convert. Love is pure.

All these wars that have been fought in the name of religion yet we are farther from any kind of God than ever. Why do so many believe in the Devil yet have reservations about believing in any kind of God or Creator?

My Mission today is to go get a good poster for my bare bunker walls. Life is war and I fight for my sanity in the midst of madness.

I live in the inner city, right outside is a war zone. I am always armed outside. Life can extinguish like a puff on a candle.
Namaste! Peter S. Lopez AKA @Peta_de_Aztlan c/s

Sunday, May 13, 2012

@ 7:50 AM ~ Got up around 6:30 AM, went to go get cafe at K Street Mini-Mart and am now in my bunker. I want to get more done today than I have been. Use my time more wisely. Get results from my undertakings. Try not to waste time on unfruitful endeavors. A lot of it depends on my staying focused on what I need to be, what I need to do and commanding my own attention without getting scattered. I realize I have certain Ds or Disorders or at least tendencies towards certain Ds, especially ADD and OCD. I keep mindful that I am a 'being', not a 'doing'.

 Monday, May 14, 2012
@ 8:22 AM ~ Praise the Lord of Love! Global News @Peta_de_Aztlan ~ Will Follow Radicals @Humane_Being http://help-matrix.ning.com/

I need to make a few calls today. I am trying to keep my life as hassle-free as possible. I have had enough drama trauma in life and try to avoid it now. Certain stuff in life I try to avoid, other stuff in life I need to attract, esp. those who are really into healing.

I need to keep mindful that this is a public blogpost and use common sense. I may be better off here sticking to esoteric philosophical stuff. A lot of it is my just wanting to understand myself better. Beyond artificial labels, I remain a humane being centered on love in a world full of hate. I need to live with myself.

We had a small CASA Meeting last night. I got new updated CASA 12-Steps printout and made copies. Need to make more progress in this area.

I spent a lot of time on Twitter this morning, more than I had intended. Nonetheless, I know I am reaching out to more and more people. Sharing thoughts without fear of self-exposure. People not sharing with others is a big part of the whole general problem on Earth. Greedy folks do not share with needy folks. Eventually we will take their toys and things away from them that rightfully belong to the masses. There is no relevant revolution without a transformation of property relations between the 'haves' and the 'have nots'.

@ 11:35 PM ~ Today went by pretty uneventful, at least what I would put on this blog. I did buy some ginger as a vitamin supplement at Rite-Aid that claims to help with stamina.

Tomorrow will be a brand new day and a fresh start. I have $200+ on my Visa that I will take out of the bank tomorrow. Plus, I need to see my Primary Care Physician but he is on vacation so I will see his temporary replacement later this month. All this to get a mere referral to an Eye Specialist to see about getting a little operation on my right-eye cataracts.

I had a good talk with a female resident here. I dig the section of this place at Shasta Hotel because we are pretty isolated here. There is a little ol' lady friend next door, then up the hall around the corner is an elder Black gentlemen and another elder White lady who uses a walker to get about. It is four of us in this section.

Thus there are only a few of us here, actually four of us. On the other floors there are more people to each floor. Plus, I like the idea of being a short walk to get right outside. So, despite a few drawbacks, like not always having ready access to the restroom up the hall and not having much of a great view, I have gotten pretty comfortable here.

I am really indulging myself these days. Usually in the evenings I watch a good flix on Netflix. I usually am on Twitter in the mornings. Life is a growth process. I am actually learning how to relax without always pressuring myself in one way or another. That probably reads funny to some folks. Some of us actually have a hard time just relaxing and not having to do anything in particular.

Before I had a lot of work responsibilities, during a time which I look at as a past life. My life-style has changed a lot. I know have the peaceful, quiet and solitude I have been craving for a long time. I guess I am settling in here and am definitely settling down in my life, as much as I can for now. I do not have the compulsion to always feel I need this or that item. I have learned to do with what I have on any given day, appreciate the simple blessings that come by way and keep my faith in the Creative Powers of the Prime Creator of the Cosmos. Nada mas ahora.

Namaste! Peter S. Lopez AKA @Peta_de_Aztlan c/s


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

@ 7.37 AM ~ Woke up naked, slept in the natural mode, took a shower, got dressed and now I am online. Need to go get some coffee, see and feel outside today.

@ 7:41 PM ~ Hearing Alex Jones Video. Some of his stuff seems to be really outlandish. Still it is good to hear what is going on and good to keep an open mind.

Went to Grocery Outlet and got some stuff. Took bus back onto L Street. Met my friend Gringo Friend John and we talked about life among the living. He will be going back up to Seattle again.

I will call tomorrow about seeing my Brother Steven via contacting Alta Regional. This will be my last post entry for this half of May. Tomorrow will take us into the 2nd half of the month.

This Spring weather is making me feel like I really want to find a good woman in my life. I need to spend more time offline. I am pretty strung out now and I am not typing on my book on Progressive Recovery Now!

@ 11:00 PM ~ For different reasons I feel pretty content right now. Sometimes I can these waves of depression. It is true that knowing all the wrong that is going on in the world and having a strong feeling of powerlessness about being able to have any substantial impact on it all can make one feel down.

I will keep on being who I am and doing what little I do. In my 60 years I know I have influenced a lot of people in different ways. Still, so many are still apathetic. The apathy may be out of fear. Once we are awakened there is a corresponding obligation to help make life better in the world. Some folks just prefer to stay in their little comfort zones, pretend this is the best of all possible worlds. Some grown folks are like children who hide under the blankets of fearful confusion, pretending to be invisible. Even the local police around here ~ who cruise around here, bike around or even are on horseback are fearful.

We need to do more than march, gather and protest for a day,  only to be apathetic Amerikans again afterwards. The ideal is to live life as liberated as we can, daring to resist all repression, daring to struggle onward!

Namaste! Peter S. Lopez AKA @Peta_de_Aztlan c/s


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